等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTPDICt4pA
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深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZzj0u2gEQ
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW9EmHx0wx
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYxcU6ekee
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCoz4vRF35v
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBtp9QDqPH
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvKDQ4MuXM
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMaKko96lM
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFBakUqWDd0
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4OTaSEVJU
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOqQYhuZxq
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK61z2X4Uyi
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyKKHW8PDb
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZU7cifsXK
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRk6GKpRzf0
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtI4XyPgMYf
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEEmgxMobq
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkH87CLJX2
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpY0jHaglw
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbgyeS019x
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglt9Swjwcb
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8wFjNeAHe
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjl7YrWxaq
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnMocimzJA
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIh0LxJTOY
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「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRmbeB7h01
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9xxquBWzt
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0OlU9ckEr
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUsWspNHJd
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHn1FFMcPz
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRtxVhlohS
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VeFvFtyuO
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9txBWCmHdk
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HEgAmwbdR
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ak09Wrvok
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKIjZ7EDCc
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnHB63PtBZ
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb17P4WQzFl
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWub3PaR7JJ
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnGyNgWtRy
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpCdXEpHMsb
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iHhsK12bE
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfaBEb4z5m
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9LV45A6Jy
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZBSI3xeS8
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrChD36g2u
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoZT49ddMp
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ehTJs7clb
「這是新編的。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsDIYweTtt
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6XKUSKqhj
他看了看手繩，又看看我。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMAoIUmF9Q
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4Pixk5bXQ
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH5tbDfMnk
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPZEWGcCUn
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoikFgZviYT
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBjTVhYih4
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiIHJV0utO
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3wBhUdnR4V
「妳看。」他得意。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWlWMTAYqu6
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrh4XWVullU
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4D4FN5var
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgSflYAZYR
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFyqTVqrf6
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xPIi8BKfe
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjgQBUgdID
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbCQBmwBsqq
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FM00eaJyU
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFlA7bGJTOW
「現在拍。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKKtvQiNvU
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEHeOjcK6v
「啊？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUykqSoL3y
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kI93xJXB2
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtHsg1ppSg
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlC6k8IvkOC
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkT82Afu1Ma
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6o0sdPIQop
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJuxP07MHC
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2s16QCssdk
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Xgg18I7WC
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡisGNq6UXkT
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTKGnOecEpS
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MCGKRoGaw
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGmz5yoXuj
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmE35jgc564
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziZAW3QjOZ
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGgoxV0YdK
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgDZ3PZjs9
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdijwO39Lcd
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBgTIzMp8J
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4tpFgY7KR
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0otwWsk8J
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCQFingme4
「…有寫一些小故事。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0IIATk6us
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwFGIiaqKa
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCybIutQ3K
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3Ez1akoZ6
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4VXeqVoWP
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYEbvAWWES
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrmrJfQ472
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6hSZzlgBY
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3LVUtL35X
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrDcyL66iP
「妹。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyADI617HJe
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAfaGiqK6Nj
「嗯？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX15Pkh80aM
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZ9kgM7MkR
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQeIuX2w3o
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO6qUyREIC
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYEjONGsB5
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrXJiqRa8kn
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaqN7NTVwH
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb1tZeYShV
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDVyHZiGxw
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTg7SLsLCe
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA9sjUk0vJ
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGA4hRlkOaD
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbyOiq2AYM
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHBOgBN0BP
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXLGoKUjH4
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSjlmwtIaM
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqFZqtW4pR
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYZAefniRx
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSn1MmFE4Vj
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNlQKQSAlyo
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZRqkzIHc2
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlzrFUxMGH
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNE9S0D4uCb
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfaVy1V1lct
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKib0HjSBj
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXebV7jk2J4
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqwrdPiwL2
但我是欣慰的。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsw7pqnpGG
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499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7nSdTuk2Y
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那一天來的又快又急。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNknFEN5eF
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7PLsLXAyC
「妹…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHjNzxYGVK
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOdmtjHPhP
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi481d6xulT
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfbKqGi76dp
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVd4vAfgmec
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoR8YS4JWs
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVAjmDg5vk
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzMp99V2OlN
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN7eaPLKx02
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSkWZQ40Nm
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHt4BiWCXj
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v58DxwKMD
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZrE8YG1Js
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGkTv1XsNw
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡir8LRpI3VB
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zzA6MJov7
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb57AtRHjt
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaI7r3U5De
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vVKWEkAqf
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHO7bLBpfx
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIA79CQbhj
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUn6Hn4T47x
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo39gKEyrs2
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZkHd38keU
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsY1HxD401P
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLwJPjGRcg
「我真的，還不想死。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRmRPMCQ6O
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXv2AmhOFoR
我握著他的手出了點力。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuj0pUZ9ag3
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIOkUvve6Z
「我很害怕。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqkhgYv62Z
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2grFwRzQ72
「我很怕死…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLmw8SZDIn
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZDYpqpej6X
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7umV9jKzc
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkgIJdPtgUN
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCM0ZU9qXQ
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs0KAp475Jm
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Z6nFB81Jg
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJUim2ix92
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Zy0CCZXYj
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRE5KOjwan
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgQ4hjD2EL
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcLmn1eLQ8
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJGF00P4RL
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLT2jX9B3QO
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1oK64UsoO
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64VxtPTCIR
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6FXrV6R2K
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgd5VeHI4pi
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpMqy0yd0t
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyStuh1RSK9
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpitaysLCp
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkDhjtyJbq
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOnPCq6SpKn
「妹。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBuI0fue94
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaMxaoQaBC
「嗯？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhe99boACv
499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5PFl5meAS
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66BjJVoHH9
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我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWYW1R9FrO
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「回去再看。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczH6qisnWS
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「好。」我收起信。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGloATvbz2C
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「妳回去吧。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZARRbfxjoQ
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「什麼？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayOa1dr9cr
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSAR1Lg57n
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「為什麼？」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE2cwutfBe
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ226W8eG41h
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「……」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaD1wXYPuSV
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「回去吧。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFxrSbRwDQ
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他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0WpbTo2op
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不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2abvUyrZQL
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我又抱了抱他才離開。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WI9o0z1Nj
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72ELynNUdZ
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「英傑已經走了。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGNoMCdkvH
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡACVCoU2iHu
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRc5hvop5h
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「Dear 妹：」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jqFb3i5w8
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「妳永遠是我的天使，499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdJohvxqpQ
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請不要忘記我。」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvEDMupjna
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「哥 英傑」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyBY2VxdRk
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMC4Lk4dow
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9KPQYqFxo
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每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUXuOCfWsd
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前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMqT2zuSzc
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPv4T83x5a6
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDgzMf2Bfd
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7FWadeMaL
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3GC5AsB07D
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但我什麼也沒做。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMJy4dxJTC
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2C2tu8LWw
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所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEudc7BGz00
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我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKVmKljFhV
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一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6R4jmfHfZ
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說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHVCgk2bMk
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去年，我沒有寫信。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KImbZj3Ur
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我選擇在當天完成他的故事。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOTz0YPZXb
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSWZPbsvxO
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FQslnTmeM
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這是，我哥哥的故事。499Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnvsgNtXmf
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