光線沿著窗外樹葉的晃動,落入室內映出一地斑駁,屋內空調規律地傳來細碎嗡鳴,午後光芒鋪灑在兩人之間,籠起一層金黃光暈。98Please respect copyright.PENANApwc6IaEutb
他們從不深不淺的對談中朦朧感知在彼此曾奏響的音色,98Please respect copyright.PENANA1YO2qFCLdp
細細埋藏著的某些珍貴事物,98Please respect copyright.PENANAmf9JfvKLJF
因為難以啟齒,所以被遺留成了音樂的本質。98Please respect copyright.PENANAjZj7Wn16Us
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無人主動提及這類話題,而又小心翼翼猜測著。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmiZce1m7Yl
這是音樂家的直覺。98Please respect copyright.PENANAj0ID8gRuG1
而他們,又實在是太過年輕,無法做到真正雲淡風輕。98Please respect copyright.PENANAoZFe9U8kGg
98Please respect copyright.PENANAxJxeNHcSSZ
本已應該熟絡的氣氛,卻在短暫沉默裡無形築起一道牆,如同太陽再想多凝視月亮幾眼,卻礙不過現實裡日月之間所橫亙的距離。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxJYDgyxWBF
寂靜中,他們大抵只不過是初次見面的同鄉人。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxmzDFFsHnd
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「那麼,不打擾您練習,」日澤禮貌一笑,「鑰匙接下來便交給您了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAhRHgQSoLA7
輕輕把東西置於琴蓋,像是想起甚麼,日澤提醒道,「對了,除非當天有演出,否則這裡只到下午五點大門就會關閉上鎖了喔,再請村田先生注意時間。如果還有任何問題再請隨時找我,我會在一樓的合奏廳。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAUdBsVDSoub
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日澤的手機適時響起,雨月輕點了頭,已游刃有餘將腮托穩穩架在肩上,淡淡道,「我大概不會練太晚,您去忙吧。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAb0vovZ8c0a
98Please respect copyright.PENANA1RlYv0EJ8S
對於雨月的直白和觀察入微,日澤一怔,逕是在心裡又多了一抹暗笑。98Please respect copyright.PENANAGNa8llSNhT
這個人,今天究竟讓自己笑第幾次了?98Please respect copyright.PENANA6tlsR34EYz
不過,不會練太晚...是吧。98Please respect copyright.PENANAaQ7uMoEdP2
想起第一次就直接被鎖在裡面一整晚的自己,日澤不禁感嘆。98Please respect copyright.PENANATLtL5xDA5Y
嘛算了,以手機鈴響起的急切程度,他想他也沒辦法繼續在這兒晃悠了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAXe05DjUXiF
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「那我先過去了。」微一頷首,日澤輕闔上門,立即接起電話。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3ALB7ZpGLB
98Please respect copyright.PENANAzYQaoWlrrH
「新田先生!小提二部那兒指揮說是你改.....」98Please respect copyright.PENANAkptGxPxHpl
「那裏我剛才.....所以我不是讓助理留意手機訊息,早上兩聲部弓法合不太起來我就注意到....好好,佐野你冷靜,我現在過去....」98Please respect copyright.PENANAPtPdNx0eNo
98Please respect copyright.PENANAtPGeSm4b71
風輕拂過髮梢,肆意攪弄雨月細碎的額髮。自三樓練習室俯瞰的景色,是雨月以前從未仔細見過的紐約。98Please respect copyright.PENANAjYD4bZHPus
獨自結束了克羅采的幾首練習,習慣性從兜裡翻出菸盒的手一頓,雨月想了想,最終還是放了回去。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxA7cqvxO8I
總感覺,菸燃起的瞬間,就白白浪費了這裡陳年積累的松香氣息。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmWkbM5ifMt
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「辛苦了。」「音樂節在即,也要繼續麻煩你們了。」「那我先走了,明天合奏見。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAhrhOPrqMio
日澤整理總譜的手未停,音樂廳的團員三三兩兩地離開,偌大舞台轉瞬寂寥。98Please respect copyright.PENANApsATEbpm9D
「新田,最後再麻煩你了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANABtIPEGjXhY
日澤轉過身稍微放下手中的譜,「好,辛苦了謝謝。」他待會還得去指揮辦公室一趟,沒法那麼早離開,方才的改動調整勢必還得與獨奏樂手配合,因而直到他能安然下班之時,早已明月高懸。98Please respect copyright.PENANAUCA0cNahUY
再一次說服佐野好讓他先回去後,本已要鎖住最後一個出入口,日澤眼角在不經意間瞥到三樓尚未關緊的窗時,才倏忽想起那位今天剛和他們簽約明天就要正式排練的小提琴手。98Please respect copyright.PENANABmDjxBhHLX
98Please respect copyright.PENANAFYcWRrE2CS
毫無光源的練習室,日澤想當然認為對方早已離開,沒想輕敲轉動時卻發現門根本沒鎖,昏暗光線下映著的譜頁散亂於地譜成一地浪花,基礎的﹑即興的,被一劃一劃隨筆註記下來,卻沒能來的及整理。98Please respect copyright.PENANA8XDFQWP9un
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雨月就枕在琴邊睡著了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAtUnlM23NKy
比任何時候還沉靜安寧的他,即使再頑強,此刻也予以世界同等真實的脆弱。98Please respect copyright.PENANAseQppW6diw
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……98Please respect copyright.PENANAFgPUd6EEJV
果然.....98Please respect copyright.PENANAjaIz2Nni5c
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日澤只好開全燈走向前,「村田先生....。。」再不走要在這裡過夜了喔。98Please respect copyright.PENANASUVreQkrcx
陷在夢境裡的雨月皺了眉,微一睜眼是新田日澤模糊又陌生的身影,瞬間清醒。98Please respect copyright.PENANAuzrgGMk11j
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「...抱歉,我現在整理。」望著一地混亂和置於身旁尚未收拾的小提琴,又發現窗外早已暗下的天色,雨月有些懊惱。98Please respect copyright.PENANA5U50Nfy13I
把雨月一瞬間的交頭爛額收進眼底,日澤趁著雨月收拾琴盒的時候默默蹲下替他整理起散亂的樂譜,順帶一問,「需要我打電話給您的助理讓他過來嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAJLFSRHygIq
98Please respect copyright.PENANAmFGRUCQB29
雨月聞言似乎想到甚麼呼吸一頓,「能方便問下現在時間嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAdx1gX5LVF2
「快八點了。」「啊啊,沒辦法那不用了吧...佐藤他晚上有個會要開,會忙不過來。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9aEqMucVZ
將撿起的譜紙整理交還予雨月手上,日澤問,「那您....?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAr6zl6OF7H6
「我走回去就好,反正也不是很遠。」沒有再多留一個眼神給日澤,雨月隨手將包一揹就要離開,颯爽地貌似這不過是件再稀鬆平常不過的事。98Please respect copyright.PENANAW6m7PGXOKK
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日澤輕輕擰眉有些為難,「我還是通知他過來接您吧,如果對附近還不熟的話....」98Please respect copyright.PENANAUFh6sRk73Q
「我不是說不用嗎。」雨月有些無奈瞪著他,這男人是怎樣......98Please respect copyright.PENANAczSdK8Mtvr
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日澤一愣,赫然發現這人其實也執拗得可以。98Please respect copyright.PENANAVBSxr2BiLt
「光是離開這裡用走的話會花不少時間喔。」日澤垂眼淡淡一笑,不再強留,「其實如果您不在意的話我的車也就在停車場而已。但既然如此那您一路小心,茱利亞很多學生也幾乎練到這個點才會出來活動。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA973e3dvwED
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本只是順口帶過的一句話,後續的打算兩人皆未曾想過,雨月卻不知怎地能不自覺的像著迷一般,在他身後一路跟到停車場。或許是身前的人剛才在擺上笑容前不過零點幾秒眼神晃過的冷漠,也或許是在那情緒轉換一閃而過的瞬間,彷彿渾身帶刺的氣質讓他想起某些回不去卻珍貴的日子裡曾笨拙犯下的錯。98Please respect copyright.PENANAV9tYDWFqlM
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而新田日澤如謎般情緒,被過於直觀的溫柔隱藏起來。98Please respect copyright.PENANAhyoX27eoGj
隱隱約約感知,這個人,活得非常辛苦。98Please respect copyright.PENANASsUPXd2gAx
98Please respect copyright.PENANAuEDL921cOz
「....村田先生。」「...?」98Please respect copyright.PENANA4J5GB9jevd
「地址,知道嗎?」已經跟了他一路,雨月再不說的話他真的要打電話了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAIdFQtvoLeS
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「。。。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA9RYqi2Oglb
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車內空調開著,乾燥空氣覆著微乎其微幾近消失的海的氣味,98Please respect copyright.PENANAYoj9YOwbFb
很淡,但雨月察覺得出。98Please respect copyright.PENANAUDyROFsfhd
很神奇,感受的到主人已盡力抹去這份氣息,可敏感之人依舊不易忽略。98Please respect copyright.PENANAJuttQXKUVp
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日澤車開得穩,雨月平靜地望著車窗外的景色,終於開始意識自己是該考個這裡的駕照了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAT0uDGFIlo3
「前輩,」雨月忽地出聲,「這次年末協演曲目的樂團總譜,我能看看嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANA6rYtwdMo3Z
「這麼突然?」日澤眉一挑,「等到明天正式團練前事務組應該就會給您資料了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAv7dJr78cTY
「我習慣在正式合作前先大致確認自己和樂團之間需要調整的幅度,想說您是首席,應該是有提前拿到譜的機會。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA20BGtgJimD
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他用的並非疑問句,彷彿斬釘截鐵今晚見不到譜勢不罷休。98Please respect copyright.PENANAe2Lm9URBh5
「......」日澤一時語塞,卻並不厭煩雨月的直白,只是握著方向盤的雙手稍微緊了些。98Please respect copyright.PENANALec3jnvrkM
單純說他執拗還真是貶低他了,日澤心底暗暗道歉,98Please respect copyright.PENANARfS0I3X0Mx
這類對於音樂存有著超於常人認真的人,日澤一向給予最真誠的尊重。98Please respect copyright.PENANArpxZjaI8oX
只是.....怎麼都找他討啊?是因為自己看起來比較好說話嗎?98Please respect copyright.PENANAUPNd7zoTQh
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繁鬧的路段湊巧紅燈漸落,日澤微微轉身伸手過去翻自己的包,拿出似乎只初步整理過的一疊樂譜,「這是剛根據指揮調整臨時改好的,本來打算晚點傳正式電子檔給樂團秘書所以只印了一份,但基本上應該和明天的譜不會有太多差距,所以直接帶走是沒問題的,希望能幫到您。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA5gsAomWNDd
雨月迅速翻起了譜,感受著手指傳來紙張不久前才剛列印好尚未散去的餘溫,眉卻輕輕皺起,「....你連管樂也一併調整了?....全部幾乎...都你弄的?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAnpjys5Vllh
除了首席,連指揮的一部分工作都擔了過去,工作量不會太大嗎?98Please respect copyright.PENANA0wG3Fl9GdJ
98Please respect copyright.PENANAKkX4nqoHtn
雨月的未竟之言淺顯易懂,而這種對他而言再平常不過的事日澤一貫柔和回應,「指揮一向忙的瑣事會更多,只要是吩咐下來能幫的就會盡量,況且我自己也不能閒著。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAW6FmIMt2lC
「....」雨月不再多語,只是停下手邊翻閱的動作,直起身板,一雙明眸直勾勾地盯著身旁專心開車的日澤,欲言又止。98Please respect copyright.PENANANEeNxJOocD
空氣一瞬間沉默。98Please respect copyright.PENANAMOLoBQKZyF
感受到副座那毫不掩飾投來的目光,日澤輕輕看了他一眼,「怎麼了?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAH0DpDlyn37
「沒什麼....只覺得,都不用休息的嗎?你的生活。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA28rVy3JlRa
98Please respect copyright.PENANAeOWBJaFNEm
日澤一怔,但也僅僅是笑,不斷微笑,甚至輕笑出聲,稍稍勾起的嘴角像他始終的保護色,98Please respect copyright.PENANACbC1sxh7Ta
最完美的面具掛上後,只餘自己知曉內裡的無神。98Please respect copyright.PENANA7NutrHb1uk
「.....」「謝謝您,但是...」98Please respect copyright.PENANACazKVkmQO7
「可別讓我的生活太過輕鬆了,村田先生。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAxoOj0NXF20
98Please respect copyright.PENANA0kNuf60wiB
乍聽之下的狂傲,卻也似乎不那麼盡然,天衣無縫的隱藏早已成了本能。98Please respect copyright.PENANARBwuiAdUkL
雨月也再無心深究背地裡的涵義,98Please respect copyright.PENANA2kwdheY4yf
因為,只有面對音樂時的尊崇與韌性,他想,他也是一樣的。98Please respect copyright.PENANAzb2KC9egkt
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重新專注於眼前的總譜,曲式的流轉換調之處雖早已演奏無數次,卻仍能次次勾勒憶起首演的焦灼。98Please respect copyright.PENANA643TC9oNo7
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如同人類嚮往美好事物,因而從未停止思考和步伐。98Please respect copyright.PENANA8GL4DITirs
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正如雨月所說,他目前的歇腳處距離音樂廳並不遠,一段並不長的路途到達後,日澤最終還是將整份譜都交給了雨月,即使那是唯一打印出來的一份。98Please respect copyright.PENANAaEYw4Gso2d
譜隨意攤開於地,雨月默默蹲在前,手指隨著音符躍動輕敲節奏,98Please respect copyright.PENANAUoyZIWemzr
西貝流士的協奏儘管熟悉,卻也因為不同的伴奏編排每次都會激盪起未知的火花,98Please respect copyright.PENANAkekcyWhuwl
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而提琴,就僅僅在身旁隨手可碰之處,98Please respect copyright.PENANANToqdcx8jL
如同村田雨月的世界已被好好安放。98Please respect copyright.PENANAJiqeIHiH71
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清晨曙光緩慢爬進窗台,叫醒雨月的卻非金黃壟罩的溫度,而是日復一日的手機鈴。98Please respect copyright.PENANAtm6w6JFwDR
啊啊...佐藤要過來接他了。98Please respect copyright.PENANApRAdg8VnFi
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樂譜一頁頁展開,排練廳的光自高處灑下,窗外映出的,是紐約初冬清冷的天光。98Please respect copyright.PENANAMRRyDrPFUO
第一次和愛樂成員見面,雨月稍微在指揮和日澤的介紹之下寒暄過後,沉靜地調整好自己的狀態站上前台,氣質如影般不聲不響,卻絕對不容忽視。98Please respect copyright.PENANAfFmXvXlYpJ
音樂上初露鋒芒便能掌握的氣勢,是雨月絕對性的專業和不容質疑的驕傲。98Please respect copyright.PENANA9isFylDlWs
音樂廳萬籟俱寂,直至一記琴音準確無比熠然響起,98Please respect copyright.PENANAoUf4dlhoEj
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長弓落下——98Please respect copyright.PENANAf9I2YyozOg
第一個音符便如刀光破空。98Please respect copyright.PENANA39CBxV8Q4Z
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那並不是溫吞、教條式的開場,那是雨月的聲音,凜冽、純粹、毫不迎合,並不試圖取悅誰,98Please respect copyright.PENANAPYhn0y4kkW
只是以自己的方式,呈現對樂章的詮釋。98Please respect copyright.PENANAzWuNVtneyD
指揮幾乎是愣了一秒,唇角的弧度加深了些,眼神微亮,卻忘了注意最危險那人,眼中沉寂太久而冒出不該出現的火焰。98Please respect copyright.PENANAHDMViw2OTj
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伴奏部分循序開始跟進,日澤的弓尖,也在同一刻起舞。98Please respect copyright.PENANA0T6A7o2Q9S
約莫兩年吧,久違的和樂團出現了落差。98Please respect copyright.PENANAFWrCbYtosX
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身為小提琴首席,其實按理說,該如何穩定托住樂團整體色彩,是他必須履行的職責,而日澤一路以來一向都是這麼做的,也極少出過甚麼差池。可現在,自雨月雙臂運弓所勾勒出的琴音,如冷光穿透雲層,讓身處雲影中的人無法視而不見。98Please respect copyright.PENANAfroImQWk9J
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像是終於抓到,可以染得滿身泥濘的希望。98Please respect copyright.PENANAeUpVCqihj9
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日澤的耳朵過於敏銳,也太驕傲,導致所有音符從他指尖流出,開始悄悄改變。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3wB2jN5ZUy
原本該是沉穩背景的和聲,漸漸竟在某些樂句上出現了延伸、衝撞、與主旋律對話的細節。98Please respect copyright.PENANA2inWImgWpD
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雨月眉頭開始輕輕皺起。98Please respect copyright.PENANAD4GmL7tNYV
他聽得出來,這並不是亂入,在對位上可以說是計算過的參與,那些和聲群其實並未破壞主奏線條,反而如影子般呼應著他,但這完全不是他剛開始說好的設計。98Please respect copyright.PENANAuVxH0KSABk
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這是另一把弓的野心。98Please respect copyright.PENANAB0RCnniJCK
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本該以雨月為主領導的協奏,逐漸成了雙重主線,樂團裡的人不禁開始困惑,有些小提琴手甚至不確定該跟上誰的節奏。可雨月卻並未因此停下,他下意識將弓速拉高,音色更銳,像要用更顯著的聲音壓制對方。98Please respect copyright.PENANAN5lmeMdaRj
立於此方丈之處,他要讓他的聲音凌駕於樂團所有共鳴之上。那一刻,他絕對輸不起。98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3YmavMUHy
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台上兩道光影糾纏,交錯如劍。沒有目光交會,沒有言語溝通,只透過音符與弓尖的氣息在撞擊﹑爭奪﹑共鳴。98Please respect copyright.PENANApT23fOoRMc
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直至......98Please respect copyright.PENANAcXFukBRbOe
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「夠了,停停停。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA4dIUQOZB6A
指揮猛然拍了兩下譜台,聲音不大,卻冷了下來,「新田,你做什麼?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAoiRpXL3Rz2
雙方為首的二人終於停了下來。98Please respect copyright.PENANAwdduKyITTW
排練室陷入沉寂,其他團員面面相覷。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvncAHCipZa
日澤收弓,語氣是強壓之下的冷靜,「……抱歉,是我的問題,不會再有第二次了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZXRyjyPau
道歉的話語說得動聽無比,如一個自知分寸的職業樂手。可當所有人重新開始從頭接續後,這個總是從容優雅的人萬年上揚的嘴角終於還是忍不住沉了下來,眼底暗光閃爍不定。98Please respect copyright.PENANAGgY7vrR49p
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透過錄像,雨月的琴聲並非初次見識,可如今親臨現場,才更明白傳言裡的那份震顫。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxgia996pHC
雨月的耀眼渾然天成,彷若生來就該站定那個位置,更遑論那不知要多少個日夜積累才奏得出的樂段,可能是在場演奏家一輩子都達不到的層次。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvGilxJrLGf
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而現年23歲的村田雨月,孤注一擲般踏上這條寂寞之路。98Please respect copyright.PENANAwpaesswwTo
天賦在所有努力面前不值一提。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvaIZRwM2Hq
貨真價實的天才,能輕易地讓一切顯得理所應當。98Please respect copyright.PENANAqi0CJo2jd7
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天才﹑勝者﹑天賦﹑差距。98Please respect copyright.PENANA9mwBEnzFX9
日澤躍動的思緒止不住翻湧。98Please respect copyright.PENANAkBvggBhruo
……98Please respect copyright.PENANAXHai3YICri
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那晚的海....98Please respect copyright.PENANA1TiAo6MFmk
窒息感撲面襲來,如腦部受海洛因刺激,只得趕在失控沉溺之際懸崖勒馬。98Please respect copyright.PENANAP3wf9pZI3h
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他比誰明白,98Please respect copyright.PENANAC2YRtj49fM
溺水者見著救命浮木那瞬會發生甚麼。98Please respect copyright.PENANAUCv5ltQxEb
更知道一旦遇上,本能上就得牢牢抓緊,98Please respect copyright.PENANAwEGXtceEbN
即使知曉很有可能連同一齊沉沒。98Please respect copyright.PENANAA6pHbAlCYu
這份萌生的齷齰,骯髒而真實,使他不自覺厭倦,98Please respect copyright.PENANA8gt8K75zdP
卻也明白,他等得夠久了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAZefe4j5p2c
等到他甚至開始懷疑自己,98Please respect copyright.PENANAi9TxCn3YtG
是不是卑劣地真想活下去了。98Please respect copyright.PENANATshTWIYtaV
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雨月收弓的動作稍緩,沒甚麼反應。僅是低頭翻了翻譜頁,眼神沉默地遮掩那一抹尚未褪去的燥熱。98Please respect copyright.PENANAs2emVQTEAR
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這個人,挺難纏的。98Please respect copyright.PENANAp1TEjQimOc
然而,久違遇上能較勁得如此難捨難分的演奏家,興奮之餘,終於還是忍不住對他興起一絲好奇。98Please respect copyright.PENANAKqP0Muu0dO
以方才琴音奔騰的熱度,感受的到對方對於獨奏的熱情並未散去,98Please respect copyright.PENANAD1Czbpjp3u
那又為何如今,只甘願默默成為樂團其中一員。98Please respect copyright.PENANA4el0u7JTMP
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想起昨天日澤不鹹不淡的話語,還有幾天前他那場一年一度轟動世界的獨奏演出。98Please respect copyright.PENANAq62Dpt1M5y
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他究竟,還有幾個面貌?98Please respect copyright.PENANAOrgfwxumOT
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以同個樂段為引,蔓延而出的各種心思,98Please respect copyright.PENANA8Rw6wuWLmz
即使短短一瞬,即便亂的也不僅僅只有樂章。98Please respect copyright.PENANAhWZVSg8UWh
而佯裝優雅之下被刻意忽略的,98Please respect copyright.PENANACHZIaDYLDN
是兩顆不知不覺,早被點燃的熱意。98Please respect copyright.PENANA6iDxi70iEa
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排練沒了一開始失控的混亂,想當然也不再有驚鴻一瞥的驚喜。98Please respect copyright.PENANAfjekiVPnI7
彷若方才那股不假思索的針鋒相對並非出自他手,他仍是樂團內最為穩定幾近絕不出錯的首席日澤。98Please respect copyright.PENANAZHx0zNxVFb
調整好心緒,龐大的編制襯著西貝流士溫潤而孤寂的旋律線,映上愛樂成員們樂性更為隨意自由的習慣,雨月無比專業的思考著,若不出他所料的話,音樂節前,該如何雙方配合勢必得好好琢磨了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAlN6xtEXXq7
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「首席,待會留下來。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAb2SNQRsquZ
排練剛結束正等著佐藤過來接他的雨月聽著指揮這話,不動聲色瞄了日澤一眼。98Please respect copyright.PENANA8IwiffN1xP
其實不單單是他,整個樂團的注意力因指揮輕描淡寫的一句話,早聚焦在了日澤身上。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxxLB2N2ewX
初來乍到的雨月或許沒什麼感覺,但,98Please respect copyright.PENANA7homn70WUu
是首席而非新田,恐怕指揮這次氣的不輕。98Please respect copyright.PENANAeVNLGuRkQC
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剛調整好琴弓放回琴盒的角度,日澤手一頓,索性繞了個彎,慢條斯理將鎖扣穩穩拴上,「是。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAlLTP8zXRd1
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啊啊......今天又沒辦法了,那菜都凍了多久,四天?五天?98Please respect copyright.PENANAH8zJrDN6NQ
算了。。。。。路上隨便買回去吧......98Please respect copyright.PENANAYiBXGS9v6B
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「新季度的第一次配合,方才樂團最明顯需要調整的地方,我想你應該一下就聽出來了吧。」沒有絲毫猶豫,指揮乾脆俐落切入重點。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmvI8m4sa1P
而拖泥帶水也絕非他的性格,日澤言簡意賅,「演奏家的水準非常高,協奏曲裡所有細微的轉折點﹑表現張力堪稱準確無比,若想配合的話,老實說,樂團目前這樣的演奏絕對不行,伴奏會撐不起來主旋律。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAQZ9QCoV82Z
聽見對方的回答,指揮凝重的臉總算稍稍鬆動,「恩,一針見血呢。」望著日澤依舊溫柔上揚的嘴角,「你可真狠,新田。」98Please respect copyright.PENANASiBdE3yND3
這可是他的樂團。98Please respect copyright.PENANAPlmeLMZsvz
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「您想聽到的無非就是這麼專業性的答案吧。」日澤還能不了解嗎,「但老師請放心,成員的程度也絕對並非省油的燈,調整的話只要日後我再.......」98Please respect copyright.PENANA3bbBoIv2Zd
「不。」指揮淡笑稍一抿唇,「樂團的調整,這次我來。」開甚麼玩笑,世界級公認如此絢麗的音色近在眼前,若玩不出甚麼新花樣,豈不糟蹋紐約愛樂的交響實力,也對不住這場音樂節的舞台。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3bJ9CwKU3G
「樂團這次要換的是整體樂風,所以我親自來調,你可別放風聲出去,也該是時候考考我挑的人的應變能力了。」指揮眸色漸深,「新田你,這次換去與獨奏家配合,溝通我們樂團在協奏曲風格上調整後的細節,可以嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAdDAwUwluMq
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日澤一頓,「....我?」98Please respect copyright.PENANATZizvHIhpv
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「聽了村田的演奏後,我多了很多想法,不意外的話今晚就能發你改好的譜,演奏家那裏之後再麻煩你。」指揮不是沒有注意到日澤停頓的點,但即使退一萬步來說,唯有日澤的能耐他絕對信任,「如果方便的話稍微提醒下他,這次的演出畢竟是年末音樂節。比起正確的音樂,大家更想聽到的絕對會是演奏者當下的心情,所以在情感表現上若能收一些比賽才有的謹慎感會更好。」「聽得出村田先生對曲子已經相當熟練了,技巧上更是無可挑剔,但這絕對不是在節慶中會出現的韻味,那是唯有在緊繃之下才會湧現的氣息。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAoBPtolVrSt
指揮眸色漸深,「你作為從旁協助他的人,接下來合作最重要的一點,清楚嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAXfjjPboP1h
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緩緩站起身,「讓他換個情緒演奏,是吧?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAAEOqKUAvhd
日澤連眉眼都透出些許溫柔,回應了老師的言下之意。98Please respect copyright.PENANA8YgT00pThE
「交給你了,日澤。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAKqh2BHvG5i
「說服獨奏家讓他配合我們,老師您是故意把這苦差扔給我嗎?」話雖如此,日澤卻未露出任何一絲埋怨的神情。98Please respect copyright.PENANAAGKqACP8tL
但也明白獨奏家的個人色彩,定然有他堅持的道理。98Please respect copyright.PENANA85v0gfB5bQ
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「偶爾也得讓你體會老師一直以來的辛苦吧,況且....」「他可以影響你的,不是嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANArtCRogvu1v
指揮可沒忘了眼前這人方才被雨月勾出的本性,不禁感慨,「試問這世上多少人動的了你新田日澤的音樂啊?實在是太難得了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAlc4h6ggOP9
「好久沒見你脫韁般的音符流動了,沒想過,居然有懷念的一天。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAKduopgTDHr
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「......」日澤表情未變,「那可不是件好事。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA0iJAbhOPs6
「是嗎?我倒是聽膩你當首席這段時間的提琴了,撇除指揮身分的話,今天一開始的排練倒是兩年來最滿意的一次,以前每每像這樣站在舞台最前方的人是誰,別跟我說你忘了。」98Please respect copyright.PENANACIi1RSLG2j
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日澤聞言也僅一笑置之,有些不置可否。98Please respect copyright.PENANAM68HL3ne80
有時他倒真希望能忘得如此痛快,98Please respect copyright.PENANAboIygaBU3L
好過時時刻刻逼著自己記清楚,98Please respect copyright.PENANAz92FWfWzpz
舞台上賦予的炙熱,稍不慎也是有灼傷的可能。98Please respect copyright.PENANAx4mEz8lK2I
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初冬拂起的風雖不至刺骨,在走出音樂廳這段路卻也足夠強勁。98Please respect copyright.PENANAyWwxX53Xko
如同再真摯的言語,只要當事者不選擇正視它,就依然猶如芒刺在背。98Please respect copyright.PENANApYb6ohulmo
所以指揮此時再不厭其煩地說著些無關緊要的小事,日澤全然只當離開前的閒聊。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxBe0vm91Eo
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「你熟知失去掌控的情況,偶爾為之並沒有甚麼關係。」「總有人拉住你的。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAXi03Twe6fk
「至少我認為,對你來說那樣的音樂才叫音樂。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAtE9arBWOEJ
「.....」98Please respect copyright.PENANAZBp9v77JR5
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指揮這兩年幾乎沒怎麼請過客,剖心置腹的話倒是灌了不少。98Please respect copyright.PENANAzhomhkLzKj
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有一搭沒一搭地回應著,一如既往,彷彿甚麼都不曾改變。98Please respect copyright.PENANA0exjJmzP6a
某個瞬間曾失去的某個笑聲,最終也不過沉於時光之下。98Please respect copyright.PENANAkixVsbRIbi
他可以理解,98Please respect copyright.PENANAgCRMZbPgK9
在他面前再也不提起的原因,是老師選擇的溫柔。98Please respect copyright.PENANAVZse9uBYz9
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弦樂部成員三三兩兩聚集在外,默契般地特意等著甚麼。98Please respect copyright.PENANAEOfa16QAky
日澤毫不意外見著身在其中的雨月,依他團員那熱情過頭的性子,一見到新人,恐怕已經將人家從今天早餐到晚餐全都問過一輪了吧。98Please respect copyright.PENANAr6rqw80HRM
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「是來等你的吧?」輕描淡寫的笑容浮上指揮嘴角,日澤自知其中深意,「我先回去改譜了,看這情況他們絕對是把協奏曲都練熟了,是吧。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAS38xN1imuv
數十年如一日的惡趣味......日澤有些無言地盯著老師,還未發話,肩膀陡然一沉,等回過神來,指揮早已走遠。98Please respect copyright.PENANA9xzZCSZJF3
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「很好,你活著走出演奏廳就好。」「依你的程度肯定沒被指揮刁吧我們的首席?是不是該喝一杯了?」一大票團員圍在日澤身後,有好好享受音樂的他們,此刻也正好好的享受生活。98Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9NEL68tkH
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「......」「想我請客就說。」日澤只能無奈失笑,真想坑他一筆?98Please respect copyright.PENANAPxWWFvZwck
「前幾天巴哈的G弦我們可是跟你跟到快瘋了,結果剛結束你逃得比誰都快,當初說好的根本連一杯都沒喝到。何況今天連接下來要合作一整年的演奏家也特地留下來了,可以說是歡迎會了吧,人家初來乍到都難得同意了,你這個首席難道不該表示一下?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAjEOaTCcHwO
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同意了?98Please respect copyright.PENANAhzM3HQiHPE
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日澤本想回過頭看幾眼不過才剛認識的雨月,還沒能來的及,就被其餘團員不由分說地推搡著往Dizzy的方向拉,那兒幾乎已成了紐約愛樂下班後的天地。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3FVsLWb71h
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而紐約的夜一貫燈火通明,暖得令人心慌,98Please respect copyright.PENANAHJYvyKKo3j
星河即使再過耀眼,此時此刻也顯得微不足道。98Please respect copyright.PENANAlH88GNSur6
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爵士的節拍混著顯而易見的歡愉,酒館內的氣氛熱鬧而輕鬆,三三兩兩舉杯,將所有秘密藏於觥籌交錯中。98Please respect copyright.PENANAht1hun0lca
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雨月百無聊賴,坐在高腳椅上和酒保有一搭沒一搭聊著眼前送來的調酒,偶爾回應一下後方笑鬧成群的團員丟來的話題。98Please respect copyright.PENANAanxjtPNve0
第一次來這裡,雨月其實喝的不算快,只是一杯接著一杯,知道是邀請他的歡迎會後,好像更加肆無忌憚了,無論調酒還是苦啤,名稱只要還看得順眼,乾脆都點過來試。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3d6Ti1zQI3
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因此喝到茫,也不過早晚的事。98Please respect copyright.PENANAtSCNohjueb
即使一口一口慢慢細品,也沒有人承受的住一下這麼烈的濃度。98Please respect copyright.PENANActilwSLpUj
雨月這次故意的有些明顯,98Please respect copyright.PENANAh10G4stoVU
彷若連酒精都像在無聲地試探自己還能承受多少寂寞。98Please respect copyright.PENANAEGnqscQGuF
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……98Please respect copyright.PENANAWV631B85E9
如果可以,先暫時,別讓他想起來。98Please respect copyright.PENANAPKsr9IMcp8
想起某個秋天,想起某個人。98Please respect copyright.PENANAQEbUU7RZi8
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新的一切,往往瞬息萬變。98Please respect copyright.PENANA90vPUFP6FZ
他們只能不斷向前,是吧?98Please respect copyright.PENANADUzH6G2i6W
而最一開始的時光......他想起某個笨拙卻堅定追來的腳步聲。98Please respect copyright.PENANAaoFbO2AoWH
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雨月終於停下向調酒師續杯的手勢,手裡握著的威士忌不知早在何時就沒了溫度,低著頭,額前垂落的黑髮遮住了眼睛。98Please respect copyright.PENANAzoLBjGbIhm
頭開始昏昏沉沉,眼前光線輕輕地被柔焦,98Please respect copyright.PENANAftbgUV8TDn
笑聲﹑人影﹑玻璃杯碰撞的聲音,混在一起,遠遠近近。98Please respect copyright.PENANAoGWN3HHCb0
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時光的流逝一向不給深陷其中的人機會,98Please respect copyright.PENANAfdDAzFCOcH
開始逐漸散去的人潮,有的團員結伴離開,有的提前搭車。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvKhQLtZuVB
絲毫未覺察的雨月卻還留在那兒,微微托著腮,指尖有一下沒一下地摩挲著杯沿,被困於某段記憶雖於事無補,卻能給足自己當下所有的安全感。98Please respect copyright.PENANAk6T3sHl3yp
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「咚。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAB8pkuVXraL
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雨月一愣。98Please respect copyright.PENANAqAUdBraHAz
聲音很輕,但在這紛亂的俱樂部裡卻格外清晰。98Please respect copyright.PENANAnla5MIGXTx
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蜂蜜水?98Please respect copyright.PENANA2vB4vyowcW
雨月悄悄回過神,抬起頭,視線有些模糊。98Please respect copyright.PENANACdOJoPBdhk
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日澤沒有打擾他,因此雨月抬頭時,只剛好看見他正轉身離開的背影。98Please respect copyright.PENANA6ggoQQHVNO
咖啡色風衣隨動作微微晃動,他沒有回頭,更沒有多說一句多餘的話,只是跟著其他成員一道,推門而出,消失在夜色中。98Please respect copyright.PENANAPluUh6ZFcO
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印象裡,自己好像已經第二次見過對方模糊不清的身影了。98Please respect copyright.PENANArfZdzPMWXi
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雨月低頭看著眼前桌上那杯仍冒著熱氣的蜂蜜水,微微怔了怔。98Please respect copyright.PENANAnwc4ro8iVF
只不過是一杯蜂蜜水而已,98Please respect copyright.PENANAzoBHHzn9kL
卻像是默默觀察到了什麼,卻又彷彿只是一種自然而然的體貼。98Please respect copyright.PENANAAb42bsV5kp
蜂蜜的香氣在蒸騰氤氳的熱氣裡微微瀰漫開來,柔和而安定,像是特意留予他,微小卻溫柔的存在感。98Please respect copyright.PENANARiwX3x2PVZ
溫度透過玻璃杯壁,暖入冰冷的指尖,滲進他涼薄的掌心。98Please respect copyright.PENANAwBbXFVQnSq
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……98Please respect copyright.PENANAM6ulurouoc
指尖下殘留的溫熱,有些過分的小心翼翼。98Please respect copyright.PENANA6GR8Ud9NDG
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他低頭,漫不經心地輕抿一口。98Please respect copyright.PENANAA1zaRBB9YC
即便或許單純只不過是舉手之勞,即使心仍漂泊。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxZaoI9qNjs
在甜味滲入口腔的瞬間,終歸像是將某一刻的混亂與迷惘,都稍稍推開了些。
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習慣性步入紐約的夜色,身在人群後方的日澤,頭微沉手插著兜。
耳邊是團員們的笑鬧聲,他卻有些心不在焉。98Please respect copyright.PENANAX1TGJt3aLt
霓虹閃爍的燈火,多了分飄忽不定的色彩。
明顯慢下來的速度,讓弦樂二部的女首席不得不注意到,「日澤,怎麼了嗎?」98Please respect copyright.PENANAxine6u9D5P
「沒甚麼,你們先走,我打通電話。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAYKfptdnxQy
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本來是想著若單純喝個一兩杯,想用走的回去也無傷大雅,順便也能吹個夜風醒醒酒。98Please respect copyright.PENANAy3mAdwb4JQ
誰知道雨月首次跟團出來就醉得不輕,琳瑯滿目的帳單第一次讓他定格了三秒。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmFyb9OxPAw
好危險......98Please respect copyright.PENANAVc96NkIHIG
還好是他結清......98Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7qxS5matl
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「是,佐藤先生。抱歉打擾....」「今天團員們幫村田先生辦了場歡迎會。」「是的所以可能得還再麻煩您。」98Please respect copyright.PENANANdRs5dtOwk
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切斷語音的同時,日澤伸手撥了撥額前的碎髮,嘴角勾起一個近乎無奈的、淡淡的笑。98Please respect copyright.PENANAEv4IuY9tJa
有些東西,恐怕一聽便注定使人窺得蛛絲馬跡,98Please respect copyright.PENANAtocUqYSuOd
稍早的第一記小提琴長音,精準將西貝流士的冷冽和自己感同身受的孤寂交融,與剛才悶不吭聲幾乎將Dizzy Club招牌全飲過的舉動。98Please respect copyright.PENANAv8IEhVOOnJ
他心中那個人,肯定很重要吧。98Please respect copyright.PENANAx1iKw6NesK
至少是能牽動他所有心緒和感情的人。98Please respect copyright.PENANAB3fYWRlMBH
所以,98Please respect copyright.PENANAVPkinDwePb
僅僅一杯水的距離,絕對什麼都改變不了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAnicGlrvupW
或許只夠讓今晚的你稍微清醒些,再清醒些,98Please respect copyright.PENANA5Eu711HbrX
然後,繼續將所有說不出口的話,寄託在琴弓之下。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmZc41HdPxu
既然選擇了音樂,那麼,就一輩子離不開他了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAfwnhl1h6Kb
而其餘的,無論是那份努力、抑或那份藏匿太深的孤獨,98Please respect copyright.PENANAwbTcSB8o7W
只要力所能及,他可以心甘情願用那等同世界賦予他的溫柔,留下回應。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmEiBEXrEPW
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他一無所有,唯剩不足掛齒又無濟於事的溫柔。
自認為不再期待任何回聲的他,曾渴求的又是怎麼樣的聲音?
此刻的新田日澤,同樣的,掙扎著說不出口。
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