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房間裡的窗簾半掩著,透進來的光有點灰濛。窗外應該是陰天,沒有陽光灑落,只讓空氣顯得更加沉悶。沈昀澤坐在床邊,戴著媽媽塞給他的口罩。他其實不太習慣這種東西,耳繩勒著耳朵,呼吸也不太順,但馮怡琳要他戴好,不要連自己都感冒了。8964 copyright protection5PENANAaIl5pogGlG 維尼
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他垂下眼,看著被子裡的人。許允恩側著身,臉頰紅得不像話,眉毛皺著,嘴唇有點乾裂。睡夢中他不時皺眉,彷彿做了不太愉快的夢。8964 copyright protection5PENANA1K5GcnBIEt 維尼
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沈昀澤壓低聲音喚:「允恩,起來一下。」8964 copyright protection5PENANASvR83bf92a 維尼
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對方沒有反應,他只好又喊了幾次,聲音一點點拉高,手伸出來猶豫了好一會兒,才碰了碰他的肩膀。8964 copyright protection5PENANAwArUGzaVtp 維尼
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許允恩迷迷糊糊地睜開眼睛,目光空洞地掃了他一眼,像是還沒分清夢與現實。沈昀澤見他半天沒反應,又伸手扶了他一把,「先起來吧,吃點東西再吃藥。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAs4WDqZfSpd 維尼
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「……你怎麼在這?」許允恩的聲音乾啞得幾乎不像他平常的語氣。8964 copyright protection5PENANAqksKZGBgTE 維尼
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「我想說你難得沒有去學校,來看看你。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAPieb3sfpOU 維尼
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沈昀澤順手把水杯遞過去,看他慢慢坐起來,整個人看起來虛弱,眼下青黑一圈。8964 copyright protection5PENANAaQNfVJPrMo 維尼
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「你怎麼把自己搞成這樣子?」沈昀澤語氣裡藏不住一點責備。8964 copyright protection5PENANAgE16ErojHZ 維尼
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「……昨天淋雨了。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAwXpNtrVlF6 維尼
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「淋個雨至於會這樣……」話沒說完他就停住了,頓了一下才改口,「你跟你媽見面,還好嗎?」8964 copyright protection5PENANA5YukV1uvzI 維尼
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剛問出口,他就有點後悔,這問題太直接了。8964 copyright protection5PENANAlf3NVJCTMY 維尼
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他以為問題會被迴避,或是看到對方皺起眉、不耐煩地轉頭,但沒有。8964 copyright protection5PENANAfs7fxnEsex 維尼
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許允恩只是垂下眼,聲音輕得幾乎像風從唇邊吹過,「……還好,她現在過得很幸福,還有小孩了。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAQm9TRToMwj 維尼
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沈昀澤愣住,隨後驚喜的說:「那你不就多了個弟弟或妹妹了?」8964 copyright protection5PENANAkqpYBWBMqk 維尼
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「……應該吧。」語氣裡沒有一點喜悅。8964 copyright protection5PENANAi2lXXEOzph 維尼
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沈昀澤感覺到哪裡不對,像是有一層情緒壓在許允恩聲音底下。他一邊從保溫罐裡把粥倒出來,一邊忍不住開口:「你聽起來不太開心。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAIZXTofRCwt 維尼
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許允恩沒回答。8964 copyright protection5PENANAWwIgdVClGf 維尼
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沈昀澤又問道:「怎麼了?」8964 copyright protection5PENANAi4N7rxtS0x 維尼
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那人依舊低著頭,眼神空空的,像是沒打算開口,也沒力氣辯駁。他只是搖了搖頭,想推開話題。8964 copyright protection5PENANAzdDHnjDSJF 維尼
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「你可以說出來啊,說了會比較舒服一點。」沈昀澤遞過湯匙,語氣低低的,不算逼迫,只是輕輕地勸他。8964 copyright protection5PENANAJzMIiMHKNH 維尼
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「……為什麼要說給你聽?」8964 copyright protection5PENANAZAtIYxKIJN 維尼
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那聲音很輕,卻像針一樣戳進沈昀澤心裡。他怔了怔,但他還是說了:「因為我們是朋友吧?本來就可以說這些話的。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAQsaECvGplt 維尼
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許允恩低頭喝了一口粥,過了一會兒才慢慢開口,語氣平靜得幾乎不像他。8964 copyright protection5PENANAF6EHfAuSKs 維尼
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「我不想說,也沒想過跟你親近。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAcPxo3FY5ww 維尼
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他沒抬頭,但語氣裡的疲倦與抗拒清清楚楚,像是一種長期以來的防衛機制。那一種「說了也沒人會懂」「說了只是更麻煩」的心態,也許是他長久以來的想法,根深蒂固。8964 copyright protection5PENANAjFtJTyn4jx 維尼
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沈昀澤沒再說話,只是靜靜地坐在一旁,看著許允恩一口一口把粥吃完,額頭的汗水因為熱氣而緩緩冒出來,他抽了張紙巾遞過去,對方只是輕輕接過。8964 copyright protection5PENANAL8RlrqgAXb 維尼
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許允恩吃飽後靠在床頭,手裡拿著藥慢慢吞下,臉上寫滿了疲倦,但他還是對著沈昀澤說:「謝謝你送東西給我吃,也麻煩你幫我跟阿姨說聲謝謝。」8964 copyright protection5PENANA5DIN9ckZrZ 維尼
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「小事情而已,反正我們住的也蠻近的。」也許怕許允恩會有壓力,他站起身,「那我先走了,你好好休息。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAVmPy2MlJB0 維尼
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許允恩微微勾起嘴角,「嗯,學校見。」8964 copyright protection5PENANAKsXUoa8Ayq 維尼
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沈昀澤沒有馬上走,反而先去廚房裡將保溫杯洗乾淨,再次回到他的房間時,許允恩又睡著了,緊皺的眉頭還是沒有舒展開來。8964 copyright protection5PENANAt5D4Qdu5R0 維尼
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那天以後,他們真的開始變了。8964 copyright protection5PENANAbOQQcHtrGd 維尼
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沈昀澤那時還只是個不太懂人心的小孩,許允恩說「不想靠近誰」,他就真的乖乖不再靠近了。以前的他總是纏著許允恩,叫他唸書給自己聽,放學路上拉著他去買冰、塞糖果到他抽屜裡,但那天之後,他什麼都不做了。8964 copyright protection5PENANAWeB2SkxJMq 維尼
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有幾次他走過教室,看見許允恩一個人坐在窗邊看書,陽光打在他髮絲上,看起來有點孤單。他想走過去,卻又停住腳步。8964 copyright protection5PENANA5ShR515Urt 維尼
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他想起馮怡琳說過,不要給他壓力。8964 copyright protection5PENANAP3oKMTcK19 維尼
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他就真的轉身走開了,只在偶爾會和他聊天。8964 copyright protection5PENANAEBkXTpLQkw 維尼
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他告訴自己:尊重他,不打擾他,做一個偶爾聯絡的「普通朋友」就好。8964 copyright protection5PENANAQG3LApLfle 維尼
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但現在回頭看,他才知道——那不叫尊重,那只是放任他越走越遠。8964 copyright protection5PENANA7zULJE0QEO 維尼
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那是在對方痛苦時,視而不見,那是在對方推開自己時,沒有再伸出手。不要給他壓力,並不是放他一個人,而那些推開人的話不過都是許允恩的心理防衛機制,他卻傻傻的照做了。8964 copyright protection5PENANA3SH3ULHeiD 維尼
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思緒回歸現在,沈昀澤看著許允恩那張依舊睡得不安穩的臉。長長的睫毛微微顫著,嘴唇卻微微張著,呼吸輕淺,吐出的氣息溫熱地拂過枕邊,沈昀澤輕輕的撥開貼在他額前的髮絲。8964 copyright protection5PENANAFfDSLgLgju 維尼
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自從發現了自己對許允恩不再是朋友的感情後,他每日都活在後悔中。所以這次,他不想再只是看著了。8964 copyright protection5PENANAhRYqsQwc1D 維尼
如果他還不說話,那就換自己多說一點。8964 copyright protection5PENANAMjU2PN4390 維尼
如果他還不敢信任,那就由他來慢慢證明,有人會一直在。8964 copyright protection5PENANASbNHZFBv8b 維尼
不是施捨,不是同情,也不是短暫的溫柔,而是完整的、持續的、會一直站在他這邊的那種陪伴。8964 copyright protection5PENANAhx8vUByxcd 維尼
沈昀澤把房間的窗簾拉開了一點,讓灰濛濛的光透進來一點。他知道,許允恩醒來後一定會抱怨「太亮」,但是沒關係,他會讓他一點一點的適應這份光。8964 copyright protection5PENANApXLS9tVGlU 維尼
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