他們找到那批老人時,本來以為會終於拼到一段完整嘅畫面。
線索指向一個舊區長者中心,裡面住著幾位當年親身經歷過拆樓、舊街流轉同家族往來嘅人。梁尚文、蘇映晴同陳家朗帶住錄音、口供副本同幾張舊相,期望可以透過他們的記憶,將之前斷開嘅位再駁埋。
起初,確實有收穫。
一位坐喺輪椅嘅老伯,一見到舊相就立刻認出其中一個位置。36Please respect copyright.PENANANT1UhxQ4o2
「呢度係以前後巷入口,我成日喺度等巴士。」36Please respect copyright.PENANA8UEtNjY2yO
佢聲音雖然慢,但講到細節時出奇地清楚,甚至記得邊年邊月有車夜入,邊晚特別靜,邊次有人突然搬走幾箱嘢。36Please respect copyright.PENANAkwTYEM8LUc
呢種記憶,係事件式嘅——時間、地點、人物、動作,全部都有。
但當佢哋問到另一段,老伯忽然沉默。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWnLtup1Pmz
「之後……我唔記得了。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAFHdmRbciXO
佢皺住眉,好似喺腦入面搵咗好耐,都搵唔到。36Please respect copyright.PENANAeHAXY3EcI9
最後只係搖搖頭:「好似有啲嘢唔喺度咁。」
第二個老人,情況又唔同。
佢記得嘅唔係事件,而係情緒。36Please respect copyright.PENANA0XmwkosSM5
「嗰排好得人驚。」佢說。36Please respect copyright.PENANArt2EsMQJYj
「成日覺得有人望住你,唔敢講太多。夜晚有啲聲,但唔知係咩。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1WxsSBWJJ
佢講唔到具體發生過咩,只記得當時自己好緊張,連同人講嘢都會壓低聲。36Please respect copyright.PENANA3mnJjUyVGa
呢種記憶,係感受式嘅——事件細節模糊,但情緒好清晰。
第三位老人,更令人心寒。
當蘇映晴問到某段關鍵時間,她直接望住佢哋,眼神好真誠,但回答好簡單:36Please respect copyright.PENANArZfrJ2vs8H
「我真係唔記得有呢段。」36Please respect copyright.PENANAHSGqr3F60S
佢甚至唔係避,而係真係一片空白。36Please respect copyright.PENANAnJ0vc1PwO5
「你哋講嘅嘢,我聽落好似發生過,但我自己腦入面冇畫面。」
陳家朗聽完,忍不住問:36Please respect copyright.PENANAbUvHGYQcxH
「你以前有冇聽人講過?」
老人點頭。36Please respect copyright.PENANAfEajWHuegh
「有。但後來好似慢慢唔講得,講多咗都會覺得自己好似記錯咗。」
梁尚文聽到呢句,心裡一沉。36Please respect copyright.PENANAIvBo3b67qq
因為呢種空白,唔係自然老化咁簡單。36Please respect copyright.PENANAzUCk9CsCNh
而係記憶本身,被時間同恐懼一層層篩走。
返到車上,三個人都好耐冇出聲。
蘇映晴望住窗外,慢慢說:36Please respect copyright.PENANAo1MVUzKZTe
「我以為,只要搵到足够多人,就可以拼返成件事。但原來……唔係所有人都記得。」
陳家朗點頭。36Please respect copyright.PENANAoDO3z7B4Nn
「有人記得事件,有人只記得情緒,有人完全空白。」
梁尚文靠在椅背,眼神好遠。36Please respect copyright.PENANAHXiEtr59F6
「而且唔係因為佢哋唔想講,而係有啲嘢,真係唔喺度。」
呢句話讲出咗最需要面對嘅現實。36Please respect copyright.PENANA4jMvrfJAgJ
記憶唔係固定嘅倉庫,而係會變、會散、會被壓、會唔見。36Please respect copyright.PENANAm9AyWDMfNf
尤其當一件事本身已經變成禁忌,講得少,提得少,再被時間沖刷,再被恐懼篩走,最後剩下嘅,可能只係碎片、情緒,或者一片空白。
蘇映晴低聲說:36Please respect copyright.PENANA4rS48Q5B4n
「如果連經歷過嘅人都唔記得,我哋點樣證明件事真係發生過?」
梁尚文冇即刻答。36Please respect copyright.PENANAHXy36fSlaQ
過了一會兒先說:36Please respect copyright.PENANAtXimRVPL5D
「正正因為唔係所有人都記得,先至更加要有人記住。」
陳家朗望住佢。36Please respect copyright.PENANAQPV8pgvMcV
「但如果有人係真係唔記得呢?」
梁尚文沉默咗一陣。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWGwEpa3Wio
「咁我哋就要接受,有啲真相,可能永遠都拼唔返完整。」
呢句話一出,車廂更靜。
因為佢哋一直以為,只要追得夠深,就總可以搵到完整版本。36Please respect copyright.PENANAUT63O9IS2V
但原來,真相本身都會被時間同恐懼篩走。36Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZlXZ2cIq0
有人記得,有人唔記得,有人只記得感受。36Please respect copyright.PENANA2EoYU8vkZX
而呢種唔完整,唔係因為佢哋查得唔夠,而係因為件事本身,已經被長年壓到連記憶都開始變形。
蘇映晴望住手上面嗰幾張舊相,忽然覺得好無力。36Please respect copyright.PENANAgWLR2AlbY9
佢之前一直以為,只要有人仲喺度,就有機會。36Please respect copyright.PENANAWzXttXFfUI
但而家先明白,就算人喺度,記憶都可能已經唔喺度。
陳家朗最後講咗一句:36Please respect copyright.PENANAlGeFOa4hoL
「如果記憶都會篩走,咁我哋而家做緊嘅,係咪其實係同時間鬥快?」
梁尚文望住前方,聲音好低。36Please respect copyright.PENANATv2w6wAVKP
「係。」
呢一聲「係」,好輕,但好重。36Please respect copyright.PENANAjh7qroqs2Z
因為佢代表佢哋終於承認:36Please respect copyright.PENANAq6AIeqUP2l
唔係所有人都記得。36Please respect copyright.PENANAKMx1UCtxhj
而唔記得嘅嗰部分,可能永遠都追唔返。


