當那句「希望這是一門好親事」落下時,鈴蘭胸口像是被什麼重重壓住。
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她垂下眼,悄悄收回視線,再也吞不下那一口甜點。過了一會兒,她咬了咬嘴唇,聲音輕輕飄過餐桌:「……我吃飽了。我先回房了。」
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「咦?」花園雅治愣了一下,語氣帶著關切。
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母親花園桔梗則只是淡淡又溫柔地說:「沒關係。女孩子的心思,確實需要時間消化。」
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鈴蘭站起身,裙擺隨著步伐輕輕晃動。她沒有回頭,她怕自己只要一轉身,就會將那些藏不住的情緒,全部洩露。
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君嶋靜靜站在一旁,目送她的背影消失在轉角,神色如常,只有手指,在托盤邊緣,輕輕握緊了一瞬。
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她一回到房間,就反鎖了門,蹲在米白色的地毯上,終於再也忍不住地哭了出來。
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不是因為她討厭天城悠人。那個總是笑得陽光、成績優秀、禮貌周全的前同學,其實無可挑剔。
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也不是因為父母逼迫。她清楚,爸媽從未強求,只說:「先交往看看,不適合再說也沒關係。」
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但她還是哭了,哭得胸口一陣陣悶痛,那句話在心裡生了根,緊緊勒住呼吸。眼淚一滴接一滴地墜落,從心底最深處洩洪般,止也止不住。
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因為她終於明白——
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那個她默默喜歡了這麼多年的人,那個幾乎陪伴了她半個人生的執事,那個她以為也許、可能、是不是,其實有一點點喜歡她的君嶋航一
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從頭到尾,只有對主人的忠誠,對恩人的回報,對職責的克盡與恭敬。
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沒有愛情的猶疑,沒有佔有的本能,甚至,連一點點的不捨都沒有。
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他微笑著祝她「一門好親事」的樣子,穩重、得體,就像每天早晨為她準備早餐、為她熨平衣領、替她遞上雨傘時那樣自然。
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她曾以為,自己會比那把雨傘、那件襯衫,更被珍視一點。
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但沒有。她什麼都不是。
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她只是——「大小姐」。698Please respect copyright.PENANAmEskPmwmdo
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永遠是。698Please respect copyright.PENANA0irsJ9yK7w
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只會是。
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「大小姐,是我。」敲門聲過後,一道熟悉而平穩的聲音從門外響起。鈴蘭猛地一震,從床上驚醒般地坐直。她連忙拿起枕邊的手帕胡亂擦掉臉上的淚痕,心跳亂得不像話。
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「……航一?他來做什麼……」她猶豫了一下,才慢慢走到門前,手握住門把,小心地只開了一條小縫,不讓他看見自己剛剛哭得紅腫的眼睛。698Please respect copyright.PENANATuda0MZrm2
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門外的君嶋航一依舊是那副沉穩的模樣,身上是平日的深灰管家制服,手裡端著一個簡潔的托盤。698Please respect copyright.PENANAEn1j1USO5e
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他看見門開了,語氣輕柔:「大小姐,我剛剛注意到妳幾乎沒怎麼吃晚餐。這是我剛剛特地做的三明治和些許甜點,口味比較清淡……如果妳身體不舒服,也許能稍微吃一點。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAUJECRZW9YH
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鈴蘭垂下眼,不敢直視他的臉。那雙她熟悉到能在夢裡都勾勒出輪廓的眼睛,此刻依舊沒有一絲動搖。698Please respect copyright.PENANACBACLuhokC
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她鼻尖微酸,聲音有些悶:「……我沒事。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAPQJoFrt9B1
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君嶋頓了一下,然後才輕聲問道:「如果妳不方便,我可以放在門口。等妳想吃的時候,再拿進去。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAa9rsOGgjhs
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那語氣像極了他們之間的關係,周到、穩重,但不逾矩。哪怕她剛剛在房裡痛哭,他依然維持著那份「距離裡的體貼」。698Please respect copyright.PENANAvYvWrlEd5p
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「沒關係,航一,你進來吧。」鈴蘭輕聲說,努力壓住哽咽的語調。698Please respect copyright.PENANAVu47CaWs9N
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航一微微一禮,優雅地走進房間,把托盤穩穩放在她的書桌上。三明治切得整齊,旁邊還有她最喜歡的蘋果花茶和一塊淡奶油戚風蛋糕。每一樣,都是她的口味。698Please respect copyright.PENANA8wUXFtSQoX
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「大小姐,妳還好嗎?」698Please respect copyright.PENANAnEInRoyJfc
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鈴蘭沒回答,只是緊緊咬住下唇,眼眶又熱了起來。698Please respect copyright.PENANA0LVcZHkrN7
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航一停了一瞬,接著道:「妳哭了。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAxBgZCeTQij
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「我……」她聲音卡在喉嚨,什麼都說不出口。698Please respect copyright.PENANAA7ULOyDx2L
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「大小姐不喜歡天城悠人嗎?」君嶋微笑著問,語氣沒有半點打探的成分,就像平常問她今天想喝紅茶還是伯爵。那抹微笑沒有一點苦澀,這樣的他,讓人難以承受。698Please respect copyright.PENANAZQr03oWBbK
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「不是……」她終於開口,「他很好,真的很好……我也不討厭他。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAR2pRlenGpJ
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她抬起頭看向航一,發現對方只是靜靜地站著,手疊在身前,與她的距離不近也不遠。698Please respect copyright.PENANAmFxHk8XUD3
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「只是……有些事,我已經等不到回應了。」她笑了,眼淚慢慢滑落。而他,只是靜靜地低下頭,彷彿沒聽見她話裡的遺憾。698Please respect copyright.PENANA94Hcn1RMMQ
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「航一,我身體不舒服……你可以餵我吃嗎?」鈴蘭聲音輕輕的,眼神有些委屈地望著他。698Please respect copyright.PENANALjgjz4ScMv
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「我?」698Please respect copyright.PENANAgVE8PTljpn
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「是的。」她故作虛弱地靠在椅背上,嘴角還帶著一絲笑,「我現在感覺……好虛弱,手都舉不起來了。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAYDs2z5K1Ro
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君嶋低頭看了她一眼,沒有多說什麼,神情依舊溫和、平穩:「那請大小姐躺在床上吧。我來餵妳吃。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAIphjUGctz9
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他伸手輕扶她起身,動作自然卻不帶半分曖昧,那是他長年訓練出的專業與克制。鈴蘭心裡小小一跳,但還是乖乖躺下。接著,君嶋坐在床邊的椅子上,從盤中取下一小塊三明治,用叉子送到她嘴邊。698Please respect copyright.PENANA4WOmRBEEqh
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「張嘴,大小姐。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAU0a6tz6ops
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她望著他一臉冷靜的表情,忍不住小聲地問:「你都……不會覺得這樣太親密嗎?」698Please respect copyright.PENANAMDfHRydU2K
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君嶋淡淡地回:「妳是我的責任,我會好好照顧妳。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAeOhYUvfLdZ
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每一個字都是冰。698Please respect copyright.PENANAHhu0NiSHev
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她吃下那一口,嘴裡是她喜歡的味道,心裡卻苦得像沒加糖的茶。吃完最後一口三明治後,鈴蘭沉默地看著他把餐具收拾好。698Please respect copyright.PENANAW8e59zHAMR
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她心跳得有點快,卻還是裝作自然地開口:「航一……還有一件事。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAoG9HIjGJP9
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「我的肩膀好痠……能幫我按一下嗎?」698Please respect copyright.PENANAWtFoYQvmJ2
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君嶋聞言一頓,低眉道:「這種事,我讓女僕西西米來幫妳比較合適。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAlXV3btbym1
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「不要。」鈴蘭倏地抬頭,語氣罕見地固執,甚至帶了點任性,「我就是要你,君嶋航一。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAF3awvcjo1j
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她直直望著他,眼底是說不出口的情緒——掙扎、渴望、委屈,還有一點點帶刺的試探。698Please respect copyright.PENANAGi6qMir5EX
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「這是主人的命令。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAbXloApz3pS
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她其實很少命令過他。一直以來,她對宅邸裡的每一個人都極其尊重與溫柔。但此刻,她已經想不到其他方式。698Please respect copyright.PENANAkF4NvIwt0N
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至少在她與其他男人訂下婚約之前。至少在她被奪走之前。她只想讓君嶋觸碰她一次。哪怕不是出於他的真心。698Please respect copyright.PENANAwQSXV3Wrmv
君嶋沒立即回答,只是靜靜看著她。那雙眼睛裡沒有波瀾,卻藏著一絲讓人讀不懂的光。良久,他終於低下頭,跪坐在她身後。698Please respect copyright.PENANAacz60YV8Nn
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「……遵命,大小姐。」698Please respect copyright.PENANA85ZyNvefnQ
當君嶋跪坐到她身後,手指才輕輕落在她肩頭,鈴蘭便輕輕吸了一口氣。698Please respect copyright.PENANAFW6KdeMLUM
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他還是一樣,力道適中、分寸得體,將每一寸觸碰都控制在「規矩」之中。698Please respect copyright.PENANAss8Vj3Z3fT
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就是這樣,才讓人心痛。698Please respect copyright.PENANAC8zTCuAOO8
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「好可悲… …我非得這樣命令你…… 你才願意觸碰我」她心中暗自發酸。她咬了咬唇,突然抬手,把睡衣的衣領往側邊拉了些。香肩與光滑的背部在燈光下悄悄露出,肌膚白得近乎透明。698Please respect copyright.PENANAeAd9OCQ1iO
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「……今晚若是不能讓你動心,」她心中低語,眼神掙扎卻堅定,「我就會徹底放棄你。但我還是想……再試一次。最後一次。」698Please respect copyright.PENANACb4WGRVTMa
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她沒有轉頭,只是靜靜地坐著,等待那雙手的反應。君嶋原本平穩的呼吸,在那一瞬間出現了極細微的變化。他沒再繼續動作,指尖停在她鎖骨邊緣。698Please respect copyright.PENANAJAWSB0JoJH
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一秒。698Please respect copyright.PENANAbsZkW1xeHs
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兩秒。698Please respect copyright.PENANA1m4LpiCxEX
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三秒。698Please respect copyright.PENANA2GFQfPPNKb
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他忽然收回了手。「……大小姐,這是?」698Please respect copyright.PENANARcyPEmAnGN
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「我想要油壓,比較舒服。」她說著又把另外一邊的衣領又更往下拉。698Please respect copyright.PENANAhvl30oYUMu
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君嶋的指尖在空氣中停了一瞬。他眼神一凜,語氣也不再溫和如常,反倒多了幾分他少有的嚴厲與……慌亂:「請、請妳不要開這種玩笑。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAAajNi7Pbdu
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他此刻的聲音低而緊。698Please respect copyright.PENANAOdYAE9KRfu
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鈴蘭沒有回話,只是輕輕側過身,睫毛垂落,唇角帶著一抹似笑非笑的表情。她不是開玩笑。她只是太清楚,如果今天不賭一次,她會後悔一輩子。698Please respect copyright.PENANAgDtyDa9xZz
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「我只是在……確認而已。確認你到底……有沒有,把我當作一個『女人』看過。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAIJbFgtudGj
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君嶋怔了一瞬,眼神微微一顫。698Please respect copyright.PENANAFboAfUI5mL
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「大小姐,我也是男人……但老爺對我有恩。」698Please respect copyright.PENANACUzn3odpEN
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「妳這樣……我真的會亂了分寸。」698Please respect copyright.PENANApqRNNx4aKl
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「所以,航一,你這是……稍微動搖了嗎?」鈴蘭的聲音發顫,是期待,又不敢太期待。她的心此刻快要炸裂,她正在賭,正在等一個,能讓她撐下去的理由。698Please respect copyright.PENANAxrpQpyH32D
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君嶋垂下眼,呼吸已有些紊亂。698Please respect copyright.PENANAhzggkuSbNc
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「請妳更珍惜妳自己,妳不該這樣——」698Please respect copyright.PENANAIxtnwoi0Bg
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「我很珍惜自己,航一。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAA5YWzTSFFz
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她轉過身望著君嶋,語氣忽然變得柔軟卻堅定,眼神中帶著哀求與真摯。698Please respect copyright.PENANAZbQ8HbBXbd
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「正因為珍惜……我才希望,第一個擁抱我、親吻我的人,是你。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAWbHw85Qlqm
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「不是天城,也不是其他任何男人。」698Please respect copyright.PENANAO8Cc91k3AK
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他怔怔望著她,一瞬間,什麼東西在體內斷裂了。
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他猛地伸出手,摟住她的脖子與後腦,動作卻一點也不粗暴,反是颤抖的。他的額頭緊貼著她,氣息灼熱而凌亂。698Please respect copyright.PENANA1oQTHqEKxQ
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「……妳不知道,妳這樣說,我根本沒辦法當作沒聽見……」698Please respect copyright.PENANAtFwmq6hhGz
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鈴蘭屏住呼吸,抬起頭,雙眼泛著微光。她從來沒有像現在這樣清楚地知道自己想要什麼。698Please respect copyright.PENANAKOjaCENSo8
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「航一……」她喃喃低語,
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「我命令你,」
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「吻我。」
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這句話落下的瞬間,空氣靜止了。
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他怔住了。
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「吻我的唇,航一」
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接著,他閉上眼,用盡全身力氣,將心中瘋狂的念頭死死壓下。
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「……對不起,大小姐。」
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「我唯獨不能服從妳這個命令。」
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他的聲音顫抖著,她身體一愣,眼淚瞬間奪出。698Please respect copyright.PENANAexqyfn2FZj
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看到這裡的你,真的太有愛了!🥺💗698Please respect copyright.PENANAmL6m4p7PW2
喜歡的話記得幫我點個讚 👍、加書籤 ⭐、順手留個言 📝~698Please respect copyright.PENANAS0ryD9lRui
有你們的鼓勵,我就會繼續努力讓角色們越來越心動 💞💭


