向菱出教室,來到走廊上,突然就覺得南雨鎮的三月不存在春天。74Please respect copyright.PENANAQpwcywFbRS
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據說祁小波感冒了,所以向菱那天沒有陪她出去玩。74Please respect copyright.PENANATzqsL4Nna2
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這事是祁澈先和她提的,那時他像是隨口一提,她點點頭,表示回應。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA3D7Li1urhc
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她原本和祁小波約好要一同去公園溜滑梯的,但因為此事,也只好之後再說了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAqnusaB3aKQ
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海邊小鎮的春季多雨,多雲又帶點悶熱,海浪拍打得更加兇狠,雨下得更為頻繁。74Please respect copyright.PENANAjyPPG2DaY3
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用一個字來總結就是——躁。74Please respect copyright.PENANAyWEDIEnF9u
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高二下學期的春天,學生們到了適合思考自己生涯的年紀。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAwf7Nkki5B9
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台上的教師總會在講課時有意無意地提起,同儕間偶爾也有討論,引起不少人開始規劃。74Please respect copyright.PENANA5N32XIp7od
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楊宛和向菱聊到這個話題時,楊宛提起了她的志向。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAIasL5DyGF0
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「我故鄉那所大學的服裝設計系!」 74Please respect copyright.PENANA563p26Qm5I
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幾個同班同學也跟著提出了各自的目標,似乎已經充滿鬥志。74Please respect copyright.PENANAogKxFaxahH
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某個女同學說道:「我想去北渝市!」74Please respect copyright.PENANA81wGKB2cQK
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另一個男同學順著她的話建議,「我也是,要不我們結伴吧?」74Please respect copyright.PENANAx1TDMRB6tx
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「哈哈哈哈你們倆還真是般配——」74Please respect copyright.PENANAKKOxSsydjh
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眾人笑鬧成一團,那對男女被同學們說得臉紅了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAiWv6IkA3mG
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十七、八歲的年紀,本就應該意氣風發,昂首挺胸,耀眼熱烈。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA5QPBNw57bT
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向菱卻是在此時變得心不在焉,默默退出了討論。 74Please respect copyright.PENANASHkIt88axe
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她一直以來,都有些迷惘。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA8dg08IrDnm
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少女悄然離開剛才嬉鬧著的人群,沒有目標的閒晃,直到她莫名其妙地抵達了教室外稍遠偏僻的走廊。74Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1hZZcZcGq
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那裡是安靜而沒有人煙的地方。 楊宛問了她不少關於將來的問題,她卻經常回答不上來。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAisrCEaU5eu
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「北渝市不錯啊,而且你已經是文學界的大人物了,感覺很有前途嘛。」74Please respect copyright.PENANAnxWHXz3Hpl
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向菱不知道怎麼回應這種話。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAxAw40CFD0Q
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因為她當初會步入文學,只是為了躲避身後的經濟、心理壓力,她只是想遠離。74Please respect copyright.PENANAy4ffxDnjsS
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那時候,鄭娟因為向里的過世而開始出現異常行為,經濟困頓,她沒有專長又未達可以打工的年紀,於是只好拿出自己的興趣。74Please respect copyright.PENANAh8rPOczdWA
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結果最後越走越遠,她已經看不見家庭了。74Please respect copyright.PENANA69DkqD9Ikn
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自那以後,她逐漸把寫故事當成了工作,而不是原先最純粹的興趣。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAqwftJjnSZh
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思考大綱成為習慣,那麼提筆寫作就是例行公事。74Please respect copyright.PENANAg4W3rmLp4S
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她仍然喜歡文字,仍會從故事裡得到快樂,不過她好像成為了一個工作狂,也對這樣的現況感到迷惑。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAvTBo9HNIIE
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向菱覺得自己還挺矛盾的,遲遲想不通。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA3AtzNFeAg3
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她想起前陣子,室友王曉認真問過她的話。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA5FQ5LNlHLg
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「你有想過未來嗎?」74Please respect copyright.PENANArs0SIRNYM5
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——怎麼想?74Please respect copyright.PENANARDc9du2XbK
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要怎麼想,才是正確的? 74Please respect copyright.PENANAiJ2Z9frvgA
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她那時候沒有回應,只是勉強扯了扯唇角,以示附和。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAGZu5a4aX8J
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大家都具有計畫,擁有目標,唯有她卻像是迷路的小孩子似的,不知所措的站在交叉路口。74Please respect copyright.PENANA66JwvSIZpV
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向菱不知道有沒有人可以來拉她一把。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAwqbDqef7qz
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後來,大概又過了一段時間,文壇裡的朋友言恬,她說的話迫使少女開始直接面對另一件事。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAHr8QmqObTQ
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——她似乎喜歡上一個人了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAPy8AgCwpqw
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原來不知不覺間,她也抵達了,會因為學業和愛戀煩惱的年紀。74Please respect copyright.PENANAasiBkOkIr7
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那些事讓她愈來愈困惑,無法立即下決定但又無法乾脆割捨,陷入一種無止境的內耗裡。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAH1IXacYqbv
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這很不像向菱以往的風格,不乾脆,而且拖泥帶水。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA4tdf6Gb0VS
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她覺得越來越看不懂自己了。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA4m3iNHh3tX
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這麼稱呼似乎有點矯情,只不過她喜歡的人……算了,還是稱呼全名吧,祁澈。74Please respect copyright.PENANAALXUkYDBbg
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——她喜歡的人,祁澈,從中午那節午休之後就消失了、再也沒回教室了。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAgyAEdakMEE
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這種事不是第一次發生了,下午時向菱問過沈中奕,對方一臉莫名的丟給她一句——你第一天認識祁澈嗎?74Please respect copyright.PENANAJiUUmFjuTV
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…… 話雖如此,向菱還是有一點想找他說話。74Please respect copyright.PENANAoe6La6oJsx
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放學後,她打開手機,讓螢幕畫面在對話框裡停滯,一邊思忖著她應該說些什麼。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAwDkIV1TFuo
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「祁澈。」 74Please respect copyright.PENANAxfAU6NW8S2
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無意識的輸入了這個名字。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAR39aDOJWhN
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彷彿肢體比她先記住,這個人的身影。74Please respect copyright.PENANADaljZT0qZo
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奇怪了,她又不是失戀,只是和他說話的機會減少而已,自己在發什麼神經。74Please respect copyright.PENANA2OaeDYrlJx
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半個下午都過得魂不守舍,難道這個人是她過活必須的能量嗎?74Please respect copyright.PENANARsQtpgWQOH
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她腹誹了一會,手動刪掉輸入框的文字,重新輸入。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAGhNg1TGBBq
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——「在嗎?」不對。74Please respect copyright.PENANAy3mQWeTmUR
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意圖太明顯了。74Please respect copyright.PENANA8g7F355uJa
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——「你在幹麼?」也不對,這樣未免太故意了點。74Please respect copyright.PENANA0yseGuk5Mb
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她猶豫著要發什麼訊息,最終還是沒發,盯著那個對話框框發怔。74Please respect copyright.PENANATIbDnFho3L
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幾分鐘後,向菱挪動指尖,點按幾下手機,忽然突發奇想決定給他取個名稱備註。74Please respect copyright.PENANAn1bkOxCYj6
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指尖在空白的名稱框裡停頓了下。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAzIOjh9JLOa
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然後,她沒什麼猶豫的從手機鍵盤裡戳出一個「?」,想表示神秘又行蹤不明的意味。74Please respect copyright.PENANAS3EDwdzHkr
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三秒鐘後又迅速刪掉,默默改成了別的內容。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAjHAZ7Tbgkq
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她怔了幾秒才按下確定按鈕,看著新備註,她突然覺得心裡樂得不行,唯一美中不足的是她有些羞恥。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAcjyXif3T3U
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新備註:「我才不喜歡他」。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAofvQtP09Im
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看著新取的備註,少女的唇角壓抑不住地往上翹。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA8BIpxA8Nf1
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她還在傻笑,一則新訊息突然從底部彈出,對方的訊息竟然主動來了。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAed3lGQn3h4
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祁澈極少主動找她,所以向菱有點驚訝又有點愉悅,她點擊訊息閱讀。74Please respect copyright.PENANAs5pjR0ZW6V
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那封簡訊,簡單直接而且很有他的風格,只有一句「在嗎」,甚至沒有附上標點符號。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAgkfhUkNoxI
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向菱本來打算秒回,但突然想起言恬的話,於是便退出聊天框,刻意延遲了幾分鐘才回覆。74Please respect copyright.PENANAa4SknFNBj9
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……意義不明的舉動,大概只有這麼傻的人才幹得出來。74Please respect copyright.PENANABX0kWJkqBA
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向菱:「在。」74Please respect copyright.PENANAKbkv4HWwRL
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突然有些好奇對方給她取什麼備註。 74Please respect copyright.PENANANWmT50K7xs
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對面的訊息停頓了幾秒,像是在斟酌怎麼開始,然後才發送過來:「你在男生宿舍嗎。」74Please respect copyright.PENANAfXfMO92CxV
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教室換座位之後,向菱還是經常找祁小波玩耍,熟悉之後變得像姊妹一般親暱。74Please respect copyright.PENANAWpCt7aYF4F
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——只是,她很少在宿舍碰到祁澈。74Please respect copyright.PENANAJmvJXShQuW
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想想也對,他似乎極為頻繁的打工。記得某天她路過魚市,碰見他在那裡幫忙一個老人將新鮮的魚隻裝進大袋子。74Please respect copyright.PENANAox5Q3DO7HO
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她知道他每天固定蹺掉的那節午休,都是去給祁小波帶飯的,但這不為其他人知道。74Please respect copyright.PENANA1uxAaqqDza
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向菱回覆:「祁小波感冒了啊,你早上說的,所以我今天沒過去。」74Please respect copyright.PENANAq8MsExLagz
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「怎麼了嗎?」她敲下這行,然後送出。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAzSWKgcivJn
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訊息傳送到網路彼端,很快已讀,接著對方的文字沒幾秒又傳過來,「明天也別去那裡。」74Please respect copyright.PENANAnIKIffldDB
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——向菱不懂他的意思。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA0uSd0bRF63
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她用一隻手指戳出單個符號:「?」74Please respect copyright.PENANAcA1X0F94bO
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這一次,祁澈的訊息許久沒有傳來回覆,久到她差點以為他網路掉線了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAwihMIgN003
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從以前到現在,還是第一次出現這種情況。74Please respect copyright.PENANAlXaoid8nQ3
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她常和祁小波玩,他沒阻止過。她經常去男生宿舍遛達,和小女孩一起亂翻他的東西,他也沒拒絕過。74Please respect copyright.PENANAozgIemHbkS
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向菱有點錯愕,心想這人的態度轉換得有些過快。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAVv6GFuPS3t
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她故作玩笑的發送,「你是被盜號了?」 74Please respect copyright.PENANAnskwGRl9ud
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「沒。」否認得倒還挺快。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA9oNpmTdumB
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「那是怎麼了?我和小波約好明天要去公園盪鞦韆的。」 74Please respect copyright.PENANAGI27KmYxys
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「抱歉。」 74Please respect copyright.PENANAeXT5BDFbtP
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少女打字的手驀地僵住了。74Please respect copyright.PENANAJIJhiQUIsX
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其實她的第一反應是——這傢伙居然會道歉啊?真稀奇。74Please respect copyright.PENANAAqFPMbzxui
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緊接著她的思緒是這樣運轉的:等一下,他真的在道歉嗎?靠,好像是認真的,不對,他幹麼道歉?74Please respect copyright.PENANAoM62WNMIF6
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為什麼要和她說抱歉?74Please respect copyright.PENANA9Jbftx0vld
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一瞬間,她的腦子像是過載了,運轉不過來,甚至倏地空白。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA9GOqPyZjkt
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這算什麼,變相拒絕還是撇清關係? 74Please respect copyright.PENANAa07whFIN1f
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她首先聯想到的是電視上的八點檔連續劇。74Please respect copyright.PENANAxWEGNCs1tz
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對不起我們不要再打擾彼此了、就這樣結束吧、再這樣下去也不會有結果……為什麼她滿腦子都是這種沒梗的俗濫台詞。74Please respect copyright.PENANAzLfPNsiIBA
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突然就慌亂了起來。74Please respect copyright.PENANAoHIm2XpLKH
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但是喜歡一個人的心思,本來就是很敏感的,她知道自己反應不應該這麼大,因為一句抱歉。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAYNM56qQ7OX
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又或者因為失去了一種可能「巧遇」他的機會。74Please respect copyright.PENANAgqSg1h75U2
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少女開始胡思亂想,腦袋一團暴亂。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAYDNjbIgARo
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難道他已經意識到她的喜歡,於是決定開始疏遠她了嗎? 74Please respect copyright.PENANApAShSgpHO1
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她陷入一種莫名的恐慌裡,像是憑空懸浮於半空中,踩不到地板,像是失重。 74Please respect copyright.PENANAhYyIb5oOBJ
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這種感覺,一點都不踏實。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA57ZQ5wG4rF
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窗外陰雨綿綿,烏雲潛伏在暗色裡,連消失都悄然無聲。74Please respect copyright.PENANAkpvlctPUiJ
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隔天是周休,但向菱絲毫開心不起來。74Please respect copyright.PENANAS3oLALbhXn
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她一旦變得鬱悶,就經常直接倒頭就睡,因為現實讓她覺得很累,睡眠做夢反倒是最好的去處。74Please respect copyright.PENANAjgQyATqBZ6
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室友們見慣了她假日睡長覺的習慣,都見怪不怪,放輕了動靜,不驚擾到少女。74Please respect copyright.PENANANqtcSJ2SAI
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她睡得比平時更晚了一點。74Please respect copyright.PENANA0vRi2j2Edm
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下午起床時,她覺得胃臟空得發慌,腳步沉重虛浮,囫圇拆了幾包糖果餅乾了事。 74Please respect copyright.PENANA3ItbdCSfkz
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