昨晚的睡眠，我終於沒有半夜醒來，過去的兩個星期，對我一個這麼「懶瞓」的人，在過去的人生中，發生過半夜醒來的事，真是少之又少，所以，這兩個星期內，真是沒有一天是睡得安寧的。
能安心睡一覺，看來幫助了我的精神復修，今天起來我思考了很多事情，已經無可避免地， PTSD應該是形成了，但正正是因為我自己的經歷，我成長的一切從來都是一條崎嶇的路，就是一路走來所形成的心理韌力 ，能讓我捱過了最艱難的一刻。
今日徹底整理了這段期間的經歷和思維，我知我應該如何做和選擇，不代表我有力量，但至少保留了走路的力氣，時不與我，休養生息也是一個不錯的選擇，未來才能蓄勢待發。
今個星期，先向大家說句抱歉，我選擇了不強迫自己創作，我需要一個短而有效能安穩自己心靈的時間。但……如果我覺得我狀態佳，我也會拿起筆來重新寫作。
現在事先張揚：這星期將不會有任何作品內容上載，但如果見到突然有內容上載，這就是一個bonus，下星期我相信我可以重新出發。等我！
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P.S. 當我感受到恐慌和令人害怕的經歷，為我帶來了：對人的信任開始崩潰時，我發現內心個份對別人的溫暖和同理完全提不起來，經一事確實長一智，但我不想放棄對人的愛與信任，不過此刻的我，的確需要時間。我想起鄭秀文(Sammi Chang)的兩首歌，「信者得愛」和「罪與罰」，在聆聽的過程，我認清了自己想要的選擇，就是我不想亦都不會迷失於痛苦之中。
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