我買到書了,可惜小晴沒買到想要的。81Please respect copyright.PENANAddl7c5fzcm
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離開書店後,我們就出發去淡水,我很久沒去了,差不多有七年,當時我才初中(國中),跟爸媽一起去的。81Please respect copyright.PENANABvIrs9DPZV
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說到這裡,我......已經有點欲哭無淚,因為,再也沒機會了,我爸這次能否撐過來也成問題。81Please respect copyright.PENANAIUUdQGWiTt
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他已經一次標靶治療,一次開刀和電療了。81Please respect copyright.PENANANrrBBJzGgv
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基本上......已經沒機會了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAQsQSWBzec2
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捷運關門後,車子動起來。81Please respect copyright.PENANAs66qBpg2km
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我和小晴基本上全程沒說話,她自從「生病」後,不知是病還是藥物作用,也變得格外沉默,我們也不知道講什麼,加上開話題我最不擅長。81Please respect copyright.PENANAutrG5D7HLH
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我一向也不怎麼愛說話,其實也不是真的討厭,只是不知道怎麼確保開口後不被討厭,也很難確保自己不會說錯話,老實說,有時候真的不知為何,我很正常地發表自己真實看法,明明沒有人身攻擊,卻容易得罪人。81Please respect copyright.PENANA9PXIPGjsTU
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所以......我習慣沉默了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAm673UduHLJ
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比起說話,我更擅長文字。81Please respect copyright.PENANAYrBV0Ui6rK
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文字可修飾,可慢慢組織,而說話,一發出聲音就等於潑水,收不回來,高手既能細水長流,亦能驚濤駭浪,而我卻總是不小心摔倒,灑得自己滿身濕透。81Please respect copyright.PENANAemTYcEnigQ
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而且,溝通最麻煩不僅要表達清楚,還要照顧對方情緒。81Please respect copyright.PENANAnPIWqUJCJq
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這也是我最不擅長的地方。81Please respect copyright.PENANAuo7h2NKm7K
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人的情緒複雜多變,當中的情結可謂千絲萬縷,一句話可掀起各種波瀾,甚至觸發防禦機制,哪怕一個眼神,也有無數的解讀方式。81Please respect copyright.PENANA3Ye7GeYgi6
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不過,現在我不再小心翼翼了,反正,盡力表達好是我責任,至於他人怎麼解讀由不得我控制。81Please respect copyright.PENANAUkgzDM3jLB
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若某人心胸狹窄,對那人來說,寒暄就猶如髒話。81Please respect copyright.PENANApVGScQYP2O
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若某人風趣幽默,被嘲諷也能當聽笑話。81Please respect copyright.PENANAYM7rIb8oqc
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所以,溝通的責任,不只在表達方,同時包括解讀方。81Please respect copyright.PENANAMZBvjPXfs0
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可是,現實往往不會如此責任分明,甚至,分太清楚反而會被解讀成「自私」。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWxwgnbcZGA
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哈哈,不過真相是......有時候所謂的「自私」,只是你沒能無私地滿足他人的「自私」罷了,那些偽善者很擅長以「無私奉獻」為手段,去要求好人滿足自己,否則就會給對方貼上「自私」的標籤,讓對方感到良心不安。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWUCnmwgR7R
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「謙卑」也類似,當某人一直要你謙虛時,不一定因為你真的傲慢,而是要你滿足他的自大而已,想像一下,若每個人都跟他一樣「不謙卑」,那還有誰聽他?81Please respect copyright.PENANALYeJX26EiX
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所以有時候,道德不再是自我約束,而是成為勒索他人的工具。81Please respect copyright.PENANA5VVT99szge
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同時,當一個人總是表現謙虛,不敢高調,可能只是缺乏被妒忌的勇氣,因為他認為自己沒有足夠力量面對他人的妒忌。81Please respect copyright.PENANA4FrFtiYoFv
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嫉妒可引來惡意,甚至會致命,江湖險惡,人心難測,小心為上比較好。81Please respect copyright.PENANAOhAE2j7R0n
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我不是貶低「謙卑」,而是試圖拆解背後的原因而已,「謙卑」和「表現謙卑」是兩回事,一個是個性,另一個是行為。81Please respect copyright.PENANAvBzdcs9X4v
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而且......我其實也缺乏被妒忌的勇氣。81Please respect copyright.PENANA37b9FNB2dH
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的確,我一直都很膽小。81Please respect copyright.PENANAgXlX8VcTq3
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北城異鄉客
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墨隱藏鋒
ISSUE #17
第十七章:捷運上的沉思
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