Things I feel
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My whole life I've been alone in small towns that hate me
Ive always been alone and well sad since i was 4
No one cared enough to say hey are you okay
I feel so empty and broken like no one gets it
I want to you know be free
Im so sad but i dont want to die
I think i can be fixed and be happy one day
But im so empty ive bled dry
I cant give anymore
Broken that is the word i would say i feel
Alone too
And empty i feel all three
Im just waiting for the day that someone sees
That i dont eat in the morning that i cry myself to sleep sometimes
That im broken from the inside out
Just waiting for someone like them
It feels like no one gets it me who i am
I want to be happy
The happiest person you know could be the most sad and carry the most
Ways to see it
Putting on a smile when not needed and when someone says mean things they brush it off
And their eyes if you look in it close tell a whole different story on how they are feeling
I've just got so used to hiding and smiling i do it all the time
Than after they brush off anything that is mean saying it doesnt annoy me
When it does and they smile about it
Gets happy when someone says they are proud of them
That shows they haven't been told that in a long time
When they make jokes about their past in a funny way
In real life they are hurting saying anything about it
But they think it's a good way to vent
Then they say im good all the time never hey im sad or hey im mad its always im good
Knows how to do crime because their dad and other people taught them how to
Its brutal ways and then they joke about it also just a way for them to vent
It was never easy learning how to use a dagger a sword and a pocket knife
Then on top of all that learning to take eyes out other things
If they joke about that then you know they are secretly venting to you
Saying it wasn't easy
Ive seen so many dark minds in my life kids and grown people hated me
A kid who did nothing to them i was a tool to get rid of anger
Now im older and i see when im being used and i dont like it
No one will get it the way i do
People are brutal and when my dad or mom say the world is cruel
I say you think i didnt know that
I want to tell them you assholes left me when i was a kid
No one cared until i got treated for ADHD and then you care
Rude then you left me to deal with BEING OTHER PEOPLE PUNCHING BAG
I WAS A DAMN KID now look at me I put on a face so no one sees my scars
Then on top on that IM THE ONE WHO FLOODED THE HOUSE TO MAKE SURE
MY SISTERS GOT A BETTER LIFE and who cared no one they didn't when i told them
Now when they are mad at me they say well that's why you had no friends and you think
That doesnt hurt it hurts like shit no matter what I do nothing is enough
I would write my name in my own blood for you but no I get nothing
I was everyone's punching bag kids took anger on me a person can only take so much
And before you speak and say that was in the past NOT TO ME THE PAST AFFECTS ME TODAY I WILL NEVER FORGET IT NEVER I HAVE SCARS THAT WOULDNT GO AWAY
Im broken and i still remember when you too yeah my MOM AND DAD would fight over money over everything dont think i forgot that when my grandma tried to call the cops on my dad wow i didnt know what i was seeing
NOW I DO IM ALONE IM NOT A PUNCHING BAG FOR EVERYONE TO USE
IM TOO BROKEN TO FUCKING USE
And you guys would say the past doesn't defy you yeah it does if it werent for the past
I would be fucking happy now
I CANT FORGET WHAT THEY DID TO ME IM SO BROKEN AND HURT AND SAD
And no one cares enough im waiting and waiting but no you guys forgot so im here
Telling you what you did to your face the past does hurt me and no one cares
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Honestly that is what i would tell my mom and dad next time they say life is cruel
Because i know that if any kid knows that its me and through all of it
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No one has stayed long enough for me to trust so much
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