Doctors' offices have always made me immensely uncomfortable. You never get through immediately; there's always a fifteen minute and up waiting period.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbs4qDPIbCQ
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In that amount of time, someone as imaginative as myself can think a vast number of ways in which something could be severely wrong with me, because you're never at the doctor if you're alright.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1WP776Ato
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Today, however, I'm at the doctor's office and I'm almost sure that there's nothing physically wrong with me.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhcUoBsPgYC
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It's what's inside of me that's the problem.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGc7UYXgkj
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You see, I made the brilliant decision to have unprotected sex, which has landed me here, in a doctor's office, wanting to "make sure" that I'm actually pregnant, as if three positive pregnancy tests aren't proof enough. 1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8RRmgKJVG
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Despite the knowledge that it is highly unlikely that I am not pregnant, I still hope; and with that hope comes nervousness.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83yh3xwU1J
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My palms are clammy and I'm constantly alternating between bouncing my knees and tapping my feet against the tiled floor. The receptionist is looking at me with a concerned expression, as if expecting me to have a full blown panic attack, and to be honest, I'm somewhere pretty near to that.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCkbMJlQUR2
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In an attempt to calm myself, I pull out my phone and play Candy Crush. It doesn't help. 1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0dsBL0ObM
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I plug in my earphones and try to listen to some music, but after two minutes, I realise that I don't even know what the hell I'm listening to; it could be classical music, or rap music. I wouldn't know.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6oJg6NsVu
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I rip out the earbuds in frustration, and lean back in my chair, closing my eyes.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc7LeHCzF0
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"Miss, would you like some water?" the receptionist asks, startling me.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzCO9QE2nT
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In my fit of irritation, I forgot that she was there.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHROUedX3Ym
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"Yes, thank you," I reply in what I hope is a calm voice, but even to my own ears, it sounds harsh.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcxgpA0GnY
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She dips below the desk and comes back up with a small unopened bottle of water.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOSRNr1qyF
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"Thank you," I say to her, as she passes me the bottle.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzcnDyMIiQ
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"You're welcome," is her reply. She looks as if she wants to say more, but she's cut off by the ringing of her phone.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlojNItn7NS
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She picks it up, and has the briefest of conversations, before saying, "Dr.Davidson is ready to see you now.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DNntEeD42
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I'm shaking like a colt trying to walk for the first time.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlO5RVyLCr1
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"Sit," the doctor insists, pretending not to notice my nervousness.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8vc7qZKBd
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"So, tell me exactly what's going on," he says, looking me in the face.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLhLa746eQ
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"I fucked without a condom, and now I think I'm pregnant."1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCusMvzr0PD
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"Okay," he replies, completely unfazed by my bluntness. "Lets find out," he says, sounding like Dora the Explorer.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshOrq7QPnP
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And for some reason, on some level, I don't want to explore this, because it feels as if not investing it will make the problem sublime and diffuse, but I know it won't.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfktcQlBlaR
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"Put this on, and change," the doctor tells me, handing me the gown that patients use to cover themselves.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWvEbqMmlC
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He does an overall examination before the test, but to be honest, I'm not there; I tell him "no" when he asks if I'm experiencing pain during the breast and pelvic examinations, but apart from that, I'm gone.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMCBkLmkSV
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"Okay. It's too early to see the baby doing an external ultrasound, so I'm going to have to do a trans-vaginal ultrasound."1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK3Y4e5qaG
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All I hear is the word "ultrasound"; my heart beat skyrockets.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc54IYt59Id
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He must be misreading my expression, because he suddenly try's to reassure me.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rECGCahrn
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"It won't be painful—"1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BmwOkR95x
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"That's not it. I don't want a baby,"1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLqdBVbzgg
I reply, and god does it feel good to finally say those words out loud to someone.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNw1Z0tuILN
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I've thought them many times, but there's this sense of release that comes with saying it out loud, like taking a shit after holding it in for an entire day (if you're one of those people who finds shitting in public to be absolutely terrifying, such as yours truly).1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2L2QwOOtue
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He gives me a sympathetic look, but says nothing, and for that I'm grateful.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxb3UNPobT
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What would he say? 'It's okay'? 'You'll be a great mother'? 1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NppJk694k
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I hate it when people know absolutely nothing about you, but suddenly become your personal counsellor once they hear a sentence of your life. If I were the kind of person to divulge my personal information and feelings, then maybe, I'd take their advice, but since you they nothing about me, it's just annoying.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykQOi8pBr2
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He's talking to me now, preparing for the ultrasound and telling me what will happen, but I can't concentrate on what he's saying.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5YgY1gLflA
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However, as I feel the cold probe enter me, it feels so... final. Like the final nail to my coffin.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OJz79Pe1Q
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This is it.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCitaQ7V9T
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He turns off the light so that he can see the image on the ultrasound screen, and that screen is now the only major source of light in the room, begging to be looked at, but I can't do it.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqEgCg5szjr
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"Well..." Dr. Davidson says, sounding surprised, but not in a good way.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDw9sUGuGXU
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I start to shake, trembling so hard that the paper covering the cot on which I am laying begins to rattle loudly.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwT0HoUjdQ2
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"Miss Quinn, the good news is, you're not pregnant", he says.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbW6i8ysDu
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I freeze.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FJ1oiBP80
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Then I breathe.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0dfmc5O3G
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I let out a loud breath of relief, as relief is my automatic response to hearing something like that in a situation like this.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFq449b1MMv
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However, as soon as that breath is released, I 1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPnuCaYs43
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1) remember that Dr. Davidson seems unpleasantly surprised, 1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEdhv18XkM6
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2) realise that he said "the good news is"; that means that there's bad news, too, and1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe50YxI8nS
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3)realise that he is still inspecting my insides with the probe, frowning at the screen.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVL9GGPJSn
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Something isn't right.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYSJKxNdLb
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"Dr. Davidson, what's wrong?" I ask, sounding like a nervous wreck all over again.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGdY8VGnS5
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He continues to look at the screen, and I can see that he knows exactly what is wrong with me; it's just one of those moments in which you try to figure out how to phrase something in the best way possible so as to lessen the blow.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmgQT0Vs2xf
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He sighs, and pulls the probe out, then switches off the machine.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjHbshEELk
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"Your condition is in no way life-threatening, Miss Quinn," he states, it might just cause complications in the future."1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb49Wuiob0f
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"Do you mind telling me what my condition is, before I shit myself?" I snarl as he turns on the light and hands me a wad of tissue paper.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AXVEXUapA
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His lips twitch. 1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrERGadOJk
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"You've been nothing but nervous since you stepped into my office. I said that so that you wouldn't shit yourself."1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ445la1OW4e
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Through my nervousness I have to smile at him.1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXp2WtqhKmV
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"Okay so what do I have?"1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEDwjX92Fz
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"Miss Quinn, you have fibroids."1269Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm4Y8ohHYX
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and then Add to home screen.