No Plagiarism!0y7fEZ0AuUsOW3qPguuGposted on PENANA 今年十九歲的我,在你們眼裡,可能還只是個剛步入社會的孩子。8964 copyright protection78PENANASdzuagd932 維尼
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但我早已度過那些「必須堅強」的日子。8964 copyright protection78PENANATmPihCAsVR 維尼
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接下來的內容,不會是為了悲壯史,更不會是標榜我有多與眾不同而寫的。8964 copyright protection78PENANAkNeAFc4jXO 維尼
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其實,我也清楚知道寫下的這些,不是輕易一個人都能寫得出來的。8964 copyright protection78PENANA5lp5bEDWoi 維尼
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包含現在。8964 copyright protection78PENANA9nAUYWcGfm 維尼
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每當我創作作品到關鍵時刻的驗收成果時,心中都會出現它們:8964 copyright protection78PENANAZtoweed7Rt 維尼
「妳是不是又自戀了?竟然真心覺得自己寫得好?給我重寫吧。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAaWshNlIKy3 維尼
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「妳這樣寫,是不是在假裝自己很懂?妳去問問有誰寫不出來的,去問問有誰不會的。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAYc6dj0CpRN 維尼
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「哈,真的經歷過又怎樣?他們只是沒經歷過,妳就只是比他們幸運能經歷過那些磨難才寫出來而已。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAGBvEi64rAF 維尼
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「妳以為這些話真的有價值?不過只是無病呻吟,刪掉吧,看著就令人尷尬,不會吧?妳的中二病還沒走?都幾歲人了?」8964 copyright protection78PENANA2BBBPeAHVP 維尼
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這些聲音不是大吼大叫,亦不是歇斯底里,它們只是靜靜地在腦中像個舊錄音帶一樣,在我感到自豪的瞬間,不停歇地重複播放那些早已過時的觀念。8964 copyright protection78PENANAgZnXVKhA4D 維尼
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再清楚不過一切的源頭了。8964 copyright protection78PENANAvuSVDaXhTU 維尼
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它們主要是來自,從小把「謙虛」掛在嘴邊,實際上是要我學會「自我否定」的親人,還有不容許我過得好的人。8964 copyright protection78PENANAFxaMTxoMDF 維尼
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明面上不一定能看見惡意,他們多半頂著愛的名義,使我感到窒息。8964 copyright protection78PENANAf9vMH5PAbI 維尼
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所以,即使如今能寫出深刻又有共鳴的文字,心裡還是會默默想著:會不會只是讀者剛好沒看出我的漏洞百出?8964 copyright protection78PENANA99gnG7MGF3 維尼
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心裡還是會默默想著:8964 copyright protection78PENANAFyTxQpZp97 維尼
會不會只是這些觀眾看不出我漏洞百出的地方?8964 copyright protection78PENANAAYukA0UyJP 維尼
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會不會只是剛好戳到某些人而已,並不是大家都這樣感覺。8964 copyright protection78PENANAeWtBj561f4 維尼
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不過,老實說,我知道這些觀察力、文字力、情緒轉化的能力,都是這一路,一點一點在痛苦與否定聲裡淬煉出來的。8964 copyright protection78PENANAVqbNE6cmv5 維尼
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它們不完全來自天賦,也有來自「我努力想讓自己被聽見」的努力。8964 copyright protection78PENANAyu057q7uni 維尼
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我曾聽過很多人說過:「要原諒傷害過你的人,才能釋懷」。8964 copyright protection78PENANAQnhqSZHSIX 維尼
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但我想說:「我不吃這一套。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAx3UFBafVfZ 維尼
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我不要那種,你看開一點,要以德報怨的我佛慈悲;我也不要那種,正是因為他們傷害過妳,妳如今才能抗壓性變好的說法。8964 copyright protection78PENANAVPiUfbCINb 維尼
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我衷心排斥於,要我將曾經因重重摔下摔得遍體鱗傷,倒下後依舊拼命站起,努力繼續朝著終點而走的功勞,歸功給推我下去的兇手身上。8964 copyright protection78PENANA8ktJTRyjmR 維尼
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還在學。8964 copyright protection78PENANA7BnOIy5YCX 維尼
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學著在每次自我否定席捲襲上的時候,慢一點回應它,先給自己一個擁抱。8964 copyright protection78PENANAl5m2QXmAUB 維尼
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學著不再為了顯得不自戀,故意把自己縮小到毫無存在感的自己。8964 copyright protection78PENANAwBgfCPPEP7 維尼
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學著相信。8964 copyright protection78PENANAOvNMoD5G2W 維尼
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我本身就很棒,真正的棒。8964 copyright protection78PENANAfqgkQTYEeh 維尼
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不是自戀,而是事實,客觀上分析出來的棒。8964 copyright protection78PENANAEcWDnRoKlG 維尼
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也許以上聽起來很老成,對一個十九歲的人來說分析出來的太過早熟。8964 copyright protection78PENANAAf6uajVxkF 維尼
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但說真的,那些說:「妳把世界看得太醜惡了」的人;從沒問過:「妳是不是經歷過那些?」8964 copyright protection78PENANAgkuXOORq9j 維尼
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這不是我早熟,而是在特殊環境下,被迫太早看懂。8964 copyright protection78PENANAFswQLJnUaS 維尼
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收尾前。8964 copyright protection78PENANACXVwzUa7o3 維尼
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我想給,和我一樣還在聽著嘮叨聲音的你,幾句話:8964 copyright protection78PENANAz7R4DzYbdz 維尼
「你不需要讓誰同意你有多好。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAgyjG3TBk8L 維尼
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「你只需要相信,那個不斷努力、拼命理解世界的你,真的很了不起。」8964 copyright protection78PENANAGOM6iQN2Iu 維尼
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你知道的,那聲音會一直在。8964 copyright protection78PENANAkeCJXFUlVY 維尼
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我想也許,這次你可以對它喊:8964 copyright protection78PENANA3gbmm4bpmL 維尼
「你說得再大聲,也蓋不過我這一路走來的聲音!」8964 copyright protection78PENANAFaysb2lYm9 維尼
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「你隨口說得不算,付出努力的我,說得才算!」8964 copyright protection78PENANAgHJ3Vmv1uC 維尼
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「你只是個失敗的錄音帶,而我卻是成功朝著終點的人!」8964 copyright protection78PENANAuVMSHoGuI3 維尼
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