事情要回到幾個月前。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTLv1HwFJH
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「豺姐，我想跟妳道歉。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bJokhFPI8
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聊著聊著，他突然傳來這樣的訊息。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡheq3Hp676L
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「幹嘛道歉？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkClFy4g2IH
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「前一陣子，是不是有人密妳的skype，問妳想不想穿高跟鞋踩他？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqqm9PNmjf
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我想了一下，好像有這麼回事。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflIjng2n7Y
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「那個人就是我，但我應該馬上就被妳封鎖了吧？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFvt9QBaFG
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「呃，因為skype是個常常會被陌生人亂加的程式，所以看到奇怪的訊息，我都是直接封鎖啊。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwrJ5ycVWb
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「拜託妳現在不要封鎖我。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUB4k0oSQO
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「不會啊，都是朋友了還鎖什麼，不過你是在惡作劇嗎？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRsyTnG4zj
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「不是。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FmpziOxi8
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然後，他開始和我說起，他的秘密。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDYNJG0T1C
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBN8EKNE728
作為一個M，又稱「臣服者」（也有人說是「受虐者」，但我不喜歡這個稱呼），加上「戀物」及「戀足」，他從很久以前，就知道自己的喜好及性傾向，但沒有讓人知道，包括以前交的女朋友。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrR3OFANUr
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看到高跟鞋會興奮，產生被虐的幻想；女孩子只要稍微兇他，他也會心癢，更別說是聽到一些汙辱謾罵的詞彙了，那只會讓他更高興。
在他意識到自己的性傾向時，還是個小孩。他下意識的覺得自己不正常，隨之而來的厭惡自己及沮喪情緒很快吞沒了他。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTlfbZ3sFq
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所以他掩飾、逃避，逼自己過「正常人」的生活及性生活。
直到過了幾年，進入資訊爆炸的時代，Google大神開始顯神威，在網路上發現同好的時候，他才漸漸接受自己。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyklspnedcn
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「只是接受了自己，不代表別人肯接受這樣的我。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oKUZDjPQ0
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所以他還是持續隱瞞這件事，也許是過於刻意隱瞞，在戀愛的過程中，他反而像個大男人，所交到的女朋友，也都是小女人類型的，這讓他更不可能坦白自己了。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJSImEQGP5
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那天晚上，我幾乎聽完了他到目前為止的人生。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfsVaN6OW9
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「壓抑」，若要下個結論，就只有這兩個字。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpib1tNeqWV
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「為什麼告訴我？」
不過是朋友的朋友，一群朋友一起出去過幾次，我真的不認為我們有那麼熟。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZUqP8f8wp
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「我信任妳。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTfzHtHyMw
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「噗，你也太容易相信別人了吧，萬一我是大嘴巴咧。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsOqaKNcUhO
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「妳應該不是。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUyID5wF4G
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「這麼有信心？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvl4dk99eT
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「有一次去唱歌，那個誰不是在說某個人的八卦嗎，說她和哪個歌手有一腿，還墮胎怎麼的。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjZy73j2Il
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「嗯？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF01lzhSRDN
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「妳本來在跟大家聊天，聊到這個就自己喝起酒來，也不搭話。我記得那個當事者跟妳有過節。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QV6l3MElV
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02mGvUwJvr
「是有一些無聊的過節，你怎麼會知道？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEqJfkCyon
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「因為別人是大嘴巴。可是妳當時什麼都沒說，也不參與話題，所以我信妳。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItiMBIlUcC
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竟然被偷偷觀察了啊。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCjMFlOZgd
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「說不定我只是口渴了想喝酒啊。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwfRrvFsSi
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「妳是大嘴巴嗎？」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYp7eybSvH7
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bO0moRVo8
「我不是，但你的故事可能會成為我的創作題材。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKerPivesLT
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「哈哈哈。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrumzHRc7K
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「哈哈。」389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlLoO2061M
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他捧著高跟鞋，或許是我的錯覺，他的手彷彿在微微的顫抖。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcREXnhOZh0
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTS5UT5fSf9
我看著他小心翼翼的，將自己的臉側過，慢慢的貼在鞋頭的鞋面上，一秒，兩秒，三秒，然後離開它，看了看鞋，抬頭，盯著我。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhcen4XPVi
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1DYa9GOQL
他放下高跟鞋，頭低著，對我伸出手。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PsDxKbiGn
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwF7OoAX1Zg
我有點緊張，所以動作也很遲鈍。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6pzJ9P1uS
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4x5RTB0CsS
把右腳放進他手裡的時候，我意識到自己的雙手緊捏著床沿。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuV4S0zTXLC
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他微微抬頭，眼神落在我的腳背上。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6n4rPHcPOY
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXaPpeULrg
就像電影裡演的紳士，在女士的手背親吻那樣，他也這麼做了，只是把手換成腳。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDxoCyn3st
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyL7bg3JsH3
他輕輕地吻了我的腳背，就一下子，沒有停留，沒有聲響，我也沒有感到不舒服。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8p9EKBdub2
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14tR3Vg0Sm
他拿起高跟鞋，從我的腳尖套上，再合上腳跟，確認高跟鞋穿好後，放下我的右腳。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5jmAhpws1
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接著，換左腳。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmn5rxKuK6k
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因為他的動作一直很溫柔，所以我的緊張感消失了大半。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbx92P8974m
389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jCUggIAkw
同樣的模式（或儀式）結束後，我的雙腳都穿上了高跟鞋，而他恢復了原本的姿勢，低著頭，跪著。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhjCqB3ZMv
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「頭抬起來。」我說。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa47sqerGT
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命令的語氣。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNHO03ALlo
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待續。389Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWevZk3j85d
然後按「加至主畫面」