No Plagiarism!3UZbevUrBUvvAp9RfsmYposted on PENANA 康復後的第一天,她穿回了西裝,耳後別回紫陽花髮墜,依舊是那個一派從容、步伐穩定的湛霖。8964 copyright protection46PENANAGD5WwuIDK1 維尼
只是今天,她一直不自覺地看向小佳的方向。8964 copyright protection46PENANA24nEXcQP39 維尼
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午休時,茶水間有點安靜,小佳正在拆宣宣偷偷給她的糖果,正準備開口又開始她一貫的調戲:8964 copyright protection46PENANAZhZ5QfSbDt 維尼
「學姊今天氣色不錯喔~我可以給努力康復的妳獎……」8964 copyright protection46PENANAlCWMbfeUcm 維尼
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話說到一半,她像是突然意識到什麼,8964 copyright protection46PENANAXfbJfuhkIw 維尼
語氣像卡在喉頭,整個人定住一秒。8964 copyright protection46PENANAnxDM10bXZh 維尼
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湛霖轉過頭,剛好看見小佳嘴角揚起一半的弧度突然斷裂。8964 copyright protection46PENANA3Bm3VONE75 維尼
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她沒再說下去,只是若無其事地攤手一笑:8964 copyright protection46PENANAzqOyA2o5ch 維尼
「唔…我剛剛說什麼來著?啊!對啦,我說天氣不錯,學姊記得多喝水喔~」8964 copyright protection46PENANAut9fCled5e 維尼
她迅速地拿了杯子,轉身離開,語調甚至還故意哼了哼。8964 copyright protection46PENANAFXBWSC8RhQ 維尼
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可那個轉身的動作太快,快得不像她平常調情之後會停留多看一眼的節奏。8964 copyright protection46PENANAug3lEWjJrP 維尼
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湛霖看著她的背影,眼神輕輕地落下。8964 copyright protection46PENANAFgruBtOwNK 維尼
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她記得。8964 copyright protection46PENANAemRb2F8Vhj 維尼
不是每一幕都清楚,但有幾件事深深刻著:8964 copyright protection46PENANADKV61uep90 維尼
她記得自己燒著身體,整個人像漂在夢裡一樣靠近小佳;8964 copyright protection46PENANAKngeurM9mv 維尼
她記得她曾貼在她身上,低聲說喜歡她;8964 copyright protection46PENANAdL7RevtAse 維尼
她記得她幾乎就要咬上她的鎖骨,那是她「還沒還回去的咬痕」。8964 copyright protection46PENANA7CuYFzR4X3 維尼
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但最清楚的,是那雙眼睛——8964 copyright protection46PENANAXB4S9OivYx 維尼
那雙,在她按下去的時候,不是驚喜、不是慌張,而是苦澀的眼睛。8964 copyright protection46PENANAAbWYPWiZ6H 維尼
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她記得小佳輕聲說:8964 copyright protection46PENANAWE4XRbZUel 維尼
「能不能在清醒的時候,再想想呢?」8964 copyright protection46PENANA6AMGrICVlQ 維尼
「妳該撲倒的是……家瑜。」8964 copyright protection46PENANA15PM04ml2X 維尼
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湛霖低頭,指尖慢慢摩擦著手上的咖啡杯蓋。8964 copyright protection46PENANADPtFjAqkm1 維尼
她明白:為什麼小佳總是用那種輕鬆到像玩笑的語氣撩她,卻從不真的越界。8964 copyright protection46PENANALzEr9hvP2a 維尼
因為她一直都在守一條線,一條說好不打擾的界線。8964 copyright protection46PENANA1Xxvy0PEXQ 維尼
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她忽然覺得胸口有點悶。8964 copyright protection46PENANAdCZ2vV4kFf 維尼
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她不是因為小佳推開她而難受,8964 copyright protection46PENANATba8tpo7TU 維尼
而是——那種「連妳受苦我都不能靠近」的孤單感,讓她心痛。8964 copyright protection46PENANAqtlEecRErQ 維尼
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這一次,是小佳守住了她。8964 copyright protection46PENANAzdWni7SnRY 維尼
而她卻幾乎傷了她。8964 copyright protection46PENANAj3BbAvIrKB 維尼
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湛霖輕聲喃道:「對不起啊,小佳……那時候,我太想證明我不是被需要,而是能主動。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAszfEYLtWUH 維尼
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「結果我還是……讓妳受傷了。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAhiVesiZcll 維尼
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她站起身,望著茶水間的門口。8964 copyright protection46PENANAcNJ1vLZpEw 維尼
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那背影已經走遠,但她知道,8964 copyright protection46PENANAiHeNkmq0hB 維尼
那個總是用玩笑偽裝真心的女孩,還在等一場她清醒的、慎重的選擇。8964 copyright protection46PENANAJaAXHSfFK0 維尼
那天下午,公文處理完後,湛霖走進小佳的辦公區。8964 copyright protection46PENANAfHhik17m2p 維尼
她的腳步穩穩的,目光卻少有的柔和。8964 copyright protection46PENANAgYlGDRU7dC 維尼
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「小佳。」她叫住了她。8964 copyright protection46PENANAVesyEGDseq 維尼
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小佳本來正對著電腦,聽到聲音抬起頭,笑得一貫沒心沒肺:「欸?學姊怎麼啦~需要我幫妳撰寫戀愛請求書嗎~還是需要人形抱枕服務?」8964 copyright protection46PENANALz2JzGsNCQ 維尼
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語氣輕巧,眉毛甚至還挑了挑。8964 copyright protection46PENANA8NeZqdDtgM 維尼
但湛霖看得出來,那是她說太快,來不及演得更自然的反應。8964 copyright protection46PENANA7kVWWwKc46 維尼
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「小佳,」8964 copyright protection46PENANAzcSEa9McNF 維尼
湛霖沒有笑,語氣卻前所未有地溫柔又認真:「那天的事……能不能再跟我說一次?」8964 copyright protection46PENANAaSCh0afRcT 維尼
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「我……我那時候燒得很迷糊。但我記得,我說喜歡妳。」8964 copyright protection46PENANA0hcyas4PQE 維尼
空氣突然停了一秒。8964 copyright protection46PENANAWgPMZ7o9VH 維尼
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小佳愣住,原本拿著滑鼠的手僵了一下。8964 copyright protection46PENANATYDbV90FXI 維尼
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她彷彿一瞬間退回那天下午的保健室,那個滿身熱氣、貼在她身上的湛霖,那句像夢一樣甜、卻又像刀一樣重的:「我真的好喜歡妳」。8964 copyright protection46PENANAufOyIxmgAM 維尼
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「學姊……」8964 copyright protection46PENANADcoPLDOzpy 維尼
小佳乾笑了兩聲:「妳該不會是來補刀的吧?我記得我要妳當作夢~妳怎麼還記得啊~」8964 copyright protection46PENANAq4izwihO1L 維尼
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湛霖走近兩步,輕聲說:「我當然要記得。雖然有點模糊,但我記得妳的眼神……還有妳的話。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAeL1PmejF1r 維尼
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「小佳,妳說:『能不能清醒的時候,再想想?』」8964 copyright protection46PENANAzPuHnA2aGV 維尼
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「我現在很清醒了。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAdnqZiMWKtR 維尼
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小佳愣愣地看著她,第一次發現湛霖的眼神竟然那麼…不帶防備,那麼赤裸地把對自己的歉意和感情擺在明處。8964 copyright protection46PENANA0XnAG0oloL 維尼
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「我想知道,妳那天,說的每一句……」8964 copyright protection46PENANAOxBne2JOJB 維尼
湛霖頓了頓:「都是真的嗎?」8964 copyright protection46PENANAxH8y2fbatJ 維尼
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小佳喉嚨一緊,她想笑著帶過,但眼眶卻先泛紅了。8964 copyright protection46PENANAe454JFO6Yg 維尼
她低下頭,像在努力隱藏自己撐不住的模樣。8964 copyright protection46PENANA1iOq38ED5r 維尼
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「我……我那天只是覺得,如果我不說清楚,妳會後悔;如果我靠近了,家瑜會受傷;如果我貪心了,我們三個都會…壞掉。」8964 copyright protection46PENANANwVligqEgm 維尼
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湛霖沒說話,只是站在她面前,像是等著她繼續說完。8964 copyright protection46PENANAIWF4ZYYvA2 維尼
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「所以我選擇『不要』,選擇推開妳,選擇裝傻,選擇……當一個笑著的人。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAgCJXjQYQNn 維尼
她抬起頭,勉強擠出笑容:「但我沒想到,妳還記得啊,學姊。那一天,對我來說不是能當作夢輕輕帶過的現實。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAdgc4vTlh2Z 維尼
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「我記得妳說喜歡我,記得妳貼過來,記得妳幾乎就要……咬下來了。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAlOzAJF6QOn 維尼
她眼角含淚,卻笑得帶點自嘲:「我這輩子大概都不會忘吧。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAMQap34Tmy8 維尼
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湛霖伸出手,輕輕放在小佳肩上。8964 copyright protection46PENANAYwJwFEKixx 維尼
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「對不起,小佳。我那時候,真的不清醒。8964 copyright protection46PENANALkMusb5oux 維尼
不是說喜歡妳不是真的,而是……我不知道我那時的靠近,會讓妳那麼痛。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAzOAnpxWcED 維尼
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「但現在,我想好好說一次——」8964 copyright protection46PENANA4ptBggLVeH 維尼
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她深吸了一口氣,語氣溫柔卻堅定:8964 copyright protection46PENANAoa9yfzGClY 維尼
「小佳,謝謝妳那天守住了我。」8964 copyright protection46PENANA7NPfqwzLs5 維尼
「我沒給妳答案,但我想給妳道謝。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAOl6TGycR9k 維尼
「也想給妳,應得的擁抱。」8964 copyright protection46PENANAHXCyuqKkUe 維尼
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說完,她張開雙手,不帶任何壓力,只是輕輕問:8964 copyright protection46PENANAG6WrWyAhtP 維尼
「可以嗎?」8964 copyright protection46PENANA0BwX3SgLD8 維尼
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小佳看著她,眼淚終於掉了下來。8964 copyright protection46PENANAvCFRRzTU8S 維尼
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「……學姊怎麼這麼卑鄙啊……?」8964 copyright protection46PENANAn0oqMlh79d 維尼
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她輕輕撲進她懷裡,抱得緊緊的,終於讓自己不用再是哭著離開的人。8964 copyright protection46PENANAHZO1KgYGuF 維尼
——小佳——8964 copyright protection46PENANA5xz8qhQotz 維尼
頂樓,風好像大了一點,但我還是想留在這裡。8964 copyright protection46PENANAaMdKJbE3HN 維尼
這裡沒有屋頂,也沒有別人,只有天,有風,還有我。8964 copyright protection46PENANA4XyPceKM9o 維尼
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今天學姊問我——那天說的話,是不是真的。8964 copyright protection46PENANA1nzk6P5Zkc 維尼
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我沒有馬上回答。8964 copyright protection46PENANAECkTOCftoX 維尼
不是因為我忘了,而是因為我怕,一說出來,我就會再一次掉進去。8964 copyright protection46PENANAGFeDCARXYh 維尼
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那晚我推開她的時候,我從沒想過她會記得。8964 copyright protection46PENANAZxBJZFv6Eq 維尼
我以為她會像過去每一次那樣,把那些不該越界的情緒都收進體內,整理、歸檔、丟進防火牆後面。8964 copyright protection46PENANAXaGovWRgCq 維尼
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結果她記得。她不但記得,還走過來問我。8964 copyright protection46PENANAVJC64iNh4b 維尼
她說她現在清醒了,還想知道答案。8964 copyright protection46PENANAf2yvyN6yxM 維尼
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我不知道該哭還是該笑。8964 copyright protection46PENANAsUcERf0Jmx 維尼
我笑著告訴她,我是因為不想傷害她跟家瑜,才選擇裝傻,才選擇當那個不認真說出:「我也喜歡妳。」的人。8964 copyright protection46PENANAebMUPpl9dz 維尼
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但其實啊,學姊。8964 copyright protection46PENANAQNqdMtG3Ok 維尼
那一秒妳說喜歡我的時候,我真的差點相信了——8964 copyright protection46PENANA3ihfEBEVmQ 維尼
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我差點相信,我不是一個替代品。8964 copyright protection46PENANAE9HFlD2vY4 維尼
我差點相信,我不是調皮插科打諢的角色,而是能被妳放進心上的人。8964 copyright protection46PENANARHnbfH9byW 維尼
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我差點把這份相信當作出口,說出我忍住的話。8964 copyright protection46PENANAOPURE6vrvh 維尼
但我沒有說。8964 copyright protection46PENANAEQFgJ7X0ld 維尼
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因為我知道,這份喜歡來自妳發燒時的狀態,而不是日常的清醒。8964 copyright protection46PENANAMpwAYXBe2D 維尼
那時候的妳太可愛,也太脆弱,像一隻拚命黏人的小貓,但我不能讓她誤以為自己想要的,是錯的。8964 copyright protection46PENANALtYPyNtTpf 維尼
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所以我替妳守住了妳,也守住了我。8964 copyright protection46PENANA8OcX6oqbi9 維尼
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可是今天,妳站在我面前,說謝謝,說想給我一個擁抱。8964 copyright protection46PENANAh3I5DF1TVq 維尼
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我真的、真的,忍不住了。8964 copyright protection46PENANA9equMcZ7IW 維尼
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我抱著妳的時候,眼淚根本止不住。8964 copyright protection46PENANAmFq7S0aIRM 維尼
不是因為委屈,是因為有人記得。8964 copyright protection46PENANAyLYXDJqjq9 維尼
因為妳記得我守住的夜,記得我苦撐的那句話,記得那個我連自己都不太敢直面面對的——「我愛妳」。8964 copyright protection46PENANATvgeo2ZbKf 維尼
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所以我想把今天的這一刻,記下來。8964 copyright protection46PENANAzgZdDnSEh0 維尼
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