這一切是因他不知覺間說了甚麼,得罪了哥哥嗎?是他長得不好看,惹他們生厭嗎?大衛想不明白。人前人後,他都對哥哥表現了發自心底的敬愛。但最後,他們為甚麼這樣討厭自己?他不明白。22Please respect copyright.PENANAXQX3MnCtSr
他唯一想到的原因,一個他不想面對的原因,就是:這一切都因為他是個討厭的孩子。也許在他裡面,有著如腐肉般散發著討人厭的氣息。無論他釋出多少善意,無論他做甚麼好事,他仍會是如此討厭。無論做甚麼,只要別人看見他腐爛的內在都會馬上討厭他。22Please respect copyright.PENANAUffrJCB5vh
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這個想法很可怕,但又可怕地真實。難道這是真相嗎?大衛不知道。22Please respect copyright.PENANAXVKiO0jNVO
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然而,不知為何,大衛決定了要活下去,雖然此刻他肝膽欲裂,但心底裡卻有一種強烈的渴望,一種活下去的渴望。他感覺即使從今以後他只能孑然獨行,他也要活下去。他感覺到,前面有些重要的事物在等候他。他要繼續前進,他只可以繼續前進。22Please respect copyright.PENANAX7uNvft9Hc
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成為家僕的第一天,大衛與眾僕人一樣,大清早便到庭院集合。剛去到便看不少家僕已在那裡待命。22Please respect copyright.PENANASUYZBCSdCY
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他小心翼翼地打量四周,眼神經過在舊日與他素有交情的家僕。然而,他們都不約而同地逃避他的眼神:有人從頭到尾都沒看他一眼,他仿佛並不存在;有的僕人跟他眼神接觸一瞬後馬上閃開,仿佛見鬼一樣。他以為昨天已是人生的最低點,殊不知,昨天以後原來還有更差的在等待著他。22Please respect copyright.PENANAGa4PQs3elV
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這種冷漠使他在暑熱中打起寒顫。這還是他第一次感到如此難受。今日的孤單寂寞,印證了他那個可怕的想法。慢慢,一步步,他開始在心底同意自己是個討厭的人。因此,他活該感到難受。想著,他的鼻子便酸了起來。22Please respect copyright.PENANA8VXGncfLbs
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「大衛少主?乜咁錯蕩喺度見到你啊?」亞干輕佻道。「點解你著得咁樸素嘅?」他上前搭上大衛的肩膊,表現虛假的關心。22Please respect copyright.PENANAgUOnnownwE
大衛強忍淚水道:「我無事啊。爸爸媽媽要我嚟到呢度跟大家學嘢,接受訓練。我⋯⋯我知道佢哋一定係相信我可以喺度學到更多嘢,所以先要我嚟呢度嘅。」大衛這句話是跟亞干說,也是跟自己說的。「所以,請大家當我係家僕嘅一份子,多多指教我。」他強裝出正面積極的態度,保留住自己僅餘的尊嚴。22Please respect copyright.PENANAi7gU27sRfK
「嗱嗱嗱!大家聽到未啊?佢叫我哋當佢係家僕嘅一份子啊!」整個庭園頓時一陣詘笑聲。大衛雖不明所以,但他也明白這些人是在奚落他。22Please respect copyright.PENANAvp79VtLHxf
「一個嬌生慣養嘅少爺可以做到啲咩大事啊?繡花定織布啊?」米利暗笑得淚水都快要飆出來。22Please respect copyright.PENANAEl8WsPRI04
「佢⋯⋯佢可以執下稻米,執幾條⋯⋯然⋯然後話:『哎啊好辛苦啊,做僕人好難啊。』」亞干擺出想哭的樣子,但隨後又馬上忍不住笑。亞干和他的黨羽像鬛狗的笑聲響遍整個庭院。22Please respect copyright.PENANAkCV89HdUGo
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大部份僕人雖沒有加入,但也沒有阻止他們。似乎他們雖不齒亞干與其黨羽的行為,但卻明白現在情勢不容他們伸張正義。大概,他們明白在此時此地貿然幫助大衛只會白白犧牲。為求自保,他們唯有繼續各自各埋頭苦幹,默默耕耘麻醉自己,使自己再看不見大衛的痛苦。22Please respect copyright.PENANA7jprfUKlU6
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大概他們也很痛苦。22Please respect copyright.PENANAVfXsikwrbr
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第八章.大衛II (3)
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