陳冬月靠在機艙窗邊,雙手握在膝上,指節因緊張而泛白。
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窗外是一片雲海,銀白色的天光照進她的眼睛,卻照不暖她的心。
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飛機已經快抵達中國東北的邊境小鎮。她記得那個名字,是夏陽信裡寫的:「我們分手吧。」
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她把信紙摺好,放回外套內袋,像是怕弄丟了他最後的聲音。
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耳機裡的音樂早已沒聲音,她也不在意。這一段旅途,耳朵聽不見,心卻從未這麼喧囂。
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她寂寞。第一次一個人坐飛機,第一次不為了未來,而是為了一個正在遠去的人。
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她傷心。因為信裡的字那麼輕,卻像在說「再見」,不像「等我」。
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但她也期待。期待下一次見到他的眼睛,是在雪地裡,是在她張開雙手後,他終於再沒躲開。
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飛機降落時,機艙廣播響起。
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「本班機即將抵達哈爾濱……」
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她下意識地握緊背包肩帶,心跳突然加快。像要去考試,卻不知道答案在哪裡。
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出機艙那一刻,一股寒意撲面而來,她打了個哆嗦。
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「好冷啊……」她喃喃地說,拉緊圍巾。
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可她知道,這不是最冷的。
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最冷的,是她在台灣那幾天,知道他離開,卻一無所知他在哪裡時,那種心裡像被掏空的痛。
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現在她終於踏上這裡,哪怕只是賭一個可能,賭他還在這裡,賭自己能找到他。
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她拉起行李箱,深吸一口氣,往出口走去。
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「夏陽,我來了。」她低聲說。
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「你想一個人,但我偏不讓你一個人。」
冬月拖著行李箱,腳步在雪地上踩出一串急促的腳印。8Please respect copyright.PENANA88r7XXxS7J
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她從機場搭上巴士,再換了一趟小鎮的計程車,一路顛簸終於抵達那間在信裡被提到的「雲杉旅館」。8Please respect copyright.PENANAyEaqqeOAu0
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天色已近傍晚,整個小鎮被雪包圍,空氣乾冷刺骨,旅館外掛著一串串昏黃的小燈,像溫柔的星星。8Please respect copyright.PENANAfrSKEORxxg
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她推開玻璃門,熱氣撲面而來,手指卻還是因寒冷發紅。櫃檯的服務員看起來二十出頭,正低頭在寫什麼。8Please respect copyright.PENANA5cZkdc5XuD
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「你好,請問……這幾天,有沒有一個大約十八歲的男生,一個人住進來?他姓賴,身高大概一百八十,很瘦、頭髮有點長……」8Please respect copyright.PENANAsIcglD49tM
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她語氣有些急促,眼裡像藏著一場暴雪。8Please respect copyright.PENANAfJ7FDDeGu3
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服務員愣了一下,隨即點頭:「哦!有有有,這幾天確實有個台灣男生住進來,應該是妳說的那個……」8Please respect copyright.PENANApUjtSEHVyy
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「他、他現在人在哪?」冬月立刻問。8Please respect copyright.PENANAOtTOOAthqY
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服務員看了看時間:「他早上出門了,說想去滑雪場那邊看看雪景……他常去,說那邊比較安靜。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAs7xslqTS3o
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「他一個人去的嗎?」8Please respect copyright.PENANAfDY46ySFEh
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「是啊,一個人。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAKyuTBVkaio
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那一瞬間,冬月的心突然泛起一陣說不清的酸意——他果然什麼都不想讓人知道,連最後的風景,也只想一個人記住。8Please respect copyright.PENANADh5xR1sS6P
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「滑雪場……怎麼走?」8Please respect copyright.PENANAduJcZVGosb
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「往鎮西邊走,出門後右轉再一直走,過了兩條小路,看到一座紅色木橋,走過去就是了。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAE0lhov8U8p
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「謝謝。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAr2c0jgcwPd
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她來不及休息,也來不及思考,轉身就往外跑去。8Please respect copyright.PENANASD7dc5eGut
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服務員從後面追出來:「小姑娘!雪場快關門了,小心別迷路啊!」8Please respect copyright.PENANAxz8XcjRQk3
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但風已經把聲音吹散,冬月早已衝進雪夜裡。8Please respect copyright.PENANARcy4R5PIil
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她的心跳比腳步還快,手裡只握著他名字和那封信的餘溫。8Please respect copyright.PENANAndy63yz8DX
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她想見他。不是等他回來,不是打電話,是現在、立刻、就見到。8Please respect copyright.PENANAxWlJpJwYm1
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就算他不願意,就算他轉身離開,她也要親口告訴他:8Please respect copyright.PENANAzd6MzdNDNL
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「你不是一個人走過來的,現在也別想一個人走下去。」
風在雪地上掠過,像一雙冷冷的手,撫過山坡上的白。8Please respect copyright.PENANA3d5RCyT6fL
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冬日的太陽快要落下,橘金色的光映在雪面上,整個世界都柔和成一種快要消失的顏色。8Please respect copyright.PENANALHFYed78ZF
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賴夏陽站在滑雪場邊緣的山坡上,遠望著一片靜謐的銀白。他穿著一件深色羽絨外套,腳邊放著沒動過的滑雪板,只是靜靜站著,像想把最後這個畫面刻進心底。8Please respect copyright.PENANAglrLN3hW9Y
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他沒聽見後方傳來的腳步聲。8Please respect copyright.PENANAilxyDKYn93
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直到那聲音,像從記憶深處喊來:8Please respect copyright.PENANAwatFZmvsXJ
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「賴夏陽!!」8Please respect copyright.PENANAyLXcuvWu9Q
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他猛地一震,眉頭皺起。8Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3cNUma1UT
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不可能。他想。那聲音怎麼會出現在這裡?不會是她。她應該……還在台灣,還在上課,還有她該過的平凡日子。8Please respect copyright.PENANAE2aZhfXE0H
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「賴夏陽!!」那聲音又一次,急促而帶著顫抖。8Please respect copyright.PENANAMbZmACocK8
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他不敢回頭,彷彿只要不看,就能告訴自己那不是她,只是風,只是幻覺。8Please respect copyright.PENANAFWGjkjdEm0
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但下一秒,一個小小的身影突然撲進他懷裡,帶著微微的喘息與溫度,打破了他所有的理智。8Please respect copyright.PENANAWdr6nr4bIY
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她的額頭埋在他胸口,聲音幾乎是哭出來的:8Please respect copyright.PENANA5X8XhR3kIK
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「你這個混蛋……你說你愛我,為什麼又要拋下我走!」8Please respect copyright.PENANAd3Zpz3uBbF
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他終於低頭,看見她,臉頰凍得通紅,眼眶濕潤,氣還沒喘勻。8Please respect copyright.PENANAuwFPzS68lE
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「……冬月……」他的聲音有些沙啞,像卡在喉嚨許久的話終於找到了出口。8Please respect copyright.PENANABGgP61CaxU
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她沒有放開他,反而抱得更緊。8Please respect copyright.PENANAbUjhsHs2Yq
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「我不管你得什麼病,不管你還剩多久,我只知道你走的那天,我心臟像被挖走一樣……」她哭著說,聲音裡滿是心碎與倔強。8Please respect copyright.PENANAAdWt7WBy2l
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「我愛你。就算你現在不要我,我也會來找你。就算你只剩最後一天,我也要陪你過完。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAnLcD8YpxvS
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她的語氣像刀,又像光,直接劃進他心裡最柔軟的地方。8Please respect copyright.PENANANCK7VyKs2i
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賴夏陽終於伸出手,顫抖地回抱住她。8Please respect copyright.PENANAcMNmIipQ4Q
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他低下頭,額頭靠在她肩上,聲音微微哽咽:8Please respect copyright.PENANAsJsm4Fz9qu
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「我好怕讓妳看見我變得一點一點不一樣……怕妳會哭,怕妳會恨我……」8Please respect copyright.PENANAoFryPjNgVb
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「我會哭,但我不會走。」她的聲音在他耳邊,「你說你是我的太陽,對吧?那就別藏起來了。再冷的冬天,我都陪你走完。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAAZt89f19UM
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風聲呼嘯而過,天地寂靜。8Please respect copyright.PENANAP0YcOqcPh2
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唯有兩個擁抱的身影,在雪地裡交疊成最溫暖的光。
那晚,他們一起回到旅館。8Please respect copyright.PENANANgMWiRDPvE
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賴夏陽的手已經開始發冷,臉色比白雪還要蒼白。他沒說話,只輕輕牽著陳冬月的手,一步步走回房間。8Please respect copyright.PENANAzlfLBGALIB
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房門關上的那一刻,他像終於耗盡了力氣,背靠牆滑坐在地上,手指顫抖。8Please respect copyright.PENANAMCBPdBvhvz
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冬月蹲下身,將他摟進懷裡,緊緊抱著他。8Please respect copyright.PENANAcKZzYcIVIq
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「你騙我……你明明早就快不行了……」8Please respect copyright.PENANA2DKZiiRAH7
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他靠在她肩上,呼吸紊亂,喃喃說:「我不想在妳面前倒下……但我真的……太想妳了……」8Please respect copyright.PENANAA5akqPcfzD
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她眼淚滑落,一滴滴落在他臉上。8Please respect copyright.PENANAY8Pdqxp1iI
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那晚,他們擠在旅館的小床上。冬月沒有睡,一直握著他的手,聽他斷斷續續地說些從前的事,還有沒來得及說的夢。8Please respect copyright.PENANAaXVj8LlciQ
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清晨,雪還在下,天邊泛著銀白的光。8Please respect copyright.PENANAhFwiLCvJXm
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他微弱地問:「我們去滑雪吧……我想……陪妳最後一天。」8Please respect copyright.PENANANBrZjk6s13
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冬月抱著他,像抱著一個即將從世界消失的光源,點頭說:「好。」8Please respect copyright.PENANApmuvqhYLez
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他們真的去了。8Please respect copyright.PENANAp3ArkRiHKb
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沒有滑雪板,也沒有技巧,只是兩人手牽著手,走在空無一人的雪場裡,踩出一串串腳印。8Please respect copyright.PENANACy5NaKf3OH
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賴夏陽的身體越來越虛弱,幾度站不穩,卻仍努力笑著對她說:「這裡的雪……比我想像的還要美……」8Please respect copyright.PENANA1JxLI6Ghl3
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「騙子。」她含著眼淚說,「你什麼都沒說,就想一個人走。」8Please respect copyright.PENANAKjr7m3rcYp
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「對不起。」他低聲,「可我這輩子,唯一不後悔的事……就是遇到妳。」8Please respect copyright.PENANANCIWy4FguA
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天色漸暗。8Please respect copyright.PENANA5fqHZeUy8j
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他坐在雪地邊的一棵老松樹下,頭靠著她的肩膀。8Please respect copyright.PENANASP20NxCort
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「小月亮……我好累……讓我睡一下好不好?」8Please respect copyright.PENANA8apI9ixx41
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冬月抱著他,聲音顫抖:「你答應我,要醒來的。」8Please respect copyright.PENANATlUBxBRqAK
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「嗯……只是一下下……」他的聲音越來越輕。8Please respect copyright.PENANAYl0rbojElo
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當風雪漸止,陳冬月發現他的手已經冰冷。8Please respect copyright.PENANA4zK8DAcN7q
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她哭著搖他、喊他,淚水滴在他臉上,像春天永遠無法抵達的雨。8Please respect copyright.PENANAFD2HNHMsc1
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但他再也沒有睜開眼。8Please respect copyright.PENANAbxY6gtoBbW
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他懷中放著一封信,上面是他熟悉的字跡:8Please respect copyright.PENANAqcaPUjXoH5
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「冬月:8Please respect copyright.PENANA29IKDJrPkQ
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如果你看到這封信,就代表我終於沒有撐住。8Please respect copyright.PENANAjTiZOOVPaE
謝謝你來找我。謝謝你不讓我孤單。
我永遠記得你對我的每份溫柔,我也知道我一直都愛著你。8Please respect copyright.PENANAAIcIbXkuWp
我曾經以為離開是保護你,後來才知道,只有讓你留在我生命裡,才是我最後的勇敢。8Please respect copyright.PENANA4gI0wg82gN
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妳說過我是太陽,但我想告訴妳:8Please respect copyright.PENANAzWYg9xQRls
妳是我一生唯一的月亮,永遠照亮我最暗的夜。8Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ysvg7ggmj
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這一夜,雪下得格外靜,像是天也在為他落淚。8Please respect copyright.PENANA4TP4lA5Q1w
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而冬月,緊緊抱著他,讓他最後一次,在她懷中,安然地睡去。