隔天早上,我在鬧鐘響之前就醒了。窗外的天還不是很亮,我躺在床上,想著今天要怎麼避開他。31Please respect copyright.PENANA3yaZYQ2vtL
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應該直接說開?還是刻意不理他?31Please respect copyright.PENANA3nPyCFUrOu
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「不要讓他繼續在我身上浪費時間。」我對自己說,然後坐起來,去洗臉。31Please respect copyright.PENANASWxEiQLpPI
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走進學校的時候,我走得很慢。每一條走廊、每一個轉角,我都先看一眼再走過去。像在走路,也像在躲什麼。31Please respect copyright.PENANAsZVhp7Zc0c
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我走進教室的時候,安晴已經在位子上了。我坐下來,問她:「你的傷,還好嗎?」31Please respect copyright.PENANAlacySq8Tu9
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「沒事了。」她說,語氣聽起來比昨天輕了一點。她看了我一眼,眼神裡有著疑惑。像是想問什麼,但沒有開口。31Please respect copyright.PENANAxJufLFp54C
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我沒有解釋。31Please respect copyright.PENANAjAlXo5efQ7
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我往她手臂上的傷口看去「真的沒事嗎?」,「真的沒事。不用擔心。」她笑了一下,試圖減輕我的擔心。31Please respect copyright.PENANAcTr15a9vIe
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安晴笑了一下。
但她放在桌下的手,還是一直握著袖口。31Please respect copyright.PENANAq2JrO9OLAy
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遭受霸凌的人,或許都是像這樣去隱藏吧,表面看起來跟平常一樣,內心卻是一陣一陣起伏,每天都在想會不會再有一次。31Please respect copyright.PENANAGRFHi72aME
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第一節下課,我沒有出去。我坐在位子上,低頭翻書,假裝在讀。但餘光一直瞄著門口。31Please respect copyright.PENANAjdMGwAC7jx
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他沒有來。31Please respect copyright.PENANA49w2ZF8Q62
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上課後,我的視線依然一直瞄向外面,這節她們班是體育課。31Please respect copyright.PENANAk8OPrNkJcv
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我告訴自己不要再去看,視線卻控制不住地,一直向外看。31Please respect copyright.PENANA3EYWzaifIs
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我閉上眼睛,試圖洗腦我自己。31Please respect copyright.PENANADehtQVFA4X
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「未雨序?」身後的安晴叫了我一聲,「怎麼了?身體不舒服嗎?」我趕緊揮揮手,「昨晚有些沒睡好。」31Please respect copyright.PENANAyd6c4lSn30
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我轉過身,看向自己的課本,逼自己去專心,卻無能為力。31Please respect copyright.PENANATxFJZwiFrD
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第二節下課,我還是沒有出去。我坐在位子上,假裝在看書,但視線一直停在書頁的同一個角落。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAVznLEgFuof
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安晴感覺一直將目光對準我,沒有說話。我感覺她手伸了過來,又縮回去,想問甚麼卻又不敢,沒有開口。31Please respect copyright.PENANA7H2McCR2ST
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我繼續低頭看書。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAy0cbmgQtYi
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然後門口有人影晃了一下。我沒有抬頭,但我感覺到那個人停了下來。31Please respect copyright.PENANAlIk664LJ5w
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我告訴自己:不要抬頭。不要看。如果沒有對到眼,他就不會叫我。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAXb0l5ZXng3
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我聽見腳步聲往門口走去,外頭低低地交談了幾句。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAF12Pkz62YC
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過了幾秒,那個人影離開了。 31Please respect copyright.PENANANCgo0M5kVj
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我還是沒有抬頭。但我的手抓著書頁的邊緣,都被我抓到有點皺了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAS3SGZTucqT
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「雨序?你真的沒事嗎?感覺臉色怪怪的。」安晴走到我身旁,低頭看著趴在桌上的我。31Please respect copyright.PENANAHlCamOYdHU
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「真的沒事啦,想睡個覺而已。」我輕鬆的回答。31Please respect copyright.PENANA3hPfAkaCDM
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她看了一眼我的書頁,思考了幾秒便走開了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAJVgjBYvci4
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中午的時候,我趴在桌上,沒有睡。教室裡人很少,大部分都在外面掃地,要嘛就在玩。安靜的只有冷氣運轉的低沉聲響,與外頭得吵雜聲。31Please respect copyright.PENANA2U1zXEMg5J
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我聽到門口有人走過來的腳步聲,很輕,像是刻意放慢的。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAE7bOcu5G7v
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然後那個腳步聲在門口停住了。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAUgV4UcZfdR
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我沒有抬頭,但我知道是他。我認得他走路的方式。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAX2z1bPFcH1
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我繼續趴著,沒有動,像是睡著了一樣。 31Please respect copyright.PENANASGHiHrd1dL
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過了幾秒,我聽到安晴站起來的聲音,她走到門口,低聲說了幾句話。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAq2MbA2OAMM
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然後腳步聲離開了。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAbi7QVwg9pV
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我等到腳步聲完全消失,才慢慢抬起頭。安晴已經坐回位子上了,她正在看書,看起來很專注。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAgn77LI65tn
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我沒有問她他說了什麼,她也沒有主動說。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAcEtCZ7ujWe
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但過了一會兒,她突然開口,沒有抬頭:「他問你有沒有吃午餐。」 31Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6M1LwT21H
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我愣了一下。 31Please respect copyright.PENANApXOI1paoSO
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「我說有。」她說,語氣很平常,像是在說今天天氣不錯,「然後他就走了,但他看起來很擔心。」 31Please respect copyright.PENANAwfNREgQpd3
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我沒有接話。我轉回去趴著,把臉埋進手臂裡。 想起他的側臉,想起他看我的目光,明明如此的收斂,我依然注意到了,或許我平常也看著他吧。31Please respect copyright.PENANA83XkDhkdB6
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下午第一節是體育課,我們班跟他們班同一節。 午休起來就要運動,真的動不太起來。31Please respect copyright.PENANAVPikiQqrgz
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集合之後,老師讓我們先跑操場兩圈。我跑得不快,安晴跟在我旁邊,也沒有加速。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAZWosVW1Zsj
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跑到第二圈的時候,我往籃球場的方向看了一眼——他在那裡,跟幾個男生在傳球。以前也是這樣。每次體育課,我都會偷偷看著他。31Please respect copyright.PENANAH4QSBkUHWu
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他沒有往這邊看,但我注意到他接球的時候,停頓了一下,像是往操場的方向看了一眼。31Please respect copyright.PENANAiE6Dw3om3S
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我轉回頭,繼續跑。 31Please respect copyright.PENANA2V49vABGbh
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跑完之後,我坐在操場邊的階梯上,低頭喝水。餘光裡,我感覺到他好像看了這邊一眼。31Please respect copyright.PENANA2k8ppXzo4N
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我沒有抬頭。 31Please respect copyright.PENANALtotKESUKZ
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我通常都在這段時間觀察他, 看著他在球場上奔馳的模樣,總會令我有些在意。這樣的他與平常的模樣不太相同,有些耀眼,明明看起來如此冷漠。31Please respect copyright.PENANAbXYa2R2Hnp
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我抬起頭,刺眼的陽光打進我的眼底,眼睛都快睜不開了。我隱隱看見有個模糊的身影正朝我走來,安晴剛剛去上廁所了,應該是她吧。31Please respect copyright.PENANAi6eWznX3Km
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「雨序,不去玩嗎?」冷靜沉著的嗓音進入我耳裡,原來是雪痕。31Please respect copyright.PENANAAVirqRynUw
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當下我被嚇到了,只能吱吱嗚嗚的回答,「那、那個......太熱了,不想玩。」我感覺到自己的雙頰有些燙。31Please respect copyright.PENANAKigYjPa9fJ
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他徑直坐在我身邊,將一瓶水塞到我的臉頰,有些冰冰的。31Please respect copyright.PENANAvaUslYcTpT
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「我有兩瓶,給你,會比較涼一些。」我轉頭看著他,他似乎並不覺得害躁,他再次伸了伸手,我趕緊接過來,「謝謝......」我低聲感謝他。31Please respect copyright.PENANAyv7tq4BViN
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冰冰涼涼的,臉上的熱意終於退了一點。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAu54bJoB7OY
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就這樣我們坐在那邊,沒有人講話,我感覺的到他的視線偶爾會落在我身上,但很快就移開。31Please respect copyright.PENANARyjSylUXsW
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「雪痕?你怎麼過來了。」安晴走了過來,「我看她一個人很孤單,所以過來陪陪她。」他小聲地跟安晴講,但我卻聽到了。31Please respect copyright.PENANAL1Do0EWOEk
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臉頰又控制不住地紅了起來。不能被他看到! 31Please respect copyright.PENANA1e3kgzCsMy
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我把臉別過去,假裝在看操場另一邊的人在打球。但我的耳朵很燙,我知道他在看我。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAl7eiS21FKw
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安晴在旁邊站了一下,然後說:「我去合作社一下,你們要喝什麼?」 31Please respect copyright.PENANAaJFlzmOTLR
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「不用。」我說。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAt9ybxKeH15
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「我也不用。」雪痕說。 31Please respect copyright.PENANA5p1J5N2U2M
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安晴看了我們一眼,沒有多說什麼,轉身往合作社的方向走了。 31Please respect copyright.PENANALJhi08wZTT
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但我有看到,她的嘴角微微撐起。31Please respect copyright.PENANAnN7WFbeWlQ
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操場邊只剩下我跟雪痕。風吹過來,不涼,但我感覺自己心跳很快。31Please respect copyright.PENANA4stWWYBfqV
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「總感覺你今天怪怪的。」他忽然開口,我不知道怎麼回應他。難道要直接跟他說開嗎?
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「安晴應該已經關心過你了吧。」他說,感覺是要給我台階下。31Please respect copyright.PENANA87YRchIDxo
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「嗯......」我回。31Please respect copyright.PENANAgvB4aSYk0q
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我們就這樣並肩坐在一起,雖然有些距離,但在陽光的照射下,影子感覺是貼在一起的。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAd28ymFtjy8
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放學鐘響,我收好書包,動作比平常慢了很多。安晴站在旁邊等我,我沒有看她,低頭拉著書包拉鍊。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAkGo7UiDTH1
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「好了嗎?」她問31Please respect copyright.PENANAYZTLfkjzr0
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「好了。」 31Please respect copyright.PENANANDl1lAZ54H
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我們一起走出教室。走廊上人很多,我走在安晴旁邊,低頭看著地面。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAhJjEi15dyv
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走出校門的時候,我看到了他。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAO0oVLPEAi6
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雪痕站在校門口的柱子旁邊,像是在等人。他沒有滑手機,只是站著,視線朝著我們的方向。 31Please respect copyright.PENANA7uYDPjkaBr
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我停了一下。 31Please respect copyright.PENANATE7OSohfpn
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安晴也看到了他,但她沒有說話,只是看了我一眼。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAhzR9LQHIfC
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我沒有停下來。我繼續走,像是沒有看到他。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAUtzmfRg7ag
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但我聽到他的腳步聲跟上來了。 31Please respect copyright.PENANATuHQ2Zzs8W
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「未雨序。」他叫了我的全名。 31Please respect copyright.PENANA8ZRDBVZHk1
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我停下腳步。不是因為我想停,是因為安晴停了下來。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAwiCS2sfwAO
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她轉頭看了我一眼,又看了他一眼,然後說:「我先走,你們慢慢聊。」她沒有等我回應,轉身往另一個方向走了。 31Please respect copyright.PENANADwDyMY5Zy0
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校門口的人還在來來去去,但沒有人注意到我們。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAwiYgNYTLQt
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雪痕站在我面前,離我大概兩步的距離。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3RPgR704a
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「你在躲我嗎?」他問。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAGpzXACCVXw
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我沒有回答。我低頭看著地面,書包的背帶被我抓得很緊。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAYY9uax2w21
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「為什麼?」他又問。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAqxfB2WmgIp
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我沒有回答他。我低下頭,避開他的視線。31Please respect copyright.PENANAZpTB4mG7aw
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「雨序。」他又叫了一次,聲音比剛才更輕。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAPF0QC3cHEo
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「我明天再跟你說。」我打斷他,聲音比我預期的還小。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAxJ4zVeFhiK
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他愣了一下,但沒有繼續追問。我往後退了一步,準備轉身離開。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAQPOjaoC5QB
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「好,路上小心。」他說。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAA1llLdtVYP
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我沒有再看他,轉身往回家的方向走。 31Please respect copyright.PENANA9E9WYIQy4q
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走了一段路之後,我才回頭看了一眼。他還在原地,但沒有跟上來。 31Please respect copyright.PENANA71gvNQwASp
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回到家之後,我把書包放在沙發上,沒有打開。我坐在書桌前,沒有開燈,也沒看手機。窗外的天色已經暗了,路燈的光照進來,還是跟平常一樣。 31Please respect copyright.PENANAw9crVcSTYb
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「還好嗎?」安晴來了消息,我簡單回覆後,將手機放下。走到廁所的鏡子前。31Please respect copyright.PENANAUxdUjqkPRZ
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看著那個人,那些過往的畫面再次一一浮現,那時的嘻笑聲、議論聲,與她的哭泣聲。31Please respect copyright.PENANA5OFa5mJv9F
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我看著鏡子裡的自己。
起初沒有什麼不同。我抬起手,鏡子裡的人也跟著抬起手。
可是不知道從什麼時候開始,那張臉變得越來越陌生。
嘴角慢慢扭曲,眼神變得猙獰。
我愣住了。
耳邊忽然傳來笑聲。一開始很遠。接著越來越近。
有人在笑。有人在議論。還有哭聲。
我分不清那是誰的哭聲。31Please respect copyright.PENANAiSG6ugt8aX
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是可雯?還是……我自己?我猛地眨了一下眼。那些聲音一下子全部消失。
鏡子裡,只剩下我一個人。31Please respect copyright.PENANAfA2JlBYHoZ
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鏡子裡的我又恢復正常,好像剛剛的事情都是曇花一現。31Please respect copyright.PENANAp8TYor277M
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我走回床鋪,將臉埋進枕頭。31Please respect copyright.PENANAVgMglnkGu6
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告訴自己明天會解決,只是我也不知道,我會解決甚麼。
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