34 嘴唇24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SoOb5UIDo
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　　她又怎麼會不知道。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWLr7WPLMy
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHc7AaWUg2
　　或許她無法完全肯定，但她不可能沒有察覺。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpRDH0Qcvf
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22e7DXADKv
　　殷詠弦看著她的眼神，殷詠弦抱著她的力道。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjafE8oiEwu
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1X20ckDHA
　　她只是盼望，這不是唯一的解答。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWPyUTj64G
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　　啪嚓。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDC6dlWqW56
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVg0W9oyBqn
　　從機場回到市區的鐵路列車上，許愛悠本靠在玻璃窗上沉思，她聽見身旁的雜音，轉頭一望，卻見阿北拆開了白之戀人的包裝，撕開獨立包裝的餅乾咬起來。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayKyrFkFHJ
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LHkSJ8Lh9
　　「喂，」許愛悠說著「我無話包白之戀人係你嫁喎。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAWO2ctBQ5
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPPQ1OTU8Y
　　阿北咬了一口帶著濃甜白朱古力的夾心餅乾：「乜唔係咩？咁俾我份手信到底係咩呀？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYm2nFDVYQ
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotVMSW0MOX
　　「你食咗我包白之戀人，賠番俾我呀。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIdWgkri2x
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76CSeDjBOs
　　「講真幾好食喎，妳要唔要食一甩？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwntbOZLifr
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctiobiXX2B
　　阿北又拆開一份獨立包裝的夾心餅，遞到許愛悠嘴前。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGZk6iiQuX
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwFnb6js7j
　　許愛悠仍然靠在玻璃窗上，無力地笑了一聲：「你依包應該叫『白痴戀人』。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBEp4WMvl8M
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XmC8JhJ0q
　　阿北揚起眼眉：「嘩……咁爛嘅 gag 妳都講，證明真係有事發生。殷詠弦到底同妳……發生過咩事。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByF3VLVe2V
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHo0uei06rW
　　許愛悠剎那明白到，原來阿北這一連串無意義的舉動和對話，都是繞了一個大圈引導到這個問題。她坐直身子，握起阿北的手掌，咬了一口他手中握住的夾心餅。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKQMcyjINKK
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGdhEDDJDt
　　「小弦係我係依間學校入面，最好最好嘅朋友。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmKRlz1b75
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3iHjz3tlh
　　許愛悠這麼說著，阿北卻道：「妳確定係佢眼中，妳只係『朋友』？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnRavP5p8f
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8guB21mTDj
　　許愛悠稍低著頭，繼續握住阿北掌頭，咬著他手中的白之戀人：「你應該知道……我一直都好多人追，係所謂『女神』。我先唔講小弦，但前幾年，特別係我同林之年拍拖之前，耐唔耐就有人同我表白，話鍾意我……你可以話依個係借口，但我真係無可能每識一個人，同每一個人做朋友，都要顧及佢地係咪純粹當我係『朋友』。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0SCnlSxFL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRE98xmMaO
　　阿北看著許愛悠像貓一樣咬著他舉著的餅乾：「但妳依家個樣好苦惱。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosTyMamaTW
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshXcFhwPol
　　許愛悠抬起眼看著阿北，抿了抿嘴唇：「咁係因為……我一直以嚟，都拜托小弦幫我做咗好多野，我好希望依一切都係『朋友』之間嘅幫忙，即使佢唔認同咩校規修訂都好，我唔希望……唉……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEBtHVcR8N
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzXcy676nb
　　許愛悠大概把夾心餅吃了一半，又推開阿北的手沒有吃下去，阿北只好把剩下的一半自己吃掉。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzgbAHSpS7k
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZVy2mzDLf
　　「我可唔可以問另一個問題，唔關殷詠弦事。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwFHdimtQf
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnutbWmHXw
　　「嗯？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXr54eMvpgn
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHZRkYTtLJg
　　「何子晉妳諗住點善後？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28yqChq2jn
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW23WQyqAJF
　　許愛悠沉起眼睛，瞪了一眼阿北，但她又垂下無力的肩膀，知道阿北提問背後的道理。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFjUSqlTEL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRskkUlfsuz
　　殷詠弦或何子晉，這兩人之間與她許愛悠的連繫是同性質的，即使她一直不想承認殷詠弦那一部份。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR88rvP2pgX
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosGkn5suow
　　列車窗外的景色呼嘯流逝，許愛悠卻遲遲沒有回答，然後才說：24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5mjmJoFeV
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR8m3F9EXZ
　　「或者……我真係應該係時候，要放棄校規修訂，咁樣就唔會有咁多事會發生，唔洗有咁多野要面對。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9xHIghuqg
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKRyIBd3Zq
　　阿北笑了笑說：「係？咁淨低下半年，妳打算做咩呀？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FgU1KjuzL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTApzLcaLx
　　「咪跳下舞呀，溫下書呀，或者……陪你打下橋牌囉，好無？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0irDqYicNI
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TSQL3lGUZ
　　「我地個橋牌學會岩岩先俾人收咗檔喎。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpWOmXnpcf
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WjsLcMaE5
　　「咁調返轉囉，你嚟跟我學跳舞。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq1VPFqlZ9y
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdwsBrGzTH
　　「都好喎，妳 dancing 果邊都好多靚女，我可以享受下好似阿強咁。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzjDpPdSds
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdukPrrk0RQ
　　「你得唔得嫁，上次聖誕晚會叫你陪我跳咗半晚，跳到好似要 call 白車咁款。我一條囡你都搞唔掂啦，仲要幾條囡？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVg0gVABT3
　24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7fgbINz4N
　　許愛悠擺出囂張的反詰，阿北看著她滿盈如常的笑意，兩人終於相視而笑。許愛悠呼了口氣，把額頭垂下靠在阿北的肩上。阿北輕撫她的肩頭說：24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjG6IDvIqhd
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLAt1v1xO4
　　「咁點呀，妳又搞唔搞得掂呀？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qtgzDIqIm
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAU7CxvkSGH
　　許愛悠閉起雙眼，然後發出了繃緊的呼號：「丫啊────────！！！」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KuploMhxK
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvuxjK1FNM
　　阿北感到許愛悠溫熱的額頭壓在他的肩上，他回想她在上學期時遇過的各種困局，也沒有過這份沉重。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqoG1oVLvFP
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9xdgkietO
　　他終於知道這世上也有許愛悠不願直接面對的難題。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTE47x4iRTW
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehsdTsS3ei
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCpcHdR6o7
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24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ViVheqMJ4
　　范震升站在學校外的廢棄空地，面前是問校工借來的鐵盆，裡面焚燒著各種古書。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBI1v0HHl39
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpg8BCiS657
　　火舌席卷著老舊的硬皮，霉黃的紙張在燃燒下之變成濃重的灰燼，在寒冬中拚發出微弱的碎裂音。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KDYE4yoUW
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFFSHiwOH0
　　程芳靈按范震升的挑選，將更多古書搬到旁邊放下來。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13c87XD8iz
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVs8qUQzS9i
　　「會長……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSs60H9Nun
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8vJR4gU3Z
　　「我都已經唔係會長，妳可以唔洗咁叫我。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLFBqlY7VFA
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjnl06N65j
　　程芳靈戴著厚重的近視眼鏡，她知道那不足以掩蓋她面上的漲紅。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvgByfXfo3t
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHhgIOHx2g
　　「咁、咁我……應該、點叫你……」程芳靈說。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4lY5Hjbl2I
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgM4CKGX10E
　　范震升執起鐵叉，撩動著鐵盆中的飛焰。他說：24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMslcZxREF
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvO15f6PGjF
　　「Verba volant, scripta manent. (拉丁文：口說必逝，文字留存）。妳鍾意點叫，就點叫。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡccLzccfZiy
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFOmrLqg8S
　　「知道，會長……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZQYEJ5ei4
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSbWtzM9yXe
　　程芳靈點頭說。她仍然覺得這一切不可思議，她仍然記得過去胡言亂語的范震升，那只能靠她與外界溝通的范震升。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepwL7bDTBp
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL0h17KoRE
　　但她從來沒有問為什麼，就那像聖誕晚會那天，她收到一套白色的長裙，要她在晚會前換上，然後在社團室中等待。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVdrwQi18za
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQDWxgxAso
　　她亦沒有問過范震升這一切原委及細節，為什麼他要偽裝為瘋子，為什麼他卻又選擇重新恢復為常人。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwQcnecwWv
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRauWu0KVv
　　──只要我們想要的生活仍能過下去，這都不重要？是吧。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWJVWCd7Ag
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KvpHseaDP
　　程芳靈將一本古書拾起來，察看封面之後，略帶著遲疑地放進火盆裡。范震升注意到她的眼神：24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKuHEYZk2W
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdB5N9iJ6K
　　「做咩呀，唔洗覺得可惜。我揀嚟燒嘅書，都係我地已經有曬PDF，而且……妳應該都知道，一般古書其實唔多珍貴，亦唔值錢。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMeJu7KwMiL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIXBuFe2Y5
　　程芳靈頷首點頭，小手將書本投進火裡，又趕快縮回手來：「我明白，不過……始終……有啲可惜……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLS3NDoRamm
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbWInq8Py3F
　　范震升在聖誕晚會過後，便主動申請解散歐研，不但不再是十二大社團，更連一般社團也不是。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJuBVtmXEL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9Lqvv8fJQ
　　那麼他自然就要歸還社團室予學生會，房間中的大量古書也需要找地方安放。范震升決定只要保留最重要最珍貴的一小部份，其他捐增予圖書館，圖書館也無意要接收的，就直接付之一炬。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hs5G7nZor
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMPgHaPK7p
　　程芳靈絕對明白，這些古代文獻能夠流入他們手中的，即使有上百年歷史，但隨時也有上千、上萬個印本，如非與歷史人物有關係的，少一本也不會對人類文明造成任何損失。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxs6qWwSAGe
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWxW1ZJGOl
　　只是，當她看著火盆中的飛焰吞噬捲動的書頁，看著那些如石刻般的墨水印刷文字化作飛灰，她仍然惦記著兩人在社團室中歲月靜好的日子。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KX91rZyng
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY83qO9R4Vg
　　范震升將手放程芳靈肩上，她肩頭一抖被嚇了一跳。范震升說：24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVKP8uAXFA
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmo9ehg8fU
　　「社團室只係一間房，我地嘅工作仍然可以繼續。至少……我地依家唔再係社團，唔再有咩動議權、唔洗再捲入學生會或者許愛悠嘅事件入面。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmApO5V9Qf
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDysVMPem8
　　程芳靈轉身過來，她望向范震升那修長的五指，她試著輕輕握起他的手，沒有放開。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvDUX7IITJ
　　24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0wghczEIh
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsS2BEHTBX
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24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMT64kVXMTu
　　「真係唔洗我陪妳去？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3e24OoDHP
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNePmlmMLRi
　　阿北與許愛悠來到城中的轉車站，許愛悠領回阿北一直提著的兩大袋手信。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRVR6cR9PY
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGjxxC7wcK
　　「唔洗啦，」許愛悠擺出笑容說「我識咗小弦咁耐，佢又唔會對我點嘅。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGu4m6peyL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIilqJyVhWm
　　兩人從機場坐鐵路回到城裡後，許愛悠決定先將手信搬回家中，然後再去學校旁邊的小教堂裡去找殷詠弦。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinP11zzbKz
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOAS8P1Ku0w
　　阿北與許愛悠居住在不同區份，便送她來到轉車站。眼前仍然是晝短的冬日，蜜色的陽光像在許愛悠的毛衣上披了一層明亮的雪。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjUFatTYixh
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8MTcL5BRlo
　　「我仲諗住去妳屋企參觀下添。」阿北道。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9inFjsESf
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLrg7gIFe1
　　「咦，」許愛悠打趣說「睇嚟你真係對我阿媽好有興趣喎！」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0YME4hZTP
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlDKpNxfaaT
　　「……妳落雨唔好出街，遲早行雷劈死妳個不孝囡。」阿北碎碎諗道。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWPhPbQyga
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDUUxyYxnH
　　「哈哈，聽日都開學啦，」許愛悠說「我屋企離學校仲近啲添，你鍾意嘅叫埋強強呀、芳靈呀，或者雪蕾BB佢唔厭棄嘅，咪上嚟坐下囉。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxqr4GUmWz
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpaa2n1U7e
　　阿北也知道殷詠弦的事情，必須要許愛悠親自去處理。他便說：「咁好啦，聽日見。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBKbKHNl2z5
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKgfIsmgShW
　　「啊，」許愛悠像突然想起來「俾你嫁。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDILWLHXOD
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlTNHhjIUov
　　許愛悠放下兩袋手信，沒有從那一堆雜七雜八的手信中翻找，而是將手伸進她的毛衣外套內袋中，再取出來。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6htn8tgW8
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgOKfkNNL1
　　阿北看見她的手心上，有一道深銅色手鏈，連帶著一把老舊生鏽的鐵色古典鑰匙。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHn0tjtV8JP
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQufgJ2VngH
　　手鏈很幼細，鑰匙則是尋常大小，看來只是一般的手飾。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAMuDkaf6Z
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiz7OaUNscs
　　「吓……」阿北不免失笑「依個就妳俾我嘅北海道手信？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypf4TAVw6f
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEUIzdZzP7e
　　阿北曾想象過，許愛悠會給他食物、蛋糕、啤酒、護身符又甚至是實體版AV，卻沒想到最後竟然是一把老舊的鑰匙。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPwQm5Ca7d
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJFvLbqI2L
　　「係呀，」許愛悠板起臉瞪著雙眼「咁你係咪唔要丫！我係函館嘅古著店見到，專登配埋條手鏈俾你嫁！」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0oZKNSmMX
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wIdOJOphL
　　「唔係、唔係咁嘅意思……」阿北連忙說，然後從她手心檢起那把附著手鏈的鑰匙「多謝妳啦，我一定會好好戴住佢，希望唔會俾訓導主任周到。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyN5m27SCth
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FNHn9kTUn
　　許愛悠「哼」了一聲，看車快到了，她便提起兩袋手信，準備排隊上車，又微笑說：「都多謝你嚟接我機啦，知你個死仔唔鍾意出街。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYeT095Yfm
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwkr48WqynH
　　「係嫁，」阿北說「我咪成日都話，我最希望就係冬天乜都唔做係屋企睇電視，夠鐘就食飯。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3tKgBwmmI
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqWH7fysS8U
　　許愛悠聽過不止一次阿北的這個「夢想」，她應道：「我唔識煮野食嫁喎。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuc7wzZy44
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFuaSZ50Ek
　　「我都唔識。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVNb2NZdMjz
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUtENmyzWk
　　「咁點算呀？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIqTPytomS
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPV0m3jqzvH
　　「我唔知呀，」阿北聳肩道：「到時再算啦。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfF3TqtQt9J
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUwUGPMa0n
　　許愛悠嬌笑著沒有回答，走上車門。阿北看她往內裡的座位走去。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡho0Y7K4v48
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaLsmtqOSv
　　「愛悠！」阿北在車外，無理由地喊了一句「聽日見喇！」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGVETCE7j2
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKy5Sp7pgS8
　　許愛悠回頭朗聲道：「咪講咗啦！又講？好呀！聽日見啦！」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTeQavQ1w4
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2OGrj1i6V
　　阿北在巴士站內，望向許愛悠走到坐位上坐下來。車窗折射的斜陽下，他好像看見她低垂著臉，收起她剛才那嬉玩的笑意，陷入無盡的思緒裡，在公路上遠去直至消失在遠處，消失在阿北的眼前。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds8CkVR42W
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3eIw9olHg1
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　　──妳會唔會幫我祈禱呀，小弦。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOStVO6qg36
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNZFQPHtG0
　　許愛悠孤身走在陰冷的林間，快日落了，天色由金黃轉為蒼藍，她帶著散光的雙眼稍看不清通往教堂的林間小道，兩旁的植披像被潛藏魔物與禁忌的森林。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdh9bttb4LU
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27boYMKdpM
　　許愛悠清楚記得是二年級那年認識殷詠弦，她是位有點體弱但很真誠的朋友。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsd44YMmbPY
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CVzUi10Vc
　　許愛悠早就感覺殷詠弦對自己格外關懷的視線，可是她不論生理或心理上，也絲毫沒有那界線外的共嗚。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhp5gSBnMC7
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ09fph5kRjB
　　她記得殷詠弦是在二年級的下學期開始信教，學生信教一點也不稀奇，但殷詠弦卻異常地虔誠。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnz3dEwk4u
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwXJMWeKGJw
　　班上的同學開始戲稱她為修女，許愛悠作為她最親密的朋友，也感受到殷詠弦對於宗教與神明的投入。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvTkzgZHBn
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ48OGvCk3W7
　　可是，她曾經有過一種難言的直覺，偶爾她聽見殷詠弦一個人在教室角落輕聲誦禱，那都像是一種自我懲罰，一份苦行。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGFzBN0wNL
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFKgdM7Fyk
　　然而隨著殷詠弦信教的時間愈長，許愛悠卻覺得她看自己的眼神愈是濃烈。她一直要自己處之泰然，就像那些突然如來向她告白的男生，就像那些無來由地妒忌她的女生，但她亦知道，即使是她，許愛悠，也無法完全在人的愛慾憎惡之間找到最恰當的解答。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fsGg1JMxF
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hmSprh8Vn
　　她只知道，殷詠弦是她的朋友，這一點由始至終，直到永遠也不會改變。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcGXapiyOR
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0BSVbbgmR
　　許愛悠推開教堂的門，幽暗的堂內點著燭火，充滿油蠟與壇木的味道。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnPx9sQDl6Z
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfnYjybufG
　　她看見一個孤瘦的身影，穿著修女袍，跪在聖壇前低頭禱告。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvEqH6P1u1
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　　「小弦。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡriHaGvtybH
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GqDyjl0Pa
　　許愛悠走到她的身後，嘗試用平靜的語氣說。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZka6RpmAu
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHiL9DmPaL
　　當然殷詠弦轉頭站起來身，許愛悠卻一下子要抑壓住流淚的衝重。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvLyx8mM5hs
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4B3i52H6d
　　殷詠弦兩頰消瘦，眼窩灰黑，虛弱的眼裡佈滿紅絲。她顫顫巍巍地走到許愛悠面前：「小悠……妳終於嚟啦。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY5lBA03e99
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpru4f3DyU
　　許愛悠皺著彊硬的眼眉，扶起殷泳弦的雙臂：「小弦，妳做乜野？點解、點解妳瘦咗咁多，點解、妳無食野？啊……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdl4YsxPQcK
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxCUiahpoJj
　　殷詠弦張開雙臂，緊緊地抱住許愛悠。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrL7wg6XYUB
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyDYdNIzPp
　　許愛悠抽著鼻頭，壓止眼眶的淚水。她驟然明白到，原來殷詠弦一直以來，就等著可以這樣坦白、如實地擁抱她的身體。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenSrRMCDQ1
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmrZMEmdhpv
　　「我好難過，小悠……我已發咗初願，我已經決定要終身待奉上主，但係無辦法……小悠，妳一直係我心入面、妳仍然係我心入面。我始終無辦法完全放低妳……小悠、我唔知可以點做……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYol4zo5No7
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJUSB3iALwh
　　殷詠弦雙腿突然軟垂，許愛悠也連忙抱著她那單薄的身驅，在冰冷的教堂石地版上跪下。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡna5zbB5Pyr
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQqL4AbQ99
　　「小弦，」許愛悠艱難地吸了一口氣「妳對我、啊、妳一直對我好好……真係好好……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajgtNpYzhG
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIK7fc9xgBE
　　殷詠弦挽起微笑，撫起許愛悠的臉，眼裡終於綻放出一絲的欣喜：「小悠，由我見到妳開始，由妳坐係我面前開始，我就從來就放唔底妳。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgteKUWCJo
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3BarIAy72
　　「我知……但係妳首先、妳聽我講，妳唔好咁樣先。妳先好好照顧自己身體、仲有……」許愛悠強忍著淚水說。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMZQOnnzQY
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPbRlNT9rp
　　「如果妳係知嘅話，」殷詠弦捉緊許愛悠的手臂「點解、點解妳一直都唔回應，點解妳唔話俾我知，妳心入面係點諗……？」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENLknNKCS2
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZjUqc1D3z
　　許愛悠又搖了搖頭：「我、我……對唔住，我真係無辦法。小弦，好對唔住……我無辦法、成為同妳一樣嘅人……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvuymcwgNh
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqD3bV9iuR
　　殷詠弦流下了淚。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRMJNhj4SOz
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZVREnTV05
　　她用盡各種方法去抵抗、去無視、去抑壓、去解脫她內心對許愛悠的眷戀，就因為她知道會有這一刻。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulYufbLm4Y
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpgv1vqsh2
　　即使她如何投入地去敬愛上帝，始終無法取代她對許愛悠的愛，始終無法找到另一種更美滿的情感。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dwjrlYbmu
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvFEmjBdDr
　　殷詠弦的淚水湧流不絕，跪著的她像把許愛悠當成懺悔的對象：「我明白，小悠，我一直都明白……妳同我唔係同一種人。但係，聖誕晚會果陣，當我見到妳同阿北跳舞，妳面上嘅幸福。我就知道，我係時候要離開妳，我發初願，我成為修女……我只係唔想再需要妳、唔想再諗住妳……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE4G2D7Pjd
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHjuVFWa4w6
　　許愛悠終於收不住眼角的淚水，她握住殷詠弦的肩頭，哽咽著說：「對唔住，小弦。我唔知有咩可以做到，有咩可以講到。但係，小弦，妳點都好，一直會係我嘅朋友──」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDyBrsvfoR
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEN4YFnpVTx
　　「朋友？」殷詠弦卻痛苦地苦笑說「妳明知我幾咁愛妳，妳都仍只能當我係朋友。許愛悠，妳唔覺得咁樣好殘忍咩……？我點解，點解一定要愛妳？我點解唔可以同妳一樣，只當妳係朋友……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8re6iCnnj
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqvSACAVEj
　　殷詠弦淚如雨下，許愛悠無計可施抹起她面上的淚，掌中的體溫隨著她那源源不絕的淚而流逝。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0CPU9FMea0
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBNSsG5HLQ
　　「我真係唔知、」許愛悠垂著眼淚說「我真係唔知我會令妳咁痛苦。如果妳早啲話我知嘅話、我、我……小弦，如果妳覺得係我錯嘅，我向妳認錯……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKusFNYmKI
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMWGcUnJlZe
　　殷詠弦卻無助地搖頭說：「小悠，有時候我甚至無辦法完全唔去憎妳，甚至無辦法唔去憎我自己。咁多年啦，由妳同林之年拍拖，再到妳同阿北跳舞果陣。我唯一可以做嘅，只有憎恨。但我真係好愛妳，妳每日每夜，都係我心入面……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDu8XYyvib
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLmSKjA4pwO
　　許愛悠捧著殷詠弦那淚流不止的臉，她人生第一次感受到如此空洞的衰傷。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaOrJmw3mXv
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbVJLMnNf8
　　「如果小弦妳討厭我……會令到妳自己好過啲，咁樣、咁樣……」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3OIptHJp3
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1x6jUt984
　　許愛悠說不下去，因為殷詠弦又再突然抱住她的身體。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWj7iUfUePz
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIiwEK15Pv
　　「唔會嫁，小悠。無論如何，我點都一定會愛妳。妳係我第一個愛上，真心鍾意嘅人。由此至終，我都只希望可以同妳一齊，只有希望妳都可以一樣愛我，就算只有一秒、一分鐘都好……小悠，妳可唔可以闔埋雙眼，就俾少少時間我。」24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJKn2ohlzN
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi432C2f1Qw
　　殷詠弦的雙眼映照著焚燒的燭火，用瘦弱的手抹起許愛悠臉頰的淚痕。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjzBXzVzxh
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg2O6KVBnrS
　　許愛悠在殷詠弦那骷骨般空空如也的雙眼裡只看見灼痛的慾望，她知道接下來會發生什麼，但還是點了點頭。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu604UXt0ro
24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeMfb3JmbJ
　　許愛悠閉上雙眼，然後，她感到殷詠弦帶著淚水的嘴唇吻著她。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdy1hgFbY1
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　　那天晚上，阿北沒有看電視。 24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ85aJEqRpaV
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　　他不時窺看手機，卻始終沒有收到許愛悠的來訊或來電。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8Adjc1hzK
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　　他想過主動去詢問許愛悠，可是他又想到那與殷弦詠有關，那是否該等許愛悠先主動跟他說。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5CYe3GpDU
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　　阿北知道許愛悠是靠著與殷弦詠的關係，才得以掌控真理研究社。有一兩次阿北也見過殷弦詠，可是她只穿著那灰白色的修道服一聲不響，安安靜靜地坐在一邊。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6yNOa4xR7
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　　直到今天，他才終於體會到，殷弦詠那總是專注凝望許愛悠的眼神。　　24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvma4th8Xx
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　　阿北躺在床上，明天就是下學期的開學日，他打開許愛悠的對話框，但許愛悠卻仍然不在線上。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDv5jwSbEw7
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　　他放下手機，轉又想起橋牌學會被剝奪十二大社團的席位。對他來說，社團室從只是額外的福利，是在林強的慫恿下，他才會去申請認證甚至成為會長，如果這一切打回原形，對他來說其實也無礙，反正就剩半個學年，就要畢業了。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlk4wxswQTI
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　　他也從程芳靈那邊得悉歐研決議解散，她也沒有仔細解釋，但似乎是范震升想遠離學校的各種爭端。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzqeXeL7dT
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　　莊繞盈也終於獲得了認證及社團室，這麼一來，他與她的立場反而逆轉了，是她成為十二大社團的負責人。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbme5Sv2VD
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　　是他多慮了嗎？新學年還未開始，卻有一種隱藏在遙遠雲層後的風起雲湧。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKawz4BNzn
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　　阿北再看了一眼手機，仍然沒有許愛悠的訊息，如果事情是解決了，她一定會先傳簡訊過來。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx48f1vReQ
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　　他拿起許愛悠給他的老鑰匙手鏈，扣在手腕上，那冰冷生繡的質感像結冰的鎖。24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3J7CwOUmT8
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　　他闔下眼，只是希望，明天早上醒來，會收到許愛悠說「無野嚕」「無事啦」的簡訊。 24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbH45DqKmOZ
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　　而恍惚有夢的一覺之後，他的確收到了簡訊。 24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsGERqmFFY
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　　但不是來自許愛悠的簡訊，而是眾多有關許愛悠的簡訊。 24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhUCqZiJ3I
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　　第二天早上，許愛悠與殷詠弦跪著在教堂中接吻的照片，在學校的討論區及社交媒體上瘋傳。 24Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcWZxWf1HW
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