No Plagiarism!4uZ900IEFIo0CYd2p2y6posted on PENANA 邱雪從浴室走出,濕漉漉的青絲在寬鬆的圓領衫上披散著,隨意而慵懶。8964 copyright protection135PENANA4W1PoXQ52O 維尼
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芊芊玉手拿起一旁的小毛巾,輕柔地擦拭亮麗的烏髮,每一個動作都伴隨著清新的香氣,在空氣中擴散,驅走了殘留的沉悶,讓心情舒暢、平靜。8964 copyright protection135PENANAiij3x7QQ95 維尼
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桌上的手機震動了一下,邱雪瞥了眼,發現是胡茵傳的訊息,似乎在問候她最近怎麼樣。8964 copyright protection135PENANAHp3pQHcfSr 維尼
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邱雪沒有理會,繼續手上擦拭的動作,不過須臾,覺得差不多了便停下動作,將毛巾掛好,而後才拿起手機專心回覆。8964 copyright protection135PENANAKQus3r6K7d 維尼
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通知欄上除了胡茵,還有任婉晴的訊息,邱雪沒有點進去,而是在通知欄上查看。任婉晴沒有說很多,大致上在跟她打招呼、問她是否安全到家,還有此刻在做什麼。8964 copyright protection135PENANA2pGltdbWph 維尼
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邱雪猶豫片刻,最終還是滑掉通知,似是不知作何答覆,也似是懶得回應。8964 copyright protection135PENANAXTMt7dwmmQ 維尼
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邱雪打開胡茵的訊息,看見那句「妳最近還好嗎?」,頓了一下,垂眸、無聲地嘆息,心中百感交集。過了良久,她才緩緩地打出那句「我最近很好啊」。8964 copyright protection135PENANAyRXDUQQZet 維尼
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胡茵幾乎秒讀邱雪的訊息,和邱雪一樣,很久之後才接話,似是不想拆穿,轉移了話題,「這個週末我約了幾位朋友聚餐,出來一起放鬆嗎?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAr0lwhQOj9p 維尼
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邱雪以周末需要加班為由婉拒。8964 copyright protection135PENANAb5MHxKyiv4 維尼
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雖然通常邱雪也不會答應邀約,尤其還有不認識的人,但胡茵仍會詢問她,在被拒絕後總會軟磨硬泡一會兒,然而這一次卻沒有。8964 copyright protection135PENANAMjwEicyQAv 維尼
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兩人在噓寒問暖中結束對話,顯得有些陌生,有了距離。8964 copyright protection135PENANAJLapmndyml 維尼
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被驅散的沉鬱沒有消逝,而是躲藏了起來,在角落悄悄成長、擴散。它悄然地與空氣中的清新融合,將好不容易得來的一小片寧靜吞噬殆盡,侵蝕那帶著光澤的烏髮,讓其變得黯淡無光。8964 copyright protection135PENANAvCJ2CimhA3 維尼
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灰暗的客廳裡,光影在電視的投射下閃爍、搖曳,為孤獨的夜晚帶來活躍的氛圍。8964 copyright protection135PENANABGkBJ5egOP 維尼
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溫暖的色調、迴盪的歡笑,電視機裡搞笑的劇情,這些本該為灰暗的空間帶來色彩和歡樂,然而一切似乎反了過來,將沉鬱的灰暗襯托得更甚。8964 copyright protection135PENANAYZ5B1a3R5E 維尼
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邱雪坐在沙發上無聊地搖晃手中的酒杯,深紅色的液體隨著晃動旋轉起來,帶起彷彿能夠將煩惱一一吞噬的漩渦。8964 copyright protection135PENANA0ckRkHNQrL 維尼
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她呆滯地看著螢幕上引人發笑的角色,好笑嗎?或許吧。她遲鈍地拉起嘴角的笑,笑得勉強,彷彿在強迫自己,皮笑肉不笑。8964 copyright protection135PENANArtxKxD6KGI 維尼
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茶几上有一部手機,還有一瓶僅剩四分之一的酒。8964 copyright protection135PENANAuhGbJfBaMk 維尼
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邱雪一飲而盡手中的酒,將酒杯放在茶几上,試圖再為自己倒一杯,然而也是這時候,電話鈴聲響了起來。8964 copyright protection135PENANA1SxW3H3nvY 維尼
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邱雪看向手機,是媽媽。8964 copyright protection135PENANARaQDehr2pw 維尼
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她停下手上的動作,靜靜地看著,不知在想什麼,彷彿時間在這一刻是靜止的。8964 copyright protection135PENANAfvM9BOWy5S 維尼
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電話鈴聲還在響,令人煩躁的催促,邱雪閉上眼,深吸一口氣,呼氣時睜開了眼,一改之前的無精打采和陰鬱,清了清嗓子,接起電話。8964 copyright protection135PENANAUcyWBnrjd2 維尼
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「怎麼那麼久才接電話啊?」8964 copyright protection135PENANA78JTPK2MiN 維尼
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「我剛剛在廁所。」8964 copyright protection135PENANA6UmA4ChDwg 維尼
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江美嬌的語氣不算惡劣,但也不友善,類似隨口提一句的抱怨,但被本就心情不好的邱雪放大化了,覺得有些煩躁,回話的語氣明顯冰冷。8964 copyright protection135PENANAY8Hyk25peM 維尼
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母親說了很多話,邱雪有一搭沒一搭地回應,似乎因為微醺的關係,語調慵懶、反應遲鈍,能感覺到整個人迷離的狀態。8964 copyright protection135PENANAf0HSN1Tyx2 維尼
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「妳是不是喝酒了。」江美嬌察覺到邱雪的狀態,嚴肅地質問。8964 copyright protection135PENANAyfDIUVKkeY 維尼
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邱雪沉默。8964 copyright protection135PENANA7wzmt3kPIa 維尼
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為什麼不說謊呢?反正說了也不會信,就像以往,不管說了多少次,還是一樣,只相信自己認為的。8964 copyright protection135PENANAV36My4xi2V 維尼
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果不其然,江美嬌開始生氣地說教,邱雪一言不發地全然接收。8964 copyright protection135PENANAv6VUmhtTXz 維尼
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「我就跟妳說過了!不可以喝酒!」8964 copyright protection135PENANAzArKtwMcK7 維尼
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「要是出事了怎麼辦?」8964 copyright protection135PENANArTRIfIiKqs 維尼
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「妳知道外面多少單親媽媽就是這樣來的嗎?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAy6SX6pXsre 維尼
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「就算在家裡喝也不行,要是上癮了怎麼辦?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAjMNlcWIhYt 維尼
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「每個酒鬼也都一開始說會節制,但結果呢?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAJ7klTH8GA0 維尼
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「妳這樣會害到妳自己,也會害到我。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAtLlYGXQXfR 維尼
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「我說這些都是為妳好,妳為什麼就是不能理解。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAF79Z62bZfq 維尼
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「妳為什麼就不能聽話?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAUxJZ1lPQdh 維尼
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又是這些,永遠的以愛為名、永遠的控制、永遠的情緒勒索,每一次、每一次,永遠反复,不會停止,已經、夠了......8964 copyright protection135PENANAKSnVLgnx66 維尼
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忍耐到了極限,邱雪情緒失控,她不自禁地發笑,苦澀、疲憊、無奈。8964 copyright protection135PENANAsBfyxlKtOo 維尼
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「聽話?哈哈,」略帶顫抖的聲音,收起苦澀的笑,「那妳有聽我說過話嗎?有嘗試、認真地思考過我說的話嗎?」8964 copyright protection135PENANA9TG1mz1Zk1 維尼
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像是醉意的真情流露,也似是理智上想再最後溝通一次。8964 copyright protection135PENANAh5zTQhVwgx 維尼
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就算已經嘗試過了無數次,但還是幻想著這次能夠不一樣,哪怕這個不一樣到頭來還是會恢復原樣。8964 copyright protection135PENANAUHQCmP4hJm 維尼
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邱雪慵懶中帶著認真,平靜地說:「我思考過妳說的話,即使不認同,但最終還是選擇尊重,尊重妳的觀念,不再嘗試改變妳的想法,避免說某些會讓妳激動的話。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAsehMOE9fTf 維尼
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「可是,妳呢?」8964 copyright protection135PENANA2LMSgv31oh 維尼
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邱雪深吸一口氣,帶著苦澀的笑,繼續說道:「妳還是一直、一直地觸碰我的底線。」8964 copyright protection135PENANATx754b2pf4 維尼
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「那段時間我過得很痛苦,為了不再那樣下去,我離開了家,自己搬出來住,這樣我就不用再聽見妳那些讓我拼命壓抑的話語。」8964 copyright protection135PENANA53WOMgY1Ef 維尼
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「我以為我逃出了牢籠,但沒有,我還是被禁錮著,妳一直用妳的觀念、標準來要求我,我一個女生應該怎樣、不可以怎樣。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAT2I1NRKFDm 維尼
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電話的另一頭沉默地聽著,邱雪這裡似是因醉意而越說越起勁。8964 copyright protection135PENANAcAYDL5Cgug 維尼
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「妳說妳對誰都一樣,妳也會勸哥哥不要喝酒,但真的是這樣嗎?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAT2OhrC41VR 維尼
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邱雪回憶起了往事,語調仍是醉意的慵懶和隨意,「還記得我和哥哥想要喝酒的那個時候,妳確實有勸哥哥不要喝,對他,妳是用勸的,但對我呢?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAdOkfQcSAOf 維尼
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彷彿回到那個時候,平靜逐漸被取代,情緒有了波動,她傷感自嘲地道:「哈哈,是嚴厲禁止、大聲呵斥。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAVQwfh3r0sp 維尼
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「還記得我問過妳為什麼我不能喝酒吧,那時候妳說女生就是不可以,後來我表達出我的想法,妳知道我在意性別議題,所以學會了避開,不再說女生就是不行,而是說妳也一樣這麼要求哥哥。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAbQyjfIEafs 維尼
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「妳真的以為我看不出來嗎?我有那麼好騙嗎?」8964 copyright protection135PENANA5wQlnKU2qQ 維尼
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彷彿被打開的閘門,情緒的洩洪,一發不可收拾。8964 copyright protection135PENANA3CKjPfXmhA 維尼
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眼眶泛淚,「對,我是很常把人性想得很美好和善良,即使被人當面以開玩笑的方式嘲諷,我會告訴自己,他們說話的方式就是那樣,沒有惡意,只是性格不同。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAxkGdFCpWND 維尼
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「但妳以為我真的什麼都看不出嗎?」8964 copyright protection135PENANAVKLPmbEEnu 維尼
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滿溢的淚水,止不住地奪眶而出,在臉頰上留下濕熱的痕跡。8964 copyright protection135PENANA1huPKlG91x 維尼
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「我的身體、情緒都感受得到,我不適、厭惡、難受,但我壓抑,」邱雪越說越激動,說到哽咽,說到聲音顫抖,「我不想把場面搞得太難堪,我不想讓人詬病我太敏感,我還想待在圈子裡有人和我說話,所以我忽視感受,我面帶微笑,裝作沒事、裝作開得起玩笑,甚至洗腦自己,他們沒有惡意,只是性格不同愛開玩笑。」8964 copyright protection135PENANAWdPqqkTxia 維尼
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「我並非什麼都看不出,我只是在看出之後選擇以美化的方式去看待。」8964 copyright protection135PENANABMIgNmOpII 維尼
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「所以別把我當傻子,比起價值觀的衝突,虛偽更讓我厭惡。」8964 copyright protection135PENANADgSOfjPSn0 維尼
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似乎是微醺的關係,邱雪的思緒有些跳脫、散亂,說到最後似乎在說其他事情。8964 copyright protection135PENANAZWjZlYQ0uT 維尼
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一陣沉默,彷彿能聽見彼此心裡的難過。8964 copyright protection135PENANA3yAbuAVIY8 維尼
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不知過了多久,回過神來的邱雪意識到自己說的話過分了,剎那間醉意全無,意識異常清晰。8964 copyright protection135PENANAWRGHYZAzkw 維尼
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她慌亂地向母親道歉:「對、對不起,我......對不起......」可除了道歉,也不知該說什麼,最後只能匆匆掛斷電話。8964 copyright protection135PENANAeQG37c2n49 維尼
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閃爍的光影、迴盪的對白依舊如初,不一樣的是多了隱隱的哭泣聲,將本就沉悶的氣氛變得更加壓抑、淒涼。8964 copyright protection135PENANALsE0HtWzJB 維尼
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