Poems from old years - Silence...

Ive always suffered in silence,

I felt there was no need to pout,

I Always feel daunted,

As if my own soul wasn't mine,

I like being alone,

When there's no one to control you,

To change your every movment and speak such foul words,

I hate being a puppy dog to people who I thought loved me,

But do they really love the real me?

Or do they love the character I play, rather then the one that I always hide away?

I am always Feeling as if I can't be me,

Like if someone is always controling me,

My every moment, word and pace,

Why can't I be loved for who I truly am?

Always feeling alone evan if I have people around me,

I always suffer in silence worried that my own words will burden others and leave them so guilty faced,

Is it me? Or maybe its who I was always ment to be?

To suffer in silence is not just keeping Quite, but when you feel as if you have no Voice and opinion in the way you feel and

Yet to be still keeping quite and keeping

Your mouth closed, never to be opened,

The silence is nice but when you hear Thoes voices ringing in your ear, making

You just want to end it all, to leave it all

Behind, to leave all that's know to you,

I feel like this every day, as if I can't talk, as If I'm being forced to evan breathe, as if I'm Never in control, as if I really do want to die,

I only stay alive as I'm told to, not by myself but by thoes who control me, is it

Really me tho? Speaking thoes sentences

Acting the way I do,

Or is it the character I play just so people you like me,

People have learnt to love the character I Play and not the real "me",

Would they evan like "me" if I showed them

Who I truly am, so forced and down under

Life itself,

Can't you love me?

Or is it just a fantasy when I dream of Living as "me"

Will I ever learn to trust "me"?

And will they ever learn to love "me"?

Or shall I suffer in silence once more again.

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