好痛。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrVGMy1M63
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU39cWncsGX
好痛，卻哭不出來。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctKq4552Y3
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wOMiLo4CF
眼淚會讓人迷路。自從爸爸離家後，媽媽總是會對我這麼說。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyye217FNUv
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXhooXgzwp
或許是因為如此，我才會忘了怎麼哭泣。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXl1FF04Kf
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblaFQfCl9u
但，即使哭不出來，國一的那堂體育課，我的膝蓋仍綻開了血淋淋的傷口；而那位名叫艾瑪的同班同學，才會向呆坐在地上的我搭話。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWx1ILAJ079
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB97kXecQc4
『你現在在哪裡？』487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡASMwydlxTO
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsb3b7rSGdy
說出這句令人摸不著頭緒的話語的，是因為孤僻的個性而在班上被欺負過幾次的陰森少女。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4523EAVIB
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk8P1kTrfp
雖然不受歡迎，卻長得很漂亮。墨水似的柔軟黑色長髮、洋娃娃一樣的細緻五官、怕被發現一般的淡淡薰衣草香。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt78Sj2HfV9
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnF618IiDe
她微微掀起裙角，露出左腳的膝蓋。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGNv8qduoa
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMO3CHOs6U
一塊紗布包裹著那裡。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OWU5gIKyd
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcwVvqtKpg
『我們都在這裡呢，露娜。』她向我微笑。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pTDluh9XH
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfj03MHN4K3
如此怪異的說話方式，或許就是她會被欺負的原因吧。但我並不介意，因為我想我們在班上都一樣格格不入。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBsHpqLVqZh
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJKt7LY80Yj
後來，她陪我一起到保健室。看見我沒有像其他同學一樣把她趕走，她似乎很開心。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTskfqqPMV
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujyPSLGmr5
從此以後，她變得只黏在我身邊。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sPvl48YT0
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHRfluODqx
我發現我們有許多相似之處。除了都很安靜以外，我們還喜歡看書，也喜歡畫畫。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9K0r3nizhS
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tzNVAig7M
她買了一本筆記本，與我在上課時互傳、輪流塗鴉。我很喜歡艾瑪的塗鴉，她會畫她養的短毛貓高斯，以及她跟姐姐、媽媽一家人——是的，我們都沒有爸爸。高斯這個名字是她姐姐取的，她的姐姐似乎很聰明，在鎮上的大學裡做大腦相關的研究。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5GYlm7r7g
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWX5BTgXmk
轉眼間，我們就迎來國一升國二的暑假。放假後，我跟艾瑪常去不同地方玩，有時去逛書店，有時去看電影。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSF1NM3XzGK
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EZX7874gC
一次，我們去參觀科博館。那天艾瑪的話突然變得很多，到處向我介紹姐姐告訴過她的知識。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Zc2bMJSEY
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThDd86fMhh
我記得她站在科博館二樓的大腦模型前面，平時暗沉沉的眼睛閃閃發光。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡElcaM4I8Hp
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTYxf9E23fA
『露娜，你現在在哪裡？』她這麼問我。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1L7kkDttk
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUC63B9shjf
又是這個奇怪的問題。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDoIKA1maSU
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIZJNvEXqF
她逕自接著說道，人們在某個時刻的思緒和感受，好比位在一張巨大地圖上的一個點；而那張地圖，解釋了我們從何而來，可以往哪裡去。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4daTYdgSWp
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebTU3OfrbB
可惜，那張地圖不是平的，而是立體的，或4、5，甚至更高次元的，所以科學家暫時還找不到它。若是找到了，人們就能知道怎麼從這件事想到那件事，怎麼從高興走到難過，怎麼從憂鬱走到康復。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlIijMfZxxX
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Cxt0TsoW7
這些都是她姐姐告訴她的。當然，我一點也不知道她在說什麼。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzobYQ162w
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgqG1qU59jE
開學後，我們又度過了數週平平無奇的學校生活。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JXg8nx4zH
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ejl5TGvTJ
上課、塗鴉、放學時一起回家，一切都看似毫無異狀。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EapWRclQz
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3NaDGwXbo
然而，隨著國二的尾聲到來，那件事情發生了。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GCgJmtBck
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6s0zXANl14
高斯死了。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrtabCHktF
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAu80hMiW8
這是在艾瑪因為難過而兩個禮拜都沒來學校後，才從她口中得知的事情。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWjPSNEoYD
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpf4Muv5RY0
『就因為這樣？』487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe0d2JyAbim
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0Vhal6juj
那節下課，站在艾瑪的座位前，我脫口而出這句話。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKrGUovDim
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2CqxHFyie
我只是覺得她不應該讓自己那麼傷心。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcFeGcH8Rp
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZP5P7wkEK
因為，眼淚會讓人迷路。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINdX3QFLQl
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh59GoDs1H4
然而，艾瑪似乎無法理解我的意思。直到我看見她的臉垮下來，眼眶裡有淚水在打轉，我才知道我搞砸了。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8gknWsPFD
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnwBfMItUz
後來，直到放暑假，她都沒有再來學校。我想了想，決定傳訊息向她道歉，但她只回了一次「沒關係」，就再也沒有回過我之後的訊息了。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTNBOtiNfu
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvPRp3fVe8E
暑假過後，三年級的開學日，我再次遇見艾瑪。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67smr5iRFS
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpXhGdHRsv
她的樣子變得古怪。她的眼神更加沒有生氣、更不愛說話，沒人知道她發生了什麼事。大家都避開她，而我也一直找不到機會跟她搭話，只能默默觀察她。那本筆記本上再也沒有新的塗鴉。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCRUkijdkd
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8012EXCdb8
畢業後，我們又恰巧進入同一所高中。她就在我隔壁班。每次我經過，都會看見她一次比一次消瘦。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsIxc72Vu3p
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhHR4e49Z7
不久後，他們班的傳聞就傳到我們班上，說她得了癌症、她被家人虐待、她被附身了。有一次，我在辦公室聽到老師們聊到艾瑪，說她好像去了奇怪的教會。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgc7uZ3SkJ
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0Tr5Ef3GU
高二接近尾聲的一日放學，我經過他們班，看到裡面空空如也。在她的座位上，我看見有幾束鮮花和燒過的蠟燭擺在那。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMHEKEf6Ku2
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVmqI8vTX2
艾瑪去世了。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBalMqQrL0w
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh2VYeHOYV
她是DMT中毒致死的，DMT是一種毒品的樣子，鎮上的報導是這麼說的。我不知道艾瑪為什麼會吸毒，也不知道她從哪裡弄來這種毒藥。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKrI3UGV8f
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvM92G7ymq
然而，我告訴自己不能哭，不能迷路。大家都得在自己的路上繼續前進。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFJUaNOUpy
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8l4E7fK6Y
上課、作業、考試，一成不變的生活因此繼續運轉著，隔壁班似乎也一下子就忘了她。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6EU6HZhjT3
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDzEWIkQQr
但，就在放假前一週的生物課上，老師跟我們分享了一個科學上的新發現。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcB2q1Lk34O
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6pnPiRdnQ
她說科學家發現了一個多達數千億維的空間。這個空間記錄了人類大腦任何可能的思想狀態。科學家稱這個空間「意識宇宙」。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZBB1wjyFt
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs762CfbeZe
當下，我想起了去科博館玩的那次，艾瑪所說的那張巨大地圖，還有怎麼從高興走到難過、怎麼從憂鬱走到康復。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3YEADnvzyj
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pjNwn0mFA
我感到一陣反胃。在以內急當藉口離開教室後，我跑向廁所。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkWbwQRmNE
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg9dRybiDw
跑著跑著，跟艾瑪有關的回憶不斷湧現。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡud95wxYv5s
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFBGca6U6W
首先，是我與艾瑪的最後一次對話。那時的我只是希望艾瑪不要因為難過而迷失了，但我現在卻隱約明白，有什麼註定讓艾瑪流淚。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdfRbC6b9C
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskOczENUO5
接著，是我們經歷過的種種。艾瑪和我暑假時常去的書店，艾瑪在筆記本上的塗鴉，還有艾瑪在那堂體育課向我說的那句話。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2DYY1Em82
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAUUytIoXb
我頓時恍然大悟。艾瑪讓我看她膝蓋的傷，並不是想說我們受傷的地方一樣——487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmwKgMMPIE
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E9AUnSolt
而是想告訴我，在那張以數億個維度所描繪的地圖上，我們在同一個地方。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH278u2gwtd
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBEsS5pDGA
我們一樣痛。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvNWVJbDV2
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NvBhOqBD7
——我現在在哪裡？487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKL7QS2ASZY
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzdGjTARWi
好痛。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhayE62Sql
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzrVJnskcT
好痛，卻哭不出來。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ueWYum1TH
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaGjM9tWRs
胸口就像膝蓋那時的傷口一樣刺痛；我停步在走廊上，難受的蹲下。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvsiNTXdJJw
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaeoBx8WTyB
我好希望當我抬頭時，能看見艾瑪對我微笑。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KkWCySViG
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0H5uGPxp7d
但，倘若她還活著，或許只會回我一句「就因為這樣」。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pkzTxGjBB
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPpb6rzFcoK
好痛，好憤怒。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB1qtzJpgxJ
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8zWV4rK9B
艾瑪迷失時，我拋棄了她。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCte0GiBABU
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6Q4eynMMd
我就這樣放手了，導致了這場悲劇。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcbr6fKJlb
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkgQfhqlm6
艾瑪死後，我仍假裝自己沒有迷路。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zV4sspUW1
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6APTL3lBiD
假裝不珍惜她，作為我曾經最好的朋友。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAJLXhrphT5
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOF8mRuJiP
突然，彷彿不留給我任何喘息的餘地一般，我的手機傳來震動。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDs6g9o6Ae0
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kkA7GU7bI
我顫抖著從口袋中拿出手機，將恍惚的目光投向螢幕。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXGO6aH7bBF
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7DsOR2hWa
我看見通知欄顯示的署名和訊息內容。一時之間，我所有的思緒都停滯了。487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0q97x8EOMo
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRtXxI5urX
『艾瑪：』487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiwMl6dbcz
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhYKoULIhj
『來地圖上找我。』487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8SkTbUbjk
487Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtt35jrocHu
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