有時候我會想,如果我那時沒有聽到父親跟叔叔說的那句話,或者我假裝自己沒聽到,會不會我與父親,就不會這樣道別了?14Please respect copyright.PENANACvB6IpvbEf
至少父親過去演得很好,那為什麼我不能就配合演出就好?他都那麼努力了,為什麼我連試都沒試呢?14Please respect copyright.PENANASHjmj6f1Vs
我坐在父親的棺木旁,回想我們曾幸福的模樣,可不管我怎麼嘗試,每個回憶都像被上了濾鏡,我沒辦法說服自己那是真的,因為我先入為主地知道,那是父親的表演。14Please respect copyright.PENANAzh5p2JJqQS
「嘿。」衫其拍拍我的肩膀坐到了我身邊。14Please respect copyright.PENANA0PXHs4Ovff
「嘿。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAJikD87Gam3
我們兩個都沒有說話,只是看向窗外下著的雨,可惜父親還沒等雪融完,還沒等到春天的到來。14Please respect copyright.PENANAwnmwFQaSSI
我將頭靠在衫其肩上,他摟住我的腰。14Please respect copyright.PENANAG53z3I2TuB
「最後我只跟他相處了六十七天。」我小聲地說。14Please respect copyright.PENANAYnMixo2ciQ
「妳覺得不夠嗎?」衫其溫柔地問。14Please respect copyright.PENANAIksdX02JmQ
「你覺得夠嗎?」14Please respect copyright.PENANA4LCu4j1wUS
「我覺得妳已經夠努力了。」衫其在我額頭上用力地吻了一下。14Please respect copyright.PENANAq7515rzO4s
「很多事情努力一點用都沒有。」14Please respect copyright.PENANA8Q4a9u40ar
「從妳嘴裡說出這句話真沒說服力,雖然某方面又很像妳。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAAM5dbVOQ4b
「我不知道衫其,我好混亂,這一切…我從沒想過這一天。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAHjs3Co7S54
「沒有人會想過這一天的雅娜,大家都是不得已走到這的。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAWHh6C8SUWB
我深吸一口氣,眼淚又流了下來,衫其伸手抽了身旁的衛生紙遞給我,我向他道謝並接過。14Please respect copyright.PENANAcLnX1JikBm
「謝謝你最後照顧我爸爸。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAYkzZmTtqz6
「那是應該的,他小時候也照顧了我們,每次我們家有孩子生病,他是唯一一個不會因為我們沒錢而拒絕的醫生,甚至從沒收過醫藥費。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAICa7LyCYNz
「可是他有一個問題啊。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAQRmweEE4mh
「什麼問題?」14Please respect copyright.PENANAtQc3VleDML
「他很難找。」14Please respect copyright.PENANA2Xd3NKdcz8
我和衫其都笑了出來。14Please respect copyright.PENANAQokkRYrtWt
「都是我害的,是我害他要逃那麼遠。」我低下頭。14Please respect copyright.PENANAffTrGkOYJl
「嘿雅娜,看我。」我抬起紅腫的眼睛看向衫其迷人的雙眼。14Please respect copyright.PENANAM8OhXTtNKF
「這不是妳的錯,妳必須放下這個想法,妳自己想想,難道他有因為妳去十星後就常回來家嗎?並沒有,我甚至有把握地告訴妳,他自從妳離開後,更少回來了,因為妳不在以後,他更不需要回來。」14Please respect copyright.PENANALtKCQTmb5u
「也許他只是走的太遠了,而一開始,就是我逼他開始走的。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAv8xdk4baCD
「天,妳什麼時候變得這麼鑽牛角尖的。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAlZrKhI5qwu
我拿擤過鼻涕的衛生紙丟他,他笑著將衛生紙踢到一旁。14Please respect copyright.PENANAzyvkfZPIfy
「雅娜,如果妳滿腦子都是這樣認定的,我說什麼妳當然都不相信。」14Please respect copyright.PENANA80sNowDnob
我嘆氣,衫其是對的,但有什麼辦法,我也看不見其他條我覺得可信的路。14Please respect copyright.PENANAoNzcvhCBYg
「妳會回去吧?」衫其忽然說。14Please respect copyright.PENANA3GYVnshxjJ
「什麼?」我有預感又是我討厭的那個話題。14Please respect copyright.PENANAXkLJUvSMNr
「我會幫妳善後的,妳越快回十星越好,最近情況又更糟了,娛樂、教育、交通都停擺了,妳想想現在是什麼情形。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAmakfx5QRHh
「你們就不能有個人,一個就好,不把我趕回十星嗎?」14Please respect copyright.PENANA4RsD2W6Awh
「雅娜,妳知道我們是為妳好。」14Please respect copyright.PENANASl1WEWkT0s
「就是知道所以更討厭。」我嘟囔,衫其笑了。14Please respect copyright.PENANAm4p4wKs5re
「至少為了那傢伙吧。」我抬頭,看見布凱走了進來。14Please respect copyright.PENANAwQx7sgxkjb
「沒意外的話十五分鐘後記得出來吃飯。」衫其起身摸了摸我的頭後便離開了,布凱坐到他原先的位置,將一旁的鼻涕紙撿起來丟到垃圾桶。14Please respect copyright.PENANA7Kt5XZCcTc
「他又再叫我回去了。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAdcz7mHuINf
「隨便妳雅娜,我現在不想逼妳了。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAK9Ulcyfawu
「真的?」14Please respect copyright.PENANA0K3ujLBLb9
「反正妳也不會聽。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAPAtf2cJCmY
我將頭靠在布凱身上,布凱牽住我的手。14Please respect copyright.PENANAKXEzpjyqcE
「妳還記得妳爸叫妳去十星念國中時妳有多生氣嗎?」14Please respect copyright.PENANAxzZ0GsTIqj
「怎麼可能忘記,我那時候都填好志願了就等著跟衫其繼續當同學。」14Please respect copyright.PENANA1RluH3qP7i
「還有我。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAMCdw90Izw0
「對啦對啦怎麼會忘記你,你這跟屁蟲。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAYzo1dPMMZX
「現在想想他真的很有遠見不是嗎?他很早就開始在努媧人的村子義診了,肯定比我們其他人都早察覺到那些不對勁的味道。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAXtDjRuliDr
「少在那邊美化了,他就只是希望我滾遠一點吧。」14Please respect copyright.PENANA01fzV4nS6k
「雅娜!」14Please respect copyright.PENANAo6roDdKj7S
「好啦好啦。」我抽回自己的手,抱在胸前,布凱嘆氣,又將我的手拉了回去。14Please respect copyright.PENANAbys9ehpg6H
「至少不要在他旁邊好嗎?」14Please respect copyright.PENANALm1Z6qc1rF
我看了看身邊的白色棺槨,多麼肅穆純潔。14Please respect copyright.PENANAg6NlBDVtFG
「我們出去走走好不好?」14Please respect copyright.PENANAurf6koHCRJ
「只能在前院走喔,妳別想出去。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAGbIInuwTgB
我翻了個白眼,為什麼我的朋友們都覺得我是個不怕死一直要害死自己的笨蛋呢?14Please respect copyright.PENANAyv5QQLiMvx
「走啦大笨豬。」我起身不管布凱自己往門口走。14Please respect copyright.PENANAhQaf5qkHof
門口,衫其和哈曼正代替我招待來送父親最後一程的人,廚房,采妮與葉代替我張羅著等會兒要供應的午飯,哈爾則在房內繼續幫我處理葬禮的相關事宜,我嘆氣,還能上哪兒找這麼棒的朋友們。14Please respect copyright.PENANAqprrR4Gv9y
布凱牽起我的手,我們走到兒時我們經常一起玩耍的向樹底下,每當我們必須出席在這裡辦的葬禮,通常我們就會躲到這兒玩耍,那時死亡離我們好遠好遠…14Please respect copyright.PENANAzuEF33LiPN
一陣微風吹過,卻沒有從前青草香甜的氣息,相反的,是一股燥熱,我揉揉鼻子想抹去那股不適。14Please respect copyright.PENANATBNugV5ecx
「要進去嗎?」布凱擔心地問。14Please respect copyright.PENANAvJmmQwh7Jx
「不要,進去就不能說他壞話了。」14Please respect copyright.PENANAEZ2edb7tzC
布凱無奈地搖搖頭,忽然一聲悶悶地轟隆聲傳來,所有人都停下動作一齊轉向聲音的方向,遠方伸起一股黑煙。14Please respect copyright.PENANASvbTiWRKZC
「越來越近了。」布凱小聲地說,我點點頭。14Please respect copyright.PENANALXE5ILhhny
14Please respect copyright.PENANAXknvkGzUg6
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第五章 父親
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