隔天早上，我比平常早醒了十分鐘。
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沒有做夢，也沒有驚醒。
只是睜開眼的時候，腦子裡一片空白，像是被誰輕輕擦過。
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我坐起身，整理制服，照鏡子的時候，下意識地勾起嘴角。
那是一個我很熟悉的角度。
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剛好，不多，也不少。
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走進教室時，走廊很吵。
有人在追逐，有人在笑，有人討論作業。
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我走到座位，把書包放下，動作一如往常。
只是——
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視線不小心，往某個方向停了一秒。
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一秒而已。
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沈青嵐還沒來。
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我立刻低下頭，翻開課本，像什麼都沒發生。
這種事不值得被記住。
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上課時，我很安靜。
老師點名，我答得很清楚；抄筆記，字跡比平常還整齊。
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只有在老師轉身寫板書的時候，我會短暫地放空。
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腦海裡浮現的，卻不是公式，也不是重點。
而是那個人昨天的笑。
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不是因為特別好看。
而是太剛好了。
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像是早就計算過，什麼時候該露出那個表情。
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午休的鐘聲剛響完，我就離開了教室。
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不是因為吵，也不是因為誰。
只是教室裡的空氣，忽然讓人有點喘不過來。
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我沿著樓梯往上走，一層、一層。
沒有人注意我，也沒有人問我要去哪。
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頂樓的門沒有鎖。
我推開時，鐵門發出輕微的聲響，被風很快吞掉。
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風比我想像中冷。
但很乾淨。
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我走到圍牆旁，把書包放下，靠著坐下來。
這裡沒有誰的目光，也沒有誰期待我該有什麼表情。
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我終於不用笑。
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只是放空。
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不知道過了多久，門又響了一次。
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腳步聲很輕，卻不陌生。
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我沒有回頭。
也沒有移動。
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直到那個人站在不遠處，停下來。
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「原來妳也會躲到這裡。」
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沈青嵐的聲音很隨意，像是在說天氣。
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我依然看著前方，沒有回答。
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他沒有再說話，只是走過來，靠著另一側的圍牆坐下。
距離不遠，也不近。
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剛好不會讓人不舒服。
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風在我們中間穿過去，吹亂了他的頭髮，也吹動了我制服的裙角。
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很久以後，他才又開口。
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「放心，我不是來找妳的。」
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我輕輕「嗯」了一聲。
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「只是教室太吵。」他補了一句。
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這次我沒有回應。
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沉默並不尷尬。
甚至有點……理所當然。
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「妳在這裡的時候，」他忽然說，「看起來比較不像在演戲。」
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我的指尖微微一縮。
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「你很愛亂說話。」我淡淡地笑了，語氣卻很輕。
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那個笑，還在。
但沒有送到眼睛裡。
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他轉頭看了我一眼，沒有拆穿。
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「那就當我看錯了。」
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我以為話題會到此為止。
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但他卻忽然把視線移回遠方，低聲說了一句——
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「不過，看錯也沒關係。」
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我終於轉頭看他。
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他臉上還是那副隨意又開朗的表情，
像是什麼都沒背負、什麼都不在乎。
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可那一瞬間，我很確定一件事。
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他不是不懂。
他只是選擇不說。
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風又大了一點。
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我站起來，背起書包。
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「我要下去了。」
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「嗯。」
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我走向門口，手放在門把上時，停了一下。
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沒有回頭。
沒有說謝謝。
沒有留下任何一句話。
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但在推開門的那一刻，我心裡第一次出現了一個念頭——
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也許，這個世界上，
真的有人和我一樣，
把所有黑暗都藏在「看起來很正常」的那一面裡。
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而我們，都不會先說破。
這讓我有點不舒服。
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中午，我一個人去買午餐。
排隊時，後面的人推了我一下，我站穩，回頭笑了笑，說「沒關係」。
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我聽見對方小聲說：「她人其實不錯耶。」
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我沒有感覺。
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只是忽然想——
如果是沈青嵐，他大概也會這樣笑。
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下午最後一節課結束，我收拾書本的時候，聽見有人叫他名字。
聲音很多，很熱鬧。
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我沒有轉頭。
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真的沒有。
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只是手上的動作，停頓了一下。
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那一瞬間，我忽然很清楚地知道一件事——
我不會靠近他。
也不會讓他靠近我。
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因為一旦有人真的看懂我在撐，
那層笑容，就再也沒有用了。
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我把書包背好，站起來。
離開教室的時候，沒有回頭。
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只是心裡某個地方，靜靜地多了一個不能碰的存在。
and then Add to home screen.