事情要回到幾個月前。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxPQKF9zis
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「豺姐，我想跟妳道歉。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPFAMDLDK9
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聊著聊著，他突然傳來這樣的訊息。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOOGYxa8qV
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「幹嘛道歉？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrV1VMm2N3E
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「前一陣子，是不是有人密妳的skype，問妳想不想穿高跟鞋踩他？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW59vHsGbyz
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我想了一下，好像有這麼回事。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjfuoA8FrY
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「那個人就是我，但我應該馬上就被妳封鎖了吧？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplBl0UGlGg
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMWjKMKPnu
「呃，因為skype是個常常會被陌生人亂加的程式，所以看到奇怪的訊息，我都是直接封鎖啊。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kKXtZ9GWZ
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRHiD3It7I
「拜託妳現在不要封鎖我。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqebx2GCCNr
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvHQ3b03WE1
「不會啊，都是朋友了還鎖什麼，不過你是在惡作劇嗎？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3kugHJ5Bm
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「不是。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvrsMO2rCKV
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然後，他開始和我說起，他的秘密。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr7ThSRImC
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DUmmkuhbI
作為一個M，又稱「臣服者」（也有人說是「受虐者」，但我不喜歡這個稱呼），加上「戀物」及「戀足」，他從很久以前，就知道自己的喜好及性傾向，但沒有讓人知道，包括以前交的女朋友。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuBpCtk7YS
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef7OYKkUeY
看到高跟鞋會興奮，產生被虐的幻想；女孩子只要稍微兇他，他也會心癢，更別說是聽到一些汙辱謾罵的詞彙了，那只會讓他更高興。
在他意識到自己的性傾向時，還是個小孩。他下意識的覺得自己不正常，隨之而來的厭惡自己及沮喪情緒很快吞沒了他。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoacUbLeRcX
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFSOV18xRpu
所以他掩飾、逃避，逼自己過「正常人」的生活及性生活。
直到過了幾年，進入資訊爆炸的時代，Google大神開始顯神威，在網路上發現同好的時候，他才漸漸接受自己。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNyXv3DRUC
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rEzwKImvg
「只是接受了自己，不代表別人肯接受這樣的我。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MWF8X2Cca
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlrOZWMON4M
所以他還是持續隱瞞這件事，也許是過於刻意隱瞞，在戀愛的過程中，他反而像個大男人，所交到的女朋友，也都是小女人類型的，這讓他更不可能坦白自己了。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEVGgsU1Ud
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmo9Jo4LGn
那天晚上，我幾乎聽完了他到目前為止的人生。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pyPpfCvjS
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyCm6nbowf
「壓抑」，若要下個結論，就只有這兩個字。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAfNfr0yRq
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「為什麼告訴我？」
不過是朋友的朋友，一群朋友一起出去過幾次，我真的不認為我們有那麼熟。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzx3JdN7xK
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcKhJGJM2P
「我信任妳。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfEVMuqkoJW
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5K9OrC7cT
「噗，你也太容易相信別人了吧，萬一我是大嘴巴咧。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6N0qDBUUs
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVqcK9U2Iq
「妳應該不是。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaAQoGE8HG
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「這麼有信心？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Q8aViaobd
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFszR1TJRph
「有一次去唱歌，那個誰不是在說某個人的八卦嗎，說她和哪個歌手有一腿，還墮胎怎麼的。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnyjUrQZkn
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「嗯？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6bKNeafvwl
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「妳本來在跟大家聊天，聊到這個就自己喝起酒來，也不搭話。我記得那個當事者跟妳有過節。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZc8U1Ty4K
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvCO6Cb6wB
「是有一些無聊的過節，你怎麼會知道？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWX3ttFLPd
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9rCBqJXhY
「因為別人是大嘴巴。可是妳當時什麼都沒說，也不參與話題，所以我信妳。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjJkAfEvZZ
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竟然被偷偷觀察了啊。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBkcec9mw7r
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「說不定我只是口渴了想喝酒啊。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8g9U3afG6
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRKk5kMKmaN
「妳是大嘴巴嗎？」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gSZjeaXwj
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8qYfqFugT
「我不是，但你的故事可能會成為我的創作題材。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4d8d82CM1
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZk5uCveUO
「哈哈哈。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuvUMK2psm
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「哈哈。」446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnQu29G1l3
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他捧著高跟鞋，或許是我的錯覺，他的手彷彿在微微的顫抖。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtptPrWgsq
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZzbpu4oIu
我看著他小心翼翼的，將自己的臉側過，慢慢的貼在鞋頭的鞋面上，一秒，兩秒，三秒，然後離開它，看了看鞋，抬頭，盯著我。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFLi4oY7rS
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCROyhLddib
他放下高跟鞋，頭低著，對我伸出手。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwyuiDbJOZ
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZcLIkBstG
我有點緊張，所以動作也很遲鈍。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4adGRYWPJl
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSic5BrT9i5
把右腳放進他手裡的時候，我意識到自己的雙手緊捏著床沿。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeJskqY8Vi
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3r1ceTHle
他微微抬頭，眼神落在我的腳背上。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvHR9gKP7u
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7x3Xjl056
就像電影裡演的紳士，在女士的手背親吻那樣，他也這麼做了，只是把手換成腳。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92nF4DD9XM
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZsSVRXJQA
他輕輕地吻了我的腳背，就一下子，沒有停留，沒有聲響，我也沒有感到不舒服。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91Syd78gHS
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGFJBfQReJ
他拿起高跟鞋，從我的腳尖套上，再合上腳跟，確認高跟鞋穿好後，放下我的右腳。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKw520u3bvZ
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0J68vEh8G
接著，換左腳。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGs3h3bitT
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因為他的動作一直很溫柔，所以我的緊張感消失了大半。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4JHtNNamJ
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEbWLUhJE2
同樣的模式（或儀式）結束後，我的雙腳都穿上了高跟鞋，而他恢復了原本的姿勢，低著頭，跪著。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53Ep0lyKJ8
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88WgGXke3j
「頭抬起來。」我說。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgV68bOKMmD
446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZffMbIGNK
命令的語氣。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sSGxDsQul
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待續。446Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ387rAIlMOF
然後按「加至主畫面」