等我能見到他時，又過了一個月。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkLL9OShuA
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGdpxAANPU
深呼吸了好幾口氣，練習了幾次微笑，我才踏進病房。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9vVRMtILp
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFwqzMvdAf
他盯著我走近，待我在床前站定，見我微微一笑，他便咧開嘴笑了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ic9tsu9OH
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2upKAxrozO
「我妹怎麼變這麼漂亮啦？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9GiQn8tho
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHuqJWyM5w
我沒理會他的玩笑，只是看著臉色蒼白的他，當下覺得自己的微笑只是一道不讓自己哭出來的防線。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCypebYVj5n
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYS0Zhb2Ioh
我查過他的病，既然已到末期，治癒機率已經極低，幾乎是零。也知道他會長期處在各種疼痛裡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfEcX3gTtW
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnYcvet7gQ
所以我無法開口問他還好嗎，也沒辦法要他振作，更不能祝福他康復。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDqcleAv31
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAx1GA8Ervy
只是他仍然對著我笑，笑得那麼真。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAas9J8e4sP
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiuuPe68IJ
「幹嘛傻在那裡，過來這邊坐啊。」他指指床邊的椅子。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjIyTlX0qP4
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEwGkRGWnW
我走過去，把椅子拉近病床，坐下。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JtvmDFVUd
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHIkveI9Mq
我們幾乎是同時伸出雙手的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxXqpK9MHg
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡesicfrmhpa
碰到他的手時，我的鼻子就酸了，眼睛也模糊了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADukSf7ZrY
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCSHUwoazT
「不是答應我不哭了嗎？」那句話有著溫柔的指責。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQr3867Lmb
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrmNrJFRZs
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUj2N0zYnvK
「現在有沒有哪裡會痛…？」我開口問。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORLWenZKBo
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0lZprckq1
「每天都在痛啊，肚子也痛、頭也痛，骨頭也都會痛…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbFEx22c1d
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0NLaUKKpVk
他數家珍地說出，而我的眉頭也因此糾結。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqstIc4j6t
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhv1pwEI9w
「現在不痛啦，看到妳都不痛啦。」見我皺眉，他胡亂地撒謊。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xKVqqJCvJ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡATWEsDLicE
我揉著他的手，好像有很多話要說，但又覺得沒什麼好說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vXno25JDK
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i5MsT1dMn
「爸…妳爸爸，有說什麼嗎？他知道嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvMxMwWDy7
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjp25e7RjuC
我愣了一下，沒想到他會問這個問題。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiY9JV1QxEN
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6MJrMkCFE
「他應該知道，但他沒跟我說什麼…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXI2DQlvAiM
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYJVzKCtsG
「是嗎…我想也是啦。問問而已，妳不要多想。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04pzcWESYH
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEF6wskS7CO
那一瞬間，我覺得父親的無情是無法被原諒的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFvoCuAaEG
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9Ftdlkga9
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqSXGxsBgW
我拿出那晚編好的手繩，放到他手裡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxRQxtP2ii
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9fM6kUBlh
「這是新編的。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvAXCCcBhu
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrw5hKxJ1T
他看了看手繩，又看看我。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4Vb71zW5y
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcLcO0LGUp
「妳幫我拿櫃子裡的皮夾出來。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4gZdPRuPv
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqhqyTcGuk
我把皮夾遞給他，他從皮夾裡拿出了…好幾年前的那條幸運手繩。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsLWCiuGvg
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77dhKvwrh4
白色的線都變成灰色，已經髒髒的了，他拿出來時還是小心翼翼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNpFwqWmFK
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WMEcSFtPA
「妳看。」他得意。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXuZuxfMTpF
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCgfvEZyf6
「虧你能留那麼久，我之前皮包掉了，你的照片也搞丟了…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJzsqWNKrk
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuypmL6DS1
「幫我戴新的在手上。」他說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFg8ZgJYXpl
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvxAfA53Pv
我一邊把手繩綁上他變得好細的手腕，一邊說著…539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAZvcveu44
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzGMuEsgEK
「我們以前還說要一起合照，但都沒有做到…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bQkTQMeqS
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUTqvPYInw
「現在拍。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9oThi1CVFD
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcisy0o6Wsm
「啊？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPK51mQWwF3
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3lNU3bIRnt
「現在就拍啊，妳手機有照相功能吧？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYguJhFxkaz
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6iHYRqyxik
「有。」我拿出手機，翻開摺疊螢幕，開啟相機功能。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2zrN0KVTQ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyz17TP4I6
「等一下等一下。」他伸手拿了旁邊的眼鏡戴上。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4i7qfKikkk
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcgp4xqgd7
「我這樣看起來比較不像流氓吧？」他又在笑。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSUipxuoE2
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5tQSqJ3CH
我笑了，起身貼近床，把頭靠在他臉旁，拿著手機對著我們倆的大頭拍了一張照片。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDGLJgR5bo
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanCdOR1MFX
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqT4zkrhL4
我坐回椅子上，有那麼一段時間，我們都沒有看著彼此，也沒有說話。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFi8pBOW4R
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6kjtvVgSo
「我離婚了。」英傑突然說。
「我被抓後，妳嫂子自己提的。」
「簽字是一定要簽的，拖著她也不對。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3KWOIHkLQ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1cQhrxgtn9
我想起那個沒有喊過他「爸爸」的兒子，但我沒有勇氣開口問。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeGCV26SZj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhhA54F9kE
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8CDdpXv7Z
「妳還有在寫小說嗎？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHzbdtT420
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjTu2Q3uhz
「…有寫一些小故事。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVVFW8iogtm
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvmU1oj7lW
「那就好，不要隨便放棄喔。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl19jVK0oJ2
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4pXrUO4jgZ
「嗯。我好久沒看到你寫的詩了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Ie1eniU8v
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULXPN4bS5f
「我太久沒寫字啦…字已經不漂亮，腦子也沒東西了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjtfmKjrZJ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBsJLIyzJF
「不會啦，字跡不會隨便改變的。」情感也是。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHL9uarhBSY
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSmfEskrcy
「妹。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8LWZRTeyx
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Yb6xkgAiR
「嗯？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHURjuqcXy
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpYxjfDLppf
「人真的要走到末路的時候，才知道只有家人會無條件的陪在身邊。」
「所以妳一定要好好珍惜家人，不要交壞朋友，也不要太相信外面的人。」
「也不要抽菸、喝太多酒…」
「如果可以，就回去念書，這個社會還是很看學歷…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReCshraHQG
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF5X2svxgLn
我突然意識到他正在做什麼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTEuP4aWZc
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKvrTY0EuO
像是交代後事般的叮嚀，我聽在耳裡，痛在心裡，但我不能阻止他這麼做。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oDM1AaSzS
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkPbw3ei3K
因為我甚至不知道還有沒有下一次見他的機會。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWYkLDUVM1
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRmTDtFMto
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqPW20SbZn
那天我在醫院陪他直到晚上才離開，他始終笑著，在我面前不表現出痛苦或難過。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvj4rvBD0A
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwZcqJphFh
他也答應讓我再去看他，只是要先跟他聯絡。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAKgAoeDS2S
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8d7OQKK28u
「我媽有點介意，所以不希望妳們碰到面。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0um78hW2h
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYMsP9kX7N
爾後我又見了他兩次，其中一次他告訴我，他信了主耶穌。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM36F4Kn4O7
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YuaxpvEsj
我知道是身體病痛的折磨，讓他尋求精神上的慰藉。他親自寫了信給教會的小孩子，用自己的經歷告誡孩子們勿入歧途。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerGzqDII5Y
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoE5dftNnqs
我知道他害怕，知道他尋求救贖。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPZ3vavet5
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaHmw9CQ1B
我知道他就算把地獄或罪人掛在嘴邊，仍是害怕受苦的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRxXVPnz7X
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVbRgzbwD3p
我知道他也許到了這一刻才開始後悔。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vc8YbXnaU
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZomte1Bfb
但我是欣慰的。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnvU0tb6vC
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqlbpFYMuP
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIisQlj7phf
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuCTIkQ70Ns
那一天來的又快又急。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfBEop92Vi
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOtybmUGjU
「妹…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNge5LIjU0g
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pHlAGVjKW
我接起電話，只聽到英傑喊了我，然後是沉重的喘息與啜泣。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw6luyYmI9
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAZy3BR9DN
「你怎麼了？怎麼了？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJbNJ9twNC
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhHxP5zNir
還拿著手機和他說話，我已經起身準備出門去醫院。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0aYVpqsaw
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyzPByxi7x
「我還不想死…」他哭著說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jT9aqUhl1
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHv8aC6JKi
那句話狠狠地撕裂了我的胸口。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnz4OOX9soJ
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAHS96Ji9Q
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexZh7xJSbr
我跑進病房，英傑似乎剛剛才穩定下來，吊著點滴、眼眶泛紅、面容消瘦，也比上次更加蒼白、手臂上都是青色與紫色的瘀青。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCZqcm6647
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwEfphFzFvv
他的母親與姐姐看見我，臉色明顯地不自在。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxszWFbwOmW
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZPgU9CMpk
英傑打那通電話給我的時候，她們是不是也在呢？539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfF7dtlapU
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOqfU7JsuZ
她們小聲地和英傑說了幾句話，就走出病房，留給我和他說話的空間。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeO11k7vwS
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFN8W0bOxiv
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OFdkQVXVY
我坐到上次的位置，握住他的手。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0xo6HlswT
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZln3igJRmr
那雙手已又更瘦更冰冷了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOoa6coDTpO
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79RETxBzU7
「我真的，還不想死。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDO5OJitH8h
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABrgFELksb
我握著他的手出了點力。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nIpqF16p5
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pwwtjqOok
「我很害怕。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PKbisEWAC
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZnXuFDYYd
「我很怕死…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDicAv8To2r
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxJ3p6Ao9p
他沒看著我，只盯著手。說完，他的眼淚就掉下來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQ8AmzQAfj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXToBPd0NRd
那是我第一次看見他掉眼淚，也是最後一次。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYlgv2PscM
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPKnb2PYnu
「你已經悔改了，你一定會去天堂的。」我已經滿臉淚水，但還是看著他的眼睛說。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FJwksqa0k
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwu67qvyVTV
「全身都很痛…」他終於抬頭看我。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbxWQ8LFnGy
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihhBhhlk8i
我趕緊抽幾張衛生紙擦他的臉，他的雙頰與眼窩都已經凹陷，我的手盡可能地放輕力道，就怕他疼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcLhaEIj7C
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrceYYoC6YT
「你很努力了，我知道你很努力了…」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIgsp4TVhu
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ77RWBzVLQ5
我抱住他，驚覺他已弱不禁風的事實。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkwtgSaMtE
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpMCdR1vG25
這讓我倏地停止了自己的眼淚。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1y0xE2vHr
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWIcRlpRQg
「沒事的，你的主會帶你離開，之後就不痛苦了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLNrsBoMgO
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWl1mmKB1N
英傑在我的臂彎裡哭泣了許久，才安靜下來。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAeRkHVcALl
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmQ7Ihjg36
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaZojOz3LE
「妹。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72nSJOdoSF
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkDoIk70lg
「嗯？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEqTqcTzA0
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBDMMVrYPq
「抽屜裡有一封信是給妳的。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJW2Lp47Rq
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0P8hgOzhe
我打開抽屜，拿起那個信封。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeAS7WQjMkr
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「回去再看。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiu8Pw47vS
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「好。」我收起信。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmENlQDONc
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「妳回去吧。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQP6Ad4Evb1
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「什麼？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfWjiNUGVR
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「謝謝妳來…可是不要再來了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUAnC5dcec
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「為什麼？」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWSbWMuUVy
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「我不想要妳送我離開，妳會很傷心，我也不想要看到妳那麼傷心。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhqqGPW8qj
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「……」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2y8VH0amf
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「回去吧。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ebiEEWmY9
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWGzYlxdha
他看著我，又對我笑了，那個笑看起來很費勁，也是他一直以來對我的溫柔表現。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoNNDJdOFb
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnYB1TDIX5
不讓我送他走，也是哥哥對妹妹的溫柔。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA9yj0Suv0x
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9Bp7RY59Q
我又抱了抱他才離開。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9NmDuwt1N
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當天晚上十點多，我收到他姊姊的簡訊。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDOQtfDqR6
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「英傑已經走了。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFUUv9uKTZ
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那一瞬間我向心裡所有知道的神祈求，希望英傑能到更好的地方，希望他不要再受苦了。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBR4wSYYLjs
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我打開信封，裡面只有一張書籤大的紙。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUaaxWKGQc
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「Dear 妹：」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarKGlIZkVb
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「妳永遠是我的天使，539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Qin8mUpfX
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請不要忘記我。」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uMSCwDq1H
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「哥 英傑」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNULtk4OvuH
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我抱著自己，放任自己哭到睡著。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7r5fzGBrB
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之後的每一年，我不選在英傑的忌日，而是在他的冥誕當天悼念他。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyaooeaIeOX
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy90FoHYb8P
每一年的五月三十，我都會寫一封信，表達我的思念，讓他知道「我沒有忘記他」。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHhCMBsYLj
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSjGujdJ7y
前幾年每到這天，我總是哭，總是放任自己因為想念而哭得泣不成聲。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmd2Yxjhkc
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後來的後來，我漸漸不哭了，但沒有改變在這一天寫信的習慣。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHwmXzHA9M
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英傑的回憶有時像巨石背在背上，有時像羽毛沾在胸口，無論哪一種，都是無法遺棄。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWUqtj1U1J
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他走後，我便不再輕易評論一個人的好與壞。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fjXOfUJQT
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曾經我在英傑的新聞底下看見很多網友的謾罵、抨擊甚至是汙辱，我感到憤怒與心痛，想一個一個回應他們「你們什麼都不知道！」539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXLhP5Nbnt
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但我什麼也沒做。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1ryWJkmRI
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因為那些人不認識他，也永遠不會認識他。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHZxI4eO8E
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPT3fCYx7M
所以我再也不對任何新聞或社會事件做評論。因為我知道，我不認識當事人，更不能體會當事人的親屬心情。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd3gPUeHNKb
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL8jXVl8EHQ
我回去念書，考進了大學，年年以取得獎學金為目標，只為不要白學。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTlZutwLJ4
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYWkbdaQuF
一直沒有放棄創作，可能也是因為惦記著他說過的話。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZItvAp16q
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEcLdME7mr1
說起遺憾，大概是我喊他「英傑」比喊他「哥哥」的次數要多更多了吧。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4H5vwiFkDr
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去年，我沒有寫信。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM3gXrEF1r
539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2T4uBlCtFK
我選擇在當天完成他的故事。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFaYmL707iU
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他是一隻孤傲的鷹，獨自在天空闖蕩，受盡風霜，最後回巢，在家人身邊闔上眼。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0mDTKvb2n
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我是活在地面的狼，只能抬頭望著，用我的爪在沙上畫下他在天空翱翔的姿態。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9CBTDxJ1vd
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這是，我哥哥的故事。539Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm9Z4awInZ
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