神樓櫃前擺了一張麻雀枱,卻沒有放麻雀牌和骰子。
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『噠噠、噠噠。』
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計算機被不斷按響,泛黃的厚紙被紅墨和黑墨寫滿了天干地支的計算組合,獨有幾個被紅筆圈起。昏暗的綠罩黃燈下,照得玻璃門上那一大張被打印拼貼出來的巨型香港地圖格外蒼白,一個個小小的紅交叉畫落在地圖上的某處,並在紅磡灣的地區變得密集起來。
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最後紅交叉被連起,成為一個不大不小的圓,圈著紅磡殯儀館區的一幢老舊唐樓。
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「……果然是這樣。」
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承月摘下老花眼鏡,望著那個紅色小圓圈搖頭嘆息。在那紅圈的正東北方——一條小街巷口、跨過馬路後的唐樓上早已被畫上一個黑色小圓圈,上頭的小括號內寫著「Z.Bajwa」。
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不死心的再覆算了兩次,還是同樣結果:黑圈與紅圈之間,不過是一條最多半分鐘就可以走完的街巷距離。這代表什麽?
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她想起前日下午在牌桌上匆匆偷看到的半條紅線,那警告般的燒灼感彷彿又爬上瞳孔,細碎的搖鼓聲於耳朵深處縈迴不去。
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「這個真相你承受不來,蘇克南。」
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她默唸,將胸前那塊小巧的象神佛牌握在掌心,站著認命似的在紅圈上打了個中括號,寫上了四行字:
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三樓C室。
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楊善晞。
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疑蠱降師。
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碎珠之恨,姻緣難償。
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夜晚的廟街人潮洶湧,各種大大小小的攤販立在街巷兩邊,食物的香氣和音響奏起的各式音韻縈於空中久久不褪。
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「蘇哥,咖啡。」「謝謝。」
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香濃的阿拉伯咖啡從紅保溫壺落到紙杯上,披著淺藍披巾的男人接過後拉下了口罩、淺呡了一口,眉眼總算鬆開了些。
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「你要不要先去吃飯?我自己一個沒問題。」
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「承月她很快就到,我半個鐘前將位置share給她了。沒事還是不要走來走去吧。」
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哈姆扎伊關好保溫壺,然後走到一家打烊地舖前的樓梯上坐下,蘇克南走上了兩級樓梯也坐了下來。兩人一邊看著人來人往,一邊靜靜喝著咖啡,誰也沒多說什麽。
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本來就是本地人的節慶聚會,他們只有旁觀。
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「……七年前,我在這裡找銀匠打了一個手鍊吊墜,一個銀做的小搖鼓。」
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蘇克南突然開口,向前看的雙眼似是被什麽點起了一點遠古的光芒。
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哈姆扎伊往前看去,前頭街道上正有一對試穿上中國傳統服飾的母子站在燒魷魚攤前。小男孩看起來不過四、五歲,一手牽著母親,另一手不住搖動那傳統的搖鼓,珠粒碰撞到鼓面而咚咚作響。
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「她喜歡嗎?」他問。
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「喜歡。我繅織了一條紅手繩、串上吊墜送給了善晞,我織得很醜,但她說只要是我做的我送的、她都喜歡——」蘇克南說,這是頭一次真心快樂的微笑:「相識半年就談婚論嫁還想生孩子,很難讓人不懷疑我只是想綁死她來拿身份證。」
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「孩子……成本太高了。」
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哈姆扎伊忍不住皺眉,隨後又以一口咖啡封住自己那也許僭越的嘴巴。社團生涯練就的本能讓他在一聽到那句談婚論嫁生孩子起就開始計算:風險太大、成本太高而且回報率太低,沒任何科學方式能保證一擊即中還能安全產子——所謂冇得包生仔也不過是無法決定性別,但事實上能成孕懷胎本身就已經不是必然能準確計算造就的事情了。以懷孕來綁住一個人的去留,乃至想要用這點來拿居留權是最不明智的;誰能保證對方一定願意負責任?誰能保證入境處會關心孩子享受雙親共存的撫養權益,乃至雙親享受養育兒女的撫養責任?
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文件不夠清晰、紀錄不夠完美、程序不夠「跟規矩」,甚至只是從不透明卻不難猜到的潛規則名額倒數都可以是原因,一句官話就能拆散無數夫妻、無數親子,沒需要解釋任何事。這樣的事情還少嗎——官員會在乎嗎?答案顯而易見。
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「愛一個人,往往是不計成本不問風險的……」
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蘇克南還是笑著,但笑意已然染上了濃重的苦澀;當初他選擇不與善晞結婚、不辭而別,考慮的正正是善晞如果真的為了保住他而結婚懷孕——她真的會這樣做,之後要面對的風險:女人懷孕分娩如被魔鬼日夜追獵般兇險,如果他無法陪伴在側,誰會在她生死存亡之際保護她?她怎樣自己帶大孩子?她怎樣面對其他人「妳老公、孩子的爸爸在哪?正經人家怎麽不陪著妳和孩子?」的異樣目光和質問?她怎樣承受與丈夫生離——有機會守一輩子活寡的孤獨?這道數學題無法如她當年所說般盡全力拉均到最接近平等就可以,因為獨一無二的愛、真主賜予的命定之人(Naseeb wala)無法替補。
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懸崖上的愛情最精彩而珍貴,但風險評估永遠是最殘忍的真理天秤,最合理有利的選擇往往傷人最深。而他寧可自己粉身碎骨,也不想心愛的她被吞心噬魂、永不超生。
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「……承月有答案的話,我會即刻通知你。」「謝謝你,兄弟。」
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送別蘇克南後,哈姆扎伊獨自坐在樓梯上喝著保溫壺裏的咖啡。這次是『壺吹』——不用杯子,直接大口喝,彷彿這份豪氣能沖散剛才腦海裏的風浪。
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身份是最難改變和變現的資產,而人慣望高處,卻總容易忘記自己或者已經身在高處。感恩他是香港人,感恩他的父母選擇在香港生下他——不是最完美的決定,但是最力所能及而正確的決定。
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這份感恩,讓咖啡於舌尖回甘。
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「『壺吹』咖啡咁有創意呀?」
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熟悉的慵懶語調於頭上響起,哈姆扎伊回神就見柳承月站在面前。她背著個白牛仔布餃子袋,燒魷魚足半懸在她的嘴邊,跟她一身如電影般大家閨秀的裝束形成極度鮮明的對比。
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誰家姑娘會以簪盤髻、穿著竹青奧黛和杏白織金馬面裙(聽那些光顧了漢服攤的女生吱吱喳喳是這樣叫沒錯),邊走邊吃燒魷魚還任由那半焦的魷魚足懸在唇間這般⋯⋯草根?
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然而當他順著人體工學線條往下看,就很不意外地找到答案。
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「又係Crocs……」
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他忍不住吐槽,戴著銀手錶的左手十分自然地伸出、張開五指呈半扭狀,扭出一個相對得體的疑問:「而家得十七度,妳對腳唔凍咩?」
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「有著襪架嘛。」
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承月腕掛一袋小食,兩手拈抓起馬面裙兩側的裙褶輕輕拉開,身子中央的裙門微微分開,露出內裡的白色九分牛仔褲和稍露的黑絲襪。
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「黑絲咁薄邊夠暖⋯⋯」「計薄點都唔會薄得過杜蕾斯啦,你有幾可聽到有男人呻杜蕾斯唔夠厚唔夠暖吖?」
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乜嘢類比嚟?邏輯呢師傅?避孕套本質上就唔係用嚟保暖架啦好嗎?
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他正想開口,惠叔多年前語重心長的教誨瞬間於耳畔響起:好男不與女鬥,唔好烚下烚下鏟埋去班女人喥烚埋自己碌寶貝落去呀,班女人癲起上嚟會撿男人啲寶貝拎去煲湯派街坊架。派著碗到你喥你話你飲唔飲好啦?
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「⋯⋯得,妳贏。」
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最終,哈姆扎伊舉手投降,背起斜揹袋起身拍了拍雙手:「妳想食咩?坐低食定掃街?」
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「是但啦,避風塘炒蟹囉。你識拆識食架嘛?我唔落手拆架。」
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回應她的是一下印巴式應許的晃首,和夾雜寵溺的微笑。
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該死的迷人。
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兩人落座於一家海鮮大排檔,其實就在廟街近街尾的位置。各式辛香料和啤酒的味道溢於席間,令秋天的夜不至於太冷。
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「小心呀小朋友。」
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正值上菜之際,哈姆扎伊及時伸手拉開了在滿席食客間跑來跑去的小孩子。
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「多謝叔叔!」
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「做咩咁嘅樣,俾啲細路仔叫叔叔唔好咩?證明你安全可靠呀。」
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撇見那微微抽搐的嘴角和尷尬收回然後開始拆蟹的手,承月忍不住在剝蝦的同時開口調侃。
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「咁妳鍾唔鍾意俾人叫姨姨?」「我Maa……唉,吔蝦罷啦你。」
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哈姆扎伊笑了,將一大塊拆好的蟹肉從天降的椒鹽蝦底抽出,放到她的碗中。「飲唔飲啤酒?」
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「唔啦,寒呀。」
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她擺了擺手,埋頭又剝了一隻蝦。直到碗中堆起了小小的海鮮山丘,她才捨得抬起頭來……
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「乜料?」
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她愣愣地看著眼前的炸蒜撈蔥豉油與百事可樂,然後扭頭看向身邊的男人——他調、他點的?
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「妳嘅。咁妳剝哂蝦就即刻有得食。」
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「你點知……」
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「我表弟同妳堂妹嗰餐訂婚宴,妳剝哂妳同妳堂妹嗰份蝦先停手拎豉油;迎晨將佢嗰碟撈蔥豉油俾妳,妳冇要,問侍應拎咗半碟仔炸蒜同蔥粒嚟自己調,調完先捨得開始食。汽水就……前日同阿巴斯仲有蘇克南去妳間舖喥,神樓櫃每一層都放咗罐百事。」
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哈姆扎伊喝了一口啤酒,獨特的甘味教他眉頭一皺,卻是接受般的抿了抿唇。「妳慣咗先苦後甜,自律。」
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承月呆愣良久,才笑著拍了拍手:「你個腦,巨癲。」
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「大家咁話,靈魂雀后。」
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二人就這樣邊笑邊吃,交換著椒鹽蝦和避風塘炒蟹的美味。啤酒的苦與汽水的甜停留在各自的唇齒間,無從交集。
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「話說,妳查唔查到蘇克南嘅愛人喺邊?」
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齒間剛咬下的蟹肉突然顯得特別辛辣,教人不禁輕嗆幾口。
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「……查到,有具體地址。」
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承月花了幾秒吞下食物,又灌了小數口汽水,稍稍低頭像是在消化喉間的言辭。最後她才慢慢開口:「但係我唔講得,至少而家唔得。」
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「……點解?」
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哈姆扎伊稍稍調息,壓下那股失望夾雜不解的複雜情緒才發問。
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「緣份呢樣嘢,係好重嘅因果嚟。我同你都唔知蘇克南同佢之間到底發生過咩事,貿然插手只會害死哂我哋全部人。同埋有啲嘢……」她搖頭擺手,抬起雙腿盤膝坐在大排檔的膠凳上,杏白的織金裙裳如白蓮花般盛展於桌下。
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「總之你聽我講,勸佢暫時唔好再查落去,夠鐘嗰陣、佢同嗰個女人自然會見返面。」
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「……退一步唔講地址、就咁講邊一區大約邊個位,俾佢撞下彩得唔得?」
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他沉吟半刻後問,再次為同族開口求情:「蘇克南佢同全家反面咁濟、一個人由阿帕塔巴德搬落去拉合爾住咗一年洗哂啲戶籍紀錄底先再搞到working visa返嚟,就係為咗同佢最愛嘅女人堂堂正正喺返埋一齊。而家佢個居留權綁住返工份約,萬一份約出事起上嚟冇人擔保佢、再要走就真係返唔到嚟架啦。」
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「明知咁緊要,咁當初佢唔同嗰個女人結婚?遣返完實包有得好似而家咁轉工簽返嚟?」
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她不由得臉色一冷,看向印巴男人的目光漸漸漫上不滿的寒意。
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「明知九成九冇得返嚟、機會得一次,點解唔係趁仲未出機票嗰陣即刻諗結婚、入紙申請咗受養人簽證先再煩入境處幾時落手踢人嘅問題?佢到底有冇認真諗過點樣解決問題?」
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「……承月,我明。」
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哈姆扎伊輕聲嘆息,心知身邊這個越裔女人有其道理,只有向她奉獻上自己親身剝好的蝦和倒上小半杯啤酒。
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「但係我哋男人唔會想委屈、更加唔會想利用自己真心深愛嘅女人,男人自己嘅問題就應該由男人自己去煩同解決。」
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意料中的反駁沒有出現。
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他和她就這樣各自靜靜吃著飯、喝著啤酒和汽水,任由爭執留著什麽哲學上的傷痕戛然消止。直到伙計呈上了結帳的小鐵盤,他給出一張五百元後,才見到她手上拿著那枝彼此初見時的茶綠電子煙。
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「蘇克南當年冇利用到楊善晞,係佢人品好,但人品好換嚟嘅結果係問題冇解決到。」
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承月悠悠開口,唇間吐出的煙霧吹起了千斤重的質問:「段緣份連個女人嘅意願一齊,被佢就咁單方面被處決咗七年。你覺得,咁樣公道咩?」
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公道。
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哈姆扎伊看著那一陣輕煙,重新思考起何謂公道。
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「唉呀,乜阿彗哥咁好興致,隔咗咁多年先諗咩叫公道呀?」
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只可惜這次未想到答案,就有人來打斷了。他被打斷思考後什麽都沒做,只是看向了從鄰桌帶領一群人起身的那個黑髮黑衣年輕人,手背上紋著個氣流的圖案,像在說今晚要打風。
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久違七年的,腥風。
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待續。
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