Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkYaroCBkA
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBth4421Ux
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡot70UYV8rb
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KbGlsisPJ
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01eW20Jt77
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkooCQwmby
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYpZU6NmP9
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9MsJkWl3K
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2IoBGetgS
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Jku0tuX1Y
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuowVEvSxd1
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMsRiibxj4I
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmMDB2Tpie
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTEN05o8Zr
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NBeXFHxeV
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKrLR6UVcky
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4D3telbr4j
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdZeL3Q5r6
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvKEMC4brV
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFe2WqCBxY7
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsArEKEv3r
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQBRuzehBo
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1M47I80KzM
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uynQGEFnN
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBudkBO65aL
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0zVLKAo3F
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71wYfcUxim
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FWPXKzHpf
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"It won't be painful—"896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcvkFuHhHX
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YSMDc7Urb
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7mASt8BgD
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFMGYwGYtFh
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmI0Twcxt5L
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNt4fOEl0Cn
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbejind4Mt
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkVt3ENACj
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjb9AlnQRz
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This is it.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMDMQhfgAf
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBgSTZn11S
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKc91G6gSWX
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBfBoTn4ke
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxCrWniyDa
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I freeze.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9kwJrs6Dt
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Then I breathe.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkSsjElr9f
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9wH7UGkEG
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiKWEPElw2
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuLwu3sJkt
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8aSEkKjwx
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzqjNh2Ibk
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Something isn't right.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLblGOifgj
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2k6JBTH38g
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfgrUtS50z
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8WKJby7zI
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6HydY6hH6
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLGBZExEbQ
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His lips twitch. 896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6PiniFWY0
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35jdCp3lMl
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50EtSmOveT
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"Okay so what do I have?"896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhBtrj4VaG
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."896Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mPKAgGjei
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