Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3x3nyjZxb
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rQm8Tf4gh
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7x1b33bbn
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnn2yEPKmNc
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBACx4zqcA
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rrLCoVJ3g
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBN4Z4oGreW
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkymKc5dY0L
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5pwOwLdAc
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmn97NnqOe
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlvVzQqTGp
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88lgahcQ3P
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7QNXcDITX
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4LWQlLbZP
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1YlZOtCoF
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbSQ8m7VfVd
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMwlwvJ3mW
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH4vzU4VVu
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVfFizjRXq
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGvcGl3NQI
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJoaW2xcTu
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49xRLTxXO6
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRXyjgCY0Z
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47Ml8JnEXn
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1fPcesG90C
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2ykPcALlE
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXqhAadihc
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN32Atq3HWx
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"It won't be painful—"793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2q1uJaJVyE
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoUTNvVLAbr
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B7PNPf0ZM
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ibjxfg0SK
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCiVGSIIG2
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHggjYPpZJ
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcqpvpMh6K
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC3ytDrEThE
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbBVKWkSRH
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This is it.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlqTqx7mLr
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFDHe4oBS7
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqH86NNAsFl
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡes5SydkDnX
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfW927ulgu
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I freeze.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PIHFzuFiR
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Then I breathe.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLk11saguu
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvxMgVijEj
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gkk9jUghx
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbYSNEpQb9
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJHSUAsSpc
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUSW81vFmKC
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Something isn't right.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIXeqlYv2N
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1rjCSGNHG
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkeoLUGC8g
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75FCCmUwBd
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqF8ZYbfvn
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgnGYKpvsM
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His lips twitch. 793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3m4yUmLuL
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PpUbPvtne
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBJm3iwT36
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"Okay so what do I have?"793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13gDkavoJI
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."793Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzpv5lb25t
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