事情要回到幾個月前。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Q3vUnRrm7
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「豺姐，我想跟妳道歉。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6EJ8Ya220
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聊著聊著，他突然傳來這樣的訊息。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrqiwbxfOl
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「幹嘛道歉？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSL1FmAww2
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「前一陣子，是不是有人密妳的skype，問妳想不想穿高跟鞋踩他？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXP04ymIfnq
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我想了一下，好像有這麼回事。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ77HKwQmyh
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「那個人就是我，但我應該馬上就被妳封鎖了吧？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnkJ9WiFgg
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1u4aUMwtt
「呃，因為skype是個常常會被陌生人亂加的程式，所以看到奇怪的訊息，我都是直接封鎖啊。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66X7TIjfx8
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkUJY0VkcvW
「拜託妳現在不要封鎖我。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqugPgh6ha
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「不會啊，都是朋友了還鎖什麼，不過你是在惡作劇嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdyU7CYxfN
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「不是。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkNCD9wytW
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然後，他開始和我說起，他的秘密。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx9VI5MiDI
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uQlhaD7oj
作為一個M，又稱「臣服者」（也有人說是「受虐者」，但我不喜歡這個稱呼），加上「戀物」及「戀足」，他從很久以前，就知道自己的喜好及性傾向，但沒有讓人知道，包括以前交的女朋友。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg60rHqiDpf
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看到高跟鞋會興奮，產生被虐的幻想；女孩子只要稍微兇他，他也會心癢，更別說是聽到一些汙辱謾罵的詞彙了，那只會讓他更高興。
在他意識到自己的性傾向時，還是個小孩。他下意識的覺得自己不正常，隨之而來的厭惡自己及沮喪情緒很快吞沒了他。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7XEZhZlUi
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所以他掩飾、逃避，逼自己過「正常人」的生活及性生活。
直到過了幾年，進入資訊爆炸的時代，Google大神開始顯神威，在網路上發現同好的時候，他才漸漸接受自己。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHiFrEpLKY
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0PE33w3eW
「只是接受了自己，不代表別人肯接受這樣的我。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXj3YkdxssJ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRw5GK63iZ6
所以他還是持續隱瞞這件事，也許是過於刻意隱瞞，在戀愛的過程中，他反而像個大男人，所交到的女朋友，也都是小女人類型的，這讓他更不可能坦白自己了。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DtAFFAXZc
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbIS3BWGlt
那天晚上，我幾乎聽完了他到目前為止的人生。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk2HUWy2pd
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mGC6gCmGQ
「壓抑」，若要下個結論，就只有這兩個字。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORG7Uc4O0i
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「為什麼告訴我？」
不過是朋友的朋友，一群朋友一起出去過幾次，我真的不認為我們有那麼熟。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHizb1kbVj
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2o82CPMTO
「我信任妳。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5M8fNvwArG
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JBbhN9qYU
「噗，你也太容易相信別人了吧，萬一我是大嘴巴咧。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAudqHPHeJ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuCdQz19Jn
「妳應該不是。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvPf7fWZmr
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「這麼有信心？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCouQP6BpZ
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7YwPkDtIU
「有一次去唱歌，那個誰不是在說某個人的八卦嗎，說她和哪個歌手有一腿，還墮胎怎麼的。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WKfba8z9e
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「嗯？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINhut0zHZs
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「妳本來在跟大家聊天，聊到這個就自己喝起酒來，也不搭話。我記得那個當事者跟妳有過節。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgT67dny5dc
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvUGOWmFGKD
「是有一些無聊的過節，你怎麼會知道？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6peCxHu5v
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1Kkosz0Eh
「因為別人是大嘴巴。可是妳當時什麼都沒說，也不參與話題，所以我信妳。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSoWke6GoX
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竟然被偷偷觀察了啊。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdR4590n10
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「說不定我只是口渴了想喝酒啊。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiypRaUZSe
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「妳是大嘴巴嗎？」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPgxEM09L0O
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOT5Fb56oZ
「我不是，但你的故事可能會成為我的創作題材。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9OkjnbEln
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「哈哈哈。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8QecOMCpu
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「哈哈。」390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HwtxyWmVm
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他捧著高跟鞋，或許是我的錯覺，他的手彷彿在微微的顫抖。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fI4c2WV3r
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB8f5kwED4
我看著他小心翼翼的，將自己的臉側過，慢慢的貼在鞋頭的鞋面上，一秒，兩秒，三秒，然後離開它，看了看鞋，抬頭，盯著我。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCPdcO6RIh
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhJLghkNqm
他放下高跟鞋，頭低著，對我伸出手。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZQD2lVZwb
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8y9BwTOey
我有點緊張，所以動作也很遲鈍。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡExc4R87IV9
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pdgpg85xG
把右腳放進他手裡的時候，我意識到自己的雙手緊捏著床沿。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NwERsEYp1
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmWNTPEDs3
他微微抬頭，眼神落在我的腳背上。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqjoVC8yM6
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0o9FxBwgNo
就像電影裡演的紳士，在女士的手背親吻那樣，他也這麼做了，只是把手換成腳。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAjpP0yI2N
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUwfymc8zM
他輕輕地吻了我的腳背，就一下子，沒有停留，沒有聲響，我也沒有感到不舒服。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuncMzs2dGP
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnv4NBwD6MY
他拿起高跟鞋，從我的腳尖套上，再合上腳跟，確認高跟鞋穿好後，放下我的右腳。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfOCZXiG0j
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzGRjHjKNr
接著，換左腳。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GPTHQ4AIA
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因為他的動作一直很溫柔，所以我的緊張感消失了大半。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyp0e7SoxAu
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIRXoim6bU
同樣的模式（或儀式）結束後，我的雙腳都穿上了高跟鞋，而他恢復了原本的姿勢，低著頭，跪著。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8r6zjM4Jj0
390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOq8Kpg6X84
「頭抬起來。」我說。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnlysuwORcc
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命令的語氣。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPqJAgR5rfQ
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待續。390Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡil6oAo18vN
然後按「加至主畫面」