「我真係想見你。」我哋嘴唇之間只相隔一毫米嘅距離。「你唔想咩？」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWcpT1tX8aM
想？唔想？我都唔知應該點答。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXOE5WXf09
我有掛住呢個隨時喺我身邊嘅人，有掛住同佢上床嘅場面。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2O0oV7Lut
我冇掛住呢個連失戀都要推卸責任俾我嘅仆街，唔掛住因為佢而搞到我同老公僵持嘅局面。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtC3G1ebrkp
如果我同呢個人永遠都唔會有結果，點解仲要浪費時間？284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpV7KV1LEtl
但既然都唔會有手尾跟，又唔駛你承擔責任，你怕咩？284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxnHibxYhw
天使魔鬼兩種極端嘅主張不斷喺我腦海出現，我完全答唔到。
「唔好。」我堅定地講出呢兩個字，令原本以為今次實食硬我嘅Matt有啲意外，慢慢鬆開手。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbdxbehGQ3
「點解？」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjC5Nienm0
「有樣嘢我哋永遠都改變唔到，就係我結咗婚。由一開始我已經講咗，係你話唔會要求啲咩，我哋先開始。幾個月前係你話可以配合我，我哋先分開。而家你失戀，係你搵我，我先關心你。」我望一望Matt，佢又變返嗰個頹廢樣。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSpr27TOSj
「點解唔可以好似之前咁，我哋唔俾人知咪得。」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOV3M2v3h7u
「我唔想再經歷成日提心吊膽，做咩都驚俾人發現嘅感覺。其實你想要人陪啫，唔一定係我架。」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeytIn1TSbm
「你離婚咪得。」佢望住我，我從來冇期望過佢會講出口。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡczQbabvJGE
「你想同我結婚咩？你連拍拖都唔想啦傻仔。」我失笑。Matt冇再慫恿我要重新開始，默默地飲晒杯啤酒。
「你自己返去得唔得架？」我送咗Matt去的士站，咁大個人飲少少應該都仲返到屋企掛？284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWMWBaBKMsn
「我返去同你講。」佢行咗上的士，再向我揮手道別。我希望頭先大家咁樣攤出嚟傾，會了結咗佢一件心事，可以令佢放得低我哋嘅關係。
嗰晚之後，Matt返工嘅時候比以往沉靜，但相信佢係慢慢復原緊。公司開始就住Kathy同Matt嘅事傳出閒言閒語，有人傳係女方做主動，亦有人話Matt撬人牆腳。唔夠一個星期，Kathy就突然辭咗職，連散水餅都冇件就消失咗。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRfRgHgYLg
「你有冇關心下Matt？」Chris條八婆又嚟探我口風。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPIXDVqH2u
「冇啊，等佢一個人靜下啦。」我邊咬住零食答佢。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZd6Hjfc0oC
「佢呢排真係一粒聲都唔出，有時我都唔知佢有冇返工。」Chris邊講邊插隻手埋嚟攞我啲零食，仲以為我唔發覺。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpO6q3bpv0V
「佢冇煩你，你仲開心啦扮晒嘢。」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzo1ltak1eX
「我驚佢唔返工卸晒啲嘢俾我做咋。」Chris講完就行返埋位。我拎起電話，輸入「你冇事嘛？」好想撳send，但係內心不斷掙扎。算啦，都係唔好多管閒事，佢有事會識得出聲架啦。
唔經唔覺，我喺呢間公司已經做咗一年多啲，我決定要離開。公關呢一行每一兩年轉一次工係常態，加上呢度福利太少、OT多，係時候要轉換一下環境。我轉工嘅進展一直只係同Chris透露，冇講過俾Matt聽，唔想引起啲咩意外。呢次搵工都算順利，好多就收到理想嘅offer，遞埋信等過通知期就走得。Matt知道我遞咗信之後都冇特別搵我，可能佢又專注返進修上面，大家各有各忙。
「下個禮拜last day？」一個沉咗底嘅對話突然間又浮返水面。我諗唔駛我講，你都估到係邊個搵我。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf5NnAPvA6C
「星期五。」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbU970PYtgP
「食唔食飯？」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxguj0FUSq8
又食飯？我諗咗陣。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTqBdf347z
「我book檯？」「hi？」「唔見咗人？」我都係冇覆。
「我想問你」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqT0KOVDX1
「？」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxNjqA8CVe
「你最想點樣同我做？」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0v9f9UdRwp
「吓？」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3f50KhO2Zv
「答啦」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqmzP1RvL2r
「er…」「3P?」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnzqnbIxQr
「下星期五，你搵人。」
過埋下星期，我都唔會再見到Matt，佢嘅提議亦係我一直好想嘗試，咁不如當作係最後一次偷情嘅儀式，送俾大家最美好嘅回憶。
到咗當日，我五點鐘派晒散水餅就開始無所事事，唔係搵下同事吹水，就係執拾下自己位嘅雜物。我將啲文件夾同年度報告拎返落另一層，諗住擺返入會議室嘅文件櫃做記錄，咁啱遇到Matt開完會，執緊電腦準備上返office。我冇特意行過去同佢打招呼，就直接去做filing。我眼尾留意到有人向我走近，伸出手環抱我條腰，喺我頸邊深深呼吸咗一下，pat pat感受到有硬物緊貼。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4Ak1GmUF8
「咁快忍唔住？」我轉身將雙唇湊近，見到佢垂涎欲滴嘅樣真係好有成功感，唔知佢期待咗幾耐呢。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRjvsQXbGq
「而家就想屌你。」佢霸道地將我壓向牆熱吻，上下其手，仲伸手入裙內捏我pat pat。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdCFXaNW58
「等陣……」我邊喘氣邊嘗試叫佢冷靜，「喂……」284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7iIO4HSHB
「嗯？」佢轉為進攻我耳仔，終於都肯停低。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ifWH062BO
「收工先啦。」我望住佢，摸摸佢臉頰。「一陣點屌都得。」再喺佢唇上錫咗啖，就轉身離開。
時間嚟到6點，我趁Matt唔喺位就即刻拎袋走人。放心，唔係想走數。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQhwFaip8Zx
「灣仔88酒店」我send返呢個地址俾佢。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KYbgtrxMs
做人嘅嘢，好頭好尾，算係咁啦。284Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡob5NZHryUd
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