他並非生氣,只是某種有如一頭困獸般的疲乏。98Please respect copyright.PENANAwf1dZKXUIV
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不是受挫,也不是心理防線崩潰,只是壓抑著不算高漲的情緒。98Please respect copyright.PENANAP3CzSITqQc
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那份異常似乎不針對誰。或許是煩躁,或許只是剛好心情糟糕。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAA5T7j8zuhF
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向菱垂下眸子,轉開視線。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAMfO4pIojNy
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她覺得,祁澈實在是一個很矛盾的人。98Please respect copyright.PENANA7WOnDnxmD1
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——對他來說,世界上的人似乎只分為兩種。 98Please respect copyright.PENANACu49FodyxD
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在乎的人,以及無關的人。 98Please respect copyright.PENANArvxXMBNwv6
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他脾氣極壞,但那些脾氣是可控的,並且似乎只針對不在意的人發作。98Please respect copyright.PENANAR8oRcug6ry
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對於不在乎的人們,他甚至可以直接把那些人按著揍,而他並不會對任何受害者感到抱歉。98Please respect copyright.PENANAN8iM3RSsjR
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但是,祁澈真正在乎的那些少數人,別人休想動他們一下。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAdnLXKyXunM
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因為一旦被盯上了,就會立刻被反咬、報復。98Please respect copyright.PENANAELuuqk1zSQ
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他可能,就是這樣的人。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAcT3HZ57H84
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……98Please respect copyright.PENANAPVqiCjCcrf
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夜色籠罩下的男生宿舍裡。98Please respect copyright.PENANALNoK7A0gc9
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短暫沉默後,少女清脆的說話聲忽然響起。98Please respect copyright.PENANAiWMtvBtzyi
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「我問你,如果把世界切成兩半,」她慢慢說道,「一邊站的是你在乎的人,其他人站到另一邊去。」98Please respect copyright.PENANA0sLJFZeJwP
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「嗯?」98Please respect copyright.PENANANMCmycheUh
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「那你會把自己放在哪裡?」她輕聲說完,用力嚥了下口水。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA5tH59xWKkk
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「不在乎的那一邊。」98Please respect copyright.PENANAaSSTQfEGvu
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今夜漫長,月色黯然,月球悄然無聲被雲彩遮住大半。98Please respect copyright.PENANAeWovBwJGky
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那一晚,她離開後,少年做了個詭異的夢。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAGye1LXwcXB
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四周一片漆黑,壓力環伺,恍若被什麼可懼的東西盯上。98Please respect copyright.PENANAABaWzbjaC5
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——野獸的目光。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAYjlGjuZNkQ
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看不見,耳裡聽到的聲音既混亂又雜亂無章,毫無規律可言。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvX1wVjfyAp
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出口的話成了碾碎的片段,光怪陸離的閃光浮現又一閃而逝。98Please respect copyright.PENANA6Jetwk9MN2
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世界在傾倒,同時也在下墜。98Please respect copyright.PENANACoFJgpfPPC
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傷疤被毫不留情地揭開,猙獰的傷口完全暴露在空氣中,凝血彷彿失常,暗紅血液汩汩流淌。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAY48kiygCCN
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麻木似的,做夢沒有痛覺。98Please respect copyright.PENANAr54dNl65Jd
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持續墜落的踩空感覺在夢境中分外真實。98Please respect copyright.PENANAIwSm7BSh9s
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突然腳跟像是觸碰到什麼冰涼的東西,冰冷的觸感從末梢神經擴散到全身,緊接著是近乎窒息的冷意。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxYR67Uwe4v
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——落海。98Please respect copyright.PENANAp7895Y1hCm
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如她所說的那樣,也如同實際遭遇過的那樣。98Please respect copyright.PENANAFJCvqrNwbj
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清晰的知道自己在噩夢裡,卻醒不來。祁澈感覺得到海水又冷又鹹,分不清是回憶倒放還是夢境。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAIGPH4CwHbV
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完全沒有預警,無所謂,反正他從來就不在乎任何。98Please respect copyright.PENANAbQqh2u0gsc
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如果自己消失的話,那些人會過上更舒服的日子吧。98Please respect copyright.PENANAmDPDjhqrJn
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類似的嘲諷念頭劃過腦海。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAqpHvBu6Tpz
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這大概是從什麼八點檔裡抄來的惱人劇情——念頭冒出來的時候,他諷刺自己一句。98Please respect copyright.PENANA1CNxuE2JNu
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事發的時候,究竟是多少年前,別人大概記得比他自己更清楚。98Please respect copyright.PENANABpQJVNTxN4
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明明好像也沒過多久。 98Please respect copyright.PENANArW5X1awiRt
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那夜的南雨鎮,也在下雨。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA35H1u9v5zy
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狂風暴雨的架式,像是要把人捲進大海裡。毫無預兆的那種,彷彿有人給你一個驚喜。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAW9IoxIQ3mB
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時間宛如倒流,夢境的場景回到不知多久以前,那夜除夕的海岸邊。98Please respect copyright.PENANAaPfyujhyQz
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浪忽地驟強,海嘯警報從鎮上的廣播喇叭喇傾瀉而出。器材老舊,音質顯得沙啞。98Please respect copyright.PENANAI8wUnW0JrE
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潮水一波波湧上,浪潮漸高,伴隨著強烈海嘯,小鎮似乎被黑夜及狂雨籠罩。98Please respect copyright.PENANAriotHuWJ3U
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少年獨自站在海邊崖上,自虐式的,就只是怔怔的乾站著。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA5xxk0VxSiv
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——其實他從來就沒想過跳下去,也從來沒有那種打算。98Please respect copyright.PENANAi9mndUKUVH
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海浪挾帶著一種把人捲下去的氣勢。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAi4LqKYhWeB
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浪太大,他站得太近,一切事件的發生連貫得理所當然。98Please respect copyright.PENANAKQUFKMsbGt
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不過,當浪真的把自己席捲下去時,他腦子裡閃過的念頭有些過於隨便——好像,也無所謂。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAU8xOOY7dbE
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那一夜很冷。除此之外,相關的記憶幾乎等於零。98Please respect copyright.PENANAbZDcf68Wbu
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破碎的廣播音,短暫的失神。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAspnGt0YYMa
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雨幕是殺死夜的嫌疑犯,雨停了,天也跟著濛濛亮了。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAd6xBCEZNyA
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海水並不會因為朝陽升起就乾涸。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAcllKK68NDq
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沒人發現落海的孩子,他獨自掙扎著浮起來呼吸,他命大,那塊海岸的水又深,沒摔出什麼大傷。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA88X79TjafY
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意識仍然恍恍惚惚,一絲模糊的念頭從精神的縫隙竄了出來。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA57pSfKZE9o
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完了,昨晚沒給祁小波留晚飯。98Please respect copyright.PENANA083cAPLehw
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…… 98Please respect copyright.PENANANXzfCkmT4w
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後來,他是自己攀著石頭回岸邊的,然後一個人拖著腳步走掉。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAHS5b1kHNjN
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身上都是攀著礁石擦出來的傷,渾身濕透又難受,刺痛到令人煩躁。98Please respect copyright.PENANA5ELw0JI7X8
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回去的路上,他特意抄進常年無人經過的窄巷子。可沈中奕卻突然冒出來,逼問他前一夜消失不歸的緣由。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAnaspF6ZV0G
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「掉海裡?」沈中奕的眼睛瞬間瞪大。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAm2GrixgQ5R
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「所以你那是什麼,自殺?」 98Please respect copyright.PENANAsOvbUIG8Ye
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不可置信的眼神。98Please respect copyright.PENANAfGmqe6u7Ft
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沈中奕是典型「話多反應大」的性格,他看到祁澈滿身狼狽的樣子,又聯想到那段時間他生活有多困難,於是,直覺認定對方是去尋死了。98Please respect copyright.PENANAa2hY6PXGay
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「……你他媽是在找死嗎?搞什麼,這樣你妹妹要怎麼辦?」 98Please respect copyright.PENANA5VyL0t6TCk
98Please respect copyright.PENANA4x4WnbaIn1
祁澈沒怎麼認真聽他說話,又根本沒聽進對方那一長串的譴責,便直接把那些話給敷衍了過去。98Please respect copyright.PENANAIeSXFqLxpn
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那天,是大年初一。98Please respect copyright.PENANAa3kn0IzICx
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沈中奕大概把他的反應當成了默認,還真的以為這是一場自我了斷。98Please respect copyright.PENANABikYaNSLr9
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於是,沈中奕每年春節都打電話過來。明面上是恭喜新年,實際上他的用意太明顯,祁澈早就看透,只是沒有說而已。98Please respect copyright.PENANA8pVMlfVNl3
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——他甚至沒有辯解,其實是那天南雨的風浪太大,其實他只是單純的失足落水罷了。 98Please respect copyright.PENANADOmzjXgj3k
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再後來,沒什麼好說的。他斷斷續續高燒了幾天,只覺得愈加煩躁,眼前陷入一片漆黑。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAPbo8t8vC8h
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之後的事太無趣,所以夢境就在這裡停了。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAdfvG2Hc9Pr
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有時候,睡夢和回憶只有一線之隔。 98Please respect copyright.PENANASScAdmXw3A
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剎那,夢醒。98Please respect copyright.PENANAGG4QIeKrpI
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稱不上是回憶的往事影像跟著消失,空蕩的房間由模糊變得清晰。98Please respect copyright.PENANA6cVVDEZKCx
98Please respect copyright.PENANAhwHEHCh58i
祁澈幾乎是埋在書桌的桌面上睡著的。天還沒亮,手機的螢幕亮起,顯示出從剛才到現在,只過去了三個半小時。98Please respect copyright.PENANAo8hlOehVoo
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有時候時間的確過得很快,但大部分時候,它走得很慢很慢。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAyuotW2znat
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祁小波在雙層床的上鋪呼呼大睡,大概要再六、七個鐘頭才能叫她起來。98Please respect copyright.PENANAH7Ssapje2x
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腦海被毫無意義的斷簡殘篇充斥著,混亂又聒噪。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAHRr3cGaKWS
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少年慢吞吞闔眼,埋回自己彎起的肘間。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAXM3EikqR62
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想法很亂,意識卻清醒得過分。 98Please respect copyright.PENANABApv6trUgr
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不久之前,他推估也就三、四個小時前,房裡氣氛僵硬,少女自顧自扒完那碗關東煮,然後就提出要離開。98Please respect copyright.PENANAtkOJhYysI0
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他沒有阻攔。98Please respect copyright.PENANAoOXdJXBO5B
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她離開的時候,甚至順手把那袋關東煮的垃圾留在門邊。98Please respect copyright.PENANAt7QyutZDDH
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…… 98Please respect copyright.PENANAN7e1Xmin9u
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夜色闌珊,窗外山頭一片漆黑,沒開燈的宿舍房間映出深沉。98Please respect copyright.PENANAxQUzeIQ4n3
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——那為什麼她不跟那袋垃圾一起留下啊。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA7RpeRLZePE
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荒謬,他也沒挽留那袋垃圾啊。98Please respect copyright.PENANA2aGDb9QtZJ
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……98Please respect copyright.PENANAWkIAyfPK3s
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少年自嘲似的無聲笑了一下。98Please respect copyright.PENANAZsL1A7hjN8
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他覺得,自己可能腦子有病。98Please respect copyright.PENANAWYOa4q33Mx
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寒假那段期間,宿舍裡只有兩個人,其餘室友都不在。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAz7IIw9LozR
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還是同一個日子,仍然是同一個夜裡。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAIE2qlG730Z
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夜色很暗,男生宿舍,雙層床的上鋪裡,祁小波悄悄睜開了眼睛。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAkQQyVxhLAJ
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——六、七歲孩子的年紀雖小,但她其實很敏銳。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA04gZbxvUtu
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祁小波有時候半夜醒來,會發現哥哥根本沒有在睡覺。 98Please respect copyright.PENANACab6fDh29d
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她睜開眼睛,房間裡很安靜,哥哥就坐在書桌前,眼神很空,不知道在想什麼。98Please respect copyright.PENANAFSUkBuuEeV
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祁小波不太理解「空洞」這個詞的意思,也還沒學會使用這種詞彙。98Please respect copyright.PENANA3LR29FGoL5
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但她就是能察覺到,哥哥看起來好像沒什麼精神,眼底沒有光亮,有時候,甚至像是在看一個不存在的地方。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAIVlyyD80kB
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如果換作是平常,他的眼神必定是清醒的,帶有一種屬於少年的銳氣。98Please respect copyright.PENANAwwf9OqzVgb
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可是,在那種時候不一樣。 98Please respect copyright.PENANApqm22MGIER
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祁小波看不透她哥哥在想什麼。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAguv6x1APQE
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然後隔天早晨醒來之後,她會問一句:「哥哥,你昨天沒有睡覺嗎?」 98Please respect copyright.PENANAZpnnVPf3Cv
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他會回答:「……睡了。」 98Please respect copyright.PENANAwsz24Em34w
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——但是她知道,哥哥那時候一定是在說謊。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAqCL6LjG3mj
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祁小波的想法很單純,別人都以為她哥哥兇,但她知道並非那樣。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA9Fjpf6oBaK
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她哥哥才不是真的兇呢,明明自己都沒錢,還是會偷偷給她買好吃的。 98Please respect copyright.PENANA8SrS07zMgk
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他總是讓祁小波別亂跑、別吵鬧,但其實她一撒嬌,哥哥就會帶她去買糖吃。 98Please respect copyright.PENANANgF4IyRI7N
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祁小波心裡的祁澈,或許是世界上最厲害最溫柔的一個人。98Please respect copyright.PENANAbkIdvPOFIm
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但是她覺得,有些時候,哥哥看起來很累。98Please respect copyright.PENANAvuUwiIqXHC
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他的眼神會變得很淡、很靜,甚至有點「空」。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAgzwBoxOdjO
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祁小波有點害怕他這樣。98Please respect copyright.PENANAM4nx58mjPX
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那種時候,他會笑一下,但那只是一種「安撫小孩用的笑」,眼睛裡卻沒有真的笑意。 98Please respect copyright.PENANAnBgP6AUXgC
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這樣的笑,和平常完全不一樣,祁小波看得出來。98Please respect copyright.PENANAIjzqJygtfw
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她不一定能理解「累」這個字的全部含義,但她能察覺到哥哥不對勁,然後用自己的方式去理解。98Please respect copyright.PENANAkbAnCtRBkv
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——哥哥每天都很累,但又不說。 98Please respect copyright.PENANANT79JuEIij
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祁小波不是笨蛋,她能看出來。98Please respect copyright.PENANA9EXXoDdeXW