第一部分|計算之外的選擇62Please respect copyright.PENANAFL2iamdcUi
(時間點:悠然結婚2年,微瀾告白,兩人開始交往)
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許墨的世界,是黑白的。62Please respect copyright.PENANAwIxEaxJS18
他不認為愛情必須如烈火燎原,也不相信命運帶來的選擇會比理性更可靠。62Please respect copyright.PENANAZVOO09biPY
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當悠然選擇了李澤言,他沒有猶豫,也沒有過度情緒波動,甚至沒有去想「如果」的可能性。62Please respect copyright.PENANA2BXRzyC5Ni
他清楚自己該做什麼,該如何整理自己的感情,他尊重悠然的選擇。62Please respect copyright.PENANA8a91oaTQqG
他會安排好自己未來該待的位置。62Please respect copyright.PENANAxSvQ7CnTZl
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當他們這群人偶爾在一些場合中遇到,悠然說希望大家都幸福時,他思考的也是如何能讓悠然的這個願望實現。62Please respect copyright.PENANAIF5JHh8Ec3
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——於是,當微瀾站在他面前,帶著一絲隱忍的勇氣說出「我喜歡你」時,許墨思考了不到幾秒,便做出了決定。62Please respect copyright.PENANAbrr1IdBnm3
他可以選擇她,因為這樣的選擇並不突兀,也符合邏輯。62Please respect copyright.PENANAvhWEphrXUs
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他們熟悉彼此,能夠理解對方,價值觀契合,未來的規劃也沒有衝突。62Please respect copyright.PENANAy2FdF7CIpZ
她是理性分析下,最合適的選擇。62Please respect copyright.PENANA45oENWBEwn
他知道,愛情不是必要條件,只要合適,感情可以培養。62Please respect copyright.PENANAgPFk48nvHP
這個決定理智且穩妥,沒有風險,也不會帶來不可預測的變數。62Please respect copyright.PENANA4k0n2bKEJM
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唯一的問題是——62Please respect copyright.PENANAouuZ45wJdR
他沒有意識到,這並不等於愛。62Please respect copyright.PENANAyF1UeWvB2u
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第二部分|她一直在試圖說服自己62Please respect copyright.PENANAqdpSGFDn3u
(時間點:交往期間,微瀾尚未決定離開)
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那天,他們一起在沙發上看著老電影。62Please respect copyright.PENANA1Z23eh7lT6
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「你覺得……我們的關係,還不錯吧?」62Please respect copyright.PENANA2XgZ7jpJMj
她不經意地問。62Please respect copyright.PENANALf26BP8RHR
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許墨轉過頭,看著她,語氣溫和:「當然。」62Please respect copyright.PENANADDF18RlfRp
這是一個再明顯不過的答案,他甚至不明白她為什麼會突然問這種問題。62Please respect copyright.PENANA0RAtZGKgbZ
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但微瀾卻微微低下頭,捏了捏手指,笑了笑:「嗯……那就好。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAqsDQ8UeHy2
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那個表情,他直到很久之後才明白,意味著什麼。62Please respect copyright.PENANAPtCqipmdnk
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她並不是在期待他的回答,而是在試圖說服自己,這段感情是對的。62Please respect copyright.PENANACcE822UzKh
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她一直在等待著,等待他某天會說出「我愛妳」。62Please respect copyright.PENANAfApBb7TDtK
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但她卻始終等不到。62Please respect copyright.PENANAiC3Z1eds9C
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第三部分|真正的缺失62Please respect copyright.PENANAtJAJdnwbIq
(時間點:微瀾離開後第一年)
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微瀾離開了。62Please respect copyright.PENANAra65CzEdwc
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許墨原以為,這只是她一時的情緒波動。62Please respect copyright.PENANAqhOLhd8JH7
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她曾經也有過低潮的時候,只要給她一點時間,她總會回來。62Please respect copyright.PENANA7zMWrCU75a
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他習慣理性處理問題,以為這次也不例外。62Please respect copyright.PENANA1H95Rvg5Qt
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但當他真正意識到不對勁時,微瀾已經離開很久了。62Please respect copyright.PENANAOmvpkpotJ2
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她沒有留下任何東西,沒有聯絡方式,甚至連最後的道別都沒有。62Please respect copyright.PENANABmeKARj8DZ
就連他書桌上的她的筆記本,也消失得乾乾淨淨。62Please respect copyright.PENANA0msd2wH3DJ
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——像是從未存在過。62Please respect copyright.PENANAxTkQujmtAB
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他試圖回憶,他們最後一次共進晚餐時,她有沒有表現出異樣。62Please respect copyright.PENANAWnbj9EV2Gp
她有微笑,話題也和平常一樣,語氣溫和,甚至還問他:「最近研究進展如何?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAeT3oGsZP2q
當時,他只是淡淡地回應:「還不錯。」62Please respect copyright.PENANA9reMKktkNk
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然後呢?62Please respect copyright.PENANAjpbkYWeXAv
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她似乎輕輕笑了一下,低頭攪拌著湯匙,沒有再多說話。62Please respect copyright.PENANAQImOoYtXoj
現在回想起來,那份安靜,是否已經是某種無聲的告別?62Please respect copyright.PENANAuRGHhto39r
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許墨的手指無意識地蜷緊,指節用力到有些泛白。62Please respect copyright.PENANAAv7hJuyncS
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他開始翻找所有可能的線索——62Please respect copyright.PENANA5HC9fDq59A
她的工作郵件,她的研究計畫,甚至連她在公寓的最後一筆水電費紀錄。62Please respect copyright.PENANAQzxrIomzPi
他發現,她的辭職申請在她離開的一週前就遞交了,而他卻從未察覺。62Please respect copyright.PENANAN5yUkYZ6V0
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這一刻,他才驚覺——62Please respect copyright.PENANACJGIhB1bIr
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她或許早已經計劃好要離開,連再與他做告別都沒有,只剩那句話。62Please respect copyright.PENANA1dBRX0CPEP
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許墨,愛情真的不能將就。
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一條條訊息,一頁頁資料,62Please respect copyright.PENANArNe1oL0YRJ
他以往能夠準確掌控的數據,現在卻無法告訴他她去了哪裡。62Please respect copyright.PENANAAiuI8fpqoy
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他試圖推演,她會選擇的去向。62Please respect copyright.PENANAWIEsbCoBvH
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理論上,她不可能完全斷絕所有聯絡。62Please respect copyright.PENANAo68NyzhJSk
理論上,她的生活總會留下蛛絲馬跡。62Please respect copyright.PENANAIdQYI3EEKD
理論上……62Please respect copyright.PENANAvnnF5wuRqX
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但這一次,他無法計算出該怎麼挽回。62Please respect copyright.PENANAja7XGFzeld
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因為她連「回應」的機會都沒有給他。62Please respect copyright.PENANAibV02IJrKs
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她是真的,想要從他的生命裡抽離。62Please respect copyright.PENANAbb1fchVLoN
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這是許墨第一次,發現自己再怎麼推演可能性,結果都不在他的掌控之中。62Please respect copyright.PENANAqme7t7Ri99
這是他第一次,無法預測一個人會選擇離開他到什麼地步。62Please respect copyright.PENANAnqetrzRf8q
也是他第一次,意識到失去的重量——62Please respect copyright.PENANA1t6PaYAqGk
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不是一時的情緒波動,而是再也無法回頭的結局。62Please respect copyright.PENANAsv0k1K57Zo
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他坐在書房裡,指尖抵著眉心,長久的沉默裡,連呼吸聲都變得寂靜。62Please respect copyright.PENANANkkxLINqDN
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她的選擇,他該尊重……吧。62Please respect copyright.PENANATyONzSZEp9
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第四部分|世界從來沒有色彩62Please respect copyright.PENANAwWjWsfUAEY
(時間點:微瀾離開後第二年,許墨開始尋找微瀾)
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他以為,自己已經習慣了沒有顏色的世界。62Please respect copyright.PENANAm5C8xvk69D
他以為,理智架構下的世界,是無需過多的溫暖。62Please respect copyright.PENANAuCDOjuf0Du
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黑白兩色,清楚、簡單。他曾以為,沒有多餘的色彩,世界就能維持理智。62Please respect copyright.PENANAMxyL4B58iu
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直到她離開,他才察覺——62Please respect copyright.PENANASB33UlZESN
原來,黑白之間還有溫度的差別。62Please respect copyright.PENANA7wzVuvbO9L
他才發現——這樣的世界,冷得徹骨。62Please respect copyright.PENANAPxPVqqXIoV
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悠然曾是他唯一見過的色彩,他以為那就是溫暖的定義。62Please respect copyright.PENANA1UHNjzyyny
但最終,她的選擇不是他。62Please respect copyright.PENANAfeBCFMhfVx
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但微瀾……62Please respect copyright.PENANAWLcoEIOzxK
她像是水,一點一點滲入他的世界,悄無聲息地產生了溫暖。62Please respect copyright.PENANAVm0ZTtgupV
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她義無反顧,走進許墨的世界,慢慢地、靜靜地,將自己的痕跡留在他的生命裡。62Please respect copyright.PENANASfX3vIxobV
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她漸漸地讓他『習慣』了溫暖,她讓他以為這是理所當然的。62Please respect copyright.PENANAnPWX9cqonj
直到這份溫暖抽離時,他才發現——習慣,才是最難戒掉的。62Please respect copyright.PENANAMpKvu38NEz
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她的存在,不是色彩,而是光——即使世界再黑暗,光總會留下痕跡。62Please respect copyright.PENANAEuuNDK0fXn
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這一次,許墨終於明白,62Please respect copyright.PENANALMklvKUDSx
微瀾之於他,並不是因為「合適」,而是因為——62Please respect copyright.PENANAhUVOMKyTNE
即使她不符合任何條件,他仍然想要她能在自己身邊。62Please respect copyright.PENANAlTINCFxTs0
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第五部分|她回來了,但不是為了他62Please respect copyright.PENANABkQtyGuXrS
(時間點:微瀾回國後一年,尚未復合)
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微瀾回來了。62Please respect copyright.PENANA1BPv6m1Xu9
從蘇硯那邊的進度來看,她應該已經回來一段時間了。62Please respect copyright.PENANAkAABETglGH
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她回來,沒有主動聯繫他。62Please respect copyright.PENANAqkLfDv5lsv
她只是悄然地回到自己的領域裡,重新適應這裡的節奏,就像這三年的離開,從未在她的生活裡留下痕跡一樣。62Please respect copyright.PENANApJkkyqYQAz
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許墨沉默地翻閱著研究報告,指尖輕敲著桌面,視線落在螢幕上,卻沒有真正讀進任何數據。62Please respect copyright.PENANAiPw0KBEn3l
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那天,他聽到外頭的助理們在閒聊:「蘇教授那邊來了個新研究員,聽說是蘇教授的學妹?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6ncvtNr7A
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「是嗎?我今天好像也看到她了……感覺有點眼熟?」62Please respect copyright.PENANA9UDmw4XplB
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「不只眼熟吧?之前蘇教授提過,她原本就是這裡的人,只是後來離開了。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAIAOmqSw5xA
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「是嗎?那怎麼又回來了?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAeo6JlrnRZy
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他聽著這些對話,沒有出聲,卻在某個瞬間停下了手中的筆。62Please respect copyright.PENANAapOcLFRf6k
他的思緒短暫停滯了一秒,然後,將手邊的資料闔上,淡淡地吩咐:「今天的研究報告,稍後再整理送來。」62Please respect copyright.PENANA5Trdvfnw59
——是她嗎?她回來了?62Please respect copyright.PENANAXoBnckgokK
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那天,辦公室的門被推開的時候,許墨沒有抬頭。62Please respect copyright.PENANATT4kcceJfv
直到她開口。62Please respect copyright.PENANAD1A8wvevYL
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「許教授……還是要叫許墨呢?」62Please respect copyright.PENANABzln2XSano
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他的手指微微一頓,終於抬起眼,看向門口的人。62Please respect copyright.PENANA0jGBtCU9re
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她站在那裡,目光平靜,嘴角帶著一抹若有似無的笑意。62Please respect copyright.PENANA3bsFAykZdH
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與以前不同,現在的她,少了幾分迷惘,多了某種篤定的氣質。62Please respect copyright.PENANAQllbNAuT81
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許墨沉默了一瞬,然後,微微一笑,聲音低而溫和——62Please respect copyright.PENANAvAR5B2H8Rc
「都行,妳決定就可以。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAKeW432NeSQ
「但如果可以的話……」他微微頓了一下,目光落在她身上,語氣輕柔,「喊我許墨吧。」62Please respect copyright.PENANANg3bcVwDk9
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聽到這話,她笑了。62Please respect copyright.PENANAVKreYCIF3f
「好久不見,許墨。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAKIAPIqkK7Z
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這一刻,他明白。62Please respect copyright.PENANAHm2xGbTeTh
她的回歸是為了她自己。62Please respect copyright.PENANApa4t96FCOT
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但沒關係,他會等。