Chapter 3: Getting Better
Yūutsu awoke feeling weak and confused. Am I dead? Did it work? Is it all over? He thought these words over and over again in his mind until he heard a door open. A tall blonde haired man walks into the room and his eyes go directly to the bewildered boy.
"Wow, you finally decided to wake up! That's great, how are you feeling? Nauseous, dizzy, do you have a headache? You probably feel weak, but that's normal. After all you haven't eaten a decent meal in days."
The boy stays silent as he stares at the doctor. He is unable to think clearly. His mind is all over the place. Fear creeps up on him as he starts to realize what must have happened. It didn't work! I am still on this rotten planet. I don't want to be here! I didn't want it to work out this way! No! This isn't fair! Why am I still alive?
"Oh, how rude of me! My name is Dr. Sakamoto, and I am your personal doctor here at Sekiguchi Hospital. You must be pretty confused so I will give you parents a holler and then you can talk to them about everything. Does that sound good?"
The boy tried to speak; he wanted to scream with all his might. He was so mad. He tried to yell, but his attempts were futile. His body was so weak that he couldn't even manage a single "O.K". So he just settled for a simple nod of the head. Even though he was upset, there was nothing he could do about it now. For the time being he would just have to find out what happened and decide what to do from then on.
The doctor smiled at the boys response and that made the boys stomach churn. What is he so goddamn happy about!? I nearly died, asshole!
"Just yell if you need anything. I will be back soon." And with that he took off.
Yell!? Is he serious? How the hell am I supposed to yell if I need something? I can't even whisper! Stupid freaking doctor! Stupid freaking life!
"Ugghh!" the boy loudly groans. He just sits there patiently waiting for his family to walk through those doors. What will I tell them? How will they react? Will they hate me? I don't blame them if they do. I am a pretty awful son and an even worse brother. Now that I think about it I can sort of remember Murasaki's voice when I passed out in my room. But it hurts to think about it for some reason.
After a while of sitting, thinking, and waiting Yūutsu decides that he is going to try and get some more rest. The boy ends up sleeping for more than he had planned and he wakes up to his loving family's faces above his own. He quickly jolts upward and tries to speak. His voice is raspy but he manages to spit out a few words.
"Mom! Dad! Murasaki! I'm so sorry! I never meant to worry you! I never meant to take it this far! I feel terrible! I- I just missed Takashi so much! I felt like there was nothing to live for! I… I was wrong though! I love you guys! I want to live with you guys!" Yūutsu continued to shout out these meaningful words that he barely even registered speaking. His mind went to a different place as he continued to talk.
What am I saying? I mean I do love my family, I honestly do. It's just, I… well I… guess I was wrong to hurt them like this. And I really do feel guilty. I have to make it up to them! But I still feel sad about Takashi! I just don't know what to do! But I do know I can't do this alone! I will get help from others! I will show them that there is still hope left for me! The boys mind was filled with so many thoughts of hope now that his attempt to kill himself had failed. He realized that he didn't want to die, that that's not what Takashi would have wanted for him! He can see that now!
The boy could feel an immense weight being lifted off of him as his heart fluttered in his chest. His mouth continued to plead words of sympathy until he was interrupted.
"Yūutsu, of course we forgive you. We could never be mad at you. It is our fault that we made you feel like there was nothing left to live for. We are so sorry for making you feel so alone!" Mrs. Kanbara told her son these words as she broke out into tears.
"Mom…" Yūutsu quietly whispered through his own tears.
"Yeah! You big idiot! Do you know how worried I was!? You had me scared to death!" Said Murasaki in the tone she always used with him. But, you could tell she was honestly very sad and on the brink of tears.
Yūutsu had never felt so happy to hear her call him an "idiot" before. "Thank you, sis. I promise I won't make you feel scared like that again!" he told Murasaki with sincerity in his heart.
Yūutsu's father picked up his hand and gently squeezed it with reassurance. He said "We will always be there for you, Yūutsu-kun. Never forget that! We must always stick together as a family. I believe that we can get through these hard times. In fact, I know that we can! So please never do this again!"
Yūutsu looked around him and saw so many loving faces. He was so overwhelmed with joy that he got out of his bed, despite the extremely weak state he was in. He didn't care; he just had to give his family a hug. He walked over to them, in spite of their protests, and they gave each other a group hug.
Their family was finally back together and they all truthfully believed in their hearts that they could overcome anything that was thrown at them. They are a very strong family. They are strong because they are not alone, they all have each other.
After hours of talking, laughing, and even crying his family had to leave and go back to their house. Yūutsu had to stay there and be monitored for a while longer until the doctors were sure that he was healthy enough to leave, both physically and mentally.
The Kanbara's all left to go on with their lives, all except for Yūutsu. He just stayed there and thought about everything that happened. He thought for the longest time, until he finally drifted off into a well-deserved sleep.
At first Yūutsu was mad and angry at the world, but as he continued to lay there thinking about all the wrong things he did. He came to the realization that he was wrong to try to end his life and that he truly does want to live! He wants to live with his adoring family! All those terrible things he did to himself and to his poor family. He knows that he has to make it up to everyone who has been so kind to him, they were always there, always there for him. Ever since Takashi died, he just never realized it. But now he knows what he has to do. He thinks these words as he finally understands what to do with his life:
I am still barely alive but I'll give life a try. I'm better now than I ever was before. I am truly better now.349Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo7FEmveBm
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