傍晚,成都郊区的某老旧小区里。61Please respect copyright.PENANAmcvbmrgH8M
王小倩家的灯亮得比别家晚一些。
一家六口围在餐桌前,筷子碰着碗碟,电视里播放着本地新闻。61Please respect copyright.PENANAxBOSYW9vve
大女儿张小玉的筷子,在米饭里划了第十七个圈时,终于开口了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAgcpnHixVdU
“妈,”张小玉说:61Please respect copyright.PENANAxdGpXBeKLc
“林薇问我要不要去看演唱会。”
手机在桌下亮着屏幕。61Please respect copyright.PENANAI2d4TtHGF1
第三条未读消息写道:61Please respect copyright.PENANAR68moIWcW5
“真的!VIP区!我能抢到三张连座!”
妈妈王小倩夹菜的手没停:61Please respect copyright.PENANAFJ4kflFqkk
“谁的呀?多少钱?”
“就……那个最近很火的某某乐队。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAxqhyTshT2f
张小玉盯着那块糖醋排骨:61Please respect copyright.PENANANAK3prLJrt
“VIP区,一千块。”
弟弟张小明的嘴张成了圆形:61Please respect copyright.PENANAdrZfxkut5j
“一千?!姐你疯了?”61Please respect copyright.PENANAugfSUxHQ4S
奶奶的汤勺轻轻搁在碗边:61Please respect copyright.PENANAAJnD4mwxab
“多少?”
空气凝固了片刻。61Please respect copyright.PENANAHfvy1pGzgr
张小玉看见爸爸的筷子悬在半空——61Please respect copyright.PENANAPkc0Ol7WoT
那块他夹了三次才夹起来的排骨,掉回了盘子里。
妈妈王小倩的脸上却露出兴致勃勃的神色,眼睛亮亮的:61Please respect copyright.PENANAMe0dq9IUI1
“一千?是内场吗?能看到真人?”
张小玉愣住了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAjeSCC9IZdA
没有预想中的斥责。61Please respect copyright.PENANAa08ktXzJiy
没有“你知道一千块是多少钱吗?”的开场白。
“妈……你不骂我?”
“骂你干什么?”61Please respect copyright.PENANAyt74fXMv8c
妈妈转向爸爸,语气里有种奇怪的兴奋:61Please respect copyright.PENANA3pcGYyq7nI
“建军,咱们家多久没一起出去玩了?”
妈妈王小倩继续道:61Please respect copyright.PENANASwLK7RqJZQ
“你,我,小玉,我们三个人一起去看这场演唱会?怎么样?”
爸爸放下筷子。61Please respect copyright.PENANABPW0PnhZRi
他用拇指搓着食指侧面,一下,两下——61Please respect copyright.PENANAaMmbkQINax
这是他想事情时的习惯动作。61Please respect copyright.PENANA4jWa12QM5l
“嗯。三个人,三千块钱……”爸爸的声音很平静。
张建军不敢冲着老婆讲道理,却突然转向女儿:61Please respect copyright.PENANAr67fJzb8E6
“小玉,你知道三千块是什么概念吗?”
张小玉当然知道。61Please respect copyright.PENANAWnsAByVYCO
三千块是爸爸要跑的订单数,是妈妈站在收银台后的天数,是家里一个月的饭钱。61Please respect copyright.PENANA3LfW3LrO6q
这些数字像刻在她脑子里一样清楚。
“知道。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAk1AZCo1g5M
张小玉低下头:61Please respect copyright.PENANADZGHJAEL3Z
“你跑……大概要送三百单。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAkJOS0VB363
她的声音听起来可怜又无辜。
“不止。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAReyh4kj1N1
爸爸说:61Please respect copyright.PENANARzbj8FoX4c
“要扣掉电费、车损。实际可能要四百单。”
奶奶李秀琴轻轻叹了口气。61Please respect copyright.PENANAj15loqrted
她的叹气总是很轻,但能让整个屋子安静下来。61Please respect copyright.PENANAugbPkDZVan
“小玉,奶奶不是不让你去。”61Please respect copyright.PENANA8AVfiHpnAb
她的声音温和,像冬天里那床晒过的棉被,暖和,但有点重:61Please respect copyright.PENANAf95VIVHTgG
“但你想想,一千块钱,在菜市场能买什么?”
奶奶是说给孙女张小玉听的,也像是说给儿媳妇王小倩听的。61Please respect copyright.PENANApc91L1HBfb
“能买……很多菜。”张小玉的声音更小了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAKr3yB78m7U
奶奶记得菜市场每样东西的价钱。
奶奶总说,钱要花在刀刃上,就是能让一家人吃饱穿暖。61Please respect copyright.PENANAz8idYm8SQV
“对。能买五十斤排骨,或者一百二十斤米,够咱们全家吃两个月。或者……”
“车贷1700,这个月已经扣了。”61Please respect copyright.PENANArrFX723TvL
妈妈张小倩故意大声说:61Please respect copyright.PENANAoO9SCHxqdM
“水电费我昨天交的,877块。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAq5ZtGsqdAV
“小明要买的参考书,150。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAwepaJ0ElGT
“还有小玉……”
“唉,妈,别算了。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAQwKyJMWPsD
张小玉打断妈妈。
爸爸掏出他那部屏幕裂了角的旧手机。61Please respect copyright.PENANABRZM4lHjwC
他打开外卖软件:61Please respect copyright.PENANATmcch81N5O
“到昨天,比上个月多86单。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAREtkHtMoQe
“运气好的话,到月底,大概能多赚……一千一。”
张小玉知道爸爸每天五点三十分起床。61Please respect copyright.PENANADkuO4G2xgm
天还没亮,爸爸就要做准备。61Please respect copyright.PENANAREWnvJzwZL
六点开始跑早高峰;中午别人吃饭时,他还在接单,因为那时候单价高。61Please respect copyright.PENANAKc5ejuUv04
下午三点,爸爸回家吃‘午饭’,休息不到一个小时又要出门,一直跑到晚上八九点。
弟弟张小明突然举起手,像在课堂上发言:61Please respect copyright.PENANA8QntqTdRv5
“我有个方案!”61Please respect copyright.PENANAJHB01IeXI1
大家都看着他。
“姐,你让林薇问问,有没有便宜点的票?”61Please respect copyright.PENANAbNXABSsaZz
“比如……三百块的?”
张小玉苦笑着摇头:61Please respect copyright.PENANA3ZiuxY6Oqc
“最便宜的看台都要七百。”61Please respect copyright.PENANACuAePD8mHN
“而且林薇说,VIP区是她表哥内部弄的,原价一千六呢。”
妈妈眼睛一亮:61Please respect copyright.PENANAdaAUQP8Ij1
“内部弄的?能再便宜吗?”
“一千是最低价了。”
爸爸看着妈妈:61Please respect copyright.PENANAGbMijMqFns
“小倩,你真想去?”61Please respect copyright.PENANAgveFCKgXd1
王小倩的眼神躲闪了一下,然后变得坚定:61Please respect copyright.PENANAO0TtacNyGd
“我想……小玉高中就剩一年了。以后上大学、工作,咱们一家人还能一起干什么?”61Please respect copyright.PENANAZidzV5MCca
“等她有了自己的家,咱们再想一起出去,就难了。”
爸爸重新开口,声音有点哑:61Please respect copyright.PENANAFTxZHTKnpt
“三千块,咱们家现在拿不出来。除非——”61Please respect copyright.PENANAOpyhq5HaB9
妈妈接话:61Please respect copyright.PENANAn8oVIs8Jz9
“除非动那个盒子?”
张小玉知道那个盒子。61Please respect copyright.PENANAtJGyxygcLd
在主卧衣柜顶上,一个印着“中国工商银行1984”的铁皮饼干盒,边缘生了锈,锁扣用透明胶带粘着。61Please respect copyright.PENANA9b9lR3eejX
她从没见它被打开过。
奶奶的声音高了一度:61Please respect copyright.PENANAB6Gx4VCAlR
“那不行,那是应急的钱!”
“我知道。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAP0aK6OLaiT
爸爸点头:61Please respect copyright.PENANA3jlxP0vAT8
“妈,所以我说的是——‘除非’。”
爸爸看向张小玉:61Please respect copyright.PENANAdoLc2TfYyN
“小玉,你真的很想去?”
“其实……”61Please respect copyright.PENANAkijA1O1xwx
张小玉吞吞吐吐地说:61Please respect copyright.PENANAL2eJQ8vhmw
“是林薇特别想去,她一个人不敢,非要拉我。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAugNPkyGiU7
“我……我没有那么想去。”
“是吗?”61Please respect copyright.PENANAl7UbBQQAy5
妈妈的声音里有一种失落。61Please respect copyright.PENANASAjl6axT0q
“但是,妈,”61Please respect copyright.PENANA7fUsQGITIf
张小玉继续说:61Please respect copyright.PENANAVCXTL6Bqy9
“你刚才说‘一家人一起去’的时候……我突然有点想去了。”
张小玉不知道该怎么解释这种感觉。61Please respect copyright.PENANA9VDr7LN0xo
好像不只是想去看演唱会,而是想证明什么。61Please respect copyright.PENANAjU7H4Y7lxh
证明他们家也能像别人家一样,能一起做点“不必要”的事情。61Please respect copyright.PENANAljq8J4xinh
能像那些在朋友圈里晒幸福的家庭一样,笑得很开心。
“这样,”61Please respect copyright.PENANAWmSRv56N5L
爸爸说:61Please respect copyright.PENANAsNfjV2DaSQ
“如果下个月25号之前,我能多跑出两千块钱——”61Please respect copyright.PENANALXYPpkhvGE
“不是账面上的,是扣掉所有成本后,真正多出来的两千——咱们就去。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAl2HCLfuCLt
“但只买两张票。”
“两张?”61Please respect copyright.PENANA3uYQZedsfS
“你和小玉去。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAucHhDiRo2v
爸爸看着妈妈,又看看张小玉:61Please respect copyright.PENANApbq9C4wcp8
“我在场馆外面等你们。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAxt8iUO51bo
“听说演唱会外面也有黄牛放音响,能听个响。”
张小玉给林薇发消息:61Please respect copyright.PENANAjX1QZu8Cgj
“薇,票先别订,等我消息。”
林薇几乎是秒回:61Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3Cq41jNdy
“???你家不会连一千都拿不出吧?”61Please respect copyright.PENANA4RO8iZREP5
张小玉看着那几个问号,手指悬在键盘上,最终按下了锁屏键。61Please respect copyright.PENANAesRqu37RAH
屏幕黑了,映出她自己的脸。
深夜十一点多,张小玉起来上厕所。61Please respect copyright.PENANAiN2hBhjzB3
她听见阳台传来爸妈说话的声音。61Please respect copyright.PENANA0GSdPKPRv3
“我看朋友圈,同事都带孩子去这儿去那儿。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAc2xDnCPKoY
“小玉长这么大,咱们最远就去过重庆。”61Please respect copyright.PENANA4AO4bRrB39
是妈妈的声音。
“重庆也挺好。”爸爸接话。
沉默了一会儿,张小玉听见妈妈的声音变了,像是很委屈:61Please respect copyright.PENANAE5gtyC21NR
“建军,我是不是……特别虚荣?”61Please respect copyright.PENANABubOs8qFXA
透过玻璃门,张小玉看见爸爸停住了晾衣服的动作。
“不是虚荣。”61Please respect copyright.PENANA1akz59EZhq
爸爸似乎别无选择,只能这么说:61Please respect copyright.PENANAlXCiDnW97N
“你是想让咱家有个美好的回忆。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAr6zVfAqbNt
“我会努力,别担心。”
“而你自己,”61Please respect copyright.PENANAWyYGVnaUHf
爸爸把最后一件衣服挂好:61Please respect copyright.PENANA8iJGh00eDK
“不能再去动网贷的念头——我知道你上次想过。”
妈妈的声音里带着惊讶:“你怎么……”61Please respect copyright.PENANAkjA4tctzAr
“你是我老婆。”
张小玉没有再听下去,轻手轻脚地回了房间。
第二天,林薇问张小玉考虑得怎么样。61Please respect copyright.PENANAmVcAqiT6KK
张小玉说还在想。61Please respect copyright.PENANAy4TrYD0xci
林薇说票不等人,张小玉说她知道。61Please respect copyright.PENANAwDKnmT1yeJ
张小玉知道的比林薇想的多得多。61Please respect copyright.PENANAq37Iwx1Hn9
她知道一千块是多少斤排骨,是多少单外卖,是多少天的起早贪黑。
手机又亮了,是林薇:61Please respect copyright.PENANACqOCloaVGd
“算了,我和我表姐去了。下次有机会再一起吧。”61Please respect copyright.PENANAINvYlakoq3
张小玉回了一个“好”字,然后删掉了她们的聊天记录。
客厅里,爷爷在咳嗽,奶奶在给他倒水。61Please respect copyright.PENANAeNPYfR4QTl
妈妈在算账,计算器发出单调的“归零”声。61Please respect copyright.PENANApSKJlID6Pa
弟弟在写作业,笔尖划过纸面,发出沙沙的声音。
这就是张小玉的家。61Please respect copyright.PENANAOisqrMulIy
不完美,不够宽裕,总是差一点,但还在努力运转着。61Please respect copyright.PENANApZmYmKyMUd
张小玉打开书包,拿出了数学试卷。61Please respect copyright.PENANAFYriI4ebyC
明天有小测,她得复习。
演唱会在下个月25号。61Please respect copyright.PENANAHWb0iwlXUW
而生活,在每一个今天。
61Please respect copyright.PENANAicPwvHH4I9
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