夜已深，整條街區陷入幾近死寂的靜。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ffUh2LTVX
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星野莉奈拿著包，轉頭對司機道了聲謝，下了車。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScgEh4o80P
一身車燈的暖色光線，落在她身後，彷彿在為她驅逐黑暗。 她拿出鑰匙打開大門，腳步一側、轉身走進家門。身後的保母車慢慢掉頭，駛離靜謐的住宅街。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRv866qxDvu
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⋯⋯喀。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPj3V7a3vB
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那聲音輕得像幻聽，卻又真實得讓她停下動作——太溫柔了，跟落在地板上的雪花一樣。不仔細注意，根本不會發現。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYYT4hxs18
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正要轉身關門的時候，眼前的光忽然被一片黑影遮住。她本能抬頭、卻還沒反應過來——那個人就站在門口。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfKfCgX9C8
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「啊⋯⋯」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QBvq4yDyQ
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星野莉奈嚇了一大跳、馬上捂住嘴巴以免叫出聲——不用半秒她就認出對方身份。她急忙東張西望，接著用最快的速度，把他拉到身後、拉進大門內的小庭園中。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfKHhQ27ha
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星野莉奈又朝門外看了一眼，才輕輕帶上門。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAtC3qlnAb
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「——你怎麼⋯⋯在這裡？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6wtrAnaP4y
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與其說驚喜，她根本是驚嚇——她沒想過、也不敢再想，會在這樣一個夜晚、這樣安靜的家門口，又見到他站在光線邊緣。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxw2G6wyEZX
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「我沒走。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJIZqk5wuV
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糸師冴說，看似沒想過要遲疑什麼，也沒有想過現在多晚了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGH4D82vm3
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有點不真實。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W2mhcIeXz
這麼晚了，連附近的商店都關了燈，只有他還像某種錯置的錯覺一樣，站在那裡不動。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAAhocGXZF
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星野莉奈整個人都停下來了。除了一直握著手機的手，現在抖得有點明顯。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03ZFtbATxP
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她真的——真的好想見他。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugRrmew4vr
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那種想念不是為了擁抱或安慰，只是想確認，他真的還在她觸碰得到的地方。哪怕只是遠遠站著，哪怕什麼都不說，她都會覺得——撐得下去。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxipwE0QWi
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可在昨晚收到他簡單的行程告知後，她早就說服自己：這次見不到了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix924fORLl
——他應該早就走了，回到屬於他的節奏，他自己的軌道裡。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Q5somIPmP
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她早準備好，把『好想他』這句話藏在心裡——可他現在，竟然真的站在這裡。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ViWtJ2bzd
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他真的站在這裡。真的沒走——53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDdfrhgMwDo
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心底有股緩緩竄升上來的喜悅，連心跳都因此變得更真實——可她從未預期過這個片段，連下一步該做什麼都沒有頭緒。最後還是只能再回頭問他：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQ34bqJtOs
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「⋯⋯不是要回西班牙嗎？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMx47kw1bDg
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「本來要回去。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUqPWDPtQ5
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糸師冴做了個短暫的答覆。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0o1YvvCBH
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「今天在酒店看到一場說明會，一個叫『藍色監獄』的計畫。滿有興趣。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlq9uiHzqbw
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沒說太多細節，也沒說什麼媒體、記者會、緋聞、風波。他說完後，靜了一下。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtvwcL69Yd
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她沒什麼表情，只是輕輕笑了一下，很簡單。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiWtKQBWt1
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「你決定留下來？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75OOMukViM
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「嗯。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FbJCdsiuj
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糸師冴頓了一下，才補了一句：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1jvEPZo7L
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「如果妳有什麼行程，不用改。也不用等我回去。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWtnrxx1gOr
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星野莉奈還是微笑著。想嘆氣，但沒真正吐出來。有些無奈，有些好笑，又有一點⋯⋯說不出的委屈。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKEVNtOhtrs
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「冴⋯⋯這個時間點，你可以傳訊⋯⋯」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzsdtGtUbs
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「我不想讓妳從新聞上知道這件事。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeic74yJgUt
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她停了一下，看著他。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8e3okdcP7
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「剛好回家吃飯。就順路過來。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlapHMl8SE
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糸師冴把臉偏向一邊。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvwHrzCmi4d
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「我不確定妳會不會想聽⋯⋯所以沒先聯絡。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5u8qIsRS16
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原來他也會想，自己說的話她會不會想聽啊⋯⋯星野莉奈苦笑了一下。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGWw0Tx2Qv
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他說要留下來，她是真的開心的。能見到他一面，已經夠幸福了。何況他還特地來說明這件事——難得先來找她，難得到讓她差點想笑。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK36FUNuEwr
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她原本那麼想見他，卻只能一個人想念。結果在放棄之後，他竟然就這樣活生生站在她面前。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydjKsMyhuz
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星野莉奈低頭看了看自己仍在顫抖的手，忍不住笑了笑。明明只是順路說一句話而已⋯⋯她卻差點感動到不知所措。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3m3pM5tO6
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可，那股躲不掉的疼痛感，還是很真實。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoBnE2aH42t
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——他一向是這樣的。說走就走，說留下就留下，理由永遠不是她。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEJCisaDIW
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她不是不痛，但他也不是第一次這樣了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZnwFnwv6x
她告訴自己，沒那麼意外——因為十三歲那年，她哭得那麼大聲，都沒能讓他停下腳步。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWfnngBvcI
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那時候她就知道了，她留不住他。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTcyeGxq0rh
而現在，只是又一次被確認而已。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTG6oh0FsX
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終於嘆了一口氣。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpz4l5lkjo1
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「⋯⋯謝謝。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWDT7Unzqd
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星野莉奈輕聲說。不是不懂，因為她也做過類似的選擇——當初為了巴黎Ｃ牌的試鏡，留下他一個人在日本，獨自面對YIPS。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVTMCg6Xgj
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這樣的選擇⋯⋯或許，並不是因為真的不在意吧。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMUWhU6H9n
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糸師冴沒回應，只是看著她，像在確認什麼，又像沒想那麼多，只是單純站在這裡。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8lRxdvbB4U
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「你今天有看新聞嗎？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXGh2mDUum
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語氣像是隨口問的，但星野莉奈的眼神卻沒有移開他。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoFppVgpnK
糸師冴還是看著她，沒有立刻回。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHk2DFhDp6E
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「我是說⋯⋯有記者說你回來，是為了誰誰誰——什麼C牌的代言人啦，什麼模特啦。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsa0LO5f5W
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她笑了一下，語氣輕得像沒掛心。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHz6O74GAyb
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糸師冴的表情沒變，只是像掃過背景雜訊那樣，簡單丟出一句：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNdxjw1gRo
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「那些會降低智商的東西不用看。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2xUCIq2Xu
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她愣了一下，早該猜到這個答案——卻還是被什麼刺了一下。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGfJKCbyvV
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「我就知道你不會在乎。」星野莉奈勉強笑著，沒說可是「那些」東西裡有她，「⋯⋯你一向都不理這些人。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPacQrc5QV
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糸師冴點了點頭，連一句都懶得多說。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhMS8R4HkTV
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她早就知道了。可驗證的那一瞬間，還是⋯⋯會痛。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDwqWMLkmc
——他不是不知道。是從頭到尾，真的，都沒打算為這些事，說一句話。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YEl4bBu08
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所以⋯⋯她才必須親口問他。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGGp1d3Ces
否則，她永遠不知道，自己到底是被回應過，還是只是被忽略。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWEEA91LBda
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她眼神收回，像鼓起什麼：「可以問你一個問題嗎？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvQnwgV8vz
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糸師冴望著她，她沒等那聲「可以」，就輕輕開口：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHKLBsZJa3
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「那時候⋯⋯我問你，能不能當我男朋友的時候。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hDqrcIpWA
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她語調平穩，卻藏不住一點點太久沒說出口的濕氣。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeeZUvsH0N
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「你為什麼，什麼都不說？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ovBOIovgK
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她要的，不是澄清，不是安慰，也不是公關措辭——53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SdpctNBMd
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只是想知道，他當時，為什麼不說話。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxxD8abF7E
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她眼神乾淨，語氣也很平靜，看起來做了很多次心理預演。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7fBY0b7Af
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糸師冴的眼睫微動，卻沒說話。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy08CRprA0
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「你那時候什麼都沒說。」星野莉奈語氣不重，但每一個字都像在敲門，「所以我一直以為，你是在拒絕我。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaOnxlheXS
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她沒打算哭，可眼睛就是酸了。不是情緒失控的那種，只是覺得——終於到了該問的時候。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY5TjATfpw
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「現在可以告訴我了嗎？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMf1bdxklO
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她問得很輕、很平靜，跟在問一個已經無關痛癢的往事一樣。但她眼神裡的那一點閃動，出賣了她。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnk1MlQU5e0
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她可以接受他完全不想搭理記者，也可以接受他對輿論嗤之以鼻。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyvoT6hN5da
但她需要知道——真正的答案。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNvZQpEKmZ
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她只是想有足夠的底氣，在所有喧嘩之中，繼續站穩自己。就像客廳那張媽媽的模特照一樣，最後走進聚光燈下，用優雅沉靜的笑容穿透一切喧囂，眼神仍然明亮。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuANzhMQola
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她不是做不到——53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfcyMJYLnv
是⋯⋯她太累了，不想再自己猜。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPWYrKEbTU
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她想知道，不是只有她自己一個人；就算他不願意公開也沒關係。至少⋯⋯她得知道，她不是一個人。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixgExsGYdQ
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糸師冴沒有立刻回答。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡat9ocX0S0b
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他只是站著，靜靜看著她，視線像是停在一個太久沒觸碰的名字上。喉結動了一下，似乎有什麼卡住了，然後才說：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdWgcGCahK
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「⋯⋯因為妳太喜歡我了。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkOpAlp3icv
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她沒說話，只看著他，眼神在等一個更具體的解釋。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISVw2KI83j
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「妳太用盡全力了。」他的語氣一貫冷靜，沒有任何責備，卻也沒有溫度。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnqdCXq4jHz
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她盯著他，手指緊了緊。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNvQTnYMqK
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糸師冴繼續說下去，語速不快，說出那個早就壓在心底的結論：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxM7dKYVJQ8
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「妳總在等我開口，連我沉默的時候，妳也會自己幫我把話説完⋯⋯妳知道我喜歡什麼口味的飲料、哪雙球鞋壓腳、哪天睡不好，什麼紅茶我不會喝第二次。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIHsdTEjlcn
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他眼神沒動。她指尖掐緊了一下，但沒有插話。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3OVpXhi3Zn
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「妳連我哪天打噴嚏、早上挑哪條毛巾、哪一場比賽後不想講話——妳都記得，比我還清楚。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVGbVMk1mg
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他停了一下，終於碰到心裡最難說出口的那句：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlEq0Vv7QW
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「——『這些，真的是妳該做的嗎？』」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4DGCZA806
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糸師冴冷靜到近乎空白。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLRYQDCtD1
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「每次妳把所有細節記得清清楚楚時，我只想問這句話。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhrA6scpRnt
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她抿唇，眼神裡的光開始慢慢往下沉。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISeQiy8KEH
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「所以你就選擇，不回應？」她問，聲音輕得像風。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqAL1rGXLa
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他眼中有什麼微微動了一下，好像想說什麼，卻又收了回去。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNHoPrwbbC
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糸師冴靜了太久，久到她以為，那份沉默也是一種回答。她點了點頭，像理解了什麼，又像終於累了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcVhhlWYWf
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「原來我這麼努力地喜歡你，在你眼裡——只是努力過頭了？」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPxltn4wERC
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「不是。」糸師冴皺眉，「我只是覺得——妳不該這樣。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3aqS4JbCSM
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「所以是我錯了？」她輕聲問，語氣仍然平穩，卻穩得連自己也不太確定。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAZ8HmpRJF
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「妳把所有事情都預先設想的太多了。」他停了一下，像在調整什麼似的：「多到讓我懷疑，妳是不是連受傷，都提前準備好了。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCDOAXrxcY
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他一直知道她的付出，他不是看不到；他一直都知道她很好，只是希望她知道，她真的不需要為了他這麼拚命。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzSdMtjyZxR
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——不需要因為他，失去自己原本的樣子。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZajxMOQBB
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星野莉奈沒再開口，只低頭看著地上的影子。站太久了，腳也有點麻了，但她還沒有轉身。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXFrLZIz82
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「⋯⋯不管我在不在日本，妳都會是這樣吧。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SpTpI6t3y
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他說，聲音很低。語氣不像問，更像是說服。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Opi0Ic3zm
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他知道她會一直努力，無論他在不在場。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IolRuCOVE
她本來就會閃閃發光，本來就能站在那裡，讓所有人看見她。從來不需要靠誰。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3bsaD7lUx
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機場的迎賓大廳裡，還掛著她和神谷美咲的海報——那個位置，本來就應該屬於她。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvW6n4zStX
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和他，一點關係都沒有。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuwemnVLpxw
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她聽著，忽然笑了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyUyEr59Jt
很輕微的一個動作，像終於解開了什麼。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4ylqp5qss
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原來，自己所做的一切，以為那些「不可取代」的位置，對對方來說，都只是——一種過分殷勤的工作。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3kKXusrJr
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那些最美好、最溫暖也最真實的時刻，其實都是她一個人瞎忙猛竄，還低下頭，把它們收藏到內心最深的地方，珍惜保存。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5QaN3Urj34
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突然想起小川鈴很久以前和她說過——她的一切都必須跟鏡頭前一樣「剛剛好」。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEsRpe3HPE
動作剛好、語言剛好、行為舉止剛好⋯⋯53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYC8Mta59H
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連情感都要，剛剛好。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3D3EFF3bg
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她的身體可以在零點三秒內調整角度，但她的情感沒辦法「剛剛好地愛」；「鏡頭精準」是職業訓練，專業可以掌握，但感情——不是工作。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViu1AxfCf2
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不是。一直都不是。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzBBpW3IOb
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「⋯⋯你放心吧。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWshC9b0Nh
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星野莉奈輕聲說，像在宣布一場溫柔的退場。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAiUui96Z7x
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「你穿哪雙鞋、喝哪個牌子的運動飲料、喜歡哪種戰術、哪場比賽得幾分⋯⋯那些四年前的事，我現在都忘得差不多了。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡER3dQbHfhT
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她說得不快，每一個字都刻意放慢，用來割自己一刀。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPod3lNJGxs
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「這樣⋯⋯就不會太不像戀愛了。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgERGAUyaay
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她輕笑一下，對那個拼命記住所有細節的自己，說了一句告別。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsnPxrEfoq
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「太像，求職準備了⋯⋯」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ygguEaWD4
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她真的太用力了。用力到，忘記自己其實也需要被回應。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSuRfie82D
她以為自己的愛是無條件、是輕盈、是足以支撐這段關係的——而現在，終於證明了，自己只是個過度消耗的機器。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVT8O4Z9Jrg
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說完，她轉身面向家門，手搭上門把，語氣輕到像是在結束一場不會錄取的面試：53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfs12Qohut
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「我會學著，怎麼『不那麼喜歡你』——我學得很快。放心吧。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYvMZkLIze
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腳步沒停，她往屋子裡走去。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXsYRnmeoF
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「莉奈——」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrbepcwBeF
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糸師冴下意識叫住她，腳步剛動了一下，手也抬了一寸，卻還是差了半步。他原本伸出的手，就停在門把的高度，離她不到五公分。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCegzzuxJu
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門「喀」地關上。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEAI1VZ8rR
那聲音落下的瞬間，像什麼被剪斷了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMbikSfzKD
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「我會調整成你認為『適合』的樣子。那個剛剛好的樣子。」53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJr1KkKrmR
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她最後的聲音在空氣裡散開，帶著幾乎聽不見的顫抖。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIdGpkOlFI6
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——她那麼努力地喜歡他。不是一天，不是一句話，而是幾年來，心甘情願學著怎麼靠近他、照顧他、讀懂他——53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEoNPvt5EU
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她用盡全力在風暴中站穩，繼續溫暖自己的初心，就是為了不辜負所有的真心、她感受到真切的每一刻——她以為，她不是一個人。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO08vzOh9cD
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而他，只用一場冷靜的風，把她所有的熱度吹散了。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8cDfeHc68
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門關上的瞬間，他站著沒有動。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0psrMKzAxD
他知道她誤會了，卻一句解釋也說不出口。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gMU2mpNEn
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他不是不在意她。53Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhs1qmDXON3
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而是，他已經用盡全力，回應她的每一句話了。
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