窗簾縫隙漏入晨光，Jameson縮在棉被深處，臉埋進枕頭邊緣，睫毛動也不動。
他總是在Walker出門前五分鐘醒來，宛如一株緩慢張開的花，對時間有著不緊不慢的頑固。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCfjki5dAY
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLaW1I998V1
廚房傳來瑣碎聲響，水果刀觸碰木板、烤麵包機。
沒有多餘的話語，沒有擾人的音樂，Walker的早晨井然有序，連空氣都飽含被照料過的味道。Walker做完早餐便出門慢跑，這段期間Jameson可以起床，用餐，等男友回來再一起出門。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyLAeKWCOX
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5t8EZFp7C
Jameson慢條斯理洗了把臉，坐到餐桌邊。早餐擺得挺精緻：炒蛋熟度對他的胃、燕麥奶泡打成他喜歡的厚度，一小碗剛切好的葡萄柚，去掉了膜。Walker從不多問他的口味，平常有注意細節，份量掌握得剛好。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4LNLZjyBN
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjQEOvPb5r
Jameson低頭緩緩吃著，他用餐速度一向不快。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNVyA8ZlWrB
吃到一半發現桌邊放著深棕色的禮盒，卡片壓在上頭。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw3RNR9Jrg
手寫字體一如既往不工整，甚至可以說有點醜。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnjYulxccBg
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKBYP9FR4F
「上班鞋你穿太久了，底部如果磨太薄，腳板會痛。請原諒我私自偷了你的尺寸。情人節快樂。——W」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIxwpXQgAx
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWxi40P8jvw
涼綠色的眼睛微微一怔，Jameson揭開盒子。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpZfiFz3IY
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSVy85rhaW
一雙手工皮鞋，外觀樸素近乎低調，皮革柔軟。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3Q76njFnX
極其耐穿、專為長時間站立設計的好鞋。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVkGcMtc4c
穿了之後，捨不得脫的那種。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZl0AYM9OgX
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhnhM9dWmQ
Jameson低頭看了看鞋櫃旁磨損的皮鞋，靜靜盯著幾秒。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbBgNLxpYe
Walker並不在身邊，只有屋內乾淨的光相伴。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJoPEmWHdX
他把鞋試上，又繫好那雙鞋帶。順順走了幾步，Jameson彎下腰，將舊鞋仔細包起來，用原來裝新鞋的紙裹好，放入廚房門邊的垃圾桶。鞋跟踩在地毯上的感覺格外輕。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6jehwycVe
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqR3SkoEbd
Jameson又走了幾步。他望向玄關前的穿衣鏡，鏡中人唇角竟露出了一個很淡的微笑。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3vtTVzoYRu
摸了摸自己的臉，不曉得微笑掛在上頭多久了？137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGFlMeMgvr
都沒發現。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO226N3fBLW
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE0acrt1cbU
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3dhwU3cPpw
酒吧打烊，天氣轉涼，門外飄著絲雨。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1dwGKV9HE
Walker匆匆而來，站在門邊沒撐傘，身上穿著西裝，領口鬆了，金髮有些亂。Jameson從裡頭走出來時，他正低頭忙著回公司簡訊，手指凍得有點紅。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcF7Pr7eD7o
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOW44WivL6L
「要在外面等我關店，就該帶件外套。」Jameson站在門檻邊，語氣一貫冷淡，將自己的外套披到男友肩上。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81EMacFzni
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJeUaIOjIW
Walker抬起頭，笑了：「這不是你的制服嗎？好小。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMcCfrvPEe
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4v4YO4D8ZC
「小又怎樣，你好冷。」Jameson將Walker往屋簷下拉：「別淋雨裝帥。會感冒。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCXrsyIyrg
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyf8C5B8c21
「我真的冷。」Walker伸手捉住Jameson的手搓了搓：「但你手更冰，調了一晚的酒，都是寒意。」他把外套披回Jameson身上。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGcFXXESocP
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DqFJKVfhh
Jameson沒有回答，一起走到停車處。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyHob2VXcM
他這次主動打開副駕駛車門，歪了歪頭，讓Walker上車，自己繞到駕駛座。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKuctYW0YI
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDiaHagKLK
「咦？不回家嗎？情人節開車帶我去哪裡？」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE40dFu6pYO
Walker笑問，感覺是某種情侶的小把戲：「好神祕，我有點怕。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRcncJdNKJ
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1C9mx3UFr
「沒多遠。」Jameson發動引擎，聲音低穩，目光望向前方，連一絲餘光都不給Walker：「只是……回禮。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBoDYbG6LBu
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJUbEUrVnG
車開了不過十五分鐘，Jameson在一間深夜還亮著的小麵包店前停下車。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVE3rtOo0P
門上貼著「每日限量」的字樣，裡頭剩一盞燈和一個老闆娘在關櫃。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyRdmIpjT3
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Q5tLVeF2u
「你之前說……這家牛角麵包你學生時代排過四次都買不到。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSlNX6Z7Hws
Jameson說得雲淡風輕，語調一如往常沒什麼起伏。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡherH4VybMv
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1JCsGpeXI
Walker看著他下車，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlhcq8RMXfw
順利從店家拎出來預約好的小紙袋，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZUqqqzCYf
眼睛一瞬間變得亮。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIK9xzrl549
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ZVrFsBSRH
「怎麼還記得？」Walker低笑著問。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUf0jWpgQ8
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqbcpadc9J8
「你說那時考試壓力大，就想吃個熱的牛角麵包療癒一下，結果排不到幾次，學生沒時間在那邊等，就放棄了。」Jameson將紙袋遞給他，頭轉向窗外：「我只是想……讓你吃吃看。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEE5ni1BcC
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaHdlBVea6
牛角麵包還是溫的，牛油香氣混著雨夜的濕氣在車裡散開。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgKuJ1E2hq
Walker拆開袋子咬了一口，什麼話都沒說，安靜地吃著，然後在咬到第三口的時候，忽然停下。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrchr1pcdzy
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yVtdkgRhE
裡頭夾著一張摺好的小紙條，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1p3Qxbwtt
Jameson平時用的端正字體，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91vKwatlT5
一筆一劃寫得極其工整、明顯花時間慢慢寫的情人節小卡。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmkCpZXMy8
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89S7TxslrV
——你在我腳底放了一場春天。我也請你，吃一場春天。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFMnk1wHzp
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPXW8lTQQlR
Walker沒有笑。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwTkMQ3oMe
他看著那張紙，腦袋發熱，麵包哽在喉嚨裡。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWaXJk89k4
他想說點什麼，但Jameson已經發動車子，低聲說：「回家。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmCPEk1JsR
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡambG3zIljb
回家的路很短，安靜極了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZK7vsE0nRY
他們沒有開音樂。即使如此，仍然有種幸福的氣氛。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsozsr3dFy
Walker知道，他手中那股酥脆的熱，會留在心裡很久很久。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡauge11x4ec
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSXnWgSSUx
「Jameson。寶貝。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ580VozocJ6
「不用謝。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEsSkzf96p
「我沒有要謝，但你想試試一邊開車一邊被口交嗎？」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotlsyE6XZb
「不想。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPM2PT1MZrf
「你確定……」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DJJjunLGh
「確定！」Jameson紅了紅臉，握緊方向盤，專注開車。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbAvPULQLaF
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSkLaKkDTQJ
情人節過後Walker連續忙碌了好幾天。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pIFLS2k0j
最近工作順利，幾乎是肯定會有升職的機會，當然，要付出更多的時間，他估計自己要忙到九點半才有辦法離開辦公室，現在是五點半，他傳訊給男友說不能一起吃晚餐了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC58Ez24LkA
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FpfvpijBv
「沒關係。」Jameson很快便回覆：「習慣自己吃。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx9PvQiDVO
乾脆得像他整齊排放的調酒器具。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvxbfDIRiI
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRggW2n62Cx
Walker站在電梯裡，一邊揉著太陽穴一邊下單外送。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWkUsrkeGb
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwgFBmkDel
雞胸沙拉、起司通心粉、加點半塊烤鮭魚菲力，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsSU2UEFPF
他把地址填上酒吧門牌，再備註：「麻煩寫上『給Jameson』，他不會說太多話，但會收。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXmHVqJskKy
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmlOvmH9k3O
他知道，Jameson不喜歡高調，也不擅長接受照顧。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZztv2c9BYf
總是穩穩端起烈酒的手，拿刀叉時用餐小心翼翼，略帶愁容。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeYAHYVZAi
吃飯速度不快，從不浪費一點醬料、一粒飯。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonEWus1lpi
習慣太久的「不夠吃」。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsBuLMrqor
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0n6qs2Ho0X
Walker最初只是覺得，咦？
這人吃飯態度怎麼跟所有人都不一樣。
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqgqMfrBUn
後來才明白，那是某種程度上，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJs4MIZgog7
還沒走出餓壞了的童年創傷。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eFKA49GY4
他發了一則訊息：「別再天天吃即期微波餐了，我點了一些東西給你，記得吃，拜託。」加了個笑咪咪貼圖，一個手合十的狗狗貼圖。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFqNwk78Sw
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6GrhFKCUb
Jameson隔了五分鐘才回：「不用特別點……我習慣了。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMPgFwsJ8qy
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmP6hMcCe6t
Walker望著那簡訊，疲倦的眼神忽然變柔。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAY6NnurT60
他回了最後一條。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91CDxv5jkX
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCWpAi5dAK
「那我們一起來習慣吃一些不同的，好嗎？我在公司也點了一樣的東西，就像隔空吃情侶餐，很浪漫的。陪我嘛。陪你最喜歡的男友。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhKJtR4gGF
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcS3VMPm6pY
沒收到回應。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjBcjHAzyQ
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMUq1x1w6z
深夜Walker開車去接他時，吧檯擺著開過的白色紙袋。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kwjv3RoJi
裡面是吃光的餐盒，醬汁刮得乾淨，乾淨到發亮。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwDghHI9ep
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLV8pggLIU
Walker勾起嘴角，從背後靠近在收杯子的黑髮人影。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJX1KpFVYQs
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGCl5eMZGy
「我親愛的好乖。」Walker冷不防揉亂Jameson的黑髮，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLuQsHp1eF
Jameson瞪圓眼睛，耳朵悄悄紅了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1EsHg80ra
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRbevJQmJ6
晚上，客廳開一盞黃燈，落在地毯上。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKhzGxju4F
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZEACwtXJx
Jameson說要謝謝Walker幫他點外送，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pAvKTvmrx
自告奮勇提供特殊服務。按摩。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nZL9VdxXR
Walker聽到時興奮得不得了，滿腦子亂七八糟的情色畫面，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVYT8P4VmC
褲檔直接搭了好大一包帳篷。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ssb74nkoM
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8iGBGAqqW
沒想到，親愛的小冰山口裡的按摩就，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfdX6dBP9h
真的是按摩。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeO7TDNNaie
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9l2go5idY
他絕對沒有失望。那也夠好了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWfV7Dm1T93
他真的真的沒有失望。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgwM5OfHMu
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6qk7DpM48
Jameson安靜地幫Walker按腿。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8kZoPG4rg
他指節修長，用力時掌心穩定而微涼，一下一下揉散Walker肌肉裡緊繃的疲憊。Walker趴在沙發上，額前有汗，忍不住低聲呻吟，被壓出舒坦與酸楚。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsmD9P2euE
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBLklM4wQA8
「你知道嗎？」Walker茫茫睜眼，看著眼前滿臉認真的男友，一字一頓地說：「以前我媽總說我是模範兒子。可是現在……我想當模範老公。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQUWuhiuHX
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRZoKozTt1F
那句話在空氣裡浮起來，靜了一拍。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0w3HqbFW6G
這完全就是求婚。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BtILWBeh6
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7gOPQy69L
Jameson沒笑，也沒有第一時間說話。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioWYuIxSi5
他差點忘記呼吸，雙手仍然有節奏地按著，耳尖悄悄染紅，那份紅像從心臟往外透出的情緒，不張揚。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fyWmggx7d
他一直按，等到Walker的腿都放鬆下來了，才低聲回話：「你這樣會讓我以後不知道該去哪裡，因為……其他地方沒有你。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmWyJ8ayws
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuahfL9zvB8
Walker伸出手，戳了戳Jameson的胸口，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfyxPigr4S
笑得像個得逞的大男孩：「那就讓我住進你心裡就好啦。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ05QDKkv313
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdoNpwT7jH
「你在裡面了。」Jameson聲音帶了一點羞赧，不小心泄漏了自己長久壓抑的真相。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIMjfZnqyP
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBgxjxwTk9
Jameson轉過身想離開時，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhvV6ed7Q5b
Walker主動從後面伸出手，把他摟入懷裡。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aPEEi59sS
手臂圈得很緊，那種不說出口讓人無處可逃的依戀，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqOxkfrii0
比任何語言都清晰。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vGpJVcpkz
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaLtp1YWbU
Walker在他耳邊低聲呢喃：「我想你也發現了，公司一直讓我加班。最近會越來越忙，我可能有個升職機會……但我每天都會記得愛你，不管有沒有說出口。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqlBdXkMs3
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRHJUkFNnh
Jameson沒有立刻回答。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1hxDlJaDO
他吸了口氣，像是確認自己還被摟著，體溫還貼在脊背，才用幾乎聽不見的聲音說：「你有。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGPLcnRdvd
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBxpk3JkWR
「有嗎？」Walker低笑：「我不記得我有天天說我愛你啊。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vKhkRk3QU
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡglM31CRF9O
Jameson隔了幾秒，才慢慢轉過臉，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSwUMs93Ga
側面的瞳孔裡瀰散著一些溶解的碎光。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTCP9lhiNu
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYBu7AwT7F
他憂傷地回了一句：「你有。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpZE1jalSH
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGDok9Wemn
那聲「有」像是交付，也像是一種體認。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNnRAN653r
Jameson每天清清冷冷看似沒在意，卻將Walker所有付出放在心底。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HJWV7HXhl
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8OMYXNnVq
Walker下巴擱在親愛的小酒保頭頂，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CTyOGJjcr
繼續摟著，把他往自己心口按了按。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QUsap52Jk
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpj0BH5xpF
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRH7HKmBA76
Walker真的變得更忙。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAlLVg63t4
聲音開始更急促，電話越來越多，應酬越來越頻繁。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvwoMre1VG
Jameson知道他開心。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogFzD6vgyc
Walker曾經開玩笑說，過去的他當社畜，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMdNTGkUPz
是處理一堆雜七雜八的鳥事，現在當比較專業的社畜，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZxh92pAfR
是處理比較重要的鳥事，雖然都是鳥事，但至少比較有成就感。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0pfY8bRxa
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXKSfCsxGo
Jameson替Walker高興，也不敢打擾，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpohDdB5OeV
有時得自己上下班。Walker回到家常常倒頭就睡，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUHKOpDHDl
連外套都沒脫，Jameson會給他剝掉大衣、擦過臉，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymIRkSF70u
再給他一杯水，無聲地放在床頭。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡftWE63pHsM
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34HSowpIUw
那晚Walker終於沒睡著，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYJpNzco6k
反而是暈呼呼坐起來，把水喝掉了，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMBp9hRxMX
然後把杯子放下，凝視Jameson正要收杯子的手。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡci3LulLBNa
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoESrW4vyB
「我一開始以為自己只是喜歡你為我調酒，」Walker聲音帶一點沙啞。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWArqBjbh4O
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoExEpfwbFn
「後來才知道……我愛上的是你會說話的眼神，以及那雙藏著世界的手。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShru90Mlb1
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7sWI8bSMs
Jameson沒有抬頭，像被凝視和言語燙到了一樣，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhIs7IxpSr
把手收回去，慢慢地，握緊了杯子：「眼睛是不會說話的。我自己都不知道說了什麼。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU84gJ7LoMV
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1WvXrQwdI
「會的。」Walker湊近了一點，聲音更低：「你用眼神說的話，好多好多。也是我想努力工作，活得更好的原因。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLOtZs3VV1
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQvMGC0oYDo
Jameson終於抬頭，看見Walker眼底的疲倦與熱。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWYCEKJy7z
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdPSo9tiBlU
「你該睡覺。」他小聲回應。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡufT4PoknKC
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOK4EP5oiFI
後來有一兩天，Walker開始在公司過夜。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyluEXgWrH
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgyFybjZKC
Jameson獨自坐在沙發，電視開著，畫面全無聲音。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbvIPkMvk7
他有時候會想等Walker回來，但又不說他在等。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzx1owCR0Wq
這是不曉得第幾次，Walker沒有準時回家。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXvjCGbAjI
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB02lxEZvVA
訊息依舊會傳來，語氣輕鬆：「會晚一點，別等我。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMQN8khiTPg
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMU3Gsysyyf
外送也一樣會準時送到，貼心地選了他愛吃的，不辣、熱量適中。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfYCFdkSKTm
然而Jameson吃得更慢了，連底部的醬料都沒刮乾淨。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpmE0e3OrI
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo714Ww9WVm
當Walker拖著疲憊的身體進門時，已經接近一點。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFAHEEPwS6
他看見沙發上的人，明顯愣了一下：「還沒睡？」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivyJoycT11
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR74cQ9VSkk
「本來要睡的，後來不想了。」Jameson淡淡地說，語氣沒有責備。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGqsYkKLId
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdp1TV7Pt7l
Walker脫下外套，走進客廳停住：「你會不會覺得……我只剩工作？」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHX85SI9NOX
Jameson聞言抬頭，神情仍然冷靜，甚至帶了點奇異的寬容。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi76svtf5n
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswE4Acdq1y
他沒有正面回答：「我不會成為你在成功道路上的負重。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCTmUR07bT
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOkdwtURXf
然後停了幾秒，目光落在窗外城市的燈火。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTb9Pyk3so
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZO5oXYfPrF
「但我也不是旅館夜燈。你如果會回來，我大概會亮著。不回來，我就自己熄了。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHaErcbFXF
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrdPWtDcu6
語氣平靜，沒有抱怨，像是闡述一個事實。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucVIT7XeRL
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcPBXiWp1A
Walker的心猛地一縮。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMm3xRv40jS
他走近幾步，坐下，試著靠近對方。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYep7FXOZq
Jameson身體沒有傾過來，讓他貼著。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUh8wGtU1b
這讓Walker難受。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDa3Pc31k5W
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaiXh23W7w
「我不是不想回來，J。」他低聲說：「是我怕自己不拼命，就給不了你好的生活。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Op7X32SUU
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUc9MfZT2PL
「跟你在一起，不是為了讓你養我。」Jameson臉色有點發青，拿起遙控器將電視關了。「我從來沒奢求什麼好日子。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUl1cTbuhg
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHsXtJPznV
Walker下意識抓住他的手，但被避開了，自然地收回。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjwgaiYkSM
比拒絕還讓人痛。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcAwwC4WYAm
他想起Jameson曾說過的一句話。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx3SGcORS9u
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl2INs1LVeE
我寧願餓，也不喜歡欠人情。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYY4N4GZta
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTmga1JX4x
那時他還笑著說我的小冰山怎麼這麼倔，現在知道了，那是傷痕。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrvvcjVfP5
他剛才那些話，把自己的愛包裝成了餽贈，也就是「債」。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Rrm14bGg6
Jameson站起來走向臥房，背影平靜而冷淡。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMDnNXcZUc
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrvQby1CKko
Walker沒有追上去，他坐在那盞還亮著的燈下，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGkeSwAi5u
被某種難以挽回的東西劃開了心口。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhER9JUQUm3
他知道自己說錯話了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3TujbrJTm
他本想衝進房裡解釋，告訴Jameson那句話的真正意思，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmG6nN1FUu
告訴他他從來沒想讓他「欠」什麼。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGxnrIv5IM
腳步在沙發邊就停住了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjYvAzCCHx
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6i4fnkf4b5
Jameson提過前任是怎樣一個人。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUi6RJAOkm
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5oxM5cA2uR
用言語讓人裂開的人。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxDlXyZ7yR
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtde42icysc
我幫你，是因為我愛你，所以你最好不要拒絕我，不然就是不愛我。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBpjRjmYXw
我又不是要什麼了不起的回報，你怎麼總是配合得那麼不快樂？137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDoLIAQYQ8
你什麼都沒有，我還不是照樣收留你這個麻煩？137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡta680BtTuP
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP8gBr9rkT
Walker閉上眼，頭緊緊靠著沙發背。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfSsVriaGH3
被那些話壓得喘不過氣。剛才他說的是什麼白痴話？137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdpTAjNHuY
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhoxfTNdXN
「我怕自己不拼命，就給不了你好的生活。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEAvYY8jv9
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegXKSVKxbp
這不就是那種「我這麼辛苦這麼累都是為了你」、「我真棒你應該接受我的好意」的老路嗎？甚至也是媽媽常用的「我已經安排計劃，你只要照著走就會過得很好」。不是同一個人，重演相同的痛，他痛恨那樣的人，在無意中，卻也踩進了那樣的輪廓。那種語氣像在討賞，替自己努力的缺席辯解。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hQZ2YYqXs
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibRLagmH9k
Jameson，從來不是那種會讓人「為他負責」的人。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNnpZKKzL6
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne69AzHYqC
他站起身，緩緩走到臥房門前，沒有開門，靠著門板，低聲說：「Jameson，我只是想讓你知道，我真的很想讓你過得好。但我……剛剛說錯了，我所謂的過的好，不能是你不想要的那種好。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5JTrVXVtZ
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxxqin8uN9V
Walker等了一會兒，房裡沒有聲音。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRxAR8832q
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDE7ZpSbhcW
但沒關係。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYUBF7VwrjF
有些話，是要讓人靜一靜才聽得進去的。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3XMz4tp8w
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqfqP5Bqhh
Walker胡亂去洗了洗戰鬥澡，一頭栽入沙發裡，拉過毯子蓋著。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwf85ERVceu
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsGG7Uh1qD
客廳剩下燈聲與呼吸聲。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUJGJGludm
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZ4tKyTIMD
臥房門打開一條縫。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1POhyD3dIg
Jameson站在門邊，他換了睡衣，神情淡淡的，臉上僅有安靜，如冰河般的靜。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJQHFkHw77
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGThdRnDUZ
Walker渾身血液凍結，一動不動地望著他。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡziBV7l8BRf
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxFM2vbhOs
Jameson說了一句話：「進房睡覺。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB7sOeN6qs
神情淡漠，但卻是這晚最溫柔的話。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjZZUzezm6
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEcAwgN9D8
Walker慢慢走了過去，在門口站定。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaNTTukju6
Jameson轉身走進房裡，留門開著。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs536pJC3f3
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAXLBGl3R8
Walker看見床頭已經放了水、睡衣，還有幫他整理的公事包。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡperxsNi205
連手機充電線都接好了。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoc4J4qsvUw
原來Jameson進來是在幫他整床。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JCrBlpPGt
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYBoBP2P69
Jameson什麼都沒說，坐到床邊，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjZFxg7KGx
翻開自己的書，彷彿剛才什麼都沒發生過。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzbRPSREeR
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxW36RUf5gM
Walker在他身旁坐下，低聲開口：「謝謝你還讓我進來。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLp07MyR74d
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NHFRqOJ0I
Jameson翻了頁書：「這是你家。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDybs0FGavk
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXXIk1UNiF
「這是我與你的家。如果你不想我在，我會滾的。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qpECPVD0J
Walker垂下眼，看著那些整理好的東西：「但我真的想留在你身旁。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSyoZ7Z6Dk
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonpXiYINZQ
這句話像針，扎進Jameson的心裡。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmDOjXGkojg
他闔上書，終於轉過頭看他：「那你記得，別用犧牲的那種方式留下來。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFekggioZE
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0sYUP4YTP
Walker連忙搖頭，急急地說：「我不是、不是想讓你欠我。我只是……太想把所有好的東西都給你，結果講錯了。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXUBi78Qca
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEsVlD1x3c
他偏頭靠近：「可以原諒我的笨嘴嗎？你只要收下我就好。我這個人。你最喜歡的，好不好？」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTUItfeKwx
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcazrX3rxDE
Jameson望著他，眼神終於柔了下來。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasNk8oBw1t
一點點微光，在他眼底悄悄浮現。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrDUBLazwT
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTSqMePCAo
然後他輕聲說：「幫忙關燈，睡覺了。」137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAFS1khXcg
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GW07tOvSG
Walker乖乖起身去關燈，再走回床上，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmqDkZFfEa
拉過被子，躺下。兩人之間有段距離，137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFGmWrHgv1
但他忍不住伸手去觸碰對方纖細的手腕。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0z5JaOXvZ
137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgHPgaa5gX
Jameson讓Walker撫著他的一寸肌膚，默許靠近。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR07UK6udQy
這一夜。這一月。這一年。
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或許這一生。
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Jameson靜靜鉤住了Walker的一指。137Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAyci60vEHT
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