Revision: Anxiety!Dark
P.O.V: First Person
(A/N: Before reading this, if you don’t know anything regarding this song, please take note that it details many aspects of depression and suicidal thoughts and behaviour. This chapter and hopefully this chapter only will contain such as well. If you are okay with this, do enjoy.)
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There was a boy I met in kindergarten
My head hurts...
He was sweet, he said that I was smart
Another visit from Dr.Panic and Nurse Anxiety.
He was good at sports and people liked him
I miss him,
And at nap time once we shared a mat
I miss the old days:
I didn't sleep I sat and watched him breathing
When we’d stay up till Dawn just fooling around,
Watched and dreamed for nearly half an hour
I miss those times,
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
But it was all a fantasy, a dream, a SICK nightmare.
Then he woke up
I dont know whether to be happy or sad that I woke up.
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He pulled a scab off one time playing kick ball
Bumps and lines of dark, velvete maroon decorate my wrists like a christmas tree.
Kissed me quick then pressed it in my hand
It hurts but I dont say a word.
I took that scab and put it in a locket
I let my hair down, jagged strands and uneven chunks dangle and flow in the cold night wind.
All year long I wore it near my heart
My heart sobs with an agonizing stinging.
He didn't care if I was thin or pretty
Screaming at me to just end it.
And he was mine until we hit first grade
But I just let a tiresome sleep consume me,
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Falling into the same nightmare again...
Then he woke up
But I cant escape reality.
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Last night I dreamed a horse with wings
Mascara drizzle down my eyes in hopes of a rebirth from their black and sorrowful stain.
Flew down into my home roomOn its back there he sat
I shakily toss circles and ovals in my mouth, generous amounts.
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So we sailed above the gym
Suddenly my hands stop shaking and Im back on my feet.
Across the faculty parking lot526Please respect copyright.PENANAn0atgSPe5Q
My kindergarten boyfriend and I526Please respect copyright.PENANAUd4nJ4CD1p
And a horse with wings
My heart high on today’s ‘breakfast’.
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Now we're all grown up and we know better
I just want to get it all out...
Now we recognize the way things are
But...
Certain boys are just for kindergarten526Please respect copyright.PENANAH2iAqKdttQ
Certain girls are meant to be alone
I guess Im all alone..
But I believe any dream worth having526Please respect copyright.PENANAcTPdwnnWhJ
So today's the day.526Please respect copyright.PENANAw3tDeAQK5s
Is a dream that should not have to end526Please respect copyright.PENANAGD6Kc8ZvIb
So I'll build a dream that I can live in526Please respect copyright.PENANAUVVOkPBZ01
I sigh heavily, holding my arms out in despair.526Please respect copyright.PENANA7dFoOYAiuu
And this time I'm never waking up526Please respect copyright.PENANArkqjGaS5bF
My body swings dangerously, 526Please respect copyright.PENANA6oT8l0hD2X
And we'll soar above the trees526Please respect copyright.PENANAyerxB4DZar
Back and forth..526Please respect copyright.PENANALggUFI2S8k
Over cars and croquet lawns526Please respect copyright.PENANAo9DThZ1gFk
Back...and...forth...526Please respect copyright.PENANAvy0bPDJPoE
Past the church and the lake526Please respect copyright.PENANAYcx7MH0EUQ
And the try-county mall
Suddenly, a new found fear dissolves into my dangerously unstable mind.
We will fly through the dawn526Please respect copyright.PENANAm1HcCEc5qM
To a new kindergarten
I shake it off, tears blurring my vision;
Where nap time is centuries long
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
I let myself fall forward...
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Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
The thumps echo up the stairs, Soon falling in sync of the throbbing headache I have.
Ooh ooh
”NO!! DONT!” Wait—!
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