For a while, things seemed to get better. I was allowed to hang out with friends and do the things I liked. It felt like life was finally getting back on track. Around that time, I became interested in a friend of mine named "  Sereen Josh " She used to listen to everything I shared. But suddenly, I started experiencing unwanted thoughts—thoughts that terrified me, like I might harm someone or even myself.

These thoughts made me feel horrible and guilty. I constantly needed reassurance from others—asking things like, “This won’t happen, right?” I started avoiding anything that triggered those thoughts and began developing compulsive behaviors just to feel normal. I was trapped in a cycle of self-blame, fear, and avoidance. I couldn't focus on studies or connect with anyone properly

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SCENE 6 : INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS : 

Then came another wave of intrusive thoughts—this time related to religion. These thoughts were so disturbing and inappropriate that they made me cry and feel incredibly guilty. I would compulsively pray, cry, and beg for forgiveness, blaming myself for thinking such things.

Most Tense theme was when i started to take Numbers as something happen bad to me like if anyone talk to me anything regarding numbers like Time / calculation / qty or any thing count in  Digits This theme was making me  crazy. 

In this condition, a person starts to feel completely off—they just cry and keep asking others, “I’m having these thoughts, these images… what if they come true?” I used to do the same. Seeing my state, my family would cry too. It was very difficult for them to handle me. When OCD becomes severe, this is what happens. You start doubting yourself constantly, as if you're the one causing these thoughts, like you’re thinking them intentionally or it’s somehow your fault.

But in reality, all of it happens because of the OCD disorder. In therapy, you’re taught to break those false beliefs you’ve built around certain thoughts. These beliefs are what make your mind react so strongly. Recovery comes when you stop believing the thoughts and stop trying to control or fix them.

I know my life is on better track now and hope for best in future .

That's my story it's almost like a horrible rollar coaster .. i want to share this to all my social media members .

Ocd took my life my happiness and my funny nature many ups and down . 

Most important thing which i want to say that every parents should give confidence to thier children ,Rather than making life worst for them just due to studies , high expectation's and put a lot of burden . They should create friendly relation ship with child . 

Because if you always comparing your child weaknesses to other childrens it will shatter his / her confidence .Every person has different Abilities and different natures some are strong some are sensitive .

Well this was not only reason for OCD .

It can happen with anyone at any point of life .

If you have any question feel free to ask me. .

BYE ...