No Plagiarism!yFZWThJbHJT8UEACOG9aposted on PENANA 森下大叔經營著一間快被城市遺忘的二手書店。書店藏在一條狹窄巷弄中,鐵皮招牌的字早已褪色,只剩模糊的「森書」兩字還能辨認。書店不大,木製書架擠滿了泛黃的書本。空氣中總有一股舊紙的氣味,混著濾泡咖啡與煙絲殘留的味道。8964 copyright protection19PENANA7DRO6qd6em 維尼
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森下住書店樓上的閣樓。那是個比起房間更像倉庫的地方,只有一張木床、一個小書桌、幾箱舊報紙。他笑說:「人老了就沒什麼想要留的東西。留下的不是喜歡的,就是不想整理的。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAUEYscojaSX 維尼
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我第一次踏進那間書店時,聞到的不是書的味道,而是一種——「這裡不會馬上趕你走」的氣息。8964 copyright protection19PENANA0S8wzctDSF 維尼
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大叔沒問過我的過去,也從未顯得好奇。他只是用一貫平淡的語氣說:「不想說就不說吧。這裡規矩簡單:不偷、不騙,不對別人惡意動手。如果妳做得到,這裡就是妳的家。」但他依然不知道,我不是不想說,而是不記得。8964 copyright protection19PENANAnFUQgUVTG6 維尼
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隨後,我點頭,真的住了下來。8964 copyright protection19PENANA9OpfaZaiSF 維尼
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我的床被安排在一樓書店角落的儲物間裡。那裡擺滿了書架未能容納的書堆,一盞小檯燈、一條毯子是我僅有的生活設備。8964 copyright protection19PENANA7WecGCSCdZ 維尼
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我不太看書,因為大多數的字都看不懂。我更在意的下一餐飯、冬天的暖爐和衣服夠不夠穿。8964 copyright protection19PENANA4SIwECEQB8 維尼
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過了不久,大叔平淡的對我說說:「妳也該去念書了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAGj2hcW4qgV 維尼
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我沒什麼反應。讀書,是陌生詞彙。8964 copyright protection19PENANAUaBTIWttFU 維尼
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「十二歲還沒上過學,怕是登記時會嚇人吧,」他點了一根煙,聲音平平。8964 copyright protection19PENANAbr3dmbvrKX 維尼
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辦入學時,行政人員面露難色:「這麼大了從小一開始,有點困難吧?」8964 copyright protection19PENANArYLNefG8Lf 維尼
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大叔只回:「笑就笑吧,笑聲又不能當飯吃。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAbQ21CezeyR 維尼
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落櫻進了學校,從最基礎的一年級開始。她原以為會被排擠、會跟不上、會出洋相。但她錯了。8964 copyright protection19PENANAqlvk5wnZn0 維尼
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記憶力異於常人的她。注音符號聽一次就全記住,乘法表只花一晚就倒背如流。她可以默寫整段課文,甚至記下老師課堂上沒有寫進講義的比喻,對他來說,強大的記憶力早是在孤兒院所需要的生存技能。8964 copyright protection19PENANAkTr7xnw3z3 維尼
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不到半年,她從一年級跳到了二年級,再過半年直接升上六年級。國中與高中她各跳過一年,每次都是通過冷靜的測驗與無懈可擊的筆試。8964 copyright protection19PENANAJbRQ9m0ppQ 維尼
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她不參加社團、不交朋友。只讀書,像完成某種交易又或者是任務。8964 copyright protection19PENANA5JB7rALMtL 維尼
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她知道——如果能證明自己「有用」,就不會被丟掉。8964 copyright protection19PENANAnsTfYteKFO 維尼
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她不是為了知識去學校的,她只是學習「人是怎麼活著的」。8964 copyright protection19PENANA8FpWLvsDnJ 維尼
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上大學時,她的年紀終於與同學一致。8964 copyright protection19PENANA8BwTl3eQ6q 維尼
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某天,森下端來一碗湯:「妳現在可以說自己是『正常人』了,感覺如何?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAWE2U3c0SdU 維尼
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落櫻低頭喝湯,淡淡地說:「普通。就是,沒人會再問我為什麼比別人大。」8964 copyright protection19PENANA5oSIUTRZlN 維尼
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「那不錯啊!」8964 copyright protection19PENANAOfAQiyueNY 維尼
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「不錯……但我也不記得自己什麼時候當過小孩了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAaoVpTj0L2l 維尼
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笑得很平淡,語氣像在陳述別人的故事。8964 copyright protection19PENANAb4GYrVGDto 維尼
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書店的生活仍然簡單,我也開始習慣。8964 copyright protection19PENANAOvGu2DJbtr 維尼
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大叔煮飯不算特別好吃,但總是溫熱的。我坐在桌邊,我遞筷子給他,不多話,但總會吃完,再把碗洗乾淨。8964 copyright protection19PENANA04N18A9qr1 維尼
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偶爾夜裡她睡不著時,大叔會坐在樓梯口說:「我會在樓下,別怕。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAmrU6KbbjnU 維尼
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這樣的話聽久了,也就成了一種保證。8964 copyright protection19PENANA9vrxi2oYrO 維尼
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我從不會把過去掛在嘴邊。對大叔說過一句最長的話是:「你應該很好奇吧,為什麼我要記得這麼多東西。」8964 copyright protection19PENANA9X2H1racja 維尼
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可大叔只是搖搖頭:「記得多不代表理解多,有些人只是把痛苦記得很牢而已。」8964 copyright protection19PENANA3C3dowXjBE 維尼
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他說中了,我沉默許久,說:「有時候我覺得腦袋太清楚,是種懲罰。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAPki5VjnGiN 維尼
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我越來越能預測人性。誰會說謊、誰在試探、誰只是好奇。我都懂,但不想靠近。8964 copyright protection19PENANAJwPJxXd3tl 維尼
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很快,我記住書店所有書的位置、哪本賣過、哪本標錯價、哪本常被翻卻從未賣出。大叔說我有當騙子的潛力,我笑笑:「如果我學會騙人,第一個要騙的,一定是我自己。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAXYY2Nc2zFc 維尼
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森下點煙:「哈哈,人類從出生就在幹這件事了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANABfgvGq1xEB 維尼
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有一回,有位顧客問:「妳是老闆的女兒嗎?」8964 copyright protection19PENANAabFsvcY4fG 維尼
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我搖了頭。8964 copyright protection19PENANAklYAygUXhD 維尼
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「那妳怎麼住這裡?」8964 copyright protection19PENANASBmTsK0p3c 維尼
「這裡讓我住,我就住下了。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAxPr07eF7Jr 維尼
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沒說這裡是家。我不信那種東西。8964 copyright protection19PENANATbiLJBWWgl 維尼
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多年後,回想起那間書店,記得的不是哪一本書,也不是哪一餐飯,而是那句話:「妳做得到,這裡就是妳的家。」8964 copyright protection19PENANAcGH54B3lXn 維尼
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我做到了,活了下來,讀了書,沒偷沒騙,也沒對誰惡意動手。8964 copyright protection19PENANAC4yIZ4ZgZM 維尼
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所以,我把這段人生,勉強稱作——某種意義上的「被接納」。8964 copyright protection19PENANAf0PNih05iF 維尼
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只是,如果當年森下沒有伸手,她也不會開口。8964 copyright protection19PENANAIgZSfbzcyJ 維尼
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因為我清楚——8964 copyright protection19PENANA3sR5kCVakw 維尼
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乞求溫暖,比承受冷漠更丟臉。8964 copyright protection19PENANAn2m4jEQ1GU 維尼
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