第一部分|計算之外的選擇61Please respect copyright.PENANALLWS7vwIjg
(時間點:悠然結婚2年,微瀾告白,兩人開始交往)
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許墨的世界,是黑白的。61Please respect copyright.PENANAPxLuMvqxC4
他不認為愛情必須如烈火燎原,也不相信命運帶來的選擇會比理性更可靠。61Please respect copyright.PENANAaEmeJ0fqvt
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當悠然選擇了李澤言,他沒有猶豫,也沒有過度情緒波動,甚至沒有去想「如果」的可能性。61Please respect copyright.PENANABXMdUdBHCG
他清楚自己該做什麼,該如何整理自己的感情,他尊重悠然的選擇。61Please respect copyright.PENANAKmYRpWPhSk
他會安排好自己未來該待的位置。61Please respect copyright.PENANAy0beF2uYFv
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當他們這群人偶爾在一些場合中遇到,悠然說希望大家都幸福時,他思考的也是如何能讓悠然的這個願望實現。61Please respect copyright.PENANAOQzxghXycU
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——於是,當微瀾站在他面前,帶著一絲隱忍的勇氣說出「我喜歡你」時,許墨思考了不到幾秒,便做出了決定。61Please respect copyright.PENANAJtCWQvMcvr
他可以選擇她,因為這樣的選擇並不突兀,也符合邏輯。61Please respect copyright.PENANA2jpyDm8W1C
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他們熟悉彼此,能夠理解對方,價值觀契合,未來的規劃也沒有衝突。61Please respect copyright.PENANAoIyFeqXtDI
她是理性分析下,最合適的選擇。61Please respect copyright.PENANAqipYyxVmEf
他知道,愛情不是必要條件,只要合適,感情可以培養。61Please respect copyright.PENANAW3freOb3zv
這個決定理智且穩妥,沒有風險,也不會帶來不可預測的變數。61Please respect copyright.PENANAMB32q6GMgL
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唯一的問題是——61Please respect copyright.PENANALMvGXASH6E
他沒有意識到,這並不等於愛。61Please respect copyright.PENANAjOUgxNZ0WP
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第二部分|她一直在試圖說服自己61Please respect copyright.PENANAI4TaRMNKdM
(時間點:交往期間,微瀾尚未決定離開)
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那天,他們一起在沙發上看著老電影。61Please respect copyright.PENANA7pNwxRDltp
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「你覺得……我們的關係,還不錯吧?」61Please respect copyright.PENANAqfUC8PJZzp
她不經意地問。61Please respect copyright.PENANAHPqRo7b97b
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許墨轉過頭,看著她,語氣溫和:「當然。」61Please respect copyright.PENANAujtX8M4fYb
這是一個再明顯不過的答案,他甚至不明白她為什麼會突然問這種問題。61Please respect copyright.PENANA2BiXSeN6Ax
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但微瀾卻微微低下頭,捏了捏手指,笑了笑:「嗯……那就好。」61Please respect copyright.PENANAKVidu1I0Ie
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那個表情,他直到很久之後才明白,意味著什麼。61Please respect copyright.PENANAz11H1zRqJT
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她並不是在期待他的回答,而是在試圖說服自己,這段感情是對的。61Please respect copyright.PENANAhyj5xhTkSy
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她一直在等待著,等待他某天會說出「我愛妳」。61Please respect copyright.PENANANg8VSvxvqm
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但她卻始終等不到。61Please respect copyright.PENANAJtZ75y30XU
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第三部分|真正的缺失61Please respect copyright.PENANAcV0Xwq2xPJ
(時間點:微瀾離開後第一年)
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微瀾離開了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAeAIb4Ub2oY
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許墨原以為,這只是她一時的情緒波動。61Please respect copyright.PENANA8dJTFKvD8m
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她曾經也有過低潮的時候,只要給她一點時間,她總會回來。61Please respect copyright.PENANAjrk9RFWPJA
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他習慣理性處理問題,以為這次也不例外。61Please respect copyright.PENANAxXmp4A63QJ
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但當他真正意識到不對勁時,微瀾已經離開很久了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAy4X8X9Yj4i
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她沒有留下任何東西,沒有聯絡方式,甚至連最後的道別都沒有。61Please respect copyright.PENANAnkaI3gxIMP
就連他書桌上的她的筆記本,也消失得乾乾淨淨。61Please respect copyright.PENANAQBjYNhEDLJ
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——像是從未存在過。61Please respect copyright.PENANAA4bk3pgEm2
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他試圖回憶,他們最後一次共進晚餐時,她有沒有表現出異樣。61Please respect copyright.PENANAMh62Xe55gX
她有微笑,話題也和平常一樣,語氣溫和,甚至還問他:「最近研究進展如何?」61Please respect copyright.PENANAssoP8KsDju
當時,他只是淡淡地回應:「還不錯。」61Please respect copyright.PENANAp8DNUNI3Yu
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然後呢?61Please respect copyright.PENANAKGyITobNtm
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她似乎輕輕笑了一下,低頭攪拌著湯匙,沒有再多說話。61Please respect copyright.PENANAng4Oc9bMvo
現在回想起來,那份安靜,是否已經是某種無聲的告別?61Please respect copyright.PENANAqXcGCR3pNm
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許墨的手指無意識地蜷緊,指節用力到有些泛白。61Please respect copyright.PENANARHmyzfo6Om
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他開始翻找所有可能的線索——61Please respect copyright.PENANA1u9fzHgOJ1
她的工作郵件,她的研究計畫,甚至連她在公寓的最後一筆水電費紀錄。61Please respect copyright.PENANAFNmfl5V6gb
他發現,她的辭職申請在她離開的一週前就遞交了,而他卻從未察覺。61Please respect copyright.PENANABqpjTGvQwr
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這一刻,他才驚覺——61Please respect copyright.PENANAshHp5VjNPP
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她或許早已經計劃好要離開,連再與他做告別都沒有,只剩那句話。61Please respect copyright.PENANAxjP0Gk25nq
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許墨,愛情真的不能將就。
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一條條訊息,一頁頁資料,61Please respect copyright.PENANA7j9MpBubpq
他以往能夠準確掌控的數據,現在卻無法告訴他她去了哪裡。61Please respect copyright.PENANAi9OXMw19LE
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他試圖推演,她會選擇的去向。61Please respect copyright.PENANAFumZomCqiR
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理論上,她不可能完全斷絕所有聯絡。61Please respect copyright.PENANAYdDlLbYaTv
理論上,她的生活總會留下蛛絲馬跡。61Please respect copyright.PENANApOgbLoqXZu
理論上……61Please respect copyright.PENANAdyCvrw4plU
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但這一次,他無法計算出該怎麼挽回。61Please respect copyright.PENANAf5qjbQG1Y2
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因為她連「回應」的機會都沒有給他。61Please respect copyright.PENANAWEukPRHbVZ
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她是真的,想要從他的生命裡抽離。61Please respect copyright.PENANABnRJwsQfoY
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這是許墨第一次,發現自己再怎麼推演可能性,結果都不在他的掌控之中。61Please respect copyright.PENANASFyM4F7d0p
這是他第一次,無法預測一個人會選擇離開他到什麼地步。61Please respect copyright.PENANAap9gsa7H5H
也是他第一次,意識到失去的重量——61Please respect copyright.PENANAV9GTCMRsnr
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不是一時的情緒波動,而是再也無法回頭的結局。61Please respect copyright.PENANAvs1cgel3N6
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他坐在書房裡,指尖抵著眉心,長久的沉默裡,連呼吸聲都變得寂靜。61Please respect copyright.PENANAkXmOdUT9Bb
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她的選擇,他該尊重……吧。61Please respect copyright.PENANAZyMSO55fSw
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第四部分|世界從來沒有色彩61Please respect copyright.PENANAsOy1uLJx97
(時間點:微瀾離開後第二年,許墨開始尋找微瀾)
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他以為,自己已經習慣了沒有顏色的世界。61Please respect copyright.PENANAqNUMhK6tt4
他以為,理智架構下的世界,是無需過多的溫暖。61Please respect copyright.PENANAe2sa0Jx9HY
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黑白兩色,清楚、簡單。他曾以為,沒有多餘的色彩,世界就能維持理智。61Please respect copyright.PENANA4cgxxd82V0
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直到她離開,他才察覺——61Please respect copyright.PENANAszXNjMTMiR
原來,黑白之間還有溫度的差別。61Please respect copyright.PENANAZKhhJBzdn6
他才發現——這樣的世界,冷得徹骨。61Please respect copyright.PENANAtmJjiu8m2Y
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悠然曾是他唯一見過的色彩,他以為那就是溫暖的定義。61Please respect copyright.PENANAyq5PbcL02n
但最終,她的選擇不是他。61Please respect copyright.PENANAGI6NElZOAK
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但微瀾……61Please respect copyright.PENANA4SLVXMhb4O
她像是水,一點一點滲入他的世界,悄無聲息地產生了溫暖。61Please respect copyright.PENANAeVpqpK7dAj
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她義無反顧,走進許墨的世界,慢慢地、靜靜地,將自己的痕跡留在他的生命裡。61Please respect copyright.PENANARszQy3RhVh
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她漸漸地讓他『習慣』了溫暖,她讓他以為這是理所當然的。61Please respect copyright.PENANAivpgJurPvY
直到這份溫暖抽離時,他才發現——習慣,才是最難戒掉的。61Please respect copyright.PENANA8D2Hq801c6
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她的存在,不是色彩,而是光——即使世界再黑暗,光總會留下痕跡。61Please respect copyright.PENANAZ8Nz4iPnVe
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這一次,許墨終於明白,61Please respect copyright.PENANAK36Tmlz8XT
微瀾之於他,並不是因為「合適」,而是因為——61Please respect copyright.PENANAjbNh7U4jOw
即使她不符合任何條件,他仍然想要她能在自己身邊。61Please respect copyright.PENANAE1hJ4L48J6
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第五部分|她回來了,但不是為了他61Please respect copyright.PENANAAGhnY3fF2o
(時間點:微瀾回國後一年,尚未復合)
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微瀾回來了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAvoMceLKcex
從蘇硯那邊的進度來看,她應該已經回來一段時間了。61Please respect copyright.PENANA9NbPOmDdWK
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她回來,沒有主動聯繫他。61Please respect copyright.PENANAryuzy1BFwc
她只是悄然地回到自己的領域裡,重新適應這裡的節奏,就像這三年的離開,從未在她的生活裡留下痕跡一樣。61Please respect copyright.PENANA2Th0wwVOhY
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許墨沉默地翻閱著研究報告,指尖輕敲著桌面,視線落在螢幕上,卻沒有真正讀進任何數據。61Please respect copyright.PENANAhwJECLOMCl
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那天,他聽到外頭的助理們在閒聊:「蘇教授那邊來了個新研究員,聽說是蘇教授的學妹?」61Please respect copyright.PENANAQqGdcOiPpn
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「是嗎?我今天好像也看到她了……感覺有點眼熟?」61Please respect copyright.PENANA0XBpGJC10Y
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「不只眼熟吧?之前蘇教授提過,她原本就是這裡的人,只是後來離開了。」61Please respect copyright.PENANAkohUlTacMp
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「是嗎?那怎麼又回來了?」61Please respect copyright.PENANAdtgJyeic8O
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他聽著這些對話,沒有出聲,卻在某個瞬間停下了手中的筆。61Please respect copyright.PENANAVUmtbhjWDE
他的思緒短暫停滯了一秒,然後,將手邊的資料闔上,淡淡地吩咐:「今天的研究報告,稍後再整理送來。」61Please respect copyright.PENANA5Ylc1lQnH3
——是她嗎?她回來了?61Please respect copyright.PENANAgTSnuCPjSJ
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那天,辦公室的門被推開的時候,許墨沒有抬頭。61Please respect copyright.PENANAkFzkmUt44u
直到她開口。61Please respect copyright.PENANAt9EHYQgJIt
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「許教授……還是要叫許墨呢?」61Please respect copyright.PENANAmjkImIBNCf
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他的手指微微一頓,終於抬起眼,看向門口的人。61Please respect copyright.PENANAW6azsS7KAa
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她站在那裡,目光平靜,嘴角帶著一抹若有似無的笑意。61Please respect copyright.PENANA7l2Y815CuK
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與以前不同,現在的她,少了幾分迷惘,多了某種篤定的氣質。61Please respect copyright.PENANAKdP1cdo6aw
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許墨沉默了一瞬,然後,微微一笑,聲音低而溫和——61Please respect copyright.PENANAufhsK3vSZy
「都行,妳決定就可以。」61Please respect copyright.PENANAzMZdVTVovD
「但如果可以的話……」他微微頓了一下,目光落在她身上,語氣輕柔,「喊我許墨吧。」61Please respect copyright.PENANATqHsBX3ZtI
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聽到這話,她笑了。61Please respect copyright.PENANAUzDs94H1Ug
「好久不見,許墨。」61Please respect copyright.PENANAJ3C8o0EVS4
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這一刻,他明白。61Please respect copyright.PENANAn3uW7GQ9et
她的回歸是為了她自己。61Please respect copyright.PENANAPeeCDl6tBk
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但沒關係,他會等。