I believed he loved me. But then he screwed me over. Without a word. Just blocked me on social media. Wondering what I did. He still hasn't tried to fix things. Maybe it's truly over. I wonder why I always get screwed over. Maybe it's because I believe everything they tell me. Or maybe I have an asshole magnet across my forehead. Or waste my time like a big L on my forehead. Because I feel like a loser. Every time I want to forget him, he comes back into my memories. All the happy times that I remember. Like why did he do this. That's the question I always ask. It's like I gave my all in the relationship, and he just throws me away like trash. I want to be mad and I want to abandon my feelings about him, but he feels like home, and I'll always love him. I want to be wrapped in his arms and just fall asleep in them. I wanna smell how he smells, what his cologne smells like. I just want him to tell me he needs me and that he'll never let me go. It's probably for the best so I can focus on myself instead of other people. But I can't stop wanting to love him. And I need him to love me back again. Or maybe he never did love me. Maybe it was all a game. In the end I just want to suffocate him in my feelings with a fucking pillow full of feelings.1234 copyright protection1095ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8XQkXLCVa 尼

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