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—嗯，我過得超～好
「我沒事。」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5KJxtp1r5
「⋯⋯我超好的。」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFiA76dTJD
約莫三坪的黑暗中，兩根細長的手指伴隨一段低沉而無力的女聲，在僅有的光源上緩慢移動著。
—說出來你可能不信
幾筆墨黑躍然而出。
—我最近做什麼都超順的欸！86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqwjGfxNfv
—每天起床都很莫名很有精神86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbmxdqxuNLA
—買東西都剛好會遇到不太需要排隊的時段86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwwikDU6tk
—喔對也不會有沒貨的問題
咑咑咑
—所以不要跟我說什麼是因為賣完了才沒人86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BLmJEJvsF
—還有很多86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjBaAxHqE2
—像是要趕時間的時候大部分不會遇到紅燈86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYYEegIuE4
—通勤的時候不太塞車86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Kpyy0zUBZ
—打字的時候不太需要選字審字86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXH3c9Cqm8r
—還有很多其他86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfR5IBFlzs
—反正就是
咑咑咑
—不只事情都確實按著計畫走86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIEAdndvTH
—還有很多意外的小確幸86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXFEYQMHGI
—房東太太也很好相處86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5ndqO5Mno
—你知道86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5VTzZ1nJf
—這種便利的小幸運真的是86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLH0aSfUfPC
—可遇不可求86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDjwSsRB3X
—所以我最近心情真的86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyECuQ8VE4
—超好！
咑
「哈哈⋯噗哈哈哈哈⋯⋯⋯咳咳咳⋯」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5FIQHdsoE
幾滴嫣紅的狂笑自嘴角流出，敲擊聲再次響起。
咑咑咑
—然後公司裡啊86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQn795dwkko
—大家人都86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdEJlDGO0U
—該怎麼說86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx5YYNoFno
—看起來有點難親近的同事實際上是那種外冷內熱的類型86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLu8KoCbsgo
—開始變熟了之後86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6XXJuVHsq
—發現不只很好說話
咑咑咑
—樂於助人86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqfWRhzjVCo
—對大家都很貼心
「⋯很貼心，熱心助人⋯⋯」一坨沾染著幾許赭紅的衛生紙被丟出床外。
—而且主管人也很好86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVSOYRxmu1
—架子不高，很有責任感86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpV7Aukvn6R
—不會一直讓人覺得很壓迫86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJtRRQ1jwpL
—也不會亂塞一堆無理的工作然後當甩手掌櫃86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ18rnybt0od
—而且⋯⋯
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⋯⋯陸陸續續又打了兩分鐘後，敲擊聲再次唐突地停了下來。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHaQB8UFBl
她看著螢幕，陷入沉默。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbvyVAC1eYx
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「⋯⋯」
褪下包裹著的厚重棉被，揮開旁邊成堆的衛生紙，她托起身子，走近梳妝台。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr02X2jMQEr
稍顯陳舊的白花藤椅在她的拉扯下發出一聲尖銳叫喊，但她不予理會，徑直坐下。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KJTA34y1O
「哼哼哼～」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oGv6fZlWA
一段不知名的旋律輕巧地推開發紫的薄唇，墜落在無光的空虛之中。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORnvjqzBRl
她拍上化妝水，開始上妝。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DU7tusaas
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「哼哼哼～咳咳⋯⋯」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ej6TmaisO
一邊扯開喉嚨，盡可能模仿著她那淒美的樂聲，我看著她一步一步完成商業用妝容，開始梳理自己深褐色的長髮。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJHv3JMegtK
琥珀色的扁梳不發一語，輕柔而無聲地帶走了一絲又一絲，渲上幾點鏽斑的棕髮。剩餘的髮絲被撥到右肩上，襯出頸部那圈靛色的瘀青。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4f4aBHb091
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這不是我第一次看她上妝了。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWcaHYMHjT
但不管幾次，總覺得有哪裡不太滿意。
是配色不太好嗎？86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgnKVdqd3l
眼影太深了嗎？86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxogdRABThn
唇色太濃了嗎？86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLHeAFdThu
底妝太飽和了嗎？86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PVHAVmUpi
還是真的只是感覺問題？不過我們最近都還是跟以前一樣心情都不錯欸？86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuk7UooX7t
⋯⋯總之，我不太清楚。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKTx7okufq3
或者說，我一直都沒搞清楚。
我們對視了許久，她看起來似乎也覺得哪裡不太滿意。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p9IDfAxj3
⋯⋯看來是「我們」都沒搞清楚。
「咳咳⋯換身衣服好了⋯⋯」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOVXG137oc
幾聲嘶啞傳出，她轉過身去，扶著略微搖晃的白花藤椅，撐起身子緩步邁進。賣力地推開沿途的障礙物，小心避開路上的垃圾、藥丸、藥片，玻璃，塑膠碎片⋯⋯然後抵達衣櫃前，再使勁拉開櫃門。
咚86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt04cGafkfz
砰86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf0B26kPbD
哐86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjp6BMG7KR
⋯⋯吱咿——
仔細淘選出幾件發皺的連身裙裝，她轉回來，比對著問我。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7BkPDhZwy
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「這件怎麼樣？」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8g5caSAjSM
我搖搖頭。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlp49inDyQB
那是她前幾年穿去聯誼的藍白相間的高腰洋裝，現在已經不適合她了。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUVJqTDRhS
我看見她也搖了搖頭，轉過去提起另一件。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡalh6ECtJn1
「咳咳⋯這件⋯咳⋯呢？」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEMIJNQj8O
我搖搖頭。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jq0vUgRvb
拜託，現在是夏天欸，沒什麼特殊需求的話穿著深色長裙難免不妥吧？妳不熱，我光看著也很熱。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCH4P3hRwUJ
嘛，不過我們不怎麼出門就是了。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KUSPBgYVn
她似乎愣了一下，但隨即也搖了搖頭，又轉過去提起另一件來。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQOqlZ9ur4
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就這樣一來一往，我們最終相中了一件白底黑點，V領的綁帶洋裝。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKqw6j4ZDy
雖說依舊是有點差強人意，但能從那堆東西裡翻出這麼一件來已經是不可多求的奇蹟了。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9nCEQsGYh
正所謂「可遇不可求」嘛。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpoycZxTB9
「噗呵⋯」我們相視而笑。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUsYOsSnor
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換完衣服，她再次拉開藤椅，坐了下來，邊整理梳妝台，邊哼起那段不知名的旋律。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmqlsq7vwQ
我也有樣學樣，幫著整理那些瓶瓶罐罐，同時慢慢唱了起來。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡok4wzzjluL
經過剛剛的琢磨，這次已經沒那麼痛了。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHR3wpQmZPB
雖然偶爾還是會咳個幾下，但沒差，擦擦就好。
「哼哼哼～」
Alprazolam、Estazolam、Triazolam、Chlordiazepoxide、Lorazepam⋯⋯86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdAFx47Y5Qa
在無數不認識的單字中，我看見她特別挑了幾瓶出來，打開後如品茶般輕嗅了幾下，又蓋了回去。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpzMPUB255
也不知道是為什麼，她從去年開始⋯也許是前年？便開始四處購買這樣的藥品。
我知道那些是什麼，而她也知道。
⋯⋯看著她一罐接著一罐，讓蓋回去的藥瓶自然落下。我突然一股怒氣湧上，憤然將梳妝台上所有瓶瓶罐罐一把推開，瞬息之間，整個空間迴響起清澈的共鳴。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTfwFcG6Gm
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喔對，這是我近幾年聽過最悅耳的聲音。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQEkn3P1F7
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哐啷！86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXLi9IGo8e
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我在鐵紅色的梳妝台上揀選著，86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ71vr3P70w
不，不是你。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QTFAIV5kx
不是你⋯86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHbmzcTsodN
不是你⋯⋯86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzwnCBhFXp
我說了不是你！！！！！！！！！！！86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7ZPvaJaLB
⋯⋯
砰！！！
我奮力將藤椅往窗邊一甩。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcRj7YzYAi
可惜不知是手勁太小還是方向不對，它只是撞上了衣櫃，落在垃圾堆間。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnQoAeege2
我回過頭。
喔⋯對⋯⋯86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk4E2maRf7u
你很不錯。
拿起地上的一把美工刀，我輕輕推出刀片，架在她的腕部。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7wi8gVjOpA
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呼吸86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmVC5us0Yph
越來越急促86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60yancBwHv
就是86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvq6uSWDzlT
現在！86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dA0ES5A9W
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⋯⋯86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCK96Ghg244
⋯⋯⋯86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtfmS0gYjS
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「叮鈴—叮鈴—叮鈴—」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eQ6PLDWob
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⋯鬧鐘響了。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFfjLKQpAu
她走向床頭，按下了鬧鐘。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvtVzDANmU
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我們四目相交。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pK0z6bGRl
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「該吃藥了。」我說。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6ieM94fs7
「該吃藥了。」她回答道。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyoP7fRppP
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我撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一顆橢圓的藥丸。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsul8kqudl2
她撿起地上眾多藥瓶的其中之一，將瓶子倒過來，輕敲著瓶口，倒出一片雪白的藥片。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZu5d2w4wV8
我們交互著彼此的工作，服下藥物。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyG52jOLRw
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按時用藥是很重要的，我想。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9fUAN9wC0
她應該也這麼覺得。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE9OW0X7vsB
⋯⋯不，她必須這麼覺得。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aVVJnra88
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我走到窗邊搬回藤椅，在梳妝台前輕輕放下，坐在那裡，輕哼著不知名的旋律。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41H4c7esK2
她兩手提起嘴角，看向我。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A9gihv48m
再次，我們對視，然後輕笑了一聲。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmGt9ecQrw
「不用難過。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡID3ZHpRig1
不用生氣。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KWeQ27AaB
不用委屈。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeL8Pqm2YxH
不用憤慨。86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlNqRVXMrm
今天又是美好的一天。」86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPfAdJx3PQ
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⋯⋯對吧？86Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa12OBcjgYn
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