
Cut53Please respect copyright.PENANA6IAwncNPKO
真是刺激,是我的⼿指,⽽不是洋蔥。指尖尖端已分離,除了剩下的⽪膚紐帶。53Please respect copyright.PENANAfwZuzJYbhV
每次巧婷在⽤⼑⽚的時候,都會在⼼中翻譯這⾸詩。那個早逝的女詩⼈,明⽩⼑⽚刺穿⽪膚帶來的53Please respect copyright.PENANAZu8Sn0m7mT
刺激,跟之後的平靜。what a thrill,my thumb instead a onion。巧婷的濕疹經常讓她癢得受不了,53Please respect copyright.PENANAkeqAdn7aGA
她對⾃⼰的⽪膚⽣氣,⼑⽚刺穿不聽話的⽪膚,⼀群紅⽪膚的⼩印第安⼈,沖出來教訓討⼈厭的⽩53Please respect copyright.PENANAt4bp017gfm
⾊濕疹,巧婷看著這場⾃⼰挑起的戰爭,抬⾼那條成爲戰場的腿,讓⼀點點的⼩⾎球到處逃竄。53Please respect copyright.PENANA9Tqf6LkzJV
機器發出「嗶嗶,嗶嗶」的聲響,打斷了巧婷的沈思,她慵懶地走到聲⾳的源頭。⺟親⼜壓到了她53Please respect copyright.PENANAAlFgmfKT58
的睡眠窒息機的氣喉。巧婷移開⺟親壓住氣喉的⼿臂,⺟親翻了個⾝,⼿腕軟軟地吊在床邊。53Please respect copyright.PENANAG30DOk07u0
巧婷沿床邊坐到地上,冰冷的地板讓她安⼼。⺟親的⼿腕也佈滿跟她相似的抓痕,巧婷趨前,模仿53Please respect copyright.PENANAxOo745xWc2
⺟親⼿的動作,就像那幅出名的畫。⺟親是創造她的源頭,她的將來也會跟她⼀樣嗎?巧婷不喜歡53Please respect copyright.PENANAjksH0SpqG5
她眼前的將來。53Please respect copyright.PENANAFdRuOE2O7U
頸與氦氣53Please respect copyright.PENANA5ylNa7TlrT
那個前座的女孩有漂亮的頸背,她把巧婷的作業本傳了過來,厭惡地瞄了巧婷結痂的⼿背,迅速地53Please respect copyright.PENANAWOk4y68Ahn
抽回⾃⼰的⼿。她弯下腰,在⾃⼰的書包取消毒液,優雅修長的頸項,尖下巴上的嘴⾓不屑地下垂53Please respect copyright.PENANABhwgFSah3i
著。巧婷想像,如果著這條頸背上佈滿濕疹的痕跡,她還會這麽趾⾼氣揚嗎?53Please respect copyright.PENANANpwQDzpZ5d
巧婷低下頭看⾃⼰的電話短訊,有名字是「派對⽤品賣家」的回覆。「氦氣暫時沒貨」,巧婷反射53Please respect copyright.PENANAh35KLdfMeR
動作般的抓了下頸項,看起來更不耐煩了。53Please respect copyright.PENANAAGjrARBkfc
「嘭」的⼀聲巨響,打斷了她偏激的沈思。遲到的同學恬不知恥地撞向課室的⾨。53Please respect copyright.PENANAaWBSn5E8Qr
在第⼆堂開始了⼀半,李嘉誠終於來上堂了。他的⼿肘貼著誇張的⼤膠布,他跟老師解釋,這是他53Please respect copyright.PENANAw7e10nDqdN
遲到的原因。他在遲到鈴響起之前已經進入學校,在熱⼼的醫療室老師的照顧下,才會這麼晚回課53Please respect copyright.PENANAAJ0JMv6VBM
室。對於這個遲到的常客,物理老師沒有興趣聽完他的辯解,轉⾝寫完被打斷了的⽜頓第三定律。53Please respect copyright.PENANAIBc5iTnYgK
嘉誠經過巧婷的位⼦,他⼿肘的膠布鬆脫,露出完好無缺的⽪膚。53Please respect copyright.PENANAS3OxhqPqIY
物理老師轉過⾝來,⼤聲説到:「還有兩個星期就要交報告,你們都想到⾃⼰的⼩組主題了嗎?」53Please respect copyright.PENANAwvqmGdzwSp
巧婷全⾝的⽑都豎了起來,她這個課室裡⾯的⼤象,每個⼈都想忘卻她的存在,跟本沒⼈想跟她53Please respect copyright.PENANAyu9cWPWY2f
同組。53Please respect copyright.PENANAEv7OA11I4V
老師⽊⽊地環視全班默不作聲的同學,⽬光與巧婷對視。「吳巧婷,你還沒組吧。」老師問。巧婷53Please respect copyright.PENANAax0X5FXMhz
沒回應。老師其實已經知道問題的答案,他把⽬光投向正在亂揭書的李嘉誠。「李嘉誠,你也沒有53Please respect copyright.PENANAL4EUAMKhoF
組吧?你就跟吳巧婷⼀組吧。你們兩個明天就要想好報告的主題。」53Please respect copyright.PENANAszKrV9EVG7
嘉誠與巧婷,同樣⼀臉疑惑地看向對⽅。53Please respect copyright.PENANAnv6Kz1NdJM
圖書館53Please respect copyright.PENANARqmyQDoTrG
「吳巧婷,你全名真是吳巧婷?」李嘉誠問。巧婷冷漠地看著他,沒有回答的意向。「幫妳改這種53Please respect copyright.PENANAtMUPBAscuH
名字的⼈⼀定很討厭你。」嘉誠認為⾃⼰找到了問題的答案。「改的⼈不會說廣東話⽽已,我們要53Please respect copyright.PENANAnRw5Z5xTMf
在今天想到我們的Project主題。」巧婷決定了,既然沒辦法逃避,就應該默默接受。「什麼主53Please respect copyright.PENANAiDxsQ2LGn1
題?」嘉誠回答。巧婷不可置信地從課本上抬起頭來。嘉誠呆了半秒才意識到⾃⼰問的蠢問題,低53Please respect copyright.PENANA1HeXWigoeg
頭翻動物理書,嘗試消除尷尬。53Please respect copyright.PENANA3mmhjqH0Mt
巧婷跟物理學,也是做不了朋友,對於這次project的主題,她也是⼀頭霧⽔。53Please respect copyright.PENANAnCVlEexyKs
她環視四週瞄到嘉誠的滑板,轉⾝在電腦鍵盤上打出skateboarding,physics,這兩個關鍵字。很53Please respect copyright.PENANAD7ZFL4o04P
快,就有⼀條⽚彈了出來。電腦的聲⾳吸引了嘉誠的注意⼒。53Please respect copyright.PENANA5CXY5nIAFm
「那是Olie啊!」他很罕有地安靜地把影⽚看完。「除了Olie,其他英⽂我都不知道他在說什麼。」53Please respect copyright.PENANAgLqWNDof0Z
「⽜頓第三定律,作⽤⼒同反作⽤⼒數值相等,但⽅向相反。」巧婷對著電話把搜尋結果讀出來,53Please respect copyright.PENANA1nSZlBNh7V
嘉誠看起來⼀臉迷惘。53Please respect copyright.PENANAKgMOS8veVc
「我們沒必要真的理解這件事,我⽤這條⽚的內容,然後Google translate就好了。」巧婷平靜地回53Please respect copyright.PENANAz733moVJBn
答。「我可以Olie啊!」嘉誠興奮地說。「你想我拍低你玩滑板?」巧婷有點不耐煩。」53Please respect copyright.PENANAIPi2N03S6A
「我們總不能直接⽤⼈家的⽚吧?」嘉誠回應。「為什麼不可以?」巧婷說。嘉誠懷疑地看著巧婷。53Please respect copyright.PENANA21JEp8S1EC
巧婷嘆了⼀⼝氣。「我要尿尿。」她強⾏結束了這次對話。53Please respect copyright.PENANA7wIl7Lr4Tl
巧婷在經過書架時,看到坐她前座的女⽣,兩⼈的肩膀相撞,那女孩厭惡地拍拍⾃⼰的肩膀才離53Please respect copyright.PENANA6LzimNUdIu
開。巧婷有點⽣氣地停在原地,嘆了⼝氣才繼續向前走。在走的時候,她瞄到書架上有個夾了廣⾓53Please respect copyright.PENANAGZowW3shrK
鏡的電話。巧婷聳了⼀下肩膀。53Please respect copyright.PENANAjZdNlFKgcG
巧婷從書架間伸出頭來,「喂,你是不是想拍⾃⼰玩滑板?」53Please respect copyright.PENANAmNMNsPfbus
追逐53Please respect copyright.PENANAoe16msXaRW
為甚麼要拿那個女孩的電話,巧婷⾃⼰也說不出原因。⼆⼈⼀起走到學校⼤⾨⼝,有⼈⼤叫「咪53Please respect copyright.PENANAeMQ4Df0uVx
走!」巧婷拔腿就跑,嘉誠回頭看到學校從⼆樓指罵他們的女同學,後⾯還跟著兩個隨從,所以他53Please respect copyright.PENANAwKZ7ubUr5F
也尾隨巧婷,跟著跑起來。53Please respect copyright.PENANAv6yYgmhS2X
「為何他們要追著你?」嘉誠問。巧婷抽出裙袋中的電話,嘉誠看了就明⽩了,「為什麼?」嘉誠53Please respect copyright.PENANATBcAiALYFE
還沒問完這句話,巧婷就拉著他向前跑。53Please respect copyright.PENANAx98NshH0dW
巧婷總喜歡繞遠路回家,學校到家的距離,有很多隧道,天橋,巧婷總想像⾃⼰是被圈養的倉鼠,53Please respect copyright.PENANA303d2HzwvZ
在這些半明,半暗的管道中穿⾏,等候主⼈厭倦的⼤⼿,伸進這個透明的籠⼦,把她撈起來,扔進53Please respect copyright.PENANAl0jRmJJjcJ
垃圾桶裡。這麼灰暗的想法,巧婷不敢告訴任何⼈,因為她厭倦了那些困惑⼜懷疑的⽬光,再聽⼀53Please respect copyright.PENANAcar2bpDvhT
次「你樂觀⼀些吧!」,她保證會瘋掉。53Please respect copyright.PENANAvVXCD1Ie19
被⼈追著跑,這種⼩朋友會玩的遊戲,巧婷在這刻突然明⽩了這件事的意義。那種被追著的感覺,53Please respect copyright.PENANA1NgHTPYAlH
上氣不接下氣,⼼臟在猛烈跳動,「怦怦」地在⾃⼰的耳邊抗議,提醒你還活著,⽽你的⾝體在努53Please respect copyright.PENANA9F87QLrSya
⼒⼯作,雖然世界想要把你抓住,你還是有逃走的機會。53Please respect copyright.PENANAYNwJjRgbk5
嘉誠則對這種追逐習以為常,喜歡守規矩的⼈玩不了滑板,玩滑板就要習慣被保安追的準備。⺟親53Please respect copyright.PENANAAdHR5uzou2
還活著的時候,他反⽽會⼩⼼⼀點,因為⺟親總會為他⾝上的傷⼝⼤驚⼩怪,拿著酒精追著他跑。53Please respect copyright.PENANAWvYBTXjrRw
這麼⼩⼼的⼈,還是那麼早死,嘉誠認為還是不⽤那麼拘謹了。53Please respect copyright.PENANAqyr5xfTDET
結伴⼀起逃跑的感覺好有趣,嘉誠與巧婷,這兩隻在世界玻璃缸裡的⼩倉鼠,在管道裡,向著光源53Please respect copyright.PENANAkTQcvuhKao
跑去。在三叉路⼝,⼆⼈有共識地跑向旋轉樓梯,在錯開的間隙裡偷看,那幾個追著他們的同學,53Please respect copyright.PENANAQXuA2QlgAI
汗流浹背地跑上斜路,慢慢消失在天橋盡頭。53Please respect copyright.PENANAwvhZoP8iDL
為了防⽌抗議的⼈向橋下的公路及鐵路扔路障,天橋的欄杆被加上了等⼈⾝⾼的鐵絲網。天橋像⼀53Please respect copyright.PENANArxWmynH9sQ
條長蛇,被裝上了氣焰囂張的刺,硬⽣⽣地滑破天空。火⾞在橋底通過,聲⾳聽起來像⼈的嗚咽。53Please respect copyright.PENANAanaAEmRiH4
嘉誠突然爬上欄杆,向⾏駛的列⾞⼤叫「吃屎啦你!」巧婷先是嚇了⼀跳,但也⼀起爬上欄杆,⼤53Please respect copyright.PENANAzHYF2yEOnC
叫「吃賓州啦你!」嘉誠不可置信地看著巧婷,他向巧婷說著些什麼,但火⾞的聲⾳太⼤聲,兩⼈53Please respect copyright.PENANAf0w4FITYib
都聽不到對⽅在說什麼。但兩⼈的臉上都帶著笑容。53Please respect copyright.PENANAIHbwRiMPaB
橋底滑板場53Please respect copyright.PENANAYLinLBTJUn
巧婷⽤「借」回來的電話幫嘉誠拍滑板短⽚。嘉誠看著巧婷純熟地把⼈家的電話解鎖,決定了⼀定53Please respect copyright.PENANAO3ew72R0A1
要去買塊防窺的玻璃貼。53Please respect copyright.PENANAdS0GiMsyI8
嘉誠雖說⾃⼰會Olie,但他還是試了幾次才成功,中間還有幾次還摔倒了。巧婷⼀臉懷疑地看著嘉53Please respect copyright.PENANA0gbLMozShM
誠,嘉誠則建議巧婷⾃⼰試⼀下。巧婷⼀站上滑板就摔了下來,滑板被彈開九丈遠。53Please respect copyright.PENANA8tfe6UOKOy
巧婷坐在地上,没有想站起来的跡象。「為什麼撻落地下這麼痛,你還要玩?」她問。嘉誠把滑板53Please respect copyright.PENANAQmnATXRONf
撿起來,隨意地做了個Olie,這次的動作很完美,巧婷想拿起電話拍,但已經趕不及了。嘉誠毫不在53Please respect copyright.PENANAVUTsyLGesN
意地向前滑動,加速後⼜做了個巧婷說不出名字的動作,在離地與著地之間,巧婷覺得時間在嘉誠53Please respect copyright.PENANA03TlsisIWd
的範圍裡停頓了,這就是稍縱即逝的美麗吧!在這個普通的⿈昏,在這個充滿貨⾞廢氣的橋底,她53Please respect copyright.PENANAgTakNX7kkP
沒有那麼期待那瓶氦氣了,那種本來⽤做填充派對氣球的氦氣,巧婷準備把他們吸進肺裡,因為她53Please respect copyright.PENANAAvfZtLwJ2i
感受不了任何值得期待的事,但眼前這⼀幕,她想知道之後會怎樣,她把這⼀刻拍了下來。53Please respect copyright.PENANAcuygBQvG9j
嘉誠流暢的動作戛然⽽⽌,他的前輪卡到顆⽯頭,優雅的⽔泥地衝浪者被地⼼吸⼒扯回現實,嘉誠53Please respect copyright.PENANA2AEEHOMcwU
有點氣餒地攤在地上不願意起來。53Please respect copyright.PENANASOZ1GfiPL0
「我錄下來了。」巧婷說。「吓?」嘉誠⼀臉疑惑。」⽜頓第三定律,那塊⽯頭卡住你塊板,你向53Please respect copyright.PENANAAEJ1Qdj6qv
前撻,作⽤⼒跟反作⽤⼒。」「噢,是這樣解的嗎?」嘉誠不太信服。53Please respect copyright.PENANACZmjjq4kfr
巧婷走向嘉誠,把⼿伸向他。嘉誠⽤⼿肘懶懶地把⾃⼰撐起來,他毫不掩飾地盯著巧婷的膝蓋。53Please respect copyright.PENANA0JDXcVOVmR
「你�這裡,如果感染的話,整個膝蓋以下都要切掉。」嘉誠在空氣中比劃著,⽤⼿指描繪著巧婷53Please respect copyright.PENANAzXCNk0feRC
膝蓋到腿的形狀。53Please respect copyright.PENANA0P6fElVgpO
巧婷嘗試⽤裙擺遮住滿佈傷痕的膝蓋,嘗試蹲下來,發現這個動作只會更尷尬,所以直接跪了下53Please respect copyright.PENANA8AYlPdwrna
來。53Please respect copyright.PENANASNh20BS68H
嘉誠站起來,走向跪在地上的巧婷。他向巧婷伸出雙⼿。巧婷⾃顧⾃地站起來。53Please respect copyright.PENANAmy5bcKK8a6
嘉誠抓住巧婷的⼿,因爲太突然,巧婷沒有收回⼿。53Please respect copyright.PENANABFKy0oy3Qy
「你不⽤急住想死,總有⼀⽇,你⾝體不知哪顆細胞就會把你背叛,變成⼀顆⼤腫瘤,就好像我阿53Please respect copyright.PENANAU9KLzi94as
媽⼀樣。」嘉誠說。巧婷沒有說話。53Please respect copyright.PENANADpjtgilXfc
「不要傷害⾃⼰吸引他⼈的注意⼒,沒⼈會在乎的。」嘉誠淡淡地說。53Please respect copyright.PENANAOUnBJTX7r0
巧婷憤怒地抽回⾃⼰的⼿。「我沒想過要吸引任何⼈的注意⼒。」巧婷很⽣氣,但不知到可以說什53Please respect copyright.PENANAxYRzd7EefT
麼,臉都紅了,退後兩步還是沒想到要說什麼,轉⾝走了兩步後回過頭來。「我只是想控制⾃⼰的53Please respect copyright.PENANAkhdi1VRsCG
⾝體。」巧婷說。「傷害⾃⼰不是⼀種控制。」嘉誠說。巧婷不認同但也無法反駁,巧婷舉起食53Please respect copyright.PENANATNfSnugl0q
指,指向嘉誠,她認為擺出⼀副⾃信的樣⼦,就能說出有說服⼒的話,但她只是指著嘉誠,說不出53Please respect copyright.PENANApEPWcjxJEv
⼀句話。53Please respect copyright.PENANARnDnIuNPjS
嘉誠安靜地看著巧婷,巧婷轉⾝就走。53Please respect copyright.PENANApg1UwADNtF
學校53Please respect copyright.PENANAtmnU7umOyX
巧婷不再跟嘉誠說話。有關⾃殘這件事,巧婷⼀直沒有想過為什麼。可能就像躲起來的孩⼦,躲到53Please respect copyright.PENANA2VepURf9Ut
悶了,才發現沒⼈在找他,才嘴硬地說⾃⼰根本不在乎。53Please respect copyright.PENANANOJS2TEjsB
巧婷的膝蓋,讓嘉誠想起⺟親養的那只鸚鵡。那只被⽗親教壞了,能說對⽂法粗⼝的⿃。⺟親死53Please respect copyright.PENANAhvyzUaUP2D
後,它不再說話,只會亂扯⾝上的⽻⽑,那只⿃的疤痕,有巧婷膝蓋的紋理。那只⿃還活著,不過53Please respect copyright.PENANAOA2m4KkJqj
⽑長不回來,非常醜。嘉誠覺得,如果⺟親可以變成⿁,回來看⾒她的鸚鵡,應該會很⽣氣,但這53Please respect copyright.PENANAIHEYA5dRGb
個世界沒有⿁。53Please respect copyright.PENANAJuCPQMQX6J
嘉誠想跟巧婷說話,但巧婷不想。嘉誠只能像個變態般盯著她看,巧婷總是在偷偷抓癢,嘉誠覺得53Please respect copyright.PENANAYW48iNdX5e
她應該有濕疹。53Please respect copyright.PENANAFYRUk07Jpy
氦氣跟芫茜53Please respect copyright.PENANAQ6cA3gry0T
巧婷的氦氣到貨了,但她不確定想把這些東⻄吸進肺裡,想像這些東⻄填滿⾃⼰的細胞,慢慢窒53Please respect copyright.PENANAMbBf7Kt1gN
息,然後什麼都感覺不了,沒有將來,好像不是太令她期待這件事,因為她還沒完成物理Project,53Please respect copyright.PENANAsNRmtiANKz
她不想嘉誠沒功課交。53Please respect copyright.PENANAp0gCK0OuJv
巧婷和⼀瓶她不想帶回家的氦氣站在路邊,她的背後傳來⼀陣濃烈的芫茜味,巧婷猛然回頭。「我53Please respect copyright.PENANA30bRWoewiQ
老⾖突然拿了很多芫茜回來,拿來煲⽔沖涼,你的濕疹應該會沒有那麼癢。」嘉誠提著⼀袋芫茜站53Please respect copyright.PENANAyGPSI452Ng
在巧婷⾝後。「我討厭芫茜。」巧婷回答。「我也討厭芫茜。」嘉誠聳肩。巧婷反⽩眼,兩⼈安靜53Please respect copyright.PENANAenHlNVyM0l
地並肩站在⼀起。53Please respect copyright.PENANAFQLcXA1MS0
「你知道可以在哪裡買到氣球?」巧婷問嘉誠。53Please respect copyright.PENANA0llcWnaqmx
橋底滑板場53Please respect copyright.PENANAwhz6OUg4jV
「為甚麼你爸有那麼多過期避套。」巧婷⼀邊問,⼀邊⽤裙襬把潤滑劑擦掉。被氦氣填滿的避53Please respect copyright.PENANAOzFBj3HRQ8
套飄向橋底的頂部。「我媽死了。」嘉誠回答。巧婷有點驚訝,但不知道怎樣回答。「她是癌症死53Please respect copyright.PENANAoe3M32xO80
的。」嘉誠⾃⼰回答,巧婷還沒想到要說什麼。」呃,所以你不⽤那麼著急去死。「嘉誠再說。」53Please respect copyright.PENANAUr74PDPMk7
我不是想死,只是有時癢得受不了,疼反⽽讓我可以分⼼⼀下。」巧婷回答,嘉誠安靜地看著巧53Please respect copyright.PENANAHVgWAKnFxG
婷,巧婷被看得有點尷尬,她抬頭看卡在頂部的氣球。53Please respect copyright.PENANAlxB5B06WKH
「你覺不覺得那些氣球是我們⼈⽣的隱喻。」巧婷說。「吓。」嘉誠不解。」我們就是那些氣球,53Please respect copyright.PENANAxgmh34Qkkk
如果在橋底起⾶的話,只會永遠卡在橋底,直到漏光氣,就會跌回地⾯。」巧婷回答。53Please respect copyright.PENANAyNKIDlJSUn
「我在想,我們是不是要認真點念書。」嘉誠回答。「呃,也是了,如果考得太差,可以選擇的東53Please respect copyright.PENANAhQSyndud5A
⻄還真的太少了。」巧婷淡淡地說。53Please respect copyright.PENANAU7elyXb5li
「但唸書真得好無聊。」嘉誠說。」噢,那個推⽯頭上⼭的故事。」巧婷突然說,嘉誠⼀臉不解。」53Please respect copyright.PENANAvc3EybTFc8
⻄⻄佛斯被罰要⼀輩⼦推⽯頭上斜路,當他推到上頂的時候,那塊⽯頭⼜會滾回底部。我覺得如果53Please respect copyright.PENANAplLBWwjSwy
我這輩⼦要⼀直推⽯頭上⼭,我⾄少要選⼀條我喜歡的斜路。」巧婷說。53Please respect copyright.PENANAUGnknUiMVB
「為何我會聽中⽂,但我卻不明⽩你在說什麼。」嘉誠說。巧婷聳聳,盯著在頂部的氣球。「我真53Please respect copyright.PENANAdp1SJDKpGd
⼼不想做要清理這堆東⻄的⼈。」巧婷說。「現在開始念書,能不能⾄少五科合格。」嘉誠說。53Please respect copyright.PENANAzNUWPJ9J07
巧婷突然舉起⼀只⼿指,示意嘉誠閉嘴,遠處傳來鑰匙互相撞擊的聲⾳。兩⼈互相對望後,轉⾝就53Please respect copyright.PENANA3WImKtlWn7
跑,留下了芫茜跟氦氣桶。巧婷突然回頭,取回那袋芫茜,但卻把氦氣桶留下。53Please respect copyright.PENANAD8iWPJApvH
卡在天橋底,充滿氦氣的避套在隨風擺動。53Please respect copyright.PENANAYQ0C9RaH1O
巧婷忘記了氦氣桶是可以退按⾦的,但活著就是這樣⼦的。