失業第八天,我的生活規律變成了這樣:早上十一點起床,煮一包即食麵,坐在沙發上開電視,耗到下午,耗到晚上,躺回床,睡不著,看手機看到兩三點,不知什麼時候睡過去,然後又是第二天早上十一點。120Please respect copyright.PENANAIVvOqjWe3X
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房東姓陳,五十多歲,最近幾條WhatsApp我都已讀不回,因為自己也不知道能說什麼。「快了」、「等我一陣」,打出來又刪掉。120Please respect copyright.PENANAI6yyCrL496
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那天下午三點,我在翻電視頻道,按到一個播港產片的台——舊街道、霓虹燈、電車,九十年代的西裝男人走在街上,配著那種老港片愛用的合成器音樂。我沒有換台,只是懶。120Please respect copyright.PENANA8T6l50qvHX
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主角被女朋友甩了,被老闆炒了,欠了爛賭兄弟一大筆錢,被追數佬堵在家門口——總之從頭衰到腳,運氣壞到像上輩子欠了整個世界的債。120Please respect copyright.PENANAeOQUabOdVH
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「同病相憐。」我出聲說,單位裡只有我自己聽到。120Please respect copyright.PENANAg8HyPhO8LA
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然後市井好友出場,叼著煙,腋下夾著馬經,湊近主角耳邊說了句話,鏡頭切到主角的臉:眼神從絕望變成一種說不清楚的東西,像被逼到牆角的人,突然發現牆上有一道縫。120Please respect copyright.PENANAFdSeeWrbeY
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下一場,主角走進了一間銀行。120Please respect copyright.PENANACP9XOzWBXn
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我笑著看完整個劫案場面,套路我比導演還熟。主角帶著一大袋鈔票揚長而去,後來還清了債,在旺角盤了間小店,娶了老婆,電影結尾他站在店門口,陽光打在臉上,笑得很安穩。120Please respect copyright.PENANAmikZGALEWX
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電影就是電影。120Please respect copyright.PENANAA1OCY8HFAY
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我站起來倒了杯水,回來拿起遙控器準備換台。但就那樣坐著,握著遙控器,盯著已切換到廣告的螢幕,腦子裡莫名其妙轉著剛才主角數錢那個鏡頭——一疊疊的港幣,厚厚的,手都在發抖,不是因為怕,是因為激動。120Please respect copyright.PENANAJdhlxMBJWa
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五萬塊。只需要五萬塊。120Please respect copyright.PENANA9M96xrSufW
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我知道這念頭很荒唐。我打開手機,搜尋了「香港 銀行劫案 破案率」,看了幾行,把手機放下,深呼吸,對自己說:阿樂你他媽的在做什麼?120Please respect copyright.PENANA3UP2K7p1B2
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我去廚房喝了杯水,走回來,坐下。120Please respect copyright.PENANAEREfaXQWsr
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然後重新打開了那個搜尋頁面。120Please respect copyright.PENANAZBJypHYmVx
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那天晚上母親打電話來,說藥快吃完了,問我方不方便帶她去複診。她的聲音很輕,是那種刻意壓低了擔心的聲音,我一聽就知道。120Please respect copyright.PENANAY3DKdoiXUN
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「得㗎,我安排。」120Please respect copyright.PENANApb988DwMmI
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「你最近點啊?」120Please respect copyright.PENANAK2EVP3R6Ef
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「好好㗎,返緊工。」120Please respect copyright.PENANA9JpwZE990K
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撒謊撒得很順,因為已經練了八天。120Please respect copyright.PENANAVo7O8bymUq
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掛掉電話,我坐在床邊,看著牆上那道滲出來的水漬,形狀有點像一隻彎曲的手。我想起父親死那年,我十四歲,母親一個人接了三份工,她的手那幾年一直是粗的,指節都是裂的,她從來沒在我面前喊過一聲苦。120Please respect copyright.PENANAaRxLowQPh6
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最後我摸出一張白紙和一支原子筆,在紙上寫下兩個字。120Please respect copyright.PENANAMGmSWPBbVY
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盯著看了很長時間,把紙翻過來,扣在床頭櫃上,躺下去,閉上眼睛。120Please respect copyright.PENANAlp4vgxa1bW
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但我知道那兩個字還在那裡。120Please respect copyright.PENANAjweNEmmtig
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