今天是遇見妳的第700天。182Please respect copyright.PENANAVbV5RxbEDt
十月十三日的妳好嗎,聽説倫敦下雪了。182Please respect copyright.PENANAzurcDA80VX
這一個月我很喜歡,妳呢?182Please respect copyright.PENANAsGv5gke4Hv
三個月前,沒想過半年之後的自己如何在孤獨荒蕪的世界生存。182Please respect copyright.PENANAEgopjxwbj9
沒想到這天來臨後,心中沒有泛起什麽漣漪。182Please respect copyright.PENANATu6T34rLW2
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秋天的大部分時間我反反復復愛上不同的人,小部分的時間我為未來稍微打算。182Please respect copyright.PENANAPRaFkpwANU
再次觸碰有關妳的所有元素,意象,沒有以前的泣不成聲,我鼓起勇氣翻開妳看過的小説,182Please respect copyright.PENANASeeDrbggLx
妳的字跡,妳去過的地方,封存在冰箱裏的糖果,埋在櫃子裏的vivienne west wood,182Please respect copyright.PENANABHC7CcJNTj
上課無意中看到妳用過的口頭禪沒有恐懼得喘不過氣,182Please respect copyright.PENANAZmNv6GZTRP
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但還是不敢故地重游。182Please respect copyright.PENANAnZbUYgFBbY
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夏天悲傷被我割下,留下的是一個無味的夏天,我對七月的記憶慢慢消退,不痛不癢,時間的概念給模糊掉,換成冷冰冰的數字,一日,二日,三日。182Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0wl8CmC8G
從好久好久以前,狂亂的撕心裂肺,到克制的撕心裂肺,到籠統的撕心裂肺,再到混濁的情感。182Please respect copyright.PENANAg6aqJetHP9
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之前寫過一句話,「妳説過,時間會撫平一切傷口,我説,不會的,它只是給活埋,到某個挖開,傷口還是血流如注,不曾康復」182Please respect copyright.PENANAgQCvpBPW5e
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我錯了還是,妳提前預判我的十月,182Please respect copyright.PENANAQowbnVTr3s
時間的確會撫平好多東西,182Please respect copyright.PENANAbqvGtyBSlU
傷口沒有再痛,時間慢慢淡化了疼痛,淡到我以爲我忘了妳,後來我見過好多讓我心碎的人,好多委屈的事情,我真的,不會感到劇烈的難過,頂多就是「ohoh」了事,説來好笑,我竟然開始爲我的未來負責了,我去考ielts,對academic的東西都很passionate,主動問教授這個論文題目可以嗎,怎樣才算好,爲什麽這不好,我不明白?182Please respect copyright.PENANAkwuAy9gxX5
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很多人都説我變了好多,口吻變mean了,變現實了變獨立了,問我,「hazel啊,爲什麽你可以這麽開心灑脫,妳變了很多」182Please respect copyright.PENANAD0B6LGhfLn
我回她,人不是會變的嗎,大驚小怪什麽。182Please respect copyright.PENANA1T7uW3X3Ee
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妳也早就變了,不是嗎。182Please respect copyright.PENANANRRANBgKeg
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我承認,我對過去的自己刻舟求劍,對妳也是,但在時間的洗禮下,過去的我和妳,早就轟然而碎了,盛大的虛無把以前的我們殺死了,看到最近寫的日記,從之前的「我從妳的隻字片語裡拼湊出一個完整的妳」到「每天記住妳,莫失莫忘」最後是「也許相忘於江湖是對雙方最好的結局吧」182Please respect copyright.PENANAdEiANOhnCC
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這個世界本就人來人往,雖有好多個未竟之願,182Please respect copyright.PENANAODcbK11Uwc
但到最後一個也沒有實現,怪誰?自己啊,182Please respect copyright.PENANAM9mvObnJD0
胡亂去把自己的生命交付在另一個人身上。182Please respect copyright.PENANArKYfzdRMJp
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這段時間裏我對世界有一股瘋狂的探索欲,我要把未知的虛無感拼命壓下,於是我去競選了學生會,我參加了三場辯論比賽,認識了很多有趣的靈魂,深夜看恐怖片瘋狂尖叫,有喜歡的歌手,看好多次海,去你多年前看過的那片海,放著你以前的歌,剛好是一年前的,盡力不去想妳,回避妳的名字,一切都很平靜。182Please respect copyright.PENANASxB4tD8zxc
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這三個月很充實很充實,和朋友逛街時對別人的穿搭評頭品足,但自己的品味也是一團糟,會說髒話,我本質是一個庸俗的人,有時候會開低劣的玩笑,182Please respect copyright.PENANASJI9WPOz8A
假如,我説是,假如妳在很多很多年之後看到我所寫東西,不要感到失望,不要棄之我不顧,182Please respect copyright.PENANA1StCg4Vcoc
我僅僅只是找活著的念想,哪怕它是一個很浮淺的理由,我不想被愛,不想overdose,不需要一場車禍,182Please respect copyright.PENANAisa1RJyG6y
相信我,我一定會超越你妳,下輩子我們會見的,想象上天會聽見我的執念,讓我們重逢,遇見好多人以後,我稍微忘了妳的一部分,我不知道這是好事還是壞事,畢竟啊,我們一張合照也沒有留下,撫心自問,還是有點擔心把妳的所有忘掉。182Please respect copyright.PENANAPKCImDWJLG
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收到妳明確的答覆之前,182Please respect copyright.PENANA5FfUoypvee
我會保持期待,我們在開春的時候再見吧。182Please respect copyright.PENANAghVlOg8RTc
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