原文連結:https://www.penana.com/article/2272031
第一場 —— 鹹水原來也不太好喝 ?65Please respect copyright.PENANAUNxIEdcnwc
65Please respect copyright.PENANAPWtp78ZDU6
詹姆斯第三次確認時間。65Please respect copyright.PENANA6tAIvpdUi1
手機顯示:00:0065Please respect copyright.PENANAf7KkYnuKM5
電腦顯示:00:0065Please respect copyright.PENANAjeZJxRoaOR
鬧鐘顯示:00:0065Please respect copyright.PENANAeC5DKDDeQM
「……好呀,哈哈哈哈,原來這真的並不是幻覺。」65Please respect copyright.PENANANKLlD3CwT7
他坐在床邊,雙手抱頭,一陣傻笑之後,開始整理思緒。65Please respect copyright.PENANAKDhL1Qk3wG
「也就是說 —— 我真的跳海身亡,然後再回來了?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAEzHmh1ARya
沉默三秒……65Please respect copyright.PENANAwuUwHQU4ki
「……那麼,上一次那種死法……老實說,還挺痛苦的。」他話音未落,自己先打了個冷顫,渾身雞皮疙瘩都冒了起來。65Please respect copyright.PENANAGQsgJZGhEQ
腦海自動浮現畫面。65Please respect copyright.PENANA0pbCYNLeD6
海水灌入口鼻,喉嚨灼痛,四肢失控掙扎 —— 最後是一種既狼狽又毫無尊嚴的窒息。65Please respect copyright.PENANAxrIuNFtojv
詹姆斯不由自主地又再打了個冷顫。65Please respect copyright.PENANA9zB8UmBhHz
「不行,太難受了。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAxvk8buFjM3
他起身走進廚房,打開冰箱,取出一罐可樂。65Please respect copyright.PENANAZIuVGAwyAq
「既然無論如何都會死……能不能死得舒服一點?」他無奈地苦笑了一下。65Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4ZfueQPFX
他坐在餐桌前,打開手機記事本,認真地輸入:65Please respect copyright.PENANALuLVWHudWU
《自殺方式評估表(初稿)》65Please respect copyright.PENANA1xZKCYyA3n
1. 跳海:痛苦指數★★★★★(不推薦)65Please respect copyright.PENANA5rWZa5ulLT
2. 跳樓:未知(高度恐懼)65Please respect copyright.PENANAoT04uIGkbJ
3. 服用安眠藥:似乎較為溫和(待研究)65Please respect copyright.PENANADOsuHREbRk
4. 煤氣:據說會在睡夢中離世(但家中並無煤氣)65Please respect copyright.PENANAbf1785MNtE
5. 電擊:……不懂操作65Please respect copyright.PENANAN059YqzIb6
他停下來,抬頭望向天花板:65Please respect copyright.PENANAhNpxtzaGsh
「唉……我這個人,連死都要講求規劃……」
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早上九時,公司。65Please respect copyright.PENANACZCeTznA8x
詹姆斯坐在座位上,一邊偷看著莉莎,一邊在心中冷靜分析。65Please respect copyright.PENANAzpfCqtg1lw
「今天最關鍵的時間點,是晚上。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAQZ3cbhXgAg
「只要我避開跳海……理論上可以活到23:59吧。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAl3AsWKjQ7t
他忽然一愣。65Please respect copyright.PENANAfBU0A3waXV
「等等 —— 如果我不用死,會怎樣?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAfE14lRXA8m
這個問題,在上一輪,他根本沒有機會思考。65Please respect copyright.PENANAmwOZ101VBL
因為他直接跳了下去。65Please respect copyright.PENANAHCXZEICFZB
詹姆斯望向莉莎。65Please respect copyright.PENANAMFmUXdXoxv
她正在整理文件,神情專注而冷靜,帶著一種不易接近的距離感。65Please respect copyright.PENANAZbP1SzbgnQ
「……但如果我不死,她也不會喜歡我……」65Please respect copyright.PENANARa486CATOn
他苦笑。65Please respect copyright.PENANA1VMGZcN4vD
「那是否意味著,我必須不斷死去,直到她答應?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAIhp6JxVQbJ
沉默。65Please respect copyright.PENANAOXSebQRLwO
「……那我還真是有點可悲。」
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下午。65Please respect copyright.PENANAfT2rNXTzcA
詹姆斯開始「優化告白流程」。65Please respect copyright.PENANA76hLF06IeT
他寫下三個版本:65Please respect copyright.PENANAmpOuq34P5m
版本A:深情款款型65Please respect copyright.PENANAPAAaooAb4g
版本B:輕鬆幽默型65Please respect copyright.PENANASclb6P6xem
版本C:理性分析型(附未來規劃)65Please respect copyright.PENANADaJu5k4MEr
他在洗手間對著鏡子練習。65Please respect copyright.PENANAOfNvKkKxxp
「莉莎,其實我一直——」65Please respect copyright.PENANAp12ylbaEJ8
「不行,太肉麻。」65Please respect copyright.PENANA9hPyIOueVQ
「不如我們試著交往?」65Please respect copyright.PENANATFZBG41lqs
「太像人事部的說法。」65Please respect copyright.PENANA7jLqwGpZ8h
「莉莎,我可以讓你幸福。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAqhynSW6F0e
「……這句話像詐騙。」65Please respect copyright.PENANA0RCMFAVqRw
他嘆了口氣:65Please respect copyright.PENANAIoPm4ryW2A
「難怪會被拒絕。」
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晚上,同樣的海濱。65Please respect copyright.PENANAF7K6RpT6Fh
同一個地點。65Please respect copyright.PENANA0ILAkt2FeJ
同一陣海風。65Please respect copyright.PENANAIaWmqwYzWb
同一束花。65Please respect copyright.PENANAw7FX78zls5
「這一次,我要冷靜一點。」65Please respect copyright.PENANALSjmGDCjty
計程車停下。65Please respect copyright.PENANAGRr1Fu8Qyo
莉莎緩緩下了車。65Please respect copyright.PENANAlkX4ey84Oi
詹姆斯深吸一口氣,走上前。65Please respect copyright.PENANAAq8DNONZj8
「莉莎,我 ——」65Please respect copyright.PENANAfIjsJXuqMy
「又是你?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAeccfUxbXWr
她已經皺起眉頭。65Please respect copyright.PENANAxuU3WB1RbU
「我之前已經說過 ——」65Please respect copyright.PENANA8ohEE4V9XT
「我知道。」詹姆斯舉手,「我知道你會拒絕。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAju4QC3VU0m
莉莎愣了一下。65Please respect copyright.PENANAOLrVxkjcmt
「……那你還來做什麼?」65Please respect copyright.PENANA8KDI1huHbd
詹姆斯沉默兩秒,然後露出一個略帶苦澀的笑容。65Please respect copyright.PENANApJvVfKXCqP
「因為我暫時還沒有找到不喜歡你的方法。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAhw2aMPdNAX
這句話讓空氣瞬間安靜下來。65Please respect copyright.PENANAj1PZJDZAay
莉莎沒有立刻發怒,只是看著他。65Please respect copyright.PENANAG0LAX06Lv8
「詹姆斯,你不是喜歡我。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAu3Z67zBlAB
「你只是執著。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAZZWM8wS1Qu
這句話,如同針刺一般。65Please respect copyright.PENANAeluxXvFVW8
詹姆斯愣住。65Please respect copyright.PENANA28SPBW9dD6
「你有沒有想過,如果你放過我,你自己也會輕鬆一點?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAXKaGHurLQJ
他張了張口,卻說不出話。65Please respect copyright.PENANAd3fWFuT3mU
氣氛逐漸變得尷尬……65Please respect copyright.PENANAWEHEz9Rlhj
他忽然想起一件事,自言自語:65Please respect copyright.PENANA2YjYQESyIi
「啊,對了。」65Please respect copyright.PENANANqaQ8Op2kY
「我今晚……應該還是會死。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAxt4xcrg2cf
莉莎:「……什麼?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAyJ81LJzkCl
詹姆斯露出一個帶著歉意的笑容。65Please respect copyright.PENANAerxxWyyjd2
「不過這一次,我想死得舒服一點。」65Please respect copyright.PENANACPJoUXgUpn
他從袋中取出一瓶東西。65Please respect copyright.PENANAoIVHcLmyJG
莉莎瞪大眼睛。65Please respect copyright.PENANADUFHDUGUaw
「你帶了什麼?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAIu8VV2W2Ck
詹姆斯看了看標籤。65Please respect copyright.PENANAjoZNzy4ldN
「……瀉藥。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAdQxbgNryJ0
空氣瞬間凝固。65Please respect copyright.PENANAHv8UKYhYF0
「原本……還以為,應該會……比較溫和。」65Please respect copyright.PENANA6JsOADQhEM
莉莎:「你是不是瘋了?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAc1hUyIZXyw
詹姆斯低頭看著那瓶東西,忽然連自己也笑了。65Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7D1IAKkgN
「哈啊……唉……好像……也不是一個好方法。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAtbrLotV6Og
他把瓶子收回。65Please respect copyright.PENANApgodiOFzGH
「算了。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAGht61Ops7k
他轉身走向海邊護欄。65Please respect copyright.PENANA2On1EpRlQr
莉莎皺眉,神色變得有點緊張起上來:「你又想做什麼?」65Please respect copyright.PENANABktoeKHuuQ
詹姆斯回頭。65Please respect copyright.PENANAJ4aj0UgkBn
「這一次,我會試一個快一點的方法。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAargo5yu0Jz
他深吸一口氣。65Please respect copyright.PENANAsacYB9fCyK
「—— 跳下去之前,先吸滿氣。」65Please respect copyright.PENANA95hzlCbnZK
「也許不會那麼痛苦。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAPRUT6ZeeXY
莉莎:「……?」65Please respect copyright.PENANAzllhbjrWRn
下一秒 ——65Please respect copyright.PENANA2pBldrgMHa
「喂!」65Please respect copyright.PENANA7udqWWGrXg
他已經翻過護欄。65Please respect copyright.PENANAVy4sKlFOHQ
夜色之中,一聲落水聲。65Please respect copyright.PENANAVY9944zyrF
海水再次吞沒了他。
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詹姆斯猛然睜開眼。65Please respect copyright.PENANAjXbnd0L7Ma
「……可惡呀!」65Please respect copyright.PENANA8dlQqKZFDC
他躺在床上,眼神帶點不甘心地盯著天花板。65Please respect copyright.PENANA21GvXjWXia
三秒後,他拿起手機。65Please respect copyright.PENANATVCgzKTN2C
新增一條:65Please respect copyright.PENANANUQZDQe0i5
《自殺方式評估表(更新)》65Please respect copyright.PENANARpGGfvo9kA
1. 跳海(憋氣版):痛苦指數★★★★☆(略有改善,但仍不推薦)65Please respect copyright.PENANA7EVOVD7Y0W
他沉默了一下。65Please respect copyright.PENANAQLauSZyG8z
然後又再補充:65Please respect copyright.PENANAJeoW2MJIVr
「附註:莉莎認為我是『執著』。」65Please respect copyright.PENANABP6wl3HQMI
他盯著這兩個字,看了很久。65Please respect copyright.PENANAkfg1PDGPAC
「……下一次,試著不告白?」65Please respect copyright.PENANA06nUDc4HWc
停頓……65Please respect copyright.PENANA3jiWqCxj8n
「……還是不甘心。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAfuRbxN6op2
他翻身坐起。65Please respect copyright.PENANAdEYeD0x5cQ
「不過 ——」65Please respect copyright.PENANArSlXbrar3L
「至少,要死得再舒服一點。」65Please respect copyright.PENANAlc96SreYCa
他開始搜尋:65Please respect copyright.PENANA5qIdc1gs8j
「安眠藥『過量』是否痛苦」65Please respect copyright.PENANAHnZeHIQ0oH
畫面再亮起……65Please respect copyright.PENANA2cd7qdjM34
新一輪星期五,再次開始。


