The beep of the machine woke Terrence up, even though he was already standing. He slowly took the two-minute lasagna out of the microwave. It was a bit big, but he was always a big eater.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAdqhYJ9CH2I
He looked at the small but unmoving line in front of the coffee machine and sighed. His throat was parched but he said nothing. His digital watch said '1:24'. No time.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAZbBAM174Px
He sat at an empty table and began ingesting the cheap cheese and sauce. Each bite reminded him of a better meal from home.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAa6BxZsyC19
He finished early, so he spent the rest of the time looking around the room.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAq4gawrwuzF
May was still a looker after all these years. Her pencil skirt accentuated her curves. He thought she was wearing a little bit of makeup but he couldn't really tell.1984Please respect copyright.PENANADVGh9nVj6v
She was talking to Kei, who appeared to be chatting her up. Terrence heard something about Kei's home country but couldn't decipher words heard so far away, hidden under the grumble of the old coffee machine.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA5lyRjQ2p0F
Kei had a misshapen mouth that moved to the side when he talked. When he laughed (this happened with alarming frequency), the nostrils of his oversized nose would jump up and down. When he smiled his dimples showed and a few lines could be seen past the outer corners of his eyes. He used big gestures when he tried to explain something, whether it be an idea in the meeting room or the size of the fish he caught last Sunday. Terrence couldn't help but watch.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAX6Y542Yqfa
May giggled like a schoolgirl. Terrence frowned. Of course.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAiCfp9jMl2u
He looked back at Kei. The man was explaining something again. He bent his bony knees and held his hand about half a metre off the ground. That young? How old was this man, exactly?1984Please respect copyright.PENANAWT7pjmMibo
May inched away but still listened. Terrence silently prayed for her to go away. He then chastised himself. If she left, Kei would have no one to talk to and laugh with.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAsSwrwaka3w
He considered replacing her and having a friendly conversation with the man. He loudly scoffed at the idea. A couple of people turned their heads so he beat a fake cough out of his chest.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAhYuElUwXYR
He looked at his watch and stifled a groan. He hauled himself out of the chair and lumbered towards the door of the lounge, ears alert for any more conversations from Kei.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA03RAPtAFCn
Before he could make it to the door, he felt a hand grip his shoulder. He turned around, his shoulders rising in preparation for him to fight like prey in a forest. They suddenly returned to their normal height when he saw a pair of dimples.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAtd6Y4LyXwq
"Hey, did you get the fax I sent you this morning?" Kei's voice was smooth, making the twang of his broad accent more palatable. If Terrence didn't know better he could have sworn Kei was raised in the outback. Was it an act? He always talked like this.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOsGqJXODCH
Terrence nodded. Kei patted him lightly on the back. This soft touch felt excruciating to Terrence. He gulped, feeling his heart tighten as if squeezed by an iron hand. He was getting too old for this shit.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA1gynGof4kb
"Say, after work some of the fellas and I are gonna head down to the pub. You wanna join us?" Terrence took a moment to think. He eventually smiled. Kei leant in a bit closer. An agonising bit.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYr9ld0LNz3
"Hey, you've got a pretty nice smile." Kei patted his back again and pointed at him like a used car salesman. "You should wear it more often." He headed out the door and swiftly turned around. "I'll see you after work!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAkv3vT5zRfc
A loud, deep voice bounced off the walls of the room. "Time to get back to work, everyone!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAh8tJVLijzj
Terrence brushed past his boss, eager to get to his own little enclosed space. He sat down in front of his computer and allowed Kei's words to sink in.1984Please respect copyright.PENANADnUY7RaSAV
What the hell did he just say? What kind of guy compliments another guy's smile like that? In front of other people, no less?1984Please respect copyright.PENANA3dnqpSfCBM
Terrence felt his chest become tight again. He took a deep breath and opened up an Excel spreadsheet. He blocked out all sounds of fax machines and printers and ticking clocks and whispers about days off.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA0VuQUmKfmg
Terrence got his daily work done with five minutes to spare, so he turned his phone back on and saw a message.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAKxRO0jSXx5
Mum: I met this nice lady on the shopping tour and I think she'd be perfect for you. Would you like to meet her after work today?1984Please respect copyright.PENANAQc9eyVPATv
Terrence chuckled. Like it was even a contest.1984Please respect copyright.PENANADjrvbXWT7H
I'm busy. Sorry.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAbNDVHW9rnU
He closed his eyes in exasperation. Shopping tour? His mother must have been getting desperate.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAEDMTSlnHN3
His eyes popped open when he felt a buzzing sensation in his hand. He waited for it to pass. He was about to look at the message when he heard a knock on one of his cubicle walls.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAkb8eqIaUbk
He looked up and saw Kei resting an arm on the top edge of the wall with a slumped back. "You ready to go?" Terrence blinked away distracting thoughts as he stared at Kei. He kept his eyes firmly on his.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAc7roige92x
He nodded. Kei pointed his thumb backwards and turned around, his suit jacket floating up and down as he moved. Even his rotations were big.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAnRz4M34aDR
Terrence grunted loudly and slowly as he pushed himself off his chair. Kei turned his head. "You okay?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOYG7FcpEOK
Terrence's heart, tighter than ever, decided that it would be a good idea to try and beat at a million kilometres per hour. The result was a rough throb as his heart tried to escape his ribcage. Had he still had colour in his cheeks, they would have been as red as the flame at the end of a ciggie.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAlAwcrGbFP7
He followed Kei, not letting his eyes move any more upwards than they needed to. So long as he didn't bump into something in front of Kei, he would be fine not looking into those dark quicksand eyes.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAMj6AEhy7Ll
Outside the grey walls were more grey walls that surrounded Terrence like prison bars. His inmates were looking at their watches.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAvqDVwAIdP7
"Are we going yet?" A man with black skin and perfectly combed hair asked in a gravelly voice. "Who's going help everyone get home? We need one sober person to watch over us and make sure we don't drive home or get kicked out of the bar. How about... you? What's your name?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAXvFJfuH8G8
The man pointed to Terrence, who grit his teeth. "Terre-"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAPBTA9zaNDh
Kei stood behind him and grabbed him by the shoulders, giving them a light shake like a coach encouraging a failing athlete.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAVHgmssKDXg
"Terry's gotta drink. He needs a good break. It's your idea; you stay sober."1984Please respect copyright.PENANA8wQQf6Gldn
A pale, heavily wrinkled man chuckled. He spoke in a loud, boganish voice. "It's probably best if the Abo stays away from alcohol."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAe3zrC6fMOY
The black man scowled at the wrinkled man, but his eyes were warm with mischief. "Shut up, you racist old cunt!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAXlcewqsOeV
Laughter from both men jumped into the air. It scraped through Terrence's ears, distracting him from the nickname Kei gave him earlier.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAHmTCydMfsY
Kei joined in. "I remember learning that word from an American and it was super offensive, so when I first heard it in Australia I almost punched the bloke! You Aussies!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAuqLqDcMfMj
A younger man with a shiny face and glasses on his nose put a book on Keynesian economics in his briefcase.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAqEp02DtlvC
"Mate, you're a bigger Aussie than half the blokes born here!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANASixgv9NeTu
Kei shrugged. "When you've lived in one place for twenty odd years, you tend to pick a few things up."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAByQXIpk4q6
A tall, bulky man with tan skin, tiny eyes and a baritone voice crossed his arms. "Can we hurry up and get drinks?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAc0PmS8tUuw
Kei's eyes grew. "Oh. Terry, this upstanding blackfella's Bob." He pointed to the older man. "This is Gary." He took Terrence's hand and the younger man's hand and held them together in a handshake. "I think you and Dave'll get along." The tall man released a harsh grunt. "Oh, and this is Pete. Okay, let's follow Bob." Pete grinned as if he was a prisoner being told he could finally have some leisure time.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOuHT75FN9m
The group's footsteps against the pavement were out of sync with each other. Terrence made quiet, sluggish steps behind everyone else. Bob led the pack as promised with Kei not far behind. Kei was talking about his kid again and Bob, judging by his silence and decision to stay a step in front of him, seemed to be ignoring him. Following them was Gary, who was walking side-by-side with Dave and lightheartedly arguing with him over something political. If one was to not include Terrence, an easy mistake to make, they would say Pete was the one at the back guarding everyone from a king hit. The reality was that Terrence was in the middle of the danger.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAv0LvvKZo2G
Luckily no drunk tried to punch anyone, but Terrence's shoulders were tense enough to start aching. His eyes were wide and constantly moving, scanning the street for any threats. He held his breath when the group turned a corner. He gulped that air down when he saw nobody with a fist or a knife.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYRbmjzUUky
He knew he was being stupid. He wasn't some twenty-one-year-old woman out on the streets late at night by herself. What was he afraid of? The Apex gang wasn't around here and besides, they weren't muggers. As far as he knew.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYA3ZL1eS99
He shook his head. Nothing bad was going to happen tonight. Nothing. Definitely.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA4LBm049zo2
The cacophony of footsteps continued for a good ten minutes as the group turned corners and crossed streets without paying attention to the red man in the traffic light.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAvbi6VbW9Jf
Occasionally a brown leaf would crunch underneath the weight of someone's foot. Other times the wind would tousle everyone's hair but Bob's. The regular slap of coldness sent shivers through Terrence's body.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAqk0cvd1OJO
Finally, the pilgrimage ended. An acoustic guitar and a buttery voice massaged Terrence's ears. Warm light sent a beacon through the windows. When Bob opened the creaky wooden door, chatter leapt towards the group, welcoming them in. Strong beer wafted through their noses. Terrence remembered sitting in this same bar over thirty years ago. The memory of his father handing him a drink was submerged deep in his brain.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAZgA6J069SD
As they stepped into the building, they saw televisions displaying one of two things: horse races and running men passing a red oval ball to each other. One television had a man kicking the ball and getting a point instead of a goal, angering half the people in the bar.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAdT7KtYWHM5
"Oh, come on! Step up your game!" Gary shouted, raising and bending his arm with his palm facing the ceiling. It was if he was trying to figure out how the failure could have possibly happened.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAtlESrfbqmL
Kei immediately walked up to the bar and ordered a VB. Gary followed him with an order for a Foster's Lager.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAWfT8kaV8T0
"Mate, you must be the only one keeping Foster's in business!" Dave exclaimed.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAudlacc5jav
Gary scoffed. "Well, it tastes better than that peasant's beer VB."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAA7otTcemmr
Dave ordered a margarita. Gary burst out laughing. "You some sort of faggot? What right do you have to question my taste in drinks?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAU3eSLWWjBH
"I... I just like the taste, okay?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAFEOnhibpbs
Pete got himself a Crown and no one told this big man that his choice was wrong. Kei looked at Terrence. "What are you getting?" Everyone turned to face him, their grins telling him they were ready to judge his taste before he finished the order.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAnAfzsYU0xA
Terrence didn't drink a lot. He never drank alone and it was rare for him to go to a bar with friends, as that required friends in the first place.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAodDfAbrJTn
He considered getting a VB just like Kei, but the thought of being suspected of anything made alarms sound in his head. There was no way in hell he was getting a cocktail. Foster's never tasted that great to him. Only one option was safe.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA1vlToETz1B
"I'll get a Crown."1984Please respect copyright.PENANA7sej9Qulr3
Gary considered insulting him for the hell of it until he remembered the drink in Pete's beefy hand.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAfS40m1Rvd5
Bob ordered a bowl of wedges for everyone. "Do I have to pay for everyone's food? We should have gotten a tab. We really should have thought this through."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAa7tG5kPYoo
"Oh shut it, you prig," Gary said.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAo8fanQNec1
Bob gave him a lecture on personal responsibility in the face of dwindling sobriety. As the two argued, Kei sat down at a table. Well, it was technically a barrel, but it achieved the same purpose.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAEKAocMfLUu
A novelty song blasted through Kei's pocket. He took out his phone and read a message. He frowned, but his eyes were vibrant with excitement.1984Please respect copyright.PENANArCig2GRZYH
Dave sat next to him and leant towards him. "Who was that?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAyj0iZTGtfn
"Jane. A reminder to pick up Lisa from her place tomorrow."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAvKA9YosVUr
Terrence sat next to Kei as well, despite knowing that this would be a big mistake. The high chair creaked a little under his weight.1984Please respect copyright.PENANALFZGLke0BB
He took a sip of his beer. The amber liquid slid down his throat easily, freezing his throat a little. Not too bad.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAPIPGqJDMUn
Pete sat opposite to Kei, sculling his beer down and slamming it onto the barrel. He smirked, staring at Terrence for some reason.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA5E4X66cPGv
Kei took a swig of his drink. Terrence rubbed his thumb against the neck of the bottle in his hand. He stared at the shiny surface. He looked back at Kei. He looked at Dave, who had already drunk half of his margarita.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA6dIpLcHeOP
Terrence chugged down the rest of his bottle. The rush of the cold temperature and the subtly bitter taste joined in unholy matrimony to burn his throat.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAFWyM4nlnaT
He dropped the bottle on the barrel. It rolled to the top steel hoop. He coughed, ramming his fist into his chest repeatedly. Kei asked him something, but the blankie of shame covered his ears.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAmiuKenP9IE
Pete's deep laugh seemed to shake the barrel. Terrence hung his head.
He suddenly raised his head when he felt a hand pat his back. He gulped, keeping his eyes on the empty bottle. He could feel eyes on him from next to him. They were too soft to burn into him, but they did manage to make his legs feel like they were going to melt down the chair.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAEauCTJG14n
Bob and Gary finally settled their differences and squeezed into the leftover spaces next to Pete.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYn5w4ulVhN
"So, what'd we miss?" Bob asked, his words tough to hear through the potato wedge in his mouth. Silence followed, pushing Terrence's head back down.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA3XYm8lp9P7
Kei eventually cooked up an answer. "My ex-wife. Bob, you're married, aren't you? How do you two keep your relationship together?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA5h9OE2i4CA
Bob grunted instead of laughing. "I think the question that's more important is how you and your wife couldn't keep it together."1984Please respect copyright.PENANANLeiDVdHdR
Kei looked down at the barrel and began flicking Terrence's bottle again and again as it rolled back and forth.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAaVt7WUfGVg
"I... I'd rather not talk about it."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAnNFZVqbFMF
Bob shrugged. "Then I can't help you."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAhxcEIIl9U2
Dave shifted his gaze between everyone at the table. "Uh, so... Terry, I don't know a lot about you. Uh... which team do you barrack for?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA6oN4rPczK2
Terrence's shoulders became rocks again. "Collingwood."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAcl8wQU1Eze
Gary's eyes glared at him but his lips were in a smile. "Seriously? Why the hell would you go for Collingwood?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANABNF05QMYz3
"My mum's been a big supporter for decades."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAKYl2BaoPVr
"Did she punch half your teeth out too?" Terrence's shoulders slumped. "What? You getting the Collywobbles?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAsOx3Nu4jbC
"I just…. I don’t really ‘follow’ Collingwood like you probably do for your team. I don’t watch much sport. I'm not really a huge follower of anything, really. Or anyone. I'm not into sports or TV shows or bands or anything like that. I just kind of... exist."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAzdQAZRPXaZ
Gary fell silent, raising an eyebrow and staring at the pathetic man who dared to sit at his table.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAiUbIKYAbVU
No one else spoke for a while. Pete scratched his own cheek and looked around for anything to interest him. Dave smiled with a twitching mouth as if trying to think of something to say. Bob tapped his fingers against the barrel.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAM8RXtAdFcl
Terrence sharply inhaled when he heard wood scrape against the floorboards. He whipped his head around and saw Kei standing.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAKJQmPvN4fC
"I'm gonna get another drink. Anyone else?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAiFgnrHfWjO
Gary, Pete and Dave ordered the same drink. Bob got a coke. Gary laughed at him for it, asking if one drink was all it took to get him drink, and Bob responded by saying that he made a promise to be sober and he was going to follow that to the letter.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYZDNc3gFK8
Terrence remembered something his father ordered a few years ago. He remembered him falling off the bar laughing. He also remembered him flirting with women in front of his wife.1984Please respect copyright.PENANARNsL5arEDf
"Do you still have the Grand Ridge Supershine?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAKC021Husnl
The bartender nodded and handed it to him with a concerned expression. Gary asked Terrence what beer he got.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAzUbfFx5Fc1
Terrence took a huge gulp. He immediately felt his brain slow down a little. "Only the strongest beer in Australia. They don't sell it in many places, probably ‘cause of the tax."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAxY3bPTNFSQ
"Good luck finishing that," Pete said with a laugh that was much smaller than before.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAADgThmIY8K
Everyone sat back at the table. Kei began gushing over his daughter. Dave listened politely but Gary and Pete started their own separate conversation about the footy. Bob constantly shifted his attention between both conversations. Terrence listened to every word that dripped out of Kei's mouth like the sweetest liqueur.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAXXAtLbIgVX
As he took regular sips of the Supershine, Terrence started to feel the buzz everyone talked about when it came to alcohol. He smiled. Perhaps tonight would not be too bad.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA1ktzhiJ2nP
Eventually the topic changed from Lisa to a range of subjects. Dave made a joke about Gary's fixation on the footy-showing television. Terrence laughed loudly despite himself. He stopped when he saw Kei's nostrils jump, gazing at the man in silence and taking in those dimples. Dave stared at Terrence, then Kei, then back at Terrence. He moved his mouth to the side and thought.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAAoEyUdmX1o
"Oh, come on! That was bullshit!" Everyone at the table looked at Gary with amused smiles. He continued ranting at the screen as a Collingwood player kicked a goal.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAsStKSkr9ii
Kei had a few gulps of his VB. "Wish I could yell like that at Ian." He laughed at his own comment.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAoUuRCscC8c
Dave nodded and sipped his margarita. "Yesterday he made me go through all those files. That usually takes half a day and you know how much time he gave me? Half an hour. Then the bloke has the gall to chew my head off because I couldn't get it done."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAzfkFlBnmJI
Kei held his bottle up with his index finger pointed at Dave. "That's nothing. Yesterday he wanted me to do all this complex stuff I couldn't understand and he barely gave me any direction. Said I should have learnt this where I came from. What the hell's his problem?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAz9fNRaW2J1
Dave' eyes widened so much it looked like his glasses were magnifying glasses. "You serious? Mate, you should see HR about that. That's not okay."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAevMJWq7Edo
"I wouldn't bother. It's really not that big a deal. It's just frustrating, is all. He hasn't said anything like that in a while. Ugh, that reminds me of when I told him I was going to be late but I made it just in time. You know what he said?" Terrence made the mistake of looking at his eyes. They contained the energy of a solar wind. Kei's eyebrows were furrowed and his face looked a little red. Terrence had never seen him like this before.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAaddOLIDWLY
"I heard it," Bob said. He put on a lower voice. "Geez, that was quick. You crash any cars on your way here? Man, you lot are reckless with cars." Kei groaned at the memory. Bob returned to his normal voice. "I already told HR about it and he said he'd tell Ian to think about his language. That was three months ago, wasn't it?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAtaFYhEyZX8
Kei nodded. He stood up and ordered another beer. "But we're not here to talk about work. So, what's everyone going to do tomorrow?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAAkYAenwcGZ
"I'm working an extra day tomorrow," Terrence said quietly. He suspected no one would hear him under Gary's roaring shouts. Kei's arm around his shoulders said otherwise.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAuJJ4Ivsf9b
Kei used his arm to rock Terrence from side to side. "Oh, come on. When have you ever had a Saturday off?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA33praiqeFl
"It's only for half a day. I'll be fine."1984Please respect copyright.PENANALXnPwHV9RT
Kei sighed. "Dave?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAKIoK8qMmh5
"A date with my new girlfriend."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAihjVxq33f3
Kei smirked, his eyes full of an emotion Terrence was all too familiar with. "She a looker? Got any pictures of her?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAv9xBPcfE0r
Dave took out his phone. He clicked on an app and went to the messages portion of the app. A woman with a thin body and long, wavy blonde hair appeared on the screen.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAdK5WB1dg2V
Gary asked to have a look. Dave gave him the phone. "Pig's arse you got a date with her. It's gotta be photoshopped."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAZ97bOwIPBk
"I'm meeting her in a public place so if she's nothing like the photo I can leave. I'm not a moron.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA1REF3Ydoo6
"What program is this?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAlrPRTYKN9s
"It's an app called OKCupid."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAiHrE2CWtvb
"Can I get it on my Samsung?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAn1NYy64UXe
"Probably."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYRUsn55B0F
Gary smiled. "Does everyone else look as good as this?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAQls9fsUS48
"Most don't, but you can filter out the kind of people you're not into."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAb6wBVsWFXx
Gary huffed in approval, handing him back the phone. "Technology is a wonder. I'm thinking of dating again. Are there any apps for an old man like me?" Dave nodded. Gary turned his attention back to the television, which showed his team getting a point, but his strangely soft smile remained as his mind ticked with possibilities.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAwM5Bz6lAMF
Kei's ears twitched like a rabbit's when he heard a familiar tune. He jumped out of his chair and asked Bob to watch his drink.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAx04JhBHYrQ
"Going to the toilet?" Bob asked.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAwxImpQJXM4
Kei shook his head. "Don't you know this song? It's 'Addicted to That Rush'!" Everyone stared at him with a raised eyebrow. "Mr Big! You guys don't remember Mr Big?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANASBONgl1ynS
"I only know 'To Be With You'," Pete said. "How do you know them?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAzWLNSJiroL
Kei began swaying from side to side. "They were huge in Japan! So, anyone wanna dance too?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANABlW8a4dcxA
Everyone immediately shook their heads.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAFwAMKVyPA2
Kei's furrowed eyebrows and anger-painted cheeks returned. "Well, fuck you guys." He turned around, the hem of his jacket leaping higher than ever.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAgEmiypk1bv
He dashed to the band singing the cover. He began flailing his arms as he stepped from side to side and slowly spun around.1984Please respect copyright.PENANApst0G7AKaa
Terrence watched him from a safe distance. Kei's energy was magnetic, but the magnet of public opinion was stronger.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAiUvUrlAXoL
He heard a rustle and tore his gaze from the dancing man. Bob, Dave and Pete put a ten-dollar bill each in Gary's hand. Dave grumbled something.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAffreOijRpP
Gary gave a hearty laugh. "Why'd you think it'd take six drinks? It's never taken him more than four, you moron." Dave grumbled again.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAWJg4wkR1Au
Everyone at the barrel ordered another drink. Kei came back to the table, swallowed the rest of his beer and got himself another one. Terrence decided to get another Supershine.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAjAQ4RYI6Ff
"To Fridays!" Kei shouted. Everyone joined the toast. Terrence, in particular, took a huge swig of his beer.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAX1J8pnfQb4
He began to feel a little sleepy but Kei's smile as he held his drink up energised him in a way unfamiliar to him. Public opinion had already become less potent.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAVkeS0OWOgg
Kei made a joke and Terrence howled with laughter despite all of the other men groaning. "You know, I used to think you were the biggest jackass I ever met," Terrence admitted; holding his bottle up and pointing at Kei just like Kei did to everyone. "You were always smiling like a madman so I thought you were takin' the piss." Kei giggled with a low voice like a child being given a water gun. "But after a while I saw you're not half bad. I like your dancing, by the way. Te...teach me a move or few... I mean two..."1984Please respect copyright.PENANASp6CURcvaG
The others stared at Terrence with open jaws. Keeping his eyes on the wasted man in front of him, Gary handed Bob back his ten dollars. Pete and Dave gave ten dollars to Bob as well.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA5PteeF52Km
As Terrence and Kei chatted, they inched closer and closer towards each other. Bob held on tightly to the notes in his hands. Gary chose to watch the television again. Dave and Pete joined him and had a conversation about work.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAdbYhOAylLc
Terrence asked Kei, "Seriously, why would someone leave you? You're too fuckin’ awesome. Your ex-wife must be crazy."1984Please respect copyright.PENANALMIuh7Neiy
Kei laughed and rubbed his neck before taking a few more gulps of VB. "She loved me but said there was something off about me. Said I should be more confident in the bedroom. Chicks these days are always about confidence."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAfWG9vekZXU
"You? Not confident? You must be joking."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAmu4uwTdvmg
"I'm not. I loved her too and she was incredibly sexy, but I acted like there was some... thing that made me not complete, like there was something I hadn't figured out. I still don't know what it is."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAkaOZxeTHiR
Kei squinted his eyes and studied Terrence's face. "I thought you reminded me of someone. You look like that bloke I slept with back in Japan!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAo0qHG1lTv4
All of the patrons at the bar stopped talking and swivelled their heads in Kei's direction. Kei beamed at the dexterity his own memory.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAAe2h5s8710
Gary looked at him with eyes that popped out of their sockets. He opened and closed his mouth a few times before speaking.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAcU6mDxXuuz
"You fucked a bloke?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA82InuOXBuo
Kei answered immediately as if he was having a conversation about the weather. "Yeah. He was a bit thinner than Terry here but he had the same sorta face. What a coincidence!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAiF9zJx33Cd
Gary blinked, still stuck on one thing. "You fucked a bloke?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAgxeECDfw9f
Bob sighed in relief and put his money in his wallet. "Why exactly did you do that?" he asked.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOA1kmpaK8Q
Kei tapped his chin as if trying to tap into his memories. "It was his idea. How old was I? 19? He was in a lot of my classes at uni. It was pretty good if I do say so myself. I think he had a crush on me but I never really asked him about it."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAIze3V2KiaX
Gary's jaw tightened. "You fucked a-"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA8KLRJHEkBL
David covered Gary's mouth. "I think what Gary's trying to ask here is... are you gay?" Gary pushed David’s hand away.1984Please respect copyright.PENANATD5juF4XdT
Kei shook his head like a wet dog. "Nah, I'm not gay. We just had a little fun that night and didn't talk about it again. We stayed normal friends for the rest of our time at uni. In fact, I kinda forgot about it until now." He rubbed the back of his head and laughed. "I wonder if he still remembers it. I haven't called him in a long time. International calls are expensive, you know?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANApcmAfzxeOq
Gary puffed his cheeks and pushed air out. He raised his hands and then dropped them. "Okay."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAGhp5z9cQUu
"What was he like?" Terrence asked, leaning in even closer to Kei.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAJkTknGnSyM
Dave and Pete smiled smugly at Bob, who glared at them with his arms crossed.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAedySv6sD2n
Kei tapped his chin again, seemingly unperturbed by the close proximity. "He was pretty eager. Also very experienced. He certainly knew how to use his tongue." Gary winced. "Like I said, I'm not gay but if a guy like that was in my life I'd certainly try it again- hmph!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANASJSXzZ0XpH
Gary dropped his bottle. It hit the edge of the barrel and fell to the ground, creating a mosaic of broken pieces. He didn't observe how the pieces created a picture or appreciate how the light above made the slain bottle sparkle. He wasn't even angry at himself for breaking a perfectly good bottle, something an Aussie bloke like him would easily feel. He wouldn't have been able to avoid the sight in front of him if someone had ripped out his eyes and thrown them over the Eureka Tower.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAQqx6AWQFyy
Pete, Bob and Dave held their money and froze, waiting for the results. On one of the televisions, a single horse was 20 metres away from the finish line but another horse was catching up.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAjIZ1cJZIEE
Reciprocation quickly caught up to Uneven Desire, with Nothing of Consequence straggling behind as a distant number three.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOfXqCPPytC
Reciprocation passed Uneven Desire, but could he make it to the finish line first? After a rough start at the barriers, he made an impressive comeback. He was nearly there and the audience could almost taste the victory.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAl9wKt9qsP6
Kei added tongue and Reciprocation crossed the finish line half a metre ahead of Uneven Desire!1984Please respect copyright.PENANAG6ktSPWZ3z
Pete and Bob yelled out their frustrations as if their favourite team had just lost a game of footy. They handed some of their money to Dave, whose smile was drenched in a hundred litres of smugness.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAmQTlziCsnj
"Oh, come on," Bob pleaded. "They're drunk so it doesn't count."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOXAwDkyMY2
Gary finally broke out of his self-sustained torture to decipher what the others were doing. "You all knew? How the fuck did you all know?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANARRXeTl4AxP
Bob shook his head. "I said neither of them is gay. Pete believed that Terrence's gay but Kei isn't. Dave said both of them are probably as straight as the sun."1984Please respect copyright.PENANA1mzEhMpM5U
Kei stopped his French kiss with Terrence just to say, "I'm not gay!" He immediately returned to the kiss.1984Please respect copyright.PENANASMCEJtViCY
They kept going at it, moving their hands anywhere and everywhere. A few people in the bar watched with shock.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAEzwLnBV8RD
"Get a room!" One woman shouted. Kei broke from the kiss again, his cheeks burning and his middle finger raised upwards.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA2fdWQhCayn
Terrence grabbed Kei's chin and pulled it towards him so that the man was facing him again. "How was I? Anything like him?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA6IXbvZkwWC
Kei hummed in thought. "You're not as good as him," he said with inadvertent bluntness.1984Please respect copyright.PENANATFNQQv8Gzp
Terrence kissed him again with more determination. He began to notice Kei's smells and tastes, from the sweat mixed with his cheap cologne to the almost metallic bitterness of his fermented breath.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAbyQArMbFDc
"How about now?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAOILoNPXSt2
Kei shook his head. "Better, but not quite to his level. Maybe third time's a- hmph!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANATWzzMz1r9C
The kiss continued. Kei slid his hand down Terrence's body until he reached his crotch. Bob immediately jumped out of his seat and ran to them, grabbing Kei's arm and pulling it away.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA3JbfJBlqQ7
Kei tore his arm from Bob's grasp. "What's wrong with you? Let me have a break. It's Friday, for Christ's sake!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA9LztYIKs2q
"I'm not letting you do something you'll deeply regret tomorrow. If I did that, I would be sober for no goddamn reason."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAoyVYO6as4n
Gary released loud, mocking laughter. "Is he already completely off his face?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAr6KB59mztl
Dave turned his attention towards Pete, whom he noticed was looking away with his arms crossed and rubbing his lips together. The man was blinking frequently. He picked up his bottle and tried to enjoy a few gulps. He threw the now empty bottle onto the barrel and pushed his chair backwards, the deafening squeak causing Dave to cringe. Pete walked to the bar and ordered another drink, but this time he got a Supershine.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAbAbDjJnwGd
He made a ritual out of taking a sip and whispering to himself, a tear occasionally slipping out of his eyes like a criminal escaping their prison cell.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA3oyM5TyFgQ
Bob and Kei continued arguing. "You a bigot?" Kei asked in a slur.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAsPlgtB1lRU
"I thought you said you're not gay," Bob retorted.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAKNLqiWnSgX
"I'm not but you're still a bigot. You're against me doing this. Why can't I have some fun, ay? Why can't I have some fuckin’ f-"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAi2QNbyLsEk
"You don't know what you're doing." Bob took a whiff of Kei's breath. "You're not having any more drinks."
Kei picked up the wrong bottle (Terrence's, to be exact) and took several giant gulps in a startlingly short time. "Make me!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAbtxJZYCNYA
Bob tried to wrench the bottle from his hand but Kei held onto it as tightly as a drunk man could. Kei tried to punch Bob but he missed him. He tried and failed over and over again. Bob grabbed the man's arms and held them with the strongest grip he could muster.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA0fHWQ5i9Y5
A waitress from the restaurant section of the bar walked up to the group with slow, tentative steps.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAJGjnKZyy00
"We're going to have to ask you to leave. I'm sorry but you're disturbing the other customers."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAuo9cT39B2A
Kei began a tirade of swearing in Japanese. Bob apologised to the waitress and pulled Kei out of the pub, the other men following them.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAEFFw8gTbMn
Bob asked, "Is everyone here?" with a sigh and the others nodded in affirmative with the exception of Kei. Kei growled, hissing Japanese words at the air.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAqLb2Dzmz9Q
Terrence tried to speak to him but the usually talkative man stared at him with eyes widened by confusion and an open but silent mouth.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAsQJwMZ8t5h
Pete continued murmuring, but Dave was finally able to hear what he was saying. "Everyone's in fucking relationships." He noticed a few more tears sliding down Pete's face.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAvUJOb2KJnV
Gary laughed at the mental state of Kei, who leant against the wall and looked as if he was about to fall onto the ground. Gary swayed a little with each laugh that tumbled out of his mouth.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAZD6vulOP60
Dave himself felt a little lightheaded but he still had a bit of control of his basic mental faculties. Bob asked him to look after the others and walked back to his car.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAYzyDnjvcF6
His shoes clicked against the pavement with solitary echoes, sounding completely different from the discordant orchestra of footsteps a few hours ago. He carefully considered what to do given that his car only had five seats. Letting David drive himself home could be a problem no matter how sober he acted. Public intoxication was outlawed and Kei and Terrence would be easy to spot, so he couldn't leave them. But could he really break the law himself and have two people share one seat?1984Please respect copyright.PENANAGt3B5jzjFB
He slowed his steps as he ran through every possibility. He put the laws he would break or allow to be broken on a scale. Public Intoxication or a seatbelt offence? He sped up as he reached his answer. He entered his car and drove to the bar.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAukeYQ5fRbO
When he arrived, Dave gave him a weak smile. Bob’s eyes furrowed like a general’s. "Terrence and Kei can share a... on second thought, I'll get you to share with Kei, Dave. Terrence and Gary can sit in the back and Pete can sit in the front. Sound good?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAqwAANobnfY
Dave, Pete and Gary nodded. Pete and Bob worked together to push a squirming Kei into the car. Terrence was a little easier as he didn't kick or punch, but his weight as he began losing control of his limbs put intense pressure on Pete and Bob's bent knees.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAEZcRqMY5le
The drive was silent except for a few sobs from Pete and the occasional whisper of Japanese from Kei. Bob dropped each man to their house except for Terrence, who was unable to clearly communicate his address. He let that man sleep at his house. Terrene fell asleep easily.1984Please respect copyright.PENANASL48sf1Cjr
The beep of the microwave woke him up. He looked around and saw familiar grey walls. He slowly pulled out his beef stroganoff from the microwave. He sat at the empty table he always sat at, resting his head in his hand as it pumped pain through the area connecting his head and neck. He tried to piece together what had happened.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAo1Y7mX5XJL
He vaguely remembered apologising to Bob that morning and thanking him for letting him stay the night. He remembered being kicked out of the bar, but he couldn't think of why. His tongue began to recollect a few sensations, such as the taste of VB.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAPVHI94SdjK
"Shit," he whispered. Was post-intoxication sleepwalking and sleep-apologising a thing? He took a bite of his stroganoff and tried to have it cover the VB like a rug hiding a dead body.1984Please respect copyright.PENANADRJcdkXpp2
The rest of the day carried the same haze as that morning.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA5PkNTWPlzu
The next day was no different, but he guessed that he was having a Sunday Roast with his family and answering each question directed at him with a generic answer. His mother talked about how she found another woman for him, but he made excuses about how busy he was.1984Please respect copyright.PENANATdNlU0KHk4
The mist cleared away when he saw Kei Monday morning. He said hello to him and was greeted by a small smile and nothing else. Kei brushed past him with quick steps.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAya3uMYAGk3
Terrence felt as if his heart, at first churning like a well-oiled machine at the very sight of Kei, had stopped working because of a cold, hard stone being thrown into that machine.1984Please respect copyright.PENANABUPPNM6qP2
Kei didn't come to his cubicle to ask about a fax or anything like that. He didn't even send an email. Was he finally able to get everything done himself?1984Please respect copyright.PENANAxj0GV16sos
When the lunch break began, Terrence waved at Kei, who smiled again and looked away. No dimples appeared on his face. Kei chatted with the same girl from Friday.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA0SJePKDkye
Gary sat next to Terrence. "Hey, how ya going? Have fun on Friday?" he asked, nudging his elbow onto Terrence's ribs. "I... I never saw you and thought, 'Well, he's a poof.' Do you know how the others guessed?" Terrence's eyes glued to Kei's face gave Gary the answer he needed.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAoXX6Tex8Va
Terrence gulped and stood up, leaving his food alone. He made slow steps towards Kei, reassuring himself that whatever he did now would be no worse than kissing him.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAeGNiZezpq5
He touched his shoulder. "Can I... speak to you?" Kei nodded. "Can we talk outside?" Kei nodded again.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAs6SbVNw5vz
The air outside was a tad cold, the breeze giving both men a shiver. The streets were mostly empty, with the nearest person well past hearing distance.1984Please respect copyright.PENANAVtIlTpYQFF
"Are... I'm sorry for asking such a weird question, but... are you avoiding me?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAhs6W5lN1uY
Kei looked around the area for a way to answer. "I... it's not like I'm trying to avoid you." He blew some air out, assaulting Terrence with the stench of peppermint. He leant against the wall. "I just see your face and... I can't help but remember what happened Friday night. Vividly, in fact." Terrence began to resent the peppermint. "Well, until we were kicked out of the bar. I can't remember a thing after that."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAHHXJj8sqvV
Terrence looked at the ground. "I would suggest we forget it happened, but..." He took a deep breath and lifted his head until his eyes met with Kei's. "To be honest with you, I don't want to forget."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAIN0yOgZ33U
Kei immediately looked away. "Is that how it is?" Terrence grunted his yes. Kei frowned, rubbing his face. "So you're going to remember every stupid thing I said that night for the rest of your life? Do you know what happened the next day? I woke up late so I had to hurry to pick up Lisa and when I saw Jane, I... I could barely talk to her because I didn't want what was happened slip out of my mouth. Her eyes were interrogating me like they always do, but this time there was something she might have spotted!"1984Please respect copyright.PENANA25TfB9u5yn
"You're divorced, so... would it make that much of a difference if you told her you're ga-"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAnR1NfduftU
"I'm not gay!" The woman getting into a car in the distance heard Kei's shout as it played over again in the air like a song on repeat. She entered the car more quickly and drove off. "I like women."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAeznT39e5Es
"Are you… bisexual?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANANUo2E4C6kR
Kei's cheeks reached the colour of the Australia Post box. "That... let's not make this any more complicated than it needs to be. And that's missing the point. I managed to forget that incident with Ayumu and after Friday night I can't stop thinking about it. I hate looking at you right now because then every godawful memory comes back up like fucking vomit. How much do you remember?"1984Please respect copyright.PENANAtkFmYlImcY
"I remember the gist of it."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAFXWQqXUMuH
"I remember every excruciating detail!" Kei sighed. "I'm sorry for yelling. I don't... I'm really sorry, but I'd prefer it if we didn't, you know, talk or hang out... just for a little while. I need to forget about this. It would probably be best if you forgot about it too."1984Please respect copyright.PENANAoyDtwZ2tDv
Terrence nodded and walked into the building with laboured steps. He spent the rest of his lunch break eating with his head down, ignoring Gary's chatter about the footy. He saw out the corner of his eye that Kei was laughing and talking with another woman.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA8CBMREbSQT
When he finished his meal he chucked the plastic container in the bin and headed back his own little cubicle, his shoulders low as he tried to do what Kei suggested.1984Please respect copyright.PENANA06E8YO7lU1
What he didn't realise was that Kei was staring at him as he walked away, his eyes taking a swig of his features like a nice cold beer.
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