In Maxim’s childhood world, everything was quieter than elsewhere. Even the wind seemed to whisper softer by his window. He rarely cried—not because he was brave, but because crying made his head ache. And everything else ached too. He was the kind of child who could fall ill from a draft, from someone’s shout, from a TV turned up too loud.
His mother always said,295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMyHafWehe
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“You’ve got too kind a heart, Max. It tires faster than the rest.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbMlcL82ikJ
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He didn’t understand then that she wasn’t talking about his heart, but his soul—and that it wasn’t kind, but fragile.
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A small table. Watercolors. A jar of cloudy water. A piece of bread. Maxim paints—carefully, meticulously, as if it’s something more than a picture. He paints a house. His mother. The sun. Himself—a little figure with crooked arms, but smiling.
His mother strokes his hair from behind.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrdnIlTX5l
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“Pretty. That’s us?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtA12EuiCc6
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“Mm-hmm,” he hums.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqrIF2jTJr
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“Why didn’t you draw your dad?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNhX4ollC5
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He shrugs. “No space.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFN0OEgIZDR
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She smiles, but her eyes go sad. He notices—and feels ashamed. He wants to fix it, add his father in. But his hand won’t move.
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It’s just that next to his father, there’s always darkness.
His father comes home late. The smell of alcohol arrives before he does. Sometimes with the heavy footsteps, the door slam, the shouting. His mother shrinks then, becomes smaller, hides her smile in her palm.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyveB2zTEJb
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“Go to your room, sweetheart. I’ll come in a bit.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerJOL3l4eT
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He obeys. Not always. Sometimes he sits by the door, listening.
At first—just voices. Then—thuds. Blows. The sound of things hitting walls. The sobs. The crash of falling objects.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR3B5cMoGNY
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Then silence.
That ringing kind that makes your ears hum. He would press his hands over them, close his eyes, whisper:295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG36hm707B
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Please stop, please stop, please…
And sometimes, it actually did.
That day his mother told him that if he ever got scared, he should hide.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡry9Tyuk9GH
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“In the closet,” she said, opening the door where her dresses hung.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90gVoXotLz
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“What about you?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZD2ZfMR78t
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“I’ll be right there. I promise.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FDeKBEN7p
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He nodded. He believed her completely.
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His mother brews raspberry tea, sweet-smelling. Maxim sits at the table, swinging his legs.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwH6SXtNMXO
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“You’ve got school tomorrow,” she says softly.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvuw95Cv6fV
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“I don’t want to go.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7WXWo6rTT
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“Why not?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHqJGWCPvq
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“It’s loud.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0ZotMWXFi
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She laughs. “But there are friends there.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqy8TFKbei
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“I don’t know how to make friends.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgA9auUBb1V
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“You’ll learn,” she says with confidence.
He smiles. He likes it when she talks like that—as if she can defeat any misfortune.
But trouble never knocks. It barges in.
A slam. The door. A bottle clattering to the floor. His mother turns, no surprise in her eyes now—only tiredness.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmELy0Zlkql
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“Again?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RfWHYKGJX
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“What do you mean again?!” His father’s voice shakes the walls. “Where’s the money, Natasha?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3svw4ywSdO
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“We… talked about this—”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ch5X4jZWg
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“We talked? You talked!”
He staggers forward.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ84B217lfjW
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Mother grabs Maxim’s hand, pulls him toward the closet.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p6cMORDIZ
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“Quiet. Quickly. Don’t breathe,” she whispers.
He obeys. He already knows something bad is coming.
The closet smells of soap and her perfume. Through the crack he can see a slice of the room. His father hurls the bottle at the wall.
“Stop!” she cries. Her voice cracks.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNCVJAzD1j
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He steps closer. His arm rises.
Maxim wants to run out—but can’t. His body won’t move. His insides lock up.
Then—a blow.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfioTWLAkJ
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A dull sound. The crash of glass.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTwRU9tZxk
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And then—silence.
That same silence he would hate for the rest of his life.
When Maxim opened his eyes, the ceiling was strange—white, with a crack in the corner. He didn’t understand where he was at first. The air was thick enough to write on with a finger. Moving felt like a dream.
The system’s voice hovered at the edge of hearing:295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0h4VnxUTG
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[Mode: passive recovery.]
He blinked. His throat was dry. His lips salty—probably from tears.
On the chair sat Lapin. No ears now. Gray sweatpants and a hoodie. Calm eyes, almost curious.
“You lost consciousness,” Lapin said. “For about twenty minutes.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡli5jN6WtYC
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“And the neighbors?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGgfRlTAAw
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“Gone. I convinced them you were sick.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF54hz8TsQ2
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Maxim gave a weak smirk. “Not exactly a lie.”
Lapin tilted his head slightly. “The system warned me. Your psyche is unstable.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBt1oeCqip
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“Yeah. Thanks for the update, doctor.”
He tried to stand, but his legs shook. Lapin leaned forward to help, but Maxim waved him off.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡygmmeagNxd
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“Don’t touch me.”
Silence. The air froze.
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Maxim turned sharply. “Stay out of that.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwtjkTD0Ms0
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“I’m not in it,” Lapin replied calmly. “The signal was too strong.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOdXchSIP5
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“It wasn’t a signal,” Maxim rasped. “It was a memory.”
He sat down again, buried his face in his hands. The quiet pressed in on him.
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Maxim gave a bitter laugh. “No kidding. Thanks, Captain Obvious.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8CEMnPMe8
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“You joke,” Lapin said, “because that’s how you survive.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE15G86zVDU
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“It’s the only thing left,” Maxim murmured.
He closed his eyes. The scene replayed again. His mother. The closet. The glass.
Tears slipped down his face before he even felt them.
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“I know,” Lapin said softly. “The system showed me.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEyzQTS0A5L
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“Of course it did. It knows everything, doesn’t it?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7LbwKShBcP
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“Almost everything. But not feelings. They can only be observed.”
Maxim let out a hollow laugh. “I don’t feel anymore.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUwRCxxT27
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“That’s not true.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoLLSlSSkv
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“It is. I’m just… empty.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7Rns2aF1Y
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“Then where do the tears come from?”
He didn’t answer. His hands still trembled—but not from fear. Just because his body didn’t know what else to do.
Night. He never slept.
Lapin sat by the window, silent. His reflection in the glass looked pale, moonlike. Maxim lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking that once he’d wanted to be an artist. To paint people who smiled. But after that day, he never painted again.
Colors annoyed him. Especially red.
“You know,” he said quietly, eyes still closed. “My mom always protected me. Even when she couldn’t.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1pkIeqdKWy
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“And you wanted to protect her.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPjPEgAKy9
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“I did.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazCwmDPKyL
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“Why couldn’t you?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHY3vgxx01a
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“I was a child.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfZ5uTa1tn
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“But you still blame yourself.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiLxBptSyb
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“Of course. Who else is there to blame?”
Lapin came closer, sat at the edge of the bed.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXTubfTCVE
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“You’re not guilty,” he said. “Weakness isn’t a sin.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEpDpvuE40g
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“For the system it is,” Maxim muttered.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWJuWLxCBr
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“Not for me.”
He turned to look at him.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBb6NKN6jp
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“Why do you even protect me?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNrmkRqMJqy
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“That’s what I was made for.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo9fKstaAvL
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“Can you lie?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡso4AH527W8
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“No reason to.”
He said it so simply that Maxim suddenly believed him.
Morning was gray. Still. The air felt lighter, but inside—still empty.
The system was silent, except for a faint pulse deep within:295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrcupDvGVN
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[Emotional response restored: 12%.]
He smiled without joy.295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uiibsnEog
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“Twelve percent. Progress.”
Lapin poured tea. “You’re still human,” he said. “You can feel.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RtTmKrgHt
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“What if I don’t want to?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULevz6KdQS
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“Then that will be your feeling.”
Maxim rubbed his eyes. “You know, Lapin…”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9hgiEVDF4
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“Mm?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jl2c5y3i0
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“If I ever break again—hide me in the closet.”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajGk8Ncg36
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“Like when you were eight?”295Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKsqI40y8h
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“Yeah. Just… don’t promise you’ll stay.”
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“I won’t promise,” he said at last. “I’ll just be there.”
Light spilled across the floor in pale stripes. Maxim sat on the bed, sipping tea, thinking that for the first time in a long while—he wasn’t thinking about fear. Just quiet.
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And maybe, this time—he wasn’t alone.
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