風仍未止。界紋淡淡,於天際似寫未竟之痕。81Please respect copyright.PENANAhzczMiqxnD
81Please respect copyright.PENANAyPnL2I1o91
無名獨立於息象丘後山之巔,手中捧著那冊筆記本,書頁闔起,沉靜無聲。不是沉寂,而是拒絕。81Please respect copyright.PENANAnwXNdeJxTG
81Please respect copyright.PENANAR5UA2GLVKp
他已第三次試著提筆書記,卻每一次,筆觸將落未落之時,紙面即微微振動,筆尖自行脫離。書頁翻過,空白如雪,不納一字。仿佛紙也有心,知他將書何物,便先一步避開。81Please respect copyright.PENANAnq0QHSDe6U
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5PV4FRJJqL
他閉上眼,深吸,將心念集中。想寫下剛才對林慧芳的那句話:若問不能止,妳便非問者。筆尖懸空,氣息凝斷。81Please respect copyright.PENANAAonkWChQCr
81Please respect copyright.PENANAFBdnYlAaR3
筆冊驟然自翻,下一頁自行展開,浮出一行墨影。81Please respect copyright.PENANAQqOgZ29sEe
81Please respect copyright.PENANAF1Ep5WjB4H
——「非問者,不配書。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAgekkbPt2mK
81Please respect copyright.PENANAwl2B5KNmAv
無名怔住,那不是他寫的,也不是他心中原念所映。那像是筆冊自己在答——不,是在審。81Please respect copyright.PENANAre6jYlpNhM
81Please respect copyright.PENANAo5I8nHVG4q
風更寒,空氣中浮現一絲絲心象紋理,無形無味,卻使他心中一震。他看見筆冊內頁開始自動顫動,一頁頁拋開記憶:過往他所記下的每一筆問語,每一句對破相的懷疑,每一個在幻象中見到的他人與自己,現在如同被筆冊回放,卻全然陌生,彷彿不是他所書。81Please respect copyright.PENANAO6Ur33rGDN
81Please respect copyright.PENANAAsJiPE12J8
忽然,一頁頁之中浮現一道影子——是他自己,坐在幽光中,執筆無動,眼神冷然,如審稿者般看著他。81Please respect copyright.PENANAERsxYrWa26
81Please respect copyright.PENANA6NgWnphqdO
幻象之中,書中之他問道:「你還在寫嗎?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAbsH4t7kRKE
81Please respect copyright.PENANAGXLJluOKaP
無名喉頭一緊,不知如何應答。81Please respect copyright.PENANAzwh24NW2WL
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIGBO9lyCG6
書中之影繼續:「你不是在問。你是在記錄你曾問過。你已經不再問了。筆知道,你只是想留下一點證明——你曾經想過什麼。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAWEb4gXcPJC
81Please respect copyright.PENANA4g9mFAjO9A
無名輕聲道:「我……我只是還不知道答案。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAaVTsjcA4Gn
81Please respect copyright.PENANAUwW80Gsvwl
書中影子冷笑:「所以你用筆填補空白,而非面對空白。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAh92hC8bmc4
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIpJPdJ0wZM
筆冊翻頁聲自幻中傳來,一聲一響,如斷裂之骨,響於虛空心界。81Please respect copyright.PENANA3yUkxeDHTg
81Please respect copyright.PENANAwL0vnwjAbJ
他猛地睜眼,幻象崩散,但筆冊依然展開,一頁頁空白之中,中央那一句話未曾抹去:81Please respect copyright.PENANATuBZ8WoW7w
81Please respect copyright.PENANAsdGHfkIbX8
——「非問者,不配書。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAFNjvsp9Z32
81Please respect copyright.PENANAyraiTiLzC2
這一次,他真正明白,筆冊不是失控,而是拒控。不是記錄之器,而是問之回響。81Please respect copyright.PENANAz647wCXIpL
81Please respect copyright.PENANAy7Mr0MTIV5
他手一鬆,筆墜地,靜止無聲。81Please respect copyright.PENANAvl1mNJYqJq
81Please respect copyright.PENANAtIbPkv80sW
他低聲自語:「筆不記我之問,那我,還能問什麼?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAw63y8qDle1
81Please respect copyright.PENANA1iFo5zoIbC
天光一線,無響而落,界仍無語,心未止。81Please respect copyright.PENANAXyeVka6tHy
81Please respect copyright.PENANAzHbSjJ1fX8
筆冊翻至第十三頁時,一道筆痕未現的頁面忽然泛起淡淡心象光痕。81Please respect copyright.PENANAsjItlRaRlN
81Please respect copyright.PENANAtV1SQcQk6u
無名本欲合上筆冊,卻在那光痕形成瞬間,整個人如被筆冊牽引,意識被拋入書頁之內。周遭景色頓轉,四下皆白,無天無地無聲無物。唯有一方墨海浮空,其上懸著無數他曾書寫過、卻從未再讀過的詞句與問語。81Please respect copyright.PENANA0qwb2Eajnq
81Please respect copyright.PENANAU119uUuXo7
他站在其中,彷彿進入了自己筆記未完成的夢中。那裡有他記過的名字、有他懷疑過的真理、有他寫下卻未能回答的問題——一個個懸浮在墨海之上,化為虛影,如同書魂殘影。81Please respect copyright.PENANAPMzyWZlPg4
81Please respect copyright.PENANAAyYrkB9MGH
忽而其中一道影子從虛中走出,與他身形相似,筆在手、冊於懷,面無表情。81Please respect copyright.PENANAZT8viqJ0UG
81Please respect copyright.PENANAt9XB0ETRED
那人一開口,聲音竟與無名無異:81Please respect copyright.PENANADYn09nQnL0
81Please respect copyright.PENANAgMazzYTWVm
「你問這麼多,想知道什麼?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAnZOM4pqvkY
81Please respect copyright.PENANAyf92NjroeB
無名愣住,語塞。81Please respect copyright.PENANALHuSFzOnXD
81Please respect copyright.PENANAalp6qVnDvw
書中之影步步靠近,語氣不斷加深:「你寫下那麼多字,記過那麼多事——你有真正去回答過哪一個?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAcScXlNOUPy
81Please respect copyright.PENANATDLmd6v9wD
無名低語:「我……不是為了回答,我只是想留下……」81Please respect copyright.PENANAickRNg0Za8
81Please respect copyright.PENANANJbyirISo2
「留下什麼?問?還是你自己?還是希望有人讀?」81Please respect copyright.PENANApuem8WOBCy
81Please respect copyright.PENANAc8g2YjRi8N
那影子筆一揮,虛空浮現過往一頁問語:「『破相者無相之相,問者無問之名』——你寫下這句話時,心中有答案嗎?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAfo7DGlyvxz
81Please respect copyright.PENANARstUHpJxG1
無名凝視那浮字,搖頭。81Please respect copyright.PENANAdQQDJhytZS
81Please respect copyright.PENANAQj35csXyuJ
書中之影怒聲:「那你為何書之?」81Please respect copyright.PENANA0JG95ykLHu
81Please respect copyright.PENANAEw1RGu0R2g
無名沉聲道:「我不知道答案,但我記得那時候我動了心。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAXAeoXnjITY
81Please respect copyright.PENANA6vsWx8LPEl
書影低笑:「動心,便要書之?那筆冊成了什麼?心動紀錄器?還是怕自己日後忘記曾有過懷疑的記錄儀?」81Please respect copyright.PENANACcHKFbvMC2
81Please respect copyright.PENANANlJC4NOuVo
無名一字一字地回答:「筆,不是為了證明我知道什麼。筆,是為了不讓自己忘記,自己曾經不知道。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA9KDvA5ynjY
81Please respect copyright.PENANADr1HvtwwMk
書影靜了數息,沉默凝視著他。81Please respect copyright.PENANAIEjn0G1uq8
81Please respect copyright.PENANAHbElz8F13G
最後,筆冊驟然合頁,墨海崩散,心象碎裂成白光。81Please respect copyright.PENANA44MUqwrkMi
81Please respect copyright.PENANA7QisqAUYRO
無名猛然從幻象中甦醒,背脊冷汗未乾,筆冊仍在手中,未曾動過。81Please respect copyright.PENANALPD5wRAS3w
81Please respect copyright.PENANAmT2HZT96Gl
唯有書頁最下角浮現一句——81Please respect copyright.PENANAfAm7iRshBu
81Please respect copyright.PENANA94DdWXIRAm
「若問者不能自答,筆即不答之。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAuMtpGbxLEM
81Please respect copyright.PENANAjKTGYtvkxe
筆冊無聲闔上,天色轉冷。81Please respect copyright.PENANAJVnv1BWreI
81Please respect copyright.PENANAzMAZ3OWwDx
他的手仍握著筆,卻再無勇氣提起。
81Please respect copyright.PENANAUVEQoZVCRg
81Please respect copyright.PENANA56cGRGNOwf
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIfi8JgHpco
無名靜坐於枯石之上,雙目垂下,筆冊攤開在膝頭,頁頁雪白如初。81Please respect copyright.PENANA08BAp0l4S9
81Please respect copyright.PENANAK1sOmh8Ll6
他再次嘗試提筆,這一次不寫任何語句,只想畫下一筆橫線——象徵斷裂、結束、沉寂。那筆尚未觸紙,便忽然一震,如被反彈之力推開。81Please respect copyright.PENANA8aJL7QnzzO
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIGadDeDHHb
他的手微顫,再度落筆,紙頁竟捲起如波,筆尖未至,筆鋒已自碎。81Please respect copyright.PENANAb192BSU12j
81Please respect copyright.PENANAHBiGShByYX
筆冊中央,浮起一道極細的裂紋,如書頁之折線,自中軸斜斜而裂,輕如息卻深如刃。81Please respect copyright.PENANAjh9SRV0Tf5
81Please respect copyright.PENANASxKvPEKJGr
那一刻他明白——筆冊,不再容他書寫。81Please respect copyright.PENANAAJbSy5RIya
81Please respect copyright.PENANAh0yf4vpPC8
筆非碎,書非毀,卻在排拒他本身。81Please respect copyright.PENANA6PXjpKHWIm
81Please respect copyright.PENANAdGBQtEuYUh
風從斷紋中穿過,如冷指劃過脊骨。無名聽見某種聲音,自書頁深處傳來,不是語音,不是念語,是一種無形的抵抗。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxgni551190
81Please respect copyright.PENANA8hpaOEsM5z
「你不是問者了。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAttuH4LJHCT
81Please respect copyright.PENANAjES5vbLK1y
這句話無從而來,無形所現,卻重如山崩,將他整個人壓下。81Please respect copyright.PENANAYFDBFeGsGf
81Please respect copyright.PENANAZdrHZDeOwR
無名張口,卻無聲。他想問:「為何我不是?」卻無一語能出,彷彿不配提問。81Please respect copyright.PENANAkH6E9jkNDj
81Please respect copyright.PENANAMjujHb9ujE
筆冊緩緩闔上,如不願與他對話。81Please respect copyright.PENANAcwkogQUV7s
81Please respect copyright.PENANAIJpJh0RGxh
他低頭望著自己手中的筆,那是他多年來書過最多問語的筆,卻在此刻,顯得比石更冷,比雪更遠。81Please respect copyright.PENANAj6Z9WhQjnQ
81Please respect copyright.PENANAMSqIjgUSys
他緩緩放下筆,將筆橫置膝前,低聲說道:81Please respect copyright.PENANAVKQQXCc0qU
81Please respect copyright.PENANAmVbVphLQ0I
「若筆不再信我之問,那我是否……再無問可書?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAA2ZavwfimA
81Please respect copyright.PENANAnr1ntcE3x1
無人回答。81Please respect copyright.PENANAOWYGwHQ9EJ
81Please respect copyright.PENANAEuGNBbiqEB
書頁無聲,筆拒其心。書冊未毀,問已不續。81Please respect copyright.PENANA04CF4iFJ0E
81Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1Cfwyv4Vr
他明白,此非筆毀,而是——筆已不再認他為問者。
81Please respect copyright.PENANAflqGOjZxZ2
81Please respect copyright.PENANAdWL4VqC8Ra
問界深處,七宗心盤高臺上,觀測者接連傳來異動警示。81Please respect copyright.PENANA5fdl1QAuzp
81Please respect copyright.PENANAXnu7mjMMV8
一位身披灰紗的女性立於語律宗觀臺,她名喚「厲瑤言」,面容清冷,手執空訣,心盤之上浮現一道深裂筆紋。她目光微凝,聲音清晰卻無情:81Please respect copyright.PENANAgI5almYKks
81Please respect copyright.PENANAnSsmM5yCLA
「此人筆冊已拒主,書問失綱,應封。」81Please respect copyright.PENANABeGiEZZF5J
81Please respect copyright.PENANAkC70xwfdPy
旁側,武衡宗項悲風抬眼,沉吟道:「拒主不等於毀問,或許……是他心問未穩,筆自止。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA0gGBbwigBs
81Please respect copyright.PENANAexS6NhBEEC
寂骨宗的牧魃子倚於一旁石座,冷笑聲中透骨:「問者之筆,若不服問者,則人亦無義持筆。若他仍自視問者,便是狂。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAWbVeBxmCqG
81Please respect copyright.PENANAzVqyuM140C
靜詠宗觀主低聲提筆,記下觀盤紋變,語氣柔和卻不無警示:「筆冊未毀、心象未亂,僅以『拒』判封,過重。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAZw0PNTyqa2
81Please respect copyright.PENANApKEBjPvxUK
而真籙宗心臺中央,一道光幕投出筆冊中心之裂,光紋閃爍間,浮現出無名的心象殘痕,不成字、不成句、亦非象。81Please respect copyright.PENANAwzj8vEjXgP
81Please respect copyright.PENANAhi2lZXDapE
真籙宗使者低語:「此為非象之象,或許……非止人之問,乃界之回。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAkD8YtobU0Z
81Please respect copyright.PENANA0MP2nOoQqL
語律宗厲瑤言冷斷一句:「無象可記者,不可留筆。此例若開,界將無律。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA1kavrLz7mU
81Please respect copyright.PENANAphhVIJABPW
眾聲爭論未決,心盤共振,浮出一句系統性心盤預判語:81Please respect copyright.PENANAiqn0y8OaZk
81Please respect copyright.PENANAAdQmFx750h
——「問者筆冊失控三級,預評為界源風險體。建議七宗內審。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAbMUgUhnZIP
81Please respect copyright.PENANAmIIieHKYua
此言一出,六宗觀者同時凝神,七宗內部首次同時記下關於無名之筆冊之異動事件。81Please respect copyright.PENANAzdgaPcidWA
81Please respect copyright.PENANAljdUQhvaEm
項悲風垂首,目中似有難言。牧魃子袖中藏意,冷冽一笑。厲瑤言閉目再觀,手中空訣凝成碎影,似擬筆裁問。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxT8Fugsigy
81Please respect copyright.PENANAqjGvNWuinA
筆冊尚未崩裂,議決之聲已先臨。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWEM8Ahv7GC
81Please respect copyright.PENANAdZYYcpA5t0
七宗,從觀問轉為審問,從外察轉為內斷。81Please respect copyright.PENANAMGwlCPGXaL
81Please respect copyright.PENANAWImbBIAu1x
此為問界筆冊紀錄中,首次記載:「問者失控,筆冊拒主。」
81Please respect copyright.PENANAdZFqme7qCU
81Please respect copyright.PENANA8fcfZZGEsZ
無名坐於息象丘後緣的山石之上,天色已沉,暮色灑落如灰墨,他眼前的筆冊,靜靜躺著,闔上,未再震動,也不再翻頁。81Please respect copyright.PENANA05mS8slrnh
81Please respect copyright.PENANAubrNCaShvJ
他沒有再試圖提筆。筆仍在掌中,但像握著一枚冷鐵,無暖、無息、無應。81Please respect copyright.PENANA1lCbcFLyky
81Please respect copyright.PENANAKpOlQJbJf9
他曾以為,問與筆是一體的。問者必有筆,筆者即問者。如今筆不書、問不映、字不顯、心不見,他忽然不確定了。81Please respect copyright.PENANA2HGhgR1d60
81Please respect copyright.PENANAwFLaFZu7Ax
「若我無筆,還能問嗎?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAosWb9ioptA
81Please respect copyright.PENANAv5JUmr5iw8
他問這句話時,無人聽見。楚紅練不在,林慧芳亦不在,丘地只剩風聲與一縷未明之光,從霧中透出,薄如問影。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxmr1Y9MVXg
81Please respect copyright.PENANA5QyopjrFef
他低頭看自己的掌心,那曾為千問所記之筆冊,如今彷彿從他生命中抽離,不再是器物,而是一段被拒絕的過去。81Please respect copyright.PENANA58RihM9isw
81Please respect copyright.PENANAI1BhCFq0n5
他忽然想起許久以前,在某個幻界之底,他曾問過:「問,是為了答案,還是為了不斷問?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAvnSUclUQxi
81Please respect copyright.PENANAuyiD5cSYIV
當時他記下這句話,是想以後回來看——現在他來了,那答案卻只剩靜默。81Please respect copyright.PENANAVEAro7OPtG
81Please respect copyright.PENANACOckaf92nD
他試著閉上眼,在沒有筆、沒有冊、沒有語、沒有頁的情況下,心中默問:81Please respect copyright.PENANAr0ZrLQ8q06
81Please respect copyright.PENANAgSOaMX4UPi
「我還在嗎?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAbW6gMVgEha
81Please respect copyright.PENANA9L2uzonEia
這一問無聲無象,卻在心底深處漾開一圈極微的波紋——如無聲之響,如無筆之印。81Please respect copyright.PENANAnbW43Bo9WB
81Please respect copyright.PENANAB38jbt7oZC
幻界遠處,天際深紋再現,一條極淡之裂,延伸向無名所在之地,如回應他的默問——81Please respect copyright.PENANArFIW6UF9KR
81Please respect copyright.PENANAibZ2H0AQqV
但無字,無語,只有一道問的感覺。81Please respect copyright.PENANAKkuA0DfeRe
81Please respect copyright.PENANAh6EH1qhv51
他睜眼,第一次明白:問,不必藉筆;念,不需落字。81Please respect copyright.PENANAVqPyAxDl7e
81Please respect copyright.PENANAj5hxOn1Ed4
他緩緩收起筆冊,將之懷中藏起,手中空空如初,卻覺得那空,不再只是遺失,而是一種準備。81Please respect copyright.PENANACgxH7V92H5
81Please respect copyright.PENANAuKHADwYQlC
「無筆,不是終點。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAaAMpQYUXbF
81Please respect copyright.PENANA4zUDBKmEgU
「或許,是我真正要開始問的起點。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAZ05xZf3wBM
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此刻的他,不再是筆之問者,而是——無筆之人。
81Please respect copyright.PENANA1jDhx03kec
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