保母車照例送她回家,在熟悉的巷口停下。星野莉奈道了謝,自己拎著包包下車,朝家的門口走去。26Please respect copyright.PENANANgpX1RKpMu
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夜裡的風很輕,路燈把影子拉得很長。她聽見鞋跟在路面上輕輕敲出的聲響,一聲一聲,孤獨得像在空白的紙上打字。26Please respect copyright.PENANAOWmkJoeN0g
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進了家門,星野莉奈換上室內拖鞋,動作輕得幾乎聽不見聲音。26Please respect copyright.PENANAStzShp9iEk
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包包放在玄關的小桌上,她頓了頓,還是小心地擺正,把背帶理順。26Please respect copyright.PENANAjhSbz8Rlvo
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外套掛好,扣子一顆一顆扣上。收拾得,像在收拾自己。26Please respect copyright.PENANAcrfCwJRVst
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她取出放在外套口袋裡的手機,走到客廳,放在長桌上,靜靜坐下。26Please respect copyright.PENANASLFEbxVVUi
客廳很安靜,只有冰箱運轉的低鳴聲在耳邊繞。26Please respect copyright.PENANADdNiSoSKWZ
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星野莉奈抱著膝蓋,坐在沙發的一角,手指輕輕摳著自己衣服上的線頭。26Please respect copyright.PENANAvhBEZmvrSK
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過了很久,她才伸手拿起手機。26Please respect copyright.PENANAtT6hbqIXas
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打開通訊軟體,滑到最上方那個置頂的對話框。26Please respect copyright.PENANAeDPJ9s4Qv7
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上一次的訊息還停留在五天前,在他們要去球賽前,只有一行簡短的「你在球場上的樣子真的超帥」。26Please respect copyright.PENANA6y7ZZYjZc6
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只有已讀標記,沒有新的回覆。26Please respect copyright.PENANAicBXVXzWpd
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她盯著那個對話框看了很久很久。指尖滑動到輸入欄,敲了幾個字,又慢慢刪掉。26Please respect copyright.PENANAl7c8OmqF2q
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想說什麼呢?26Please respect copyright.PENANAOVwZHp6Zkr
說「你看起來很好」嗎?26Please respect copyright.PENANAngk6RthvEz
太多餘了——他會看到,但也不一定會回。26Please respect copyright.PENANAIYhdQaKLpw
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說「我今天也有努力喔」?26Please respect copyright.PENANAX5nic8NBf4
會不會像是在邀功?要期待人家回什麼?26Please respect copyright.PENANAzheFDtBYHp
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還是問「你的比賽怎麼樣」?26Please respect copyright.PENANAfFHqtGjMA9
「你有沒有揍那個前鋒了」?26Please respect copyright.PENANAgEFUGmNvfE
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可是他可能沒空詳細說他們的賽況;也沒有理由真的去揍那個前鋒。26Please respect copyright.PENANAsQLQV2b5CC
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那——要不要乾脆只傳一個表情符號?26Please respect copyright.PENANAK1JtkOP7Lb
一個不會被誤會、也不會太明顯的微笑?26Please respect copyright.PENANAJGH6ARDFez
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還是——26Please respect copyright.PENANAvtRoN3zuDC
什麼都不說,只顯示上線狀態,讓他知道,她還在這裡。26Please respect copyright.PENANA9LpDGzBq0X
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還在這裡,一個人。26Please respect copyright.PENANAkWEnXkOiPb
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手機螢幕因為長時間沒有操作,自動暗了下來。26Please respect copyright.PENANA7RCU2wDRYP
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星野莉奈沒有再打開。26Please respect copyright.PENANAJh9K352goP
她把手機翻面扣在桌上,怕再看到什麼,又怕什麼都沒有。26Please respect copyright.PENANAfQxnmQiO9p
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然後,她慢慢縮回沙發的角落,把自己抱得更小。26Please respect copyright.PENANA92QDhxq4dq
外面的風輕輕吹過陽台的門縫,帶來一點夜裡的冷意。26Please respect copyright.PENANArAgednW95T
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她靠著沙發背,閉上眼睛。26Please respect copyright.PENANAu3hfFwy83a
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沒有哭。26Please respect copyright.PENANAG0NMbK8od6
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也沒有期待誰會來敲門。26Please respect copyright.PENANAz98LlOh20o
只是靜靜地,和自己待在這個空蕩蕩的客廳裡。26Please respect copyright.PENANA2Lms0z2Z4O
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就像很多個夜晚一樣。26Please respect copyright.PENANA3avRR5q7TG
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她一直都是這樣走過來的。26Please respect copyright.PENANAHHqzS97RaQ
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這次也可以。26Please respect copyright.PENANAK2mqS3cKy4
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「莉奈?」26Please respect copyright.PENANA7V6sZBO7Qn
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星野莉奈把眼睛睜開,看見媽媽穿著家居服,手上拿著溫熱的巧克力牛奶和提拉米蘇切片蛋糕,還有一小盒切好的水果,輕手輕腳地走下樓來。26Please respect copyright.PENANAQqu7EoQ469
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「聽到聲音了,才放心。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAnljHgBK4iG
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她邊說邊靠近,像是怕驚動什麼一樣,動作溫柔又輕。26Please respect copyright.PENANAoL1AaVasOX
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「今天回來時順路看到,就買了一點。」26Please respect copyright.PENANABxG3FeZgMn
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媽媽輕描淡寫地笑著,把東西放在茶几上。26Please respect copyright.PENANAX2IjTiEsAB
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「我可是藏得很辛苦,才沒被妳爸爸偷拿去吃呢。」26Please respect copyright.PENANA7lxBxhq8cD
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星野莉奈點點頭,沒說話。26Please respect copyright.PENANAnQQ9LFtRS8
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「趁熱熱的喝,比較好喝。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAsIRcozieuF
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星野莉奈視線停在那杯巧克力牛奶上,杯緣冒著微微熱氣。旁邊提拉米蘇蛋糕的高脂肪乳酪,上面還填蓋一層層奶油——26Please respect copyright.PENANAsHWI1XdmTa
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「不急著變得更好,今天先吃飽就好。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAKN9LpzAMHo
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媽媽笑了笑,拍拍她的手背。26Please respect copyright.PENANA5YJCfOoaxb
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星野莉奈抬起頭,視線越過媽媽的肩膀,落在牆上的那張照片——26Please respect copyright.PENANAwsyAZL3mF0
此刻照片裡的她,正穿著家居服站在自己面前,笑容跟牆上照片模特兒一模一樣——眼神一樣溫柔堅定,聲音一樣輕。26Please respect copyright.PENANAMLn24h1WsU
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她鼻尖微微發酸,輕輕點頭。26Please respect copyright.PENANAPzZY1jRHAa
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星野莉奈一直都知道,自己崇拜的那個人——不是因為她站在鎂光燈下,而是因為每一個像現在這樣的時刻。26Please respect copyright.PENANApqMvJdCgYm
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媽媽在她對面的單人沙發坐下,輕輕舒了一口氣,像累了很久,終於可以休息一下。26Please respect copyright.PENANAY6t6BywziX
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過了好一會兒,她才開口,語氣又輕又帶著一點笑意:26Please respect copyright.PENANAAcgf0QZ1oo
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「還在想小冴啊?」26Please respect copyright.PENANADISPe9cGvG
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言語裡帶著寵溺,就像提到什麼頑皮又惹人喜歡的小動物。26Please respect copyright.PENANA0iWJvRAHqb
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星野莉奈怔了一下,眼眶瞬間酸了。低下頭,小小地吸了一口氣,沒回話。26Please respect copyright.PENANAMQZvuNudjX
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媽媽沒有逼問,只是歪著頭,笑得更溫柔了些,是心疼,又笑她太傻、太認真。26Please respect copyright.PENANAXeTlaDCgbX
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「那孩子啊,從小就不太會說話,悶悶的;嘴巴硬得要命,心卻軟得不得了。明明什麼都放在心上,偏偏開口的時候,說出來的都是會惹人誤會的話。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAzEF9ijgX5Q
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她笑了一下,沒什麼無奈,彷彿在說自家孩子,再麻煩都覺得可愛。26Please respect copyright.PENANANmcUCZci2e
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「傻得很可愛。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAA5uaIMMktB
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媽媽靠進沙發椅背,像在說一個輕輕的故事。26Please respect copyright.PENANA18bZYMSuIe
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「偏偏妳就看得出來,他其實一直有在注意身邊的事——只是他不習慣出聲,不習慣被綁住。就像那天我看他來家裡,鞋子擺得整整齊齊的,手上東西也沒忘記拿,話雖然不多,但我說一句,他都聽得進去。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAEuTkIXXXML
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星野莉奈咬著唇,肩膀微微顫了一下。26Please respect copyright.PENANAknG3OLASfr
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「冴那孩子不會說喜歡妳,不會說想妳,也不會主動牽手⋯⋯但每次妳跌倒了,都是他站在妳後面,手放在妳背上,等妳自己站起來——從小就是這樣呢。」26Please respect copyright.PENANA7RMJVuqXqR
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星野莉奈很安靜,雙手卻把曲起的雙膝抱得更緊。26Please respect copyright.PENANAp1DYNtTi58
媽媽靜靜看了她一會兒,然後緩緩地站起來,走到她身邊。26Please respect copyright.PENANAAS0O8RTxGD
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什麼都沒說,只是坐下,輕輕把她摟進懷裡。26Please respect copyright.PENANA51bwndr5nc
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沒有太用力,也沒有多餘的語言。26Please respect copyright.PENANAww4zlafyCq
只是這麼靜靜地,把她抱住。26Please respect copyright.PENANA6EHZqndjlm
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一開始星野莉奈還僵著,像是不太習慣。26Please respect copyright.PENANApRRWfkj6HZ
但很快,她慢慢地,把額頭靠進媽媽的肩膀。像終於找到可以喘氣的地方。26Please respect copyright.PENANAZ3WdpMnput
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媽媽一隻手輕輕拍著她的背,低低地說:26Please respect copyright.PENANAPYqdWpvfC3
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「辛苦了,寶貝。真的很辛苦了。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAtqcwwqxc6G
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星野莉奈緊緊閉著眼,眼淚無聲地滑下來。26Please respect copyright.PENANAmKRaqAOVxq
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媽媽輕輕拍著星野莉奈的背,過了一會兒,輕聲笑了:26Please respect copyright.PENANAZpLbGCsczF
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「媽媽啊,年輕的時候也有過喔。」26Please respect copyright.PENANADOyer7GR0J
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星野莉奈動了動,沒有抬頭,但她聽見了。媽媽的手一邊順著她的背,一邊慢慢地說:26Please respect copyright.PENANAgAprCxI2XB
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「那時候,我還是新人模特兒,剛開始走紅。接了很多廣告,也拍了人生第一本寫真集。那本是跟一位很有名的攝影師合作的,風格偏紀實、比較像是在記錄那時候的我,沒有太多妝、也沒有太多設計——只是陽光、素顏,還有一些比較生活感的場景。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3Apj1r8m4
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她頓了一下,像在回想那段時間的味道。26Please respect copyright.PENANAbxANGhTeWt
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「但外界的聲音很難聽。什麼天生好命啦、靠人脈啦、會炒作啦⋯⋯說得好像我所有的努力都不是我自己的一樣。那時我也年輕,不太會反駁,只能一直拍、一直撐,讓自己撐到那些聲音沒辦法再把我抹掉。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAKL6JtdiWV9
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她笑了笑,語氣帶著一點無奈,又有點溫柔:26Please respect copyright.PENANAzEL7tI2TR0
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「那時候啊,唯一相信我、支持我的,就是妳爸爸。他還只是個小小的攝影助理,沒什麼話語權——但每次拍照,他都特別認真幫我找角度、打光,什麼都不多說,卻用行動讓我知道,我不是一個人在對抗這個世界。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAX7iSUZuPzy
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媽媽低頭親了親星野莉奈的髮頂,聲音低低地,像是把一個秘密輕輕放進她耳朵裡:26Please respect copyright.PENANAjg2ipDHsTc
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「所以啊,妳現在這樣難過,是很正常的。不是妳做錯了什麼,也不是妳不夠好。是這個世界,有時候就是這麼吵、這麼粗糙。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAOPqk8QvoB1
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她停頓了一下,又笑了笑,語氣變得更溫柔:26Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6hsl7Sr4L
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「我一直都知道,妳活得很自主,走路很穩,不太需要別人扶——也一直以為,給妳空間、讓妳自由,就是對妳最好的支持。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAGmBK9TWPo2
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媽媽輕輕收緊了擁抱,語氣像嘆息又像自問自答:26Please respect copyright.PENANAsgymwOiV7f
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「但是啊⋯⋯就算是最會走路的小孩,有時候也會想被抱一下吧。」26Please respect copyright.PENANA8V0bD9dKgL
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星野莉奈緊緊咬著唇,肩膀又顫了一下。媽媽輕輕拍拍她的背,接著說:26Please respect copyright.PENANAIfrDH1vQ3X
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「鈴也是啊。那孩子,特別有正義感。她知道妳不想被誤會、不想傷害任何人,所以她什麼都想擋在自己前面——讓妳可以專心做妳自己。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAZl5gdLGMiC
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媽媽的呼吸很輕,輕到不帶任何情緒:26Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZI2Gxujyc
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「而小冴呢⋯⋯很早就決定好怎麼走他的人生了。妳不能拉住他,但妳可以在他停下來的時候,剛好在那裡⋯⋯他不是會說出『我需要妳』的那種人,但那不代表他不需要。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAQFxwBfLEWV
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星野莉奈伸手輕輕抓住媽媽的衣角。媽媽溫柔而堅定地說:26Please respect copyright.PENANAnISfHSI8Rt
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「妳啊,真的做得很好了。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAl6wH5UI4Nw
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媽媽低笑了一下,帶著一點調皮的寵溺:26Please respect copyright.PENANAG9qBGmlpG8
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「誰叫咱們家女兒眼光這麼好,偏偏喜歡上那麼獨立、又不太會說話的小傻瓜呢?」26Please respect copyright.PENANAXYSux2Xg3D
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她閉著眼,眼淚靜靜地,不斷滑下來。26Please respect copyright.PENANA4cPVkc6ol7
沒有聲音,也沒有顫抖。26Please respect copyright.PENANA8ARZDSSi8T
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只有胸口,微微一下一下地疼著。26Please respect copyright.PENANA3Vbj3gTPGK
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她忽然想起自己曾經無數次,26Please respect copyright.PENANAUw609LUoI1
在球場邊,在便利商店,在一個又一個不經意的黃昏裡,26Please respect copyright.PENANAhm2HR4fgwd
悄悄地等過那個人。26Please respect copyright.PENANA8dBku5EftH
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等他的訊息。26Please respect copyright.PENANABIG1SiiEt6
等他的目光。26Please respect copyright.PENANAjA90m5nXwY
等一個不一定會到來的回應。26Please respect copyright.PENANAoqVgqkVoIJ
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不是為了要證明什麼,26Please respect copyright.PENANAGEUEVSlhpe
只是因為——26Please respect copyright.PENANAtj4JEiTKAf
她真的很在意他。26Please respect copyright.PENANAy8AjzbXtzC
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那時候,她總是告訴自己:26Please respect copyright.PENANAY27d68gRQV
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「沒關係的,我可以等。」26Please respect copyright.PENANAO3hqHulfHL
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直到今天,她才第一次承認,26Please respect copyright.PENANA4FVAP6n4OA
原來那些輕描淡寫的等,26Please respect copyright.PENANAFkL1WeL7ko
從來都不是輕的。26Please respect copyright.PENANAcM0McWrOzW
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媽媽的手掌還在輕輕地拍著她的背。沒有催促,也沒有要求她快點振作。26Please respect copyright.PENANAMCNL4mmgvJ
只是一遍又一遍,溫柔地拍著她的背。26Please respect copyright.PENANAwBxmvfvCzv
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外面的風聲輕輕吹過,屋子裡只剩下心跳的聲音,和媽媽溫暖而堅定的擁抱。
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