事情要回到幾個月前。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXk90IvlXP
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「豺姐，我想跟妳道歉。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpxx4lcyifp
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聊著聊著，他突然傳來這樣的訊息。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAAnZpC9UL
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「幹嘛道歉？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCYCrbq3R3
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「前一陣子，是不是有人密妳的skype，問妳想不想穿高跟鞋踩他？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKBnS7RiM9
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我想了一下，好像有這麼回事。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ901srmh7dr
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「那個人就是我，但我應該馬上就被妳封鎖了吧？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY2a1d8P0F
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「呃，因為skype是個常常會被陌生人亂加的程式，所以看到奇怪的訊息，我都是直接封鎖啊。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ3WIXTa5p
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「拜託妳現在不要封鎖我。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruBLayb8eb
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「不會啊，都是朋友了還鎖什麼，不過你是在惡作劇嗎？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAglvFiJYA
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「不是。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNP7JpC210G
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然後，他開始和我說起，他的秘密。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3qhIBR9yb
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作為一個M，又稱「臣服者」（也有人說是「受虐者」，但我不喜歡這個稱呼），加上「戀物」及「戀足」，他從很久以前，就知道自己的喜好及性傾向，但沒有讓人知道，包括以前交的女朋友。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemTzhgw6hn
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看到高跟鞋會興奮，產生被虐的幻想；女孩子只要稍微兇他，他也會心癢，更別說是聽到一些汙辱謾罵的詞彙了，那只會讓他更高興。
在他意識到自己的性傾向時，還是個小孩。他下意識的覺得自己不正常，隨之而來的厭惡自己及沮喪情緒很快吞沒了他。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCodnyXSgD
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所以他掩飾、逃避，逼自己過「正常人」的生活及性生活。
直到過了幾年，進入資訊爆炸的時代，Google大神開始顯神威，在網路上發現同好的時候，他才漸漸接受自己。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHlw8UGzSh
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「只是接受了自己，不代表別人肯接受這樣的我。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6IYUxORJw
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所以他還是持續隱瞞這件事，也許是過於刻意隱瞞，在戀愛的過程中，他反而像個大男人，所交到的女朋友，也都是小女人類型的，這讓他更不可能坦白自己了。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT221yqaK1p
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那天晚上，我幾乎聽完了他到目前為止的人生。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRp4yUZZhNS
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「壓抑」，若要下個結論，就只有這兩個字。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB68URWSxS
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「為什麼告訴我？」
不過是朋友的朋友，一群朋友一起出去過幾次，我真的不認為我們有那麼熟。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdijNVWi4pR
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「我信任妳。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmc4YMhzk6C
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「噗，你也太容易相信別人了吧，萬一我是大嘴巴咧。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8vIAN6TdU
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「妳應該不是。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5gWK1vhSK
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「這麼有信心？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KRfzAMzcN
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「有一次去唱歌，那個誰不是在說某個人的八卦嗎，說她和哪個歌手有一腿，還墮胎怎麼的。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjvXH2ypZEH
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「嗯？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmosm8CTvs
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「妳本來在跟大家聊天，聊到這個就自己喝起酒來，也不搭話。我記得那個當事者跟妳有過節。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMM3MFnkI6
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「是有一些無聊的過節，你怎麼會知道？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjers0MJDF
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「因為別人是大嘴巴。可是妳當時什麼都沒說，也不參與話題，所以我信妳。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZkMXUeqXh
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竟然被偷偷觀察了啊。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmg33oDItR
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「說不定我只是口渴了想喝酒啊。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyzfwd3OKW
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「妳是大嘴巴嗎？」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiquKWmAmu
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「我不是，但你的故事可能會成為我的創作題材。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvn5soZ8yz
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「哈哈哈。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOteT7x6jAv
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「哈哈。」419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qVP02hXUF
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他捧著高跟鞋，或許是我的錯覺，他的手彷彿在微微的顫抖。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72q2xsndB3
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我看著他小心翼翼的，將自己的臉側過，慢慢的貼在鞋頭的鞋面上，一秒，兩秒，三秒，然後離開它，看了看鞋，抬頭，盯著我。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxmFmaBzbV
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他放下高跟鞋，頭低著，對我伸出手。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RJKVufZXY
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我有點緊張，所以動作也很遲鈍。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqUuarz1Ui4
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把右腳放進他手裡的時候，我意識到自己的雙手緊捏著床沿。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5Y5ygx42Q
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他微微抬頭，眼神落在我的腳背上。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLc1xvh3ELm
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就像電影裡演的紳士，在女士的手背親吻那樣，他也這麼做了，只是把手換成腳。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3UTwExKbb
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他輕輕地吻了我的腳背，就一下子，沒有停留，沒有聲響，我也沒有感到不舒服。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7jkNjMcsE
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他拿起高跟鞋，從我的腳尖套上，再合上腳跟，確認高跟鞋穿好後，放下我的右腳。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83xVKHIp9V
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接著，換左腳。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpwI1WnGsA
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因為他的動作一直很溫柔，所以我的緊張感消失了大半。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRRKoPdDa1
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同樣的模式（或儀式）結束後，我的雙腳都穿上了高跟鞋，而他恢復了原本的姿勢，低著頭，跪著。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXHJk3HRwR
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「頭抬起來。」我說。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsoA84jdXy
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命令的語氣。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4fNIIZ4Y2
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待續。419Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OVeVMrkER
然後按「加至主畫面」