What is a letter/note you've always wanted to give to a loved one but never had the courage to? - “A Love That Was Never Mine to Keep”

There’s something I’ve carried for years.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CvJ06AYEE
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.

We were best friends.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGkv31LJi5
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyg628B2MS
And I held them all like tiny treasures.

But somewhere along the way…569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGphAUP7ks
I fell in love with you.

Not in a loud, dramatic way.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdp0SoqXjLV
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qj7XblNvD
I just… loved you.

In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGCGXE65Wi
In the spaces between your words.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVh4bUotvCc
In the silence after your voice.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3NRuW1Dic
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.

I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYseIrXvZf
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7aGJQI2Sb
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeVCf7nKtx
I lost a little piece of myself.

Because I wasn’t just your friend.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVgCMonc7j
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk2Y9aOFSVi
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7EcJqsZvq
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.

But Zuni, it did.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxBrOn3QPN
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.

The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYTP5oWSLQ
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdQAvdQwzI
Your laughter that came after anger.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxqvsb4MOuu
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39BBFFRiHp
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.

I remember the night I sent you that video…569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiHHnjIPEk
That baby crying, and the words:569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qAKORk0iw
“No one ever says they miss me…”

And you replied —569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jlaQBqcGu
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”

Zuni…569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAnAETzKnc
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhB9Gb1cYq
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqb5I03be3T
And it still wasn’t what I needed.

The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4m8WeO9OA
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpubrcvp0c
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZF1DHDqALA
But never the one thing I wanted to be.

We still talk.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2YY223Kvt
Every day.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosjvAx34fW
Like everything is fine.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFaDEz21aT
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.

But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrU44SUYadA
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.

And you’ll never know.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzxuss587L
Because I will never tell you.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tQD4oAsPZ
Not because I’m afraid —569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzCJahAp3b
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.

Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqzjdkmithi
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.

So I do.

I pray that you are always happy.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRh6adt0sZ5
That your heart is always full.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdYUKsnP00
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6jQNHp5RcV
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Uo9tgDNKm
You’ll think of me.

Not as the friend who stayed.569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRHHkTLDFW
But as the heart that broke —569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiH25zj3mO
And still kept loving.

Always,569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43rG8q1mwB
your friend...................569Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaa8uV3g3E
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.

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