I was sitting in dark a room, talking to an old friend after a long time. In the background, a childhood favourite song was playing.
🎵𝑭𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆🎵
We talked about random things, university, studies, life in general. It felt good catching up to my school best friend after such a long time. After seeing her in my dreams 5 times in a row, I thought maybe it was my sign to reach out. I sort of missed her too. We were pretty close back in school but then we went to different colleges and drifted apart.
🎵𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉, 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒎𝒆🎵
Our chat remained causal, like we almost had no past together. I had no idea what was actually going on in her life, and neither did she know about mine. I mentioned the dreams to her, she joked about maybe it was because I missed her. I replied with "maybe" and laughed along with her. It was like the dreams almost had no significance or meaning. It was then I realised, the warmth of our friendship had been extinguished for so long that it can not be rekindled again. Now we are just two people with a history together. That was all.
🎵𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒅 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓, 𝑾𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒂𝒎 𝑰?🎵
After a while, she went offline. I felt the loneliness creeping in again. It was not that I had no other friends, infact I had made a few good friends at the new place too but then I had been friends with her ever since I was 7 years old whereas I met the others at 15. While we were still friends, It always felt like we will stay so forever. To me, friendship always felt like this magical thing that stays forever the same, kind of like a happily ever after. Then why, why does this person feel like a stranger?
🎵𝑭𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆🎵
I wanted to talk to her more so I started looking for some old pictures from school to send to her. I just wanted anything to keep the conversation going. After finding some pictures, I sent them to her with an excited looking caption of, "Look what I found, You are so cute in these" like I definitely had not been deliberately looking for them and just stumbled across them by chance. Then I waited for her response but she had already gone offline. "She has got a life, unlike your lazy ass". I said to myself.
🎵𝑻𝒉𝒆𝒏 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒊𝒔𝒉, 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒎𝒆🎵
In all those years, I had changed alot. From being the vibrant, talkative and annoying to this weird loser who can't even look her own friends in the eye. I now was this withdrawn, depressed ass loser watching the world go by with it's harsh and uncatchable speed. I hadn't talked to my other friends in days. Wouldn't it have been better if we never grew up? If we could have stayed oblivious and happy? It's true obliviousness is the key to innocence and happiness. Maybe, my biggest mistake was losing that essence of childhood that I had. The essence that tied me to the hope of one day doing great things and changing the world. The essence that lead me to go on these adventures with my bestfriend in school, when all the other kids were playing catch and we were out there trying to save the world from evil, in our tiny little heads.
🎵𝑨𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒓𝒅 𝒑𝒍𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔, 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒚𝒐𝒖🎵
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𝘕𝘰𝘵𝘦: 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 "𝘈𝘮𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐𝘮𝘶'𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨" 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘖𝘚𝘛𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘢 𝘋𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘯 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘋𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘯: 𝘕𝘰𝘣𝘪𝘵𝘢 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘛𝘳𝘰𝘰𝘱𝘴~𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘭𝘴~. 𝘉𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘩𝘶𝘨𝘦 𝘋𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘬𝘪𝘥, 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘺 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘴. 𝘚𝘰 𝘺𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨, 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭.
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