Let's stop playing games

Watching as it goes up in flames

You standing there

I'm over here

Our eyes connect

In yours I see a speck

Of something so unknown

Something as heavy as stone

Our life filled with photo frames

And other people's names

Each of us has our own

But it's your heart that I want to know

Her hand in yours

His hand around my waist

My heart is making a tour

Entering that dangerous space

Between right and wrong

The two of us known eachother for so long

Tell me how can this be

Why didn't your heart choose me

All those years ago when both us were single

Why didn't the spark between us lit a flame

A sort of kindle

My heart should have known your name

What if we tell them goodbye 

I don't want to lie

Not to myself and not to him, but it's you I want

In my slumber it's your name I chant

How did it get this far

My head and heart is in the middle of a war

Like a wildfire burning a path

Thinking about doing something that I shouldn't have

Do we burn the lives we built to ashes

Seeing the flashes

Of the memories of me and him, you and her,

We could never go there

Breaking the eye contact

My heart just barely intact

I don't want to go closer to you

Afraid of what we would do

Just wanting to touch you once, feeling your lips on mine

Shaking the thoughts out of my head, it's a damn crime

To be an arsonist and light our lives on fire

We simply need to push these feelings down and retire

I can't just sit and watch it burn

So I will return

To holding him, while you kiss her

Watching this event occur 

There will be no burning flames

As we stay with the people in our photo frames.

-Denesca van Eck

-21 January 2025

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