第一部分|計算之外的選擇33Please respect copyright.PENANAK6baR0JJZK
(時間點:悠然結婚2年,微瀾告白,兩人開始交往)
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許墨的世界,是黑白的。33Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1XLsO7dZI
他不認為愛情必須如烈火燎原,也不相信命運帶來的選擇會比理性更可靠。33Please respect copyright.PENANABHOBPT85zF
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當悠然選擇了李澤言,他沒有猶豫,也沒有過度情緒波動,甚至沒有去想「如果」的可能性。33Please respect copyright.PENANAmNO1AgIxlX
他清楚自己該做什麼,該如何整理自己的感情,他尊重悠然的選擇。33Please respect copyright.PENANAACe0uL3ZPu
他會安排好自己未來該待的位置。33Please respect copyright.PENANA7tOzO0aQpB
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當他們這群人偶爾在一些場合中遇到,悠然說希望大家都幸福時,他思考的也是如何能讓悠然的這個願望實現。33Please respect copyright.PENANAXoxCRWew8N
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——於是,當微瀾站在他面前,帶著一絲隱忍的勇氣說出「我喜歡你」時,許墨思考了不到幾秒,便做出了決定。33Please respect copyright.PENANA5UBDzOu06L
他可以選擇她,因為這樣的選擇並不突兀,也符合邏輯。33Please respect copyright.PENANAdrhvpN0RgP
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他們熟悉彼此,能夠理解對方,價值觀契合,未來的規劃也沒有衝突。33Please respect copyright.PENANAodscrzTo90
她是理性分析下,最合適的選擇。33Please respect copyright.PENANAGnRL7ArxR1
他知道,愛情不是必要條件,只要合適,感情可以培養。33Please respect copyright.PENANADQz7H13DTG
這個決定理智且穩妥,沒有風險,也不會帶來不可預測的變數。33Please respect copyright.PENANA8HmuwfWGqJ
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唯一的問題是——33Please respect copyright.PENANA6Wxe6gBjRX
他沒有意識到,這並不等於愛。33Please respect copyright.PENANAEPHf9zpV5X
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第二部分|她一直在試圖說服自己33Please respect copyright.PENANAXjxyyLDcsu
(時間點:交往期間,微瀾尚未決定離開)
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那天,他們一起在沙發上看著老電影。33Please respect copyright.PENANAfQ2dy6FJZg
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「你覺得……我們的關係,還不錯吧?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAGwSHd8Xh4T
她不經意地問。33Please respect copyright.PENANAEdmnfAsa6d
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許墨轉過頭,看著她,語氣溫和:「當然。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAnLVmsqEWV2
這是一個再明顯不過的答案,他甚至不明白她為什麼會突然問這種問題。33Please respect copyright.PENANAWLoOvKebWj
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但微瀾卻微微低下頭,捏了捏手指,笑了笑:「嗯……那就好。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAwQ9KCXzFWK
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那個表情,他直到很久之後才明白,意味著什麼。33Please respect copyright.PENANAUx7tBcd6EB
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她並不是在期待他的回答,而是在試圖說服自己,這段感情是對的。33Please respect copyright.PENANAQyd6IB44OM
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她一直在等待著,等待他某天會說出「我愛妳」。33Please respect copyright.PENANAmDgZD3Ardx
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但她卻始終等不到。33Please respect copyright.PENANABTAaIu5UTQ
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第三部分|真正的缺失33Please respect copyright.PENANAfij7NqJQvS
(時間點:微瀾離開後第一年)
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微瀾離開了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAAx9BVfO6ms
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許墨原以為,這只是她一時的情緒波動。33Please respect copyright.PENANAToRwWdoRmA
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她曾經也有過低潮的時候,只要給她一點時間,她總會回來。33Please respect copyright.PENANAy1N6OXmcP7
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他習慣理性處理問題,以為這次也不例外。33Please respect copyright.PENANA4jMELCn86n
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但當他真正意識到不對勁時,微瀾已經離開很久了。33Please respect copyright.PENANATEZ4lsLFag
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她沒有留下任何東西,沒有聯絡方式,甚至連最後的道別都沒有。33Please respect copyright.PENANAFIweRe3JQz
就連他書桌上的她的筆記本,也消失得乾乾淨淨。33Please respect copyright.PENANAzyL10M5pEZ
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——像是從未存在過。33Please respect copyright.PENANAID0a8cfR4V
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他試圖回憶,他們最後一次共進晚餐時,她有沒有表現出異樣。33Please respect copyright.PENANA3AQdGhblX0
她有微笑,話題也和平常一樣,語氣溫和,甚至還問他:「最近研究進展如何?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAMfBZmpNSpU
當時,他只是淡淡地回應:「還不錯。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAjoOpCcLQ30
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然後呢?33Please respect copyright.PENANAcYpzdAa4oq
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她似乎輕輕笑了一下,低頭攪拌著湯匙,沒有再多說話。33Please respect copyright.PENANApcAIVu88hS
現在回想起來,那份安靜,是否已經是某種無聲的告別?33Please respect copyright.PENANApdHTzKUlmz
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許墨的手指無意識地蜷緊,指節用力到有些泛白。33Please respect copyright.PENANAmiStCuipiO
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他開始翻找所有可能的線索——33Please respect copyright.PENANA5SACmpr1OD
她的工作郵件,她的研究計畫,甚至連她在公寓的最後一筆水電費紀錄。33Please respect copyright.PENANAplaw41hT5P
他發現,她的辭職申請在她離開的一週前就遞交了,而他卻從未察覺。33Please respect copyright.PENANADkAH8uh1NZ
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這一刻,他才驚覺——33Please respect copyright.PENANAjGo5e3nCwY
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她或許早已經計劃好要離開,連再與他做告別都沒有,只剩那句話。33Please respect copyright.PENANAmYP3itdScc
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許墨,愛情真的不能將就。
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一條條訊息,一頁頁資料,33Please respect copyright.PENANARurNT3wQqf
他以往能夠準確掌控的數據,現在卻無法告訴他她去了哪裡。33Please respect copyright.PENANAdWyac5Z8PF
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他試圖推演,她會選擇的去向。33Please respect copyright.PENANAUi5R17lM2C
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理論上,她不可能完全斷絕所有聯絡。33Please respect copyright.PENANA2xNd3F0CAH
理論上,她的生活總會留下蛛絲馬跡。33Please respect copyright.PENANAJ22dNpZXl5
理論上……33Please respect copyright.PENANAH9dOfwlb7M
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但這一次,他無法計算出該怎麼挽回。33Please respect copyright.PENANAtiWrbgB5cD
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因為她連「回應」的機會都沒有給他。33Please respect copyright.PENANAssS3dZGdr0
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她是真的,想要從他的生命裡抽離。33Please respect copyright.PENANAT3WMFR1ex3
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這是許墨第一次,發現自己再怎麼推演可能性,結果都不在他的掌控之中。33Please respect copyright.PENANAW9v4OZN78Q
這是他第一次,無法預測一個人會選擇離開他到什麼地步。33Please respect copyright.PENANA54gaaCsblu
也是他第一次,意識到失去的重量——33Please respect copyright.PENANAW9goAy8H6x
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不是一時的情緒波動,而是再也無法回頭的結局。33Please respect copyright.PENANAzHg3YdkpV3
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他坐在書房裡,指尖抵著眉心,長久的沉默裡,連呼吸聲都變得寂靜。33Please respect copyright.PENANAcEr6WIyLWj
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她的選擇,他該尊重……吧。33Please respect copyright.PENANA0L8VEKp2RG
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第四部分|世界從來沒有色彩33Please respect copyright.PENANADeQy3X3rX8
(時間點:微瀾離開後第二年,許墨開始尋找微瀾)
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他以為,自己已經習慣了沒有顏色的世界。33Please respect copyright.PENANAExydq3ckAD
他以為,理智架構下的世界,是無需過多的溫暖。33Please respect copyright.PENANAOi0TFPiMLH
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黑白兩色,清楚、簡單。他曾以為,沒有多餘的色彩,世界就能維持理智。33Please respect copyright.PENANAfOqTdmS1NN
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直到她離開,他才察覺——33Please respect copyright.PENANAKhuJOURMNQ
原來,黑白之間還有溫度的差別。33Please respect copyright.PENANAfrh4I3OdFS
他才發現——這樣的世界,冷得徹骨。33Please respect copyright.PENANAkj06jGxxnj
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悠然曾是他唯一見過的色彩,他以為那就是溫暖的定義。33Please respect copyright.PENANAPQdhQDaYA8
但最終,她的選擇不是他。33Please respect copyright.PENANAhvCsZPqEm1
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但微瀾……33Please respect copyright.PENANAK48PwQPecP
她像是水,一點一點滲入他的世界,悄無聲息地產生了溫暖。33Please respect copyright.PENANAOUov6dxgDC
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她義無反顧,走進許墨的世界,慢慢地、靜靜地,將自己的痕跡留在他的生命裡。33Please respect copyright.PENANA7bDsVfJBeZ
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她漸漸地讓他『習慣』了溫暖,她讓他以為這是理所當然的。33Please respect copyright.PENANA7OpE9uWG1V
直到這份溫暖抽離時,他才發現——習慣,才是最難戒掉的。33Please respect copyright.PENANArRah9e7iFX
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她的存在,不是色彩,而是光——即使世界再黑暗,光總會留下痕跡。33Please respect copyright.PENANAA3K9amfjNb
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這一次,許墨終於明白,33Please respect copyright.PENANAInVC6Kf34j
微瀾之於他,並不是因為「合適」,而是因為——33Please respect copyright.PENANA7kJnHimuC3
即使她不符合任何條件,他仍然想要她能在自己身邊。33Please respect copyright.PENANApz55XIq53o
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第五部分|她回來了,但不是為了他33Please respect copyright.PENANA2MFzJ2RVB1
(時間點:微瀾回國後一年,尚未復合)
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微瀾回來了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAYWJmBE11S5
從蘇硯那邊的進度來看,她應該已經回來一段時間了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAmc3CliipGQ
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她回來,沒有主動聯繫他。33Please respect copyright.PENANAyhXB6aNIvy
她只是悄然地回到自己的領域裡,重新適應這裡的節奏,就像這三年的離開,從未在她的生活裡留下痕跡一樣。33Please respect copyright.PENANAAAlwo1685z
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許墨沉默地翻閱著研究報告,指尖輕敲著桌面,視線落在螢幕上,卻沒有真正讀進任何數據。33Please respect copyright.PENANAJe6YKa2rRl
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那天,他聽到外頭的助理們在閒聊:「蘇教授那邊來了個新研究員,聽說是蘇教授的學妹?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAyw99To4F7r
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「是嗎?我今天好像也看到她了……感覺有點眼熟?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAoMCS3u1nFp
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「不只眼熟吧?之前蘇教授提過,她原本就是這裡的人,只是後來離開了。」33Please respect copyright.PENANA5nSkIzX73N
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「是嗎?那怎麼又回來了?」33Please respect copyright.PENANADuP9On7dlc
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他聽著這些對話,沒有出聲,卻在某個瞬間停下了手中的筆。33Please respect copyright.PENANArAib7Z2onZ
他的思緒短暫停滯了一秒,然後,將手邊的資料闔上,淡淡地吩咐:「今天的研究報告,稍後再整理送來。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAGrtdnT0tHp
——是她嗎?她回來了?33Please respect copyright.PENANA2N2lraEDKW
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那天,辦公室的門被推開的時候,許墨沒有抬頭。33Please respect copyright.PENANAc6JINXvN2w
直到她開口。33Please respect copyright.PENANAqtKk7zl65D
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「許教授……還是要叫許墨呢?」33Please respect copyright.PENANAe673KEVP3X
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他的手指微微一頓,終於抬起眼,看向門口的人。33Please respect copyright.PENANAA2Zz2uvHwC
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她站在那裡,目光平靜,嘴角帶著一抹若有似無的笑意。33Please respect copyright.PENANA7aXTndoVV9
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與以前不同,現在的她,少了幾分迷惘,多了某種篤定的氣質。33Please respect copyright.PENANAWeRHQCdFZl
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許墨沉默了一瞬,然後,微微一笑,聲音低而溫和——33Please respect copyright.PENANAAVteFgULO1
「都行,妳決定就可以。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAhJdG6eGc8b
「但如果可以的話……」他微微頓了一下,目光落在她身上,語氣輕柔,「喊我許墨吧。」33Please respect copyright.PENANAMNTJGh2R0w
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聽到這話,她笑了。33Please respect copyright.PENANAat7DD0IWsK
「好久不見,許墨。」33Please respect copyright.PENANA6lklt0vHW6
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這一刻,他明白。33Please respect copyright.PENANAyWHdOkxluy
她的回歸是為了她自己。33Please respect copyright.PENANAAmq6XXPAOP
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但沒關係,他會等。